Bangin' Against The Wall

What the hell happened to the original posting?!?! Doesn't matter, as long it post nicely i don't care how it looks. So i continue with my daily blog. Woke up early so i can go school early, but in the end had to bring my Grandmother to the wet market. Accompanied her to walk around, learn some tips and tricks to select groceries. Where and how to get the premium vegetables at cheap prices. After that, i brought her home and went on my way to school. The skies don't look that good when i walk to the busstop. Even waiting for the bus the sky is still alright. But as soon as i board the bus, raindrops start falling. Since my bus trip is only 10mins, near the ending, it rained ultra heavily. So i called my groupmates and told them my location and situation. Had to sit at the busstop for 30-40mins. Waited till the rain died down than i continued my journey. Did my project for the rest of the day. Keeping getting stucked at one corner. It was really demoralising but we had to slog through whatever is thrown at us. I even volunteered to re-read some of our past modules so as to finish 1 big part of the project. Man... Self-inflicting stress on myself. Furthermore, today is the day i have to be responsible of the notebook we loaned. It is so heavy!! Like carrying weights walking around. But it does not matter anway... After we parted, i went over to club to rest awhile. Had to accomplish a task set by my Treasurer. After that, i went to meet my VP. Had a 'short' and meaningful conversation with her. She brought her cheesecake and i had the privillege to eat it. Quite nice, maybe its me cause i like cheesecake alot. Also went shopping with her. She wanted to get a VCD. So we walked about and finally she got it. Paid for it and left the shop. Continued to walk around as she wanted to get a pair of earrings. But i advised her that if she spend on that pair of earrings, where is she going to save up money?? In the end, she did not buy and decided to save up on the cash. Accompanied her to the busstop. Hey, at least im a gentleman. Right? Of course, no need to think so much. As soon as seeing her board her bus. I left the busstop and proceeded to mine. Went home in a long bus trip.
 
FYP... The final trial of the Poly days. But its like so diffcult. Keep banging into walls. Hate this feeling. Its like you want to advance but you just can't. So in the end, its like wasting time cramming ur cranium solve something that is too sophisticated to even start out in the first place. ARGHZ!! Its even affecting me when im away from it. But sometimes i wonder how the other previous groups did this. Did they meet the same problem as us? Maybe we doing something that is not our area. Something that is totally new from our course. But we are a group that always want to try new things. Maybe this will be a challenge to us. If we overcome this challenge, to put in our group language, 'Wah... I level up liao.'
 
Stress is bad...

Long Long Day

A long day have passed and i feeling really really tired. Morning attended a lesson late. Not sure whether my attendence is taken or not. After that, a lecture of the same module. The lecturer told the whole class she saw me day in day out but not sure who i am. Finally... Im famous!! After that, i continued my day by doing my FYP project. Had to borrow our notebook by today else we wont be able to get it anymore. So i took sometime to go over the place and get the notebook. After that, we came back and continued our project. Had alot of deep discussions and such. Finally we ended the day and went back home to rest.

Helping people is how i live my life. During my younger years, i will never lose an arm or a leg to help another person. Whether the person is familiar or not. Until the day i met my 1st love. She helped people all the way. She would go through everything to help others in need of help. After breaking up with her peacefully(yes, PEACEFULLY), i learn that helping people is actually very fulfilling for me. When people is in need of help, all they need is a glimmer of hope that somebody will hear their cry and come to give them aid. For me, if i feel that i can only see and hear but cannot do anything. I will feel helpless. One thing in life is to be happy and do happy things. Helping other people and seeing them smile is happiness for me.

Always there 2 Help...

Official Leave from FYP

Today is deemed the official rest day from my FYP. Since everyone is busy from their chosen electives. So after school, we would not meet up to do project but rest from the hustle and bustle of FYP life. Nothing much happened today other than the usual school life. Had to go through boring lessons and still survive to stay awake. Proceeded to my driving school to attend a practice session for my theory test. Went with my classmate since he is going to make a booking for his theory test. He taught me the way to take busses there, very confusing and hard to remember. Maybe i consult him again on the buses to take the following day. He went on to book his test while i continued my way for my practice session. While queueing up for a computer to be assigned to me, i saw this gal that i used to give advice. Remembered her cute face and lovable smile. At first i could not make out her face as the room was rather dark. So i just took a peek once awhile... Caught her looking at me too, maybe she recognises me as the idiot that gave her advices on promoting the school courses. Anyway, she left earlier so i had no chance to walk up to her and maybe chat her up. After that, i took a bus back home. The bus trip was rather long, 30 mins trip. Singapore is so small, and i had to take a 30mins bus trip. At least its much better than my usual way, the latter had to switch transport which is really troublesome. But i sat in a seat that gave me a really good time eveasdropping on a pair of gals from their secondary school. They were talking so loudly, i did not need to concentrate much to listen in to their conversation. They were discussing what they did wrong or right in their exam papers, what they will do after they finish their secondary education to donating 3KG of blood. I got some laugh and some entertainment while on the boring bus trip. But they dropped off early so i had sometime to think through what they discussed. Not long after, i pressed the bell and alight to walk home and have a good rest.

Hearing those 2 gals talking about their exams and such really makes me think of myself when im in that stage. Guys will sit in a group and discuss about our dreams and ambitions. I once told my teacher that i want to create a game that is made in Singapore but played everywhere in the world. That is my dream. She just gave me a very discouraging sentence, 'There are so many games in this world. Why would you want to make another to add on?' I guess she is still in the era that gaming would not be a profitable business. Who cares?!?! As long my dream is fulfilled, i do not care even if the President says my idea sucks. But to think i was in their position when im their age. Looking at them makes me feel that i have alot of experience and can advise them on their next step. But i realise i did not consult anyone when i receive my 'O' level results. I just let my dreams take over and see where i can go to fulfill them as soon as possible. Maybe that is why i ended up doing partly business and partly IT. Now, i have long term goals too. But my goals are not even near my dreams. Maybe my dream will be fulfilled one day. Maybe it will be fulfilled by my children. I'm not sure... Like what some of my friends like to say, 'let nature take its course'.

Dreams become Reality...

Extreme Exhaustion

Still feeling the aftermath of yesterday's outing. Feeling very lethargic the whole day. Start the day by going for a class that teaches us how to write resumes, take minutes and tackle interviews. Spend three hours in a lab that cannot see the screen well. Really sucks to go school and pay so much yet cannot see screen. After lessons, we went for our lunch break. Ate little and went back to our respective com labs to continue our project. Had to slog through work and alot of stress is built thinking of expressing ideas into words. Took breaks in between to freshen up before continuing. Left my groupmates early to meet my financial advisor. He told me and reccomended me a new kind of savings plan where i put in a sum of money monthly to save for long term. But for the short term, im able to take out some money here and there. Alot of math and calculation to be done before i commit to deal. First barrier i have to go through is my parents, they ARE my finance department. So we met and talked like 30mins. After that, i went to collect my photos. Had them developed last week. Since over the weekends had planned activities, had to drag till today to collect. Finally, got to see all the photos i have taken in New Zealand. After that, it was home sweet home to rest and recuperate.


What the hell has happened to me? Why am i so weak? Why i did to make myself so tired? I really have to review on yesterdays' events and see what made me so tired. Luncheon with lecturer, LAN gaming and a steamboat dinner. I still wondering what made me so tired. Am i getting old or am i losing grip on my concentration. Maybe its time i should get some tonic to boost my energy. Any ideas?

Energy boost needed...

Last Minute Outing

Had a really lazy morning, even had a thought of not going to school. But in the end, still crawled out of bed to start my day. First stop was school, met my groupmates to do our FYP project. In the next 4 months, my blog will mostly contain things about my FYP. It is because it takes up alot of my time!! But we did not do much anyway. My lecturer in-charge met us early around 11am for lunch. The school gave each student $5 for an outing with the lecturer. As long there is an outing, it does not matter whether we spend fully the amount given to us. So we had a lunch buffet at a restaurant located in the school. The food was quite good. We had quite a spread, roast beef, satay chicken, fried asparagus with garlic, etc. Our highest hit from the buffet table is the cream puff. Its like enlightenment when you pop one into your mouth. After that, we went back to our labs to continue our FYP project. Did a little bit and went off to join the other classmates for a class outing. Wasted like 20mins thinking of where to go and what to do. So in the end, we splited up into 2 groups. A group of gentlemen and another group of ladies. The ladies went for a Karaoke session. A very long session... The guys, we went over to pool saloon and enjoyed a game of table top ball games. After that, we moved to another location to play a round of LAN gaming. Had quite some fun and really enjoyed my time there. After that, both groups got back together. We wasted another 10-15mins deciding on where to eat. So after alot of discussion and thorough thinking... We decided on eating steamboat and BBQ at Marina South. Feel very funny that we took Monday like another normal saturday. Played and enjoyed ourselves like nobody's business. To add insult to injury, we are all doing our FYP. How 'stressful' that is... Ate, drink and took photos till late. Had to share a cab with 3 other friends to go home as we are all too tired to take other forms of public transport.

Logically speaking, this shouldn't be the way. What i expect today was a trip to Johor Bahru. I even brought my passport to go pass the Customs. In the end, it was striked off and we had to replan on the spot. Not my kind of class outing where we seperated ourselves into 2 groups. Do 2 different things and join back again for another event. I rather we plan one big event, spend the whole day there and do everything togethr. At least everything.... As im sure when you have more than 10 pple, its very difficult to get all to participate in the same event. But this outing have brought me closer to my other classmates. We have joked and laughed and really crapped everything under the sun. Even though im like not really the fun kind when it comes to studies and lessons, they accepted me as their classmate and their friend. They don't punch me, scold me for fun and disturb me like they do to the others. But i can see that when im with them, they would ask me along and they would think of my well being. Very happy to have them as classmates, even happier to have them as friends.

So very tired...

Return of the SuperHero!!

1st week have ended so fast. Five days of school have finally ended and im now waiting for the time to go into the weekends. As i wait slowly, i shall dictate my events today. Morning was really cool as the early morning had a slight shower. Good thing i brought an extra piece of clothing. The lab that i was using to do my project is freezing. It was rather slack as we are in the weekend mood and most of us are not really in the mood of doing the work. So we just spent our time doing little stuff and really is just organizing work to the others. After that, we seperated and went our own ways. A couple of us went over to our classmates and discussed where to go for our class outing. We decided on going across the Causeway. Going to the state to enjoy our time there. But i wonder, will we tire ourselves out and be unable to attend classes the next day? Who cares man?!?! Left them and followed my Treasurer(yes, she is my group mate) to the club. She had to settle some finance paperwork. So i follwed her around and accompanied her everywhere. After that, we helped our friend to sell popocorn. It was placed in a transparent cup and the popcorn is soft. Not really nice... What do you expect for a big cup of popcorn for 50cts? Left my Treasurer in the club after that because her main motive is to settle the paperwork and wait for someone, someone special. Went over to my friend's place to develop photos. He is an elderly that have been in the photography biz for like 30years. A very friendly and nice guy. Handed over 4 rolls of film. He look at me shocked and ask me whether i want it in 1 day time. I told him to take his time and i will get from him as soon as he finishes it. After that i receive a call from my VP. She is meeting me to collect some stuff she left with me. Was actually wanting to walking around and see what have changed, but i guess the only thing that change was my event timetable. So after putting down the phonecall, i quickly took a bus and went over to meet her. Passed her everything, had a conversation over a cup of lemonade. Waited for another friend so that we can go catch a movie together. She came just in the nick of time. Left my VP and went to the cinemas. Went to watch Spiderman 2. A great movie, quite good storyline. But i guess the sequel is alot more about his lovelife rather than his battles against the enemy. After the movie, i brought her to the nearby food centre to have dinner. Since its quite late, most of the stalls are closed. Had to settle for a small selection of choice. Ate and chatted. Had a good time with her. Got to know her even more. Went back home together and seperated after i reach my stop on the train.

Are human beings always changing? Why do people get together today, talk and laugh till tomorrow but shun each other the next day? Can we have like a group of friends that we will always stay together forever? I guess that will be always a fantasy. Life will be ever changing. Some of my friends can even forget about me. Am I that unpopular to not stay in your mind? I guess us humans just see what is important and who are close to us at the momment. The other friends we will just meet once awhile. Maybe friends that are close to us currently will help us to accomplish tasks on hand easier. My childhood friends are really not that close. We ran all around the neighbourhood and enjoyed our time together. Will never forget the times we had. But now? Im going into my 3rd year, one of them is studying in the 2nd year and the other is going army or at army now. Went into Boys' Home(juvenile type of prison) when we were still in High School. Time have really changed us.

Power of time...

My Ultimate Dream

Today don't have the feeling of blogging. I shall keep it short. My dream is to create a world-class game that everyone will play and enjoy. Know that it is made in Singapore and make Singapore known to the world as another hub. A gaming hub.

Showcrap 2004

Really a busy day today. Woke up early for a lesson that starts at 9am in the morning. Went for lessons for the whole day and atteneded a talk. Today was rather special. It was my school's showcase. Showcasing 100 best projects and assignments done by our students. Get to see alot of different projects and works in the labs. The talk was rather boring, about all kinds of security for IT. Didn't knew that IT needed so much security. Maybe the more its being researched, we must spend the same amount of time and money to think of ways to keep it secured. Maybe there is an untapped market for another kind of IT security that is not discovered yet. Let the future unfold itself and we will see. Club was where i went after everything ended. Met up with my clubmates for dinner. Somewhat like a farewell dinner for our Main Committee in the club. Went to Fish & Co. for dinner. Ordered 2 big dishes and 1 small one. Even though it was like quit alot, but i did not fill my stomach fully. Guess im a big eater at night. I do not wish to elaborate any further as it might hurt the other's feelings. After that, we took some photographs using the camera i brought. Went over to Plaza Singapura to grab a couple of drinks. Walked about the complex and talked awhile before heading home. Reason: some of them are tired and one of them needs to work. So i went back with one of them, boarded the train together. I dropped off early. Since i was still hungry, i went over to a nearby coffeeshop(eatery equivalent) to have some food. Had indian rojak, if i have the time i will explain what this dish contains. Rest and watched TV at the coffeeshop and headed back home soon after.

Today was the day where ICT students get to show off thier projects to the rest of the world. All the best projects were put on exhitbition. Looking at all these, i realise that the school is actually trying to sell thier students to the industry rather than wait for the companies to buy them. So i wonder... Are they trying to make sure that their top students get a job ASAP when they graduate? Or are they trying to seperate the good students that are good at these projects and the rest that are just an average joe? Than i wonder why in the first place we all study the same poly, the same course and get the same diploma when we are marketed differently? I guess the school is making a name of themselves and hoping that the industry is mainly hiring SP students. I guess when you are a private tertiary institution, you have to think like an organization sometimes.

School admin sucks...

Day 2 of Torture

Okie... I admit, the title does not fit the entry. But its the truth. The whole truth. Nothing but the truth. Woke up early to attend a driving lesson. Had lots of dun driving a car. After that, i went back home to rest and eat. Updated my portable MP3 player before heading to school. Started everything from scratch. Had to plan the system layout, the users and what they can do or interact with the system. Sat there to finish the job until late. The process we had laughter and arguments, but we had things done. The way i see it, we are progressing rather good. So we ended late, had food late. Before i started my FYP, i had a message from my VP. She came to school for a meeting. So i promised her i meet her after my meeting. But in the end, we never met up. Her meeting ended quite late. Therefore i went on my own to continue my day alone.

With great power comes with great responsibility. This quote comes from one of my favourite comic hero, he is fast, strong, swings around the concrete jungle and is extremely agile. Yes... He is Spiderman. For his case, his powers are to be handled with great responsibility. So for a lowly person like me, what is my great power? Does that mean i do not have a great responsibility to handle? I have been taught of responsibility since i joined the Scouts in my secondary school days. Every action i do will have a little responsibility to handle. Im trained to take responsibility no matter how big or small. So does that make me a responsible person? Can people believe that im a very responsible person? I doubt so... I think that you must be given a great power before you can think of the great responsibility.

Responsible to oneself...

1st Day of School

Today was the first day of school. For some, it is the start of their Poly life. Some, continuation of their Poly life. And some... Well... We can't seem to get out as soon as possible. Had to report to school early for a briefing. In the end, the lecturer was late. What the hell was i doing so early in school anyway. But it was a good way to see all the course mates in one room. My group got together once more. We ate breakfast together and talked about our holiday stuff. Met my friend that went overseas for attachment. Not much change but still a good friend. After breakfast, we met our PTN. He is a lecturer that is in-charge of our FYP. Hope we have a good time with him. One more thing, the school Administration Department had a hidcup or something. I was robbed of my innocence. Last week i checked my timetable and i was in 3A/01. This morning i checked again i was posted to 3A/02. And i booked my driving lesson way before. So i had to skipped lesson today and attend my driving lesson. What a way to start the 1st day of school, skippping lessons. After that, i went back to my father's office to help out. Spent the rest of the day there.

School have not changed much since we ended 2 months ago. I guess i have been going back to school for so long i don't really notice the difference. Just last week, i went back every single day. But all i know is that the whole school(not the entire institution) is covered by posters. Posters of 'ICT Showcase'. Im like in so awe... But i dun have the feeling of exhibiting my wares. And the feeling of skipping lesson on the 1st day is not what i wanted. Maybe that is how Mondays should be...

Getting stressed soon...

L is for Lonely

Woke up really really early... Actually to see Holland crash out of the competition is really not very entertaining. But the soccer match is really exciting. Continue to sleep for awhile and wake up later to prepare for school. This time i went straight to my school instead of going to the clubroom. The students are scrambling to get to thier classes to retrieve their cans and prepare for thier voluntary work outside. We just assisted in crowd control and guiding lost sheeps. After that, i went out with my VP, Treasurer and Logistics Head for breakfast. Ate duck rice(duck meat with rice and cucumbers). My VP require to withdraw money to pay for her mobile bills. Since i'm more close to my VP, i brought her to the bank and we went together. She PASSED me her bank book for safekeeping. So after getting the money, she paid for her bills. She kept complaining that she is getting broke. But im sure she have another source of 'income'. Went back to school to discuss about the future posts of our club. Settled on the people and continued with our day. Went back to our school to help out in the fund raising. Sort out the coins and the notes and such. Had quite fun and tire ourselves out. In the end, we went out for dinner together. Met another guy from another club. So we ate Long John Silver for dinner. Had a filling dinner and rest and laughed out loud. Literally... Had the whole restaurant looking at us. Near the end of the day, we left the restaurant and took the way home. My VP had this sudden craving for ice-cream. So we had ice-cream and she bought one for me. Maybe for owing too much, she repay me by buying me ice-cream. Why... Why not other things but ice-cream... Haha... So we ate on the steps of the biggest shopping centers in Singapore. Ice-cream finished we went home straight.

Getting lonely soon... As the time ticks away, we the seniors of the club is seperating our ways. Half of us is leaving school for Internship Attachment(ITP). The other half is staying in school to start our Final Year Project(FYP). Im actually gonna miss the days we have together and hope that time stays still and not move. I do not want to gradutate that fast. I still want to have fun. Fun of just planning and organising events. Fun of participating in events and making lots and lots of friends. Fun of just enjoying and not care what will happen tommorrow. That kind of fun is leaving me as we speak(or read). But i think it another way, at least i used to had this much fun. That means i did not waste my life in the club. Something to comfort myself. Somthing to keep in my heart... Always...

Lonely not forever...

Leave Another Day

Not been blogging recently... Due to the stress level im having and the activities im involved, im getting exhausted very fast. Today was the continuation of the FOP week. All of us club members are tired but we can see that we did enjoy the activity together. Hardwork and all will pay off. Only some things can be applied on that but im sure this is one of them. So today was just to let the Freshmen get familiar with the computer system in our school. So there is alot of obstacle here and there but we got through all in the end. I even have to lead lost sheep back to their classes. A tiring job, but somebody got to do it. After that, i had lunch with my VP, Treasurer and the upcoming club member. Had quite a good conversation and a satisfying lunch. Been 2 months not eating at Foodcourt 6. After that, we went back to MLT 12 and dismissed from then. Most of my clubmates went home or went out but i stayed on with my VP and another 2 more clubmates. Brought one of them to the Police Department, to report on a lost radio. We didnt went in so we waited outside. Since he took quite long, we went our way to get some chocolates and i went on to back some cash. Man, am i unlucky or what. I've been using the cash deposit machine for 2 years and this is the first time i get a jammed machine due to my notes. Are my money that rough to jam a machine? I had to make a report to the lady inside the bank and wait for my money to be deposited the next morning. Went back to meet up with my friends and we went to get some chocolates for the FOP. After that, we went to a coffee shop to get some R&R. Ordered some drinks and food to accompany us. Had a great conversation with one of the quietest member in the club. He did quite alot in the FO camp and was really not noticed. After that, we parted as the others had plans for the evening. I went to my one of my buddies place to retrieve a Harddisk (HDD). My club's HDD. It went bonkers or something. After that, i headed home.

Finally, we can put all our worries and handover the control to the next batch of clubmembers to inherit the club. I don't really have somebody in mind to like put in. Usually the previous post holders will propose someone and everyone will vote for it. I don't really have the power to veto any votes and propose somebody for the posts. What i can do is, think whether is the person they choose up for the post. Are they mentally and physically ready for all the work that is to be done. Are they able to handle the stress that comes with it. Im not in the position to say this much but i wonder... Did the previous batch, my seniors, thought of all this when they chose us? Did that thought ran through their minds when they were doing the voting? I, myself, is already thinking so much. I wonder what is on the minds of the post holders. Are they as worried as me? Maybe its the feeling of finally finding another 'home' to belong to. Long time ago, left a 'home' i spent almost 6 years there. Been finding another place to belong to. After really feeling like 'home', i realise its time to move out and move on again. I have a sense of belonging to the club and i don't feel like leaving. Maybe that is why i don't understand what my seniors told me when i met them. Never have feelings with the club, its like a relationship. It's filled with happiness and lots of other emotions when you are with them. But once you are about to leave, the sadness and grief starts to creep up on you.

Place called 'home'...

Another Busy Day

Woke up 9am sharp. Had breakfast and watched some TV. Missed local TV. Played some games on my PS2 and enjoyed the music on my PC. Planned out my day and set off during the early afternoon. Went to the arcade to splash out cash and get some serious entertainment. Its been awhile since i visited the place. Saw one guy playing a game and sat there like forever. I think he have spend so much money and time on that game till he memorise the whole gaming environment. I left the arcade and went on to get a haircut. Kinda hate my hair, not that it does not look good. But it grows back too fast. My friends have a haircut like 2 times a month, i do it once a month. And im like paying so much for each haircut. To maintain a short and neat hairstyle maybe that is the way to go. Ate lunch quite late, and proceeded to attend a meeting with the Singapore Computer Society (SCS) members. My clubmate joined in the discussion. Did quite alot of planning and discussion and went on for like very very long. Went our own ways soon when we ended the meeting.

Recognition in the society. Will anyone know about me, Koh Aik Keong, when im in my 20s or 30s? Will people talk about me when they have no topic to talk about? Will there be more people knowing me dan me knowing more people? That is what went through my mind when im travelling around today. Our Prime Minister, sure everyone knows him. But does he knows me? That is the most important part. Myabe not all people like recognition, some people like to do things without getting any recognition. They just like to help and be happy. Im sometimes the former and the latter. I like to do things so that people can recognise me and say that im the one that did this, im that famous guy that did that. Also, i like to do things that no one ever knows who did it and thank the nameless. I not sure why i feel like this... But getting too recognise is also a problem. Eg. A SG man won $250K in 'Who Wants to be A Millionaire' gameshow. 2 weeks later, some guy went to find him to loan him $50k to pay for his medical bills. More and more ran after him for money. So is that good or bad?

Recognition: Good? Bad?

I'm BACK!!

After 10 days on unblogging, i realise my blog have lost a lot of content. I'm not sure how to summarise the past few days but i just try. Went to New Zealand for a holiday trip with my relatives. Toured the towns and cities, they sure know how to live and use their excess land. Driving around the country, i have seen countless cows, sheeps and horses. Guess they are a country of westerners with a living style of the countryside. After ariving back to Singapore, i went back to school for my club's Freshmen Orientation Camp(FO). Helped around as much as possible, didn't knew what was happening so i just crashed through and put my thinking on my feet. Almost went into the point of exhaustion, but realise that if that happens the camp might not be complete. Really appreciated my seniors to come down to help or take a look around the camp. I still feel kind of unhappy that the Year1s took advantage of using people that are there. A long story and a sensitive issue. I really do hope my seniors forget about it as soon as possible. And lastly, i do hope my Year1s learn something out of this camp. They the organisers have been under alot of pressure and i do understand the feeling. I am in their shoes once. Planned for a 'club bonding' camp. Alot of hardwork, blood, sweat and tears(no tears actually...) is put in that camp. After the whole camp, the organisers realised most of their mistakes. I believe in 'Learning by Making Mistakes', it's a sure win effective way to learn life skills.

After so many days of not sleeping home, i actually missed my pillow like the last few times i went overseas for long. New Zealand was fun, but the living costs and the transportation costs are very high. Especially in the Capital city. I ate lunch in one of the towns and just see whether how long i can survive there. You do the calculation.
(Conversion -- SGD 1.15 = NZD 1):

1) Net use in the internet cafe is charged 10mins $2, 15mins $3, 30mins $4, 1hr $5, subsequent hour or less are charged $2.50. And the 1st 2 mins are free.

2)A plate of a burger, a small portion of salad and fries cost $9.50. Curry beef and rice cost the same amount and its not spicy, just curry powder, milk and beef to make the curry. Burger King meals are charged at $6-7 for a normal meal. But the good thing is free flow of drinks.

3) Parking in the Cpaital City, 1hr $4. In towns, 1hr $2.

Just see the exhorbitant prices there i'm kinda shocked. Maybe its just our currency not strong enough to go against the NZD.

Lastly, i want to emphasise the bond i have with my clubmates. After a year of planning, organinsing and executing events, i have a bond with them. I really feel like a family when im with them. Even though we have our ups and downs, we went through it. I can feel the bond with them and i can see that we care for each other. I get to be called a molester, a pervert, a sex maniac and a whole lot more. The names don' hurt me, but the i feel that we got closer when they did that. Just today, i saw the most tounching scene in my life i have dedicated to the club. My clubmates, my best girl-friends, they on the spot dropped a tear or two infront of me. Im like... 'Arghz!!! 1 girl and im crazy, 3 girls together!!' Im a sucker and a loser when girls cry, just cannot take it when a gal cry. The highest ranked weapon ever wielded since the creation of the 2nd human being. I go weak when i see this...

Lastly, i want to end this long summary by saying thank you to the 5 beautiful ladies that gave me laughter, sadness, anger, watever feelings that is noted in the dictionary. Had an amazing time with them. Never a dull momment. If you ladies are reading this. I would like to say thank you for all the help, care and concern you have given me. I will treasure the times with had and i will always remember the 5 gals and a (perverted) guy.

Thank you all...

Finally!!

Its been 2 days and 3 nights since i last blogged. Something happened to the blogger server machine. So the history on that few days will not be recorded here. TO sum it up, i did 3 main things:

1) settle whatever important stuff on hand
2) met up friends to catch up on old times and drink like crazy
3) preparations for my trip

So nothing much happened anyway. Other than im afraid that my passport cannot pass, my sis and her friend are worried that i might not come back after my trip, my club's FO trial run and im missing the action and finally my VP getting sick. Praying all the while for her being well. So currently now im doing the final preparations. Waiting for time to tick away slowly before my flight. Another trip, another adventure...

I really wished i could go overseas every holiday season. But usually when i go, i have this feeling that i won't be back to see all my friends again. Just difficult to describe the feeling but its something that has haunted me since my secondary school days. I still cannot figure out why im so afraid when im an adventurous and risk-taking idiot. Im used to surviving alone, i wonder why am i so afraid of that. Maybe that is my deepest fear. Fear of the disability of getting home. If that ever happens... Maybe i have to learn how to survive at the place.

Miss my friends...

Singapore Fake Idol

Another normal day like any other holiday. All it starts with is boring. Had nothing much to do in the morning. Used the com to search some songs to download. Spend the whole morning downloading stuff. Even downloaded a movie, Shrek 2. After that, i went to buy lunch. Had prata again. Watch TV while eating. Nothing much is on free TV, so had to tune in to cable. MTV channel is the most entertaining during noon time. Lots of non-stop hits. Went back to room soon after and watched the movie i downloaded earlier. Shrek 2 ended in 1.5hrs time. Went swimming as there was nothing much to do. Bathed and watched The Simpsons again. One of my favourite cartoons. After that, i changed and went to Clementi to enjoy a session of Karaoke. Ate and sang and enjoyed myself. Made some new friends there, even sent one of them home!! Haha... Actually she is living nearby and we shared the cab fare. Went home straight after her place.

During the weekends, SG Idol registration opened. There are actually people queuing up before the day to submit their registration. Are we Singaporeans really that naive? Do we really think we have what it takes to be a star? I admit that is one way to gain your ten seconds of fame, but queueing up overnight for registration? I mean just look at some of our local singers. Ah Du is a construction worker, Sun Yanzi is a normal girl that graduate from our local university. Tanya Chua used to sing at pubs. They are now international stars. Neither needed any queuing up to be talent-spotted. Okie, maybe your singing is good. But that does not mean you will enter the real judges audition. Im sure out of these few hundreds, there will be bound to have some very good ones and some... Well, William Hung must have influenced them badly.

Waiting to fly...

A Badminton Game

Nothing much happen today too, other than buying stuff for my club and playing badminton afterwards. Yah, these are the two major things that happened today. Morning woke up to the sound of construction work. Those machinery sure knows how to make a ruckus. Ate breakfast soon after and packed my bag for the game later. On my way to school, i went to the nearby hardware shop to get some tools and a canvas sheet. The auntie was really nice. She gave me a discount on everything that was bought there. So after the shopping, went straight to school. Met the Treasurer and Welfare Officer there, they were doing some admin stuff. I had to proceed to the SALC (a place for free access of computer) to send a final edited version of my FYP. After that, i joined the rest for lunch. Since going to have a game later, i decided to have a energy enriched banana. I wonder what is so funny eating a banana... But im used to the mysteries of life. Had a game of badminton with my clubmates. Played really hard and sweated. halfway through the game, my skinny sista came over to find us. She asked us whether she and some friends could use the our place for some souvenir thingie. Borrowed the keys from my Treasurer and she used the place till we were back. Rested for awhile and talked about stuff for the FO (Freshmen Orientation) camp. Went home after the game. Stop by the same hardware shop to purchase some nuts and bolts and a spanner. Preparing to repair that trolley in club. Handing over the club have to keep it in tip-top shape, that is the least i can do.

I liked and dislike holidays. Liked, being free and easy. No stress and no pressure of school work. Dislike, being too free and easy. Cash strapped as entertainment outside in the city is not cheap. But holidays don't come easy. They are considered hard-earned. After months of slogging in school, studying and planning for events. I guess its the government way of giving us a break. Lets face it, during our secondary school, we are sent to school so much earlier than the normal workers going to work. Even we go home earlier than normal workers, we have our high speed, high paced life with extremely stressful living to survive. Wonder how did i ever survived that. Anyways, im looking forward to my trip to New Zealand. Hope after going there, everything will be back to normal.

Holidays are nice...

Thinking of thoughts

Nothing much happend today. Whole day was spent at home, almost the whole day. Morning woke up and had breakfast. Soon after, chatted with my VP. We talked awhile before she left me just like that. Kinda stunned and stumped. So i continued my day. Played some games, catch on some of the old games that i used to love and devote myself. Near the evening, i went for a swim. Water was not cold, it was kinda warm... Maybe the air caused the water to be warm. Hate swimming in warm water. Bathed and came back in time to catch another episode of The Simpsons. My favourite character: Homer Simpson. Looking how stupid and fat he is, why does he always have such good luck. Go check out the Simpsons family. A queer family that usually come out good. After that was more games and playing. I played until i discovered some bugs. Guess im too devoted to the game. After that, i chatted with my frens and while the night away.

Usually when i have nothing much to do, i will keep myself in deep thoughts. I will think of alot of things. My future, my dreams, my friends, my close friends, etc. Alot of things goes through my mind and gets processed. If i ever got the chance to blog all that goes through my head. I think i will fill up the server soon. Haha... Okie, that is too much. But i like thinking. Silently my mind will conjure alot of imagination and fantasy that will only live in there. Hopes and dreams will visualise only if i strife for them. Past memories and experiences make me wonder why i never experienced them earlier to prevent such a mistake. Thinking why friends react such a way during such situations, learning from their correct moves and mistakes. Sometimes its tiring to think so much. I respected once of my Chinese Language teacher (the only one i respect anyway...) when i was in secondary school. He told me, if you think more than you do, you will achieve great things.

Thinking is tiring...

Vesak Day Celebration

Another boring public holiday. Day where life goes on without any surprises or motives. Started by having breakfast at the West Coast Park (WCP) Macdonald's. The place was spacious and very comfortable. I always liked WCP, for its serenity and calmness. Usually the crowd will gather during the weekends and public holidays. So today is no different either. Had to queue up long for food, and the search for a place is bloody difficult. Anyway, breakfast was kinda like a mad rush. Not really enjoyable. Nearing the early afternoon, my parents and i seperated. My dad complained of neck strain and stiff shoulders. So he went for a massage. Ask for my comments on which shop is better... Im like com'on, do i look like visit such parlour? So i followed my mum to the grocery store. We bought our monthly neccessities. Yes, monthly. Each time we go there, we will fill the trolley to the brim. Once we even filled up two trollies. So we carried the stuff back home by the mid-afternoon. Reach home, unpacked all the food and stuff. I continued the day by sitting infront of my monitor. Talked with my VP the whole afternoon till she logged off to rest her eyes. Keep posting her fun facts that either made her laugh or made her disgusted and scolding me crazy. But its facts, as if what i told her are lies. During the conversation, we even shared links on what designs for our blog. But in the end, i realise i rather stick with the old one. Can't even solve my own problem of putting links on the blog. Played games till my uncle came over. He brought me the 3 episodes of LOTR. I guess soon im gonna have a marathon of LOTR. Anybody want to join me??

Im still wondering why holidays are still so boring. Only holidays such as Chinese New Year, Christmas, New Year's Day & public holidays that falls on a Sunday. Why the last one is so special? As the Singapore Government had set in donkey years time, if a holiday falls on a Sunday the following monday will be a holiday too. Thats why i like such holidays. But TV is getting more and more cheapo. The news have just finished announcing who won the Ms. Universe and they are showing the pageant. Isn't that killing thier viewership?? Anyway, Ms. USA is a real blonde, dumb looking blonde. Ms. Aussie is B-E-A-U-tiful!! I would like to get 'down' and 'under' with her. Haha... But i guess, its just the way how cable TV earns thier money. If we the younger generation, the generation with the most spending power, cannot be attracted to TV. I wonder where will the advertisers go after? Retirement folks that got their CPF and have nothing to spend? Hmm... I wonder...

Faithless in TV...

Brand New Day

Have quite a good time today. Well... Not much enjoyable as its suppose to... Woke up early to meet my frens in school. Had to plan for an event. Ate before leaving school. Then, i left my friends to join another gang. They were meeting for a movie session. The people is not really the group i hang out with, therefore my main motive is just to catch the movie. Met them a little late as i left school late. Met them soon after... But the situation is that im more like a porter, as one of them after the movie have to rush off for camp. Carried her bag and walked towards the cinema. In the end, even my most dependable friend is taken away from me. I had to bear the loneliness. We did talk later after the movie, but it is because the other ladies are in the toilet. But i appreciate it much. They suggested to go Fish & Co. for dinner, but i just cannot afford. My money are trapped with my Treasurer. I therefore had to leave them. But telling them that i cannot afford and such, and also my reason to leave is that the ambiance is not right. Good food must be enjoyed with great friends. Wrong combination as my VP said it... So i left early and went home to drink my Grandma's soup.

Keeping one's word. I realise that what you say may not actually be what you do. You can say one thing, but do the other. My dad says us guys must be a man of our words. What we say, we must be able to do. Even if you are not able to fully do it, at least try and reach the goal. I dislike people that say one thing but does the other. Its really no point when there is no trust in your words. Rather that you eat back the words than just saying it out for the sake of it. Action speaks louder than words. I can admit that i dun use words to express myself well, but my action are my true self. If i give a girl, a bouquet of flowers. Im really intrested in that girl. That is my true self. I realise i studied so much yet my use of words can never be put to good use.

Please Forgive me...

Heartland Shopping

Had to drag myself off bed to prepare for the day ahead. Wash up and changed into outdoor clothing. Packed my bag for a shopping trip and a badminton game. In the end... We just went for a shopping trip. 1st stop, the girls went for lunch. Paid for their drinks. Maybe they will repay me later with better stuff?? I think im dreaming. After that we start our shopping. Went to the pharmacy to buy first aid items. Had a budget to follow, kinda tight so we had to really make sure our money are spent fully. Next, we went over to the neighbourhood bookstore to get some shuttlecocks, white paper and some colouring pens. After that, the club needed a new fan. The big kind with a big propella that really gives alot of blowing power. So we went to get one for the club. Carrying such heavy stuff, we went back to the club to unload the stuff. After that, we went over to Turf City. The gals, VP, Logistics Head & Treasurer, never went to Turf City before. Since my previous job was there, i brought them over to have a look around. The starting wasn't really nice as they had to wait for the bus. 30mins interval, my VP began to feel bored. Written all over her face. We board the bus as soon as it arrives and reach TC by the late afternoon. Walked about and took a look around. Since our motive is to get some masking tape and raffia string (plastic ropes), but the masking tapes were too expensive and the raffia string was damn small. We gave up on TC and suggested to follow my VP advice. A shopping centre near her place sells handicrafts and stationery cheap. Continue walking about and bought some food to fill my Treasurer and myself. After that, we took the same ride home. Seperated ourselves when we reached the train station.

Today was not a long day. We spent some quality time together. I realise that i have spent alot of time with them. My clubmates are more than friends to me. Now they somewhat my closest friends i ever have. Other than the biker friends, they can be considered my second closest friends. Heck, i spent more time with the latter compared to the formal. But sometimes they neglect me, keep secrets from me and form outing among themselves that i will never know. But i understand. They do need their gal time too. Somethings i just don't fit in even im too used to female company. Sometimes i don't think that way. I look at the situation in only one way. But i always look things on the positive side. Even death have a positive side. When looking at these positive sides, it made things alot more acceptable and enjoyable.

Friends arn't forever...

Notes 2 Life

Just want to add this entry as the past 2-3 days i did not blog. Nothing much happen. Just went for a date on Thurs and a club outing on Friday evening. We went for steamboat. After that was a bowling tournament with them. Not all of them of course. Went home early next morning... Real early...

Thats about it... What about the weekends you say... Well... If you are a newbie reader, than maybe you shud know something. I don't blog on weekends. Somewhat like a worker, 5days a week is all i do. Something to know about it too... I blog at the last event of the day. The momment before i sleep and after i brushes my teeth. So the dates might be a little screwed up. But heck it, i don't care. What matters most is the entry and the content right?

Im Loving IT...

Home Sweet Home

Today is a boring day but a savings day for me. I spent the whole day at home. Nothing much happens except the plot of land adjacent to my home is finally starting to have some construction. The weather was hot, then cooling, then hot again. Stayed indoors whole day. Ate and played the whole day. Time passed really fast eh... Dinner was eaten at home as Grandma was at home cooking some of my favourite dishes.

I realised how mess this house was today. Especially my room, i have not packed my room since the start of this millennium. My robots are having dust more than 10cm thick! Maybe i should take some time to clean all this up. Cleanning up... Ya, like i'll do it...

Slacking like hell...

Cest La Vie...

Woke up late as i slept late. Sleep on the same day as i wake up on the same day. Confusing but true. Ate something as i watched TV. Went for a bath as the weather is very hot. Prepared for outing as there is a briefing on a camp coming this June. Left home in the early afternoon. Reached school soon after. Went into my club room and its too late. The briefing is done. Everything is finished. Practically i just went there to pay the participant fee. I left with my clubmates(Main Comm). Went to our school bakery to get some snacks. The girls had some quarrel and i didn't knew what was happening. I think it must be trival matters. They were dressed casually. So i knew something was not right. My intuition was right. They went for a chalet without me... Either way, the organisers of the chalet either forgot about me or they did not want me to go. Since im not invited, might as well play along with their plot. Don't wish to crash bash a happy place eh... They waited for a person to pick them up. I know that person. So i left them to avoid rumours. Alone, i ate my lunch at Clementi. After lunch, i went back home. Continued my work on the proposal. Had to finish it ASAP. Watched some TV while snacking. Afterwards, i retreated to my room. Continue where i have left off in the fantasy world of a book.

Im not sure whether the words for my title is spelled correctly. It means thats life in french. In life, there is alot of surprises. That is why life is so exciting. Always so challenging. Never a dull momment. Am i talking in a way to comfort myself? Heck, sometimes these surprises are just too much for me. I may have a heart attack if there are too much. I can handle certain surprises, but some are too much for me to handle alone. I need to talk to somebody about this. Usually i would find a friend. But which one? 'You have so many friends. So which one is really one that you can trust and find whenever you need help?' This is what my 2nd ex told me when we are together. Hope she is fine now. I never thought of that situation before. Having a really good friend. I just concentrated on having as much friends as possible. I realised my mistake. A mistake that will affect my entire life from then on. I hate it if i treat a friend like a buddy, telling him/her everything and in the end, he/she is not the one. If only i can find one friend i can call buddy...

Mystery of Life...

Free & Easy

Morning had a slight shower. Hoping it would last long so i can sleep through the morning. In the end, the rain only lasted around 15mins. What a letdown... Drag myself out of bed and went to do my daily routine. Prepared for later outing. Wore a shirt that i wore only twice. Went out in late morning to school to retrieve a file. Got hold of it, and went on to continue my day. Met my sister and her childhood friend (piggy). Before meeting them, i ate at Bugis foodcourt. The lady overcharged me and the food sucks. I did not finish it. Had to made do with some of it and a can of drink. Met up soon after, we talked and catch up on things. They went for their attachment, a kind of test that puts the student on the actual line of work. Of course they have to be paid... Else how real can it be? Both of them were either complaining on how hard their work is or telling me what other odd job they are told to do. I just listened in and told them my comments. Piggy had to leave early as she had a birthday celebration with her brother. Her bro's birthday is today. We went across the road to get some apple strudel. She left early for home. It only leaves me and sis alone. We walked our way to another MRT station. Talked alot more as the last time we got together was really a long time ago. Just talk and walk. Maybe its just that we are just too compatible as brother and sister. She dropped off earlier than me on the train. Continued my journey home.

How far would i go for a friend? A simple question that can have infinite answers. It had to depend. If that friend is just an aquitance, that most probably i won't do much for him. The furthest i would do anything for a friend would definitely be my VP. We have so much in common together. That would be a lie if i told it infront of her. But i don't mind losing an arm for her. Eh... That is just too much. Maybe a lie or two would be the most. Why would i do so much for her?? Well, we are good friends. I know her inside out. Literally not physically, think the former not the latter. Another to add on the list would be my sister and brother. Both so close to me therefore i will do my best to help them. I don't mind donating my kidney to my brother or cutting up half of my liver for my sis. They are the people that makes my life entertained.

Far Further Furthest...

You Drive me Car-azy

I survived!! Finally... It all happened this morning. Went to the driving school to attend a practice session before i went for my Eval test. It was grueling but it pays off. I took the practice papers over and over again. I think i did each paper at least 3 times. Haha... Rested for 15mins before i went for the Eval. Went in, click click... Since both practice and Eval are PC based, it was rather fast. I finished my Eval in 15mins. Scored 80/80!! FULL MARKS!! So now i can apply for the test. But that will only take place on 8th june. A very long way from now. For celebration, i went over to Jurong Point for lunch. Bought tickets for evening movie. Ate a big plate of Chicken Chop with black pepper sauce. Delicious... Lingered around the shopping centre till the next lesson. Really tired... Almost fell asleep in the classroom. But thanks to the Instructor, he made the class lively and that helped in waking me up. After the lesson, i met up with my brother and we went for a movie. Rent a book before the movie. After the movie, we went for dinner. After dinner, we went to a store where my brother tried his luck on some miniature figurines. Not bad, he got what he wanted. We went home via bus soon after.

Really tired. Don't know what to blog for thoughts today. I think my mind's a blank now. Maybe after the weekends, i may have something new again.

Eyes wide shut...

Driving My Life

Had lessons at the driving school today. Went early to do some practice for a pre-exam. The school rules goes this way, you must pass an evaluation test before going for the real exam. This is a good way, but i find it rather troublesome. Having to pass 2 exams to get a Provisional Driving License (PDL). With that PDL, i am legally able to drive a car. Spent the whole day there. Had lunch at a nearby Macdonald's. Went back to the school to attend the lesson. Part of the whole course requires us to attend 5 lessons. 2 Basic Theory and 3 Advanced Theory lessons. I have completed the 2 basic and 1 advanced. Going for the final 2 lessons soon. After that, i met up with my Brother to browse around in Clementi. Went to bank in some money afterwards and realised i have only 2 digits before the decimal. Feel the pinch getting harder and harder...

I dedicate this holidays specifically for learning how to drive a car. I want to drive a car legally before the end of my 1st month of school. Hope everything goes smoothly for me. But seriously, if i were to really drive a car. The first person i wan to pickup is my parents. Time i return the favour of them driving me around. After that, i want to bring my sis to eat at nightspots around my area. She have been craving for the prata near my home. After that, im going to bring my friends around in a car. I kinda pormised my VP i drove her around. At least she knew a friend that drives so that she can stay up late and still be able to reach home. I want to drive so i can use the car when i go out at night. Sometimes a car would do alot of convenience to me. No waiting for busses, no squeezing in the MRT, i get to listen to my favourite radio station or plug in my discs for entertainment. At least now i can choose where to go, without wasting time at all.

Praying to pass...

A Long Day

Another FYP meeting was held today as its the last day to finalised the whole proposal. We came down to school, met up and discussed the final details of the project. Had quite alot of thinking to do, but finally finished up the whole proposal. Submitted the proposal soon after. Hurried my way back to the clubroom to join another meeting. The whole committee was there, well, almost. The Welfare Officer is not around. I don't mind, she have worked so hard for the ADD. Time for her to take some R&R. After the meeting, i waited for the rest to finish up the proposal for the Mass Orientation Programme (MOP). After that, we went to Tanglin Mall. My VP and Logistic Head each bought a pair of knitting equipments. They suddenly got intrest in knitting. After that, we walked all the way to Takashimaya. We had our lunch over there. The library was where we headed next. They borrowed a book on knitting and we headed home afterwards. The train had some delay due to technical fault. My Secretary and I waited like 15mins for a train home. Packed like sardines, the ride back home was an uncomfortable one. I left early as my stop was before hers. After that, i took a bus and headed straight for home.

I suddenly feel the gals surrounding me suddenly become enlightened and went really lady like. My Treasurer, also my classmate, also my FYP group mate, went in search for skirts and exposing garments. When i mean exposing, i mean real girl type. Usually she wears long pants and t-shirt. Very seldom does she wear a skirt or a spaghetti top. Things are really changing here. My VP also start to change. She started by learning how to bake stuff, now she wants to go into knitting. The Logistic Head is alright for doing such stuff as she is the kind that portray a femenine person. But its really getting more and more obvious. I guess... When girls go through a certain stage, they began to evolve. I think i shud not use the word 'evolve'. As if my VP is going to become a monster or such. Maybe its another factor, a factor that changes a person's thinking. I guess im gonna see a more feminine side of my friends.

I am evolving...

Work work...

Today was one of the days that I hope it never would have taken place during my holidays. Having to help out at my father's place. A place of boredom, place of sadness and most probably... A place of suffering. Well... Not all is true, some of them are over exaggerated. The whole day was spent there. Don't want to write it here. Brings up bad memories... Went home with Mom & Dad at night. Real late.

Fate and destiny. What are those things? Those things, those two words that does not exist in my vocabulary. Words that i will never use except telling people that i dun believe in them. Blaming things that happen on fate and sweetening the situation by saying it is destiny is not my way. I belive in the cause and effect. If you don't study, you will fail. If you don't eat, you will feel hungry. If you don't work, you will have no money. It is that simple, what you do will definitely affect your future. It is not fate or destiny that 2 person are not meant to be together. It is the lack of trust and time that cause both person not being together.

F&D are lies...

Freedom

The morning was really sunny and clear. I went for my FYP (Final Year Project) meeting and we settled on a project title and theme. We will be doing a Friendster kind of project except its more virtual. Know more about it when the time comes. Had lunch with them and continued with the meeting. After the meet, i went out with 3 of my groupmates. Didn't knew where to wander, so we went to Plaza Singapura to window shop. Since my sis (younger) is on attachment there. She is... ahem... Selling popcorn and drinks at the counter. Bought a drink and continued our wandering. Wandered around the area then left the girls to meet her. I met her at the station. Then we went over to a building to send flyers and record the address at the same time. After that, we walked our way to the Singapore River and we chatted there. We walked along the river and finally to i sent her to a place where her father picked her up. I went home alone soon after.

Being decent. Does that mean not being cheeky infront of girls? Or maybe not be touchy in a relationship. Decent can mean alot of thing in this human world. Decent guys does not exist in this world, proclaims my sister. All guys think of is sex even before he thinks of getting her to be his gal. I totally disagree with her. There are decent guys around. I mean just take a look at how some girls are wearing. They are showing more skin in the city area than those at the beach!! How can a guy not drool or even fantasize when he sees this? I can tell u, its natural. If a guy does not do that, either he is gay or he decides to go for a sex transplant.

I am decent... ;)

Final Preparation

One more day... One more day till the ADD. Went to school early to meet with a supplier of prizes that we bought from him. Talked alittle and he passed us all the receipts as that is the most important thing. Met back at our clubroom, discussed awhile what is happening. Continued the day by going for a haircut. Damn stylist... Took on so many customers... Had the longest haircut in my life, currently that is. Had to collect my blazer and pants at Raffles Place at 6pm. Ended the haircut at 4pm, so i bought a movie ticket to watch and brought in my lunch. The movie lasted 1hr 15mins. Not very good and not very bad eiter. Entire cinema was populated by 5 viewers including me. Movie ended, therefore its time to collect my stuff. Upon reaching the place, the person gave me my package and i tried it out. Very fitting, just as i wanted. Took the stuff and travelled home.

Totally prepared for the event tomorrow. Don't have much brainpower to think anyway.

Being fully prepared...

Can You Handle the Truth?

Today seem to pass very fast. As promised to myself, i woke up real late. Skipped breakfast and went school to get our ADD doorgift receipt. But before i went to my clubroom, i went over to our school's digital print shop. I saw our poster. The poster that my clubmate(maybe not yet, but soon...) designed. When i see it, im really impressed and in awe. Finally able to see something that is going to be present on that day. After that was picking up the receipt and went on to collect the doorgift. At the shopping centre, i ate my lunch. Went back to school soon after to continue the packaging of the doorgift. It is very nice and the 3 of us, VP and Logistics Head, packed all 150 pieces of it. But i realised something when we are about to finish. There are only 130 pieces. Im shocked, so we called the supplier and enquire about the missing 20 pieces. In the end, we just got a reason saying he will help us check it out. I packed our stuff into a box and prepared them to be sent over via car. I parted with VP and Logistics Head and went to a nearby shopping centre to rent a DVD. Bought my monthly gaming magazine and went home straight. Slept for awhile and woke up for dinner. Settled some administrative problems and went on to watch my movie.

The truth... Is the truth really that important? Does everybody say the truth all the time? Im sure everyone handles the truth differently. I always speak the truth. I don't like my friend to hear lies or hear what he/she wants to hear. It is alot better to hurt them now by telling them the truth than allowing them to find out for themselves. Some of my friends tell me to practice tact. That way, i make less enemies and more friends. If telling lies and hiding the truth can do that, do lawyers have multiple accounts in friendster to accomodate all their so-called 'friends'?? I belive in telling the truth. Hiding the truth can only make the situation better for awhile but hurt it in the long run. So please don't get hurt or get mistaken when i say the truth. Because sometimes, the truth really hurts.

Speaking the truth...

Fun Filled Day

I set today to be my most enjoyable day during the week of the ADD. I have been slogging my ass the past few weeks and I am beginning to feel very anxious about the event. But the day had to start with a morning shower... Anyway... I was suppose to go school to inspect at our event banner and some of the prizes. Went there in the early noon and saw no banner, no prizes, better still no uncle... So I guess he might have forgotten or left before I arrived. So I continued my day by meeting my Treasurer and we proceeded to Far East Plaza to meet with the rest. Arrived kinda early so we walked about for awhile. Met the rest and went for lunch. Talked and laugh while eating Chicken Rice (a Chinese dish that consists of chicken meat and rice). Then, we walked over to a karaoke place to sing our hearts out. Sang from past 2pm to 7pm. Spent around $15 per person. Left the place and went over to another building. At the place we bought our token of appreciation, chocolates that cost more than $100 bucks. Haha... Anyway, its my VP idea and I support her idea of getting something presentable. I bought a plate of fried Japanese noodles and we left the building for home. Halfway through my Welfare Officer wanted to go to a departmental store. So she asked whether we wanted to go too. I went along but my VP decided to go home as she have to join her family for dinner. Along the way, my mum called. She wanted me to go back to her office and check her system out. She lost some important files. So i left Welfare Officer and Logistics Head to rush over to her place. Had quite a hard time to search for some files. I guess its all gone now. Even the backup does not have the file she is holding. Went home with them afterwards.

I learned about punctuality when i was in primary school. My maths was real bad, i don't like analytical thinking. So i had to attend for remedial lessons. Since remedial lessons are 1 hour earlier then school reporting time, i seldom arrive on time for the lesson. So after 1 week being late, the teacher got fedup and decided to lock the door after 10mins have passed. Got caught once or twice but ever since then, i learned that punctuality is very important in life. In my secondary school days, i was never late. Arrived early or just in time. By then i realised that time is so important not only to me but also the person that i have arranged to meet. I try my best not to be late so as not to leave a bad impression of myself. I also learned that, time is the essence of everything. Most importantly, first dates are not supposed to be late. Never let the other party wait. Well... Some of my first dates are late, not me but the other party. But they are girls and if i continue... That is another story.

Time not enough...

What the hell...

Political crap happen to me again. Planned a meeting at 10am with my clubmates to discuss the final details of the ADD. But most of them were late. The best part about it is my President is late but earlier then the others. Therefore, he went over to the enrollment booth at the otherside of the school to help them out. But when everyone have arrived, it was around 1.30pm. I called him to join us, but in the end he gave a reason of going to work at 2pm. Cannot blame him totally, we are at fault too. So after meeting, we had lunch together. Since i borrowed most of my money to the enrollment, therefore i kinda owed my lunch to my VP. The both of us, though different sex, can be very good friends. Just maybe we know each other too much... Haha... Lunch was rather heavy, or should i say extremely heavy. My VP cannot finish her portion of her rice and gave me like 1/2 of it!! Im like... 'Man, im unable to walk.' We continued our own stuff after lunch. I went over to the enrollment area, helped them a little. When i came back, my VP and Treasurer went to the same place to pass them something. Stayed in the clubroom afterwards and helped out in the packing of our doorgift for our ADD. We went for dinner afterwards. Talked and laugh all the while. Went home alone as my club's secretary did not accompany us for dinner.

Im not sure what to say today, but maybe i talk more about a topic i shared with my VP. We are very close friends so we are very open about our topics. We were talking about our partners and whether are they the right choice. My view was since he/she is there, take first. You might not know, maybe she is the right one. My VP point of view was not taking it first. Wait and see to find a better one. But i realise... Finding a partner is like finding a tree to be chopped down for building a wood house. A good tree would make good house. But the rule is that you cannot change your mind when you decide that the next tree would be better than the current one. By the time you keep skipping the next tree or keep changing your mind. Maybe you have gone through every suitable tree in the forest. I would have gotten the first tree i seen most suitable. Even though it does not meet all my requirements, but at least it would make a stable house.

Political issues sucks...

Long & Winding Road

When i took a peek at my mobile this morning, i was shocked that it was already 8.30am. I had to rush to a driving school which is like 20-30mins away. First lesson starts at 9.50am. Rush rush rush... Glad i made it to the school in time for lesson. I booked the lessons there early to prevent from stakeouts. Actually... I decided to finish my basic in one day. There are 3 levels in our driving; basic theory, follow by final theory lastly practical test by the traffic police. So i attended lessons for the basic and went for the exam. Man... Upon 80marks, u are suppose to score at least 72. Sad to say... I only scored 70. At that momment, i felt really frustrated. But nevermind, i went on to book more dates for practice and another round of exam. Whole day was gone in that school itself. After that was meeting my clubmates. My VP, Welfare Officer & the General Secretary was there. We met the entertainment people. He discussed alot on the program flow and we really like his ideas. Since on that day is my Logistics Head birthday, we decided to make a prank on her. Not to disclose too much, just have to wait and see... After that was lunch at Long John Silver's. Why must we take the freezing seats? I can see my VP shivering when we were talking to the entertainment people. So after dinner we went over to a nearby Starbucks for coffee and more discussion. Chat and chat and chat... Then... Boom!! My VP fell asleep. Actually no boom, but just nodding of her chubby cheek head. The place was not really a good one as there are smokers smoking and i can see my Welfare and Secretary both horrid faces. Settled things quickly and went off soon.

Will i ever drive a vehicle myself? In the gaming world, i can drive a souped up Mazda RX5, with rims, spoilers, turbo engine, ECU fuel gauge, extended exhaust and best of all... NOz!!! Just hear the sound of the engine reving up, gives me a very satifying feeling. In real life... The nearest that i ever driven a vehicle was parking a 15-feet lorry at my father's warehouse. The feeling was nice at the start, but it began to wind down and boring too... In the end, i never went back to help reverse lorries again. This time, im gonna pass my license and im gonna drive a car. Physically stepping on the accelarator pedal and move a vehicle. That is this year's dream. No more chauferring by a taxi-driver. No more waiting for overnight travelling buses. No more hassle of thinking what to do when it begin to rain. That is my dream. Not forgetting to chauffer my gal too...

Zoom Zoom Zooom...

Let the Party Begin!!

What a rainy day it was today. Woke up with the skies really dark. Then... BOOM!! It started raining. ARGHZ!! How am i gonna meet her?? Had quite alot of thinking through my head. To meet her or not to meet her. That is the question. In the end, i decided to meet her. Glad i made the right decision. I braved through the rain and all and went to sch top-dry bottom-wet. Haha... Met her and realised that she was sick. Kinda hurt and pitied her. No, pity is a very wrong word, sympathise would be better. So i accompanied her to her father's company doctor. Whoa... The company i huge. I mean huge fish tank!! Very beautiful fishes... After the doc trip, i sent her home and she was kinda alone at home. Her father is on business trip. So i think i may have a chance to meet her outside next week. YEAH!! After that, i rush back to school. On the bus, i met my clubmate. A year1, he taking a different paper but same time. But we are in the same boat, studied the minimum to cover the maximum. Haha... After the exam, i went for my discussion for my showcase assignment. Spent some time there and after that went for a movie. After movie, was home sweet home. Met a fren that helped my ADD out, i call her the banner specialist. Talked till she went off the bus. It was a lonely journey after that...

My friends that read my blogs say that i dun put the person's name. They want to know who issit. Well... Let me answer this tonight. I DO NOT PUT MY FRIENDS NAME. I want to keep thier identity unknown, undisclosed and secret. Can't a guy keep a secret? So if you really want to know who are who and why i call them that. You can either i) follow me around and see what happened or ii) ask me and see whether i got the mood to tell you.

Preparing to party...

Boring Boring Day

Its been awhile since i last blog. Very quiet and very boring. Im staying at home most of the time to study for my next paper. Realise that i spend alot of time lazing around. No mood to study at all. Wonder how my friends get the mood to study. Later is gonna be my DVID paper... A module that i like playing around but not with the theory part. Getting tired and slping soon. Have a date with her, eating breakfast together. This time im gonna choose my food carefully. Don't want to be embarassed in front of her.

Preparing the worst...

Submission of Proposal

Woke up kinda early today, went back to sleep again. Than woke up totally at 10 plus. Ate breakfast, played some console games. Went swimming in the early afternoon and swam for like an hour. Bathed and went out to have lunch outside. Met my clubmates and celebrated one of thier birthday at Heeren. Bought her a cake and we share the cost. Discussed about the ADD stuff alittle... Walked over to Hyatt Hotel to view what equipments the entertainer have for us. Looked at the way he talk and the system he have. I got to agree... He is very professional. Guess the entertainment for our ADD is in very good hands. Ate dinner afterwards. We dispersed and sent my treasurer home. After that, i accompanied my VP and my Secretary to join a friend for dinner. Actually is just to spend time with him. Talked alot and laughed alot too. Went home together with my VP and secretary. Talked alot with my secretary. Looks like we have much to talk about.

Topic of the day. Submission of proposal... Not the business type but the emotional type. Submitting from one sex to the opposite sex. I guess us humans are really affectionate beings. Unlike animals, they reporduce to continue the life of the species. Courtship is a matter of being the strongest among the competitoin. But us humans do not see this... Courtship can means alot of things, you don't have to win everyone or be the best in everything. Just feelings enough will win over everything. I guess this is why we are ranked highest in the food chain and highest in intellectual ability. In my opinion, feelings will change. Maybe he/she have moved your heart once... But it does not mean he/she will stay in there forever. People change, even the concrete will crack someday. So what makes you so sure that the heart will not change? One thing is for sure that the heart will not change, one thing that will be difficult to implement when a couple is in a relationship. That thing is call TRUST.

Things remind her...

Whats wrong??

Something wrong with today's post... Typed everything in but it just dissapeared... Wonder where all my data that i typed went to... Anyway... Im too tired to re-type so i just say the important stuff. Massage sucks. SDT exam is over and it sucks. Being alone and feeling alone sucks. Missing her and wanting her to be mine sucks hell alot more...

Miss her much...

Doomsday Arrives

Why things have to go this way? Really lazy to wake up... Almost got the feeling of not waking up at all. Ate breakfast and drank milk, dan watch tv. But no mood to study, feel that SCM is really boring. So played games on my PS2 and left home to meet my classmate. Halfway, he called me and asked me to bring extra calculator. I rushed home and get it since i did not bring mine either. Haha... Then when i went to sch for the 2nd time, he said he went to play pool with other classmates. Boy i feel so play out... But what to do... Since on the way, might as well say, 'Okie, its okie. Go on, i go have lunch and meet later.' Lunch was settled in school, ate this stall that sold real cheap. A huge serving of fried rice, medium portion of fried chicken and bbq chicken and 2 scoops of coleslaw. After lunch was back to more studies... But realise i just felt sleepy... Went to my club, drop my bag, grab a ball and went to shoot some hoops. After that, came back and rest and revise a little... Left for the exam room and did my paper. It was tough, most questions i left it blank. Guess im not gonna make it this time. Went home while it was raining. Had to ask a favour from my brother to bring a brolly for me. Came home, ate dinner. After that, i join my clubmates in a conference. Discussed about the ADD, confirmed this time 120 participants (without my gal!!). Got lots more things to settle, guess i better be preparing for tmr's exam.

Nothing to reflect today. Except the betrayal of a meet with my classmate. I mean what can i say?? He is already on his way there with them. I can't do anythign right? And my policy is to not get angry or small matters... Why waste ur life or time on such minor matters? What have been done is done, nothing can be undone. I do realise that i maybe made use of. Meaning, they think i won't get angry therefore just try me once awhile. Maybe... But if they cross the line, i will be very nasty. Nobody likes a person that is named after a gun that is angry...

Muggin in books...

Either This Or That

A short and long day it was... The air-com crew came this morning at 9am and started work installing the new machine. Hurray for them and hurray for my mom and dad. No more sweaty nights... Im now able to sleep with the blanket on with ease!! Continue studying and reading my notes... But always distracted. Realise in the end i have nothing going into my head to stay. Think tomorrow will be my doomsday. My younger brother came back home with the Ragnarok Online (RO) starter kit. A monthly payment for playing an online game. Sounds kinda lame and such... But since he have paid the kit, might as well ride along the fun. I have a character there too, so might as well enjoy the game again. This time... No lag man, smooth as silk. Went swimming, been a long time since i went into the pool. Swarm a few laps and im panting. Guess im really out of shape. Have to get into shape soon, else who gonna like my body? Ate dinner at home and rested soon after... Really don't feel like studying anymore. Hope i wont forward the module.

Today i realise that you usually have 2 choices, either this or that. And between the 2, 1 is good the other is bad no matter how u think. This is what happens when i choose a good choice, praise myself and thinking things are going my way. If I chose the other, i just regret and seldom do i learn. Unless the after effect is so big that i regret it for life. Somethings are just not the way it seems... You see it this way, other see it the other way. No matter what, the choice i chose will always be correct. That is what i believe. Even though i made a wrong decision, cosoling myself is going to make the thing worse. So... I wonder, the next time when i make a decision. What will i consider and what will i do? Am i growing older or just my thinking is getting more mature...

Digging a grave...

Woes...

Woke up real late today, realised its 12pm when i looked at my phone. Its like i slept the whole day. Man, wasted the morning. Did some revision, but just a little bit as i dun understand what im reading up, like all go in cannot be processed... Haha... Went to school to pick up some documents and proceeded to the my ADD venue, Traders' Hotel. Somewhat grand hotel as it belongs to the Shangrila Group. The ballroom was rather... How should i put this... Long. Its not the kind of ballroom that i assume... It should be like wider... I do not know how to explain this... But the place really is like small... After viewing the place, my clubmates and me sat at a nearby Mac to have dinner... For them is dinner for me is lunch, fancy having lunch at 5-6pm... Haha... Discussed about the stuff and such...

A very sad thing that happened today is my gal wont be coming for the ADD. She cannot confirm with me whether she is able to make it so she told me not to get her ticket. Another sad news is that my year1 are not going for the ADD. I mean, i took like so long to persuade her to go. She just back out like dat. I really feel very pissed. She promised me just to make me stop bugging her, but in the end... She backout like this... I wonder if they organise MY ADD... I will be the no money kind, last minute than i buy. Make them suffer how i suffer now. Make them feel what it is like to beg and persuade people. Like what my VP said, 'No matter how u beg, i wont let you go.' Cannot believe why she said that... All my hopes of dancing with her... Spending a whole night with her... Dashed... Poof!! Gone... She is like super rich... And im like... A normal kid... Will we ever be together?

So happy together...

B.R.O.K.E.

What a long day it was... Went to school when all my classmates were at home studying and revising. Im like in school to hand in the FYP form, dan met with my club seniors to revise with them. Realise that im cash strapped, really tight... Spend too much on eating... Today spent more than 7 bucks just on food. Nothing else... Eat is really an expensive thing. After lunch i went back to study... Half of the time was spent on coaching a friend for her exam. I took the module and passed before. Therefore she consulted me for advice. Helped her quite alot... After all the studying and coaching, i went to my school's macdonald and had a snack there. Met an old classmate there, was preparing for her exam. Hope she pass.

ZSQY, Zhong Se Qing You. That is in mandarin meaning caring for the opposite sex and forgeting about the close friends he/she once had. This is applied to my senior as his gf is a fren of ours. She is very outgoing and open so her circle of frens is very big. But my senior have very good frens, guy frens i mean. So when they are together or they leave the place together we will shout very loud, "ZSQL". Kinda making fun of them, a way to relieve stress too. Friends and love... Which is more important? Friends, been through thick and thin. Know your ways and understand how u will react to different things and events. Love, love you for what you are and what you do. Love you back the same way you love him/her. In the end, its both side of a coin. Either this or that... The coin can only face up on 1 side. It depends on how long the side is faced up and whether when will the coin be tossed again.

Kinda miss her...

For soccer or for love: part2

Woke up late today, long time since i felt this way. Had a very fulfilling sleep, wonder when will the next long sleep come... Skipped a lesson due to the time slot, 2-3pm, expect me to go school for 1 hour lecture... No way... Went Queensway (shopping centre) to study and waited for my clubmates. Settled on the door gift of our ADD. Went over to IKEA to sit in their cafe to discuss about other related stuff to the ADD. Planned our schedule for the coming days... Realised i dun have much time to do anything else... Went back home ASAP, meet with my FYP mates and discussed on the project we are going to do. Took some time to settle down and set on a topic. Was thinking out of 5, excluding me, at least 4 will be there... In the end, only 3 were discussing. Im like quite dissapointed, but this was like the first ever meeting... So i think i set my expectation too high.

I asked my gal if she would be my partner/my date for the coming ADD.. She rejected me at first as her aunt will be celebrating her bday on that day. I was like devastated... In the end, i lost both sides. Had no time to see the soccer and the date was cancelled due to her being unable to make it. But at least she comforted me by saying she maybe able to make it if her aunt celebration were brought forward or push back. Either way, she will be able to join me for ADD. Praying real hard that that will happen...

A blank mind...

For soccer or for love

Keeping it short today, got to go back to studies. Had to go school for lessons, stayed in school for a lesson where the lecturer will go thru answers. Waited for her answers like forever... Went home early to rest and sleep. Did not have a good sleep these few days. Woke up and played a round of soccer with my brother, as usual im the winner. Continued studying and decided to let go of 1 part, couldn't get it in anyway...

Thurs have an exciting match. Its the most hated team the sports club of our school vs SMA (marinetime). But i have a date on thurs evening. Talk about coincidence, match start 5pm... I meeting her at 6pm... Now i have choose between soccer or love. Predicted that would happen, previous relationship had this dilema too... Did not learn my lesson anyway... One more day to think about it.

Sweaty and sticky...

Life is B-E-A-U-tiful

Today was really a slack day. Woke up at 9 plus in the morning, dilly dally around, played some computer game and still have time to prepare for school. Actually today had only 1 hour of lesson. So i went to sch rather late. Helped my classmate pick the important topics that will come out for our ECAD exam. Hope he can get thru the exam and continue his studies with me to the next year. Our academic year that is...

After school things happen rather fast. I spent my time doing nothing and just wasting it like it wasnt important at all. Went with 2, actually 3 because my VP was late, of my clubmates to discusss the possibility of having an embroided card as a door gift for our ADD. But its not feasible... Its too expensive... I mean, four bucks for a card?!?! I must admit its very nice and beautiful, but i need 150 pieces and my budget must be less than 400 bucks. How am i able to meet the manufacturer's price?? Therefore its back to the drawing board for new ideas for our door gift...

Studying is good...

Me, Myself and my fan

Why must this happen?? Why must it be that good things come and bad things will follow later. I got a very nice date with her and she met some of my buddies in club. But when i went home, the air-con was spoilt!!! More sweaty nites and uneasy slp. Fan now is the only way out for me... Now my room always have this sweat smell... Kinda like some gym with sweaty bodybuilders all around. YUCK!!

Exams are coming and im not feeling the pressure... Im like happy go lucky type of feeling. Feels that way all the time ever since im enrolled into SP. Have to buck up alittle... 2 months time im gonna do myFYP, better make it a good one. Not going to treat it like some simple module. Im gonna score at least a B for it.

Im thinkin of her all the time. Guess im stuck in that direction. We have some common traits; eating anything, tok about cars, listen to rock music, mandarin sucks, etc... Maybe that is wat is making me so fond of her... Proposed to send her home tmr but she messaged me that she's not going sch tmr. Maybe i have to wait till next time.

Studying hard hard...

No more sweaty nights!!

Hurah... Hip Hip, Hooray!! My air-con is repaired. Finally, my room is cooled. No more sweaty nites!! Today went school for 2 hours. What a waste of time... Felt like i did not really went school at all. Actually today lunch meet with my deary sister. Too bad she got something on last minute and we cancelled the meet. Oh no... She asked me about a social dance show... Man... I totally forgot about it... But it cost $20. How am i gonna cough up 20?? Also, im not a big fan of dancing. Not really good at enjoying such art event. To be honest, not good at enjoying art at all... Haha...

Did not go clubroom at all. Went once just to bring stuff over, was kinda empty... Like usual... Went home early today, never had this feeling for a long time. Did alot of things, realise i can do so much things with my free time at home. Think i really too relax... I shud relax... For today only, but tmr i will definitely enjoy. I meeting up with her. Hope we have a good time. Too bad there is no love story movie currently playing. Think have to make do with a comedy or other shows...

Dreaming of her...

Being Useful or Being Used??

Woke up late today, last night was very warm with no wind and warm air lingering around. Had to switch on my air-con but... IT SPOILT!!! Brought in a fan but it was useless... Blew warm air at me, not much diff. Tonight will be no different either. Hot and warm... Darn that air-con.

Being useful or being used... My fortune from the start of the year was telling me that i will be used to do things. And usually its the sense that im being used and not useful. I felt it sometimes but always comfort myself by thinking im doing this to help a friend. Helping a friend is all that matters when i do things. Whether am i being used is another thing totally. I sometimes agree with my gal when she says that im being used. Im just too soft or too weak to reject. Think its my personality... Gonna go back to my work soon...

Missed cold nights...

Mono-toned Tuesday

Today was my presenation for my ECAD project. Everything went fine and i demostrated well infront of the lecturer. He had no problems with mine but just advised me on some pointers on how i can improve the site. Understood what he meant and what he was saying.. but whether i wan to improve it is another thing. How i hope i can forget about the project now and concentrate on the coming exam.

Now my ADD got problem. We have to fill at least 15 tables for the ADD to continue. Firstly, what kind of rule is that? I mean... If we are paying for the rental of the ballroom, who are they to command how many tables we are having. I think its one way or the other... Really hope that everything will go fine. My VP is under alot of stress today... She got her presentation for the same project and i think it went awry. Not really good for her. Hope the lord bless her and make her happier...

Heat kills mood...

Winners forever

Today, the match of the lifetime for ICT 03/04. We fought a last soccer match with the SMA. At half-time... We were down 2-0 with SMA scoring 2 nice goals. But after halftime, we fought our way in and scored in 2 more... Even got a penalty to bring us to 3-3 till full time. Why must history repeat itself... This happenened to us when we fought with Sports club. But i must admit, the game was well controlled and the tension was brought down.

All my projects and assignments have been handed up. Im a free man... Well... Not totally free... I STILL GOT EXAMS!!! Man, how i hope this will be soon over. Of cause, passing my exams well is one thing too. That must happen for me to enjoy and promote to the final year of my poly life. Realised that time really passes fast during your teen years. The tears and joys are like so dear to me. I cannot believe that im actually going to the final phase of my poly life. Next stop, the Army. Hope i dont get lousy posts like storeman or cook. Boring jobs for boring pple.

Mind loses focus...

Final Showdown

Today is friday, Good Friday. I have not blogged for 2 days... Wonder if anyone notices it. But im really busy, projects and all. Had to concentrate my energies and alertness to my projects. Guess i got only 1 more day to finish 1 project. Dunno how am i gonna survive. Also, i wonder what grade i will get this time.

Think im gonna make this short today. Still got alot of things waiting for me today.

Pillow feels good...

Half of the race is done...

Begin the day with a bang. Actually i fell on the right side of the bed, what am i saying... There is only 2 sides on my bed (right & bottom), left s against a wall while the top have a headrest or something like dat... It hurt alittle, but it made me really awake. Had coffee and went to school for lessons soon after. Realised that DSTC is getting more and more complicated. And im still stuck way back, guess im gonna work more again. I am working alot... Maybe its still not enough... Help my club's treasurer buy lunch as she had to do duty on the ticketing booth for our ADD. Talked to a Mayday crazy fan which is another club member. Mayday coming to SG, hope im able to see them face to face like last november. Did some ECAD and finished like 50% of the requirements. But it seems like i still have alot undone yet. Maybe its a psychological effect...

Came home rather tired and sleepy. Ate some leftovers and drank a glass of milk and went to sleep. Woke up and ate dinner again. Studied the next move on ECAD project. Hope i get everything done by thursday. Still haven solve my FYP (Final Year Project) grouping. Alot of 'i dont like her' and 'he not very good'. Ususally its the politics. Wonder when will all this end... Tmr gonna talk through with my group. Make a stand on who are choosing and settle it once and for all. Letting it drag will only affect ourselves.

Read reading read(past tense)...

Assignments, Projects & loads of stress...

Its monday again. Didnt like the day. Everything almost went wrong for me. Well not everything. Time passed rather slowly today, cept the time i was at home to relax abit. Boy do the sitcoms go really fast when enjoy them. Did my ECAD proj. Had more ideas on how to advance. Hope my partner knows what im doing. Actually, i dun even know whether am i able to finish. But what the heck, as long i try my best... Everything will turn out fine. My MMWD beginning to become a full picture. Hope i get it done soon so i can fight on for my SDT.

Last minute thing happens all the time in ICTclub. Prepare the year1s for their booth duty and they complain i told them too late. Haizz... They dun understand how stressful i really am. Able to play GB (an online game) everyday. Maybe i complain too much, they still kids rite... Have to remind myself... THEY ARE STILL KIDS!!! Hope they understand the feeling when they take over...

Eyes watering bad...

Weekends!!!

Okie, i admit. I was lazy on saturday nite. I did not blog. But how u expect me to blog when man utd won arsenal and i celebrating like crazy!! Let the beer flow!! Haha... Its been a long while since arsenal have tasted lost. Knew its up to Man Utd to bring them the taste. Well.. Did not much on both days. Went sch to do project. Improved on the layout and such. Think i only completed only 10%. Arghz... I still got like 5 days left!! Saturday ended early due to partying and doing project work. I cut my hair again. Then i met an old fren. Boy she looked worse than i last saw her. Guess might be the work she doing, didnt ask her but kinda embarassed to asked anyway.

Sunday was usual, church and all. Went out with them for lunch then joined my family to do grocery shopping. Bought like 2 truckload of groceries. Guess its normal for customers of Giant (a very large supermarket). Dad bought some clothes while mum went to get a cable converter for her notebook. Did wan to get a portable harddisk... but realised its too exp!! Maybe i get it during the holidays. Now im still doing my project work. How i wonder i would go into attachment soon. That would end all projects and stress. Still waiting for the ADD, guess im kinda like my VP of the ICTclub. Anxious for the event to take place.

Tiredness taking over...

Fri-di-da-di-day!!

That is the way how a radio DJ i listen to everyday in morning pronounce friday. Sure, it hooked me on... The show mostly have a topic that they discussed among themselves and they get listeners to call them or SMS them to join in the discussion. What i like best is that there is always 3 Djs, and the topic will always have 1 side with 2 supporters and 1 side with 1 supporter. Maybe that makes the show more entertaining.

Went to sch late, to be exact... Went to lesson late and got marked absent. Man i hate that late rule. Why can't they just mark as late? At least im there. Bah... In sch, the rules are the kings and us students are mere slaves of the rules. Today was a short day, everything seemed to go fine and smooth. Didnt see my target today. Didnt even msged her even. Think im trying to see whether i do miss her. In fact, i do think of her sometimes. Just that im still not comfortable seeing her this way. Just have to get used to it. I forgot bout one thing, my grades. I list them down, much easier then typing them into sentences.

MMWD Assignment: B
SDT test: 74%
DSTC test: 60%
DVID Assignment: A

From the grades i think i may have to start studying more. Yeah, less play and more work makes vamp an intelligent boy. At least my favourite sport is not taken away from me. Hope that does not affect me... Gonna go back to my assignments. Boy it sucks to be rushing projects. Just have to hang on to another few days and im a free man.

Work demands attention...

Long day, short day

Thursday should be the shortest day of my week. But it turned out to be a long day too. Lessons were rather slack, no mood to study anyway. Slack through the entire day. Brudder wasn't here today, maybe he find it tiring to come to school. But how is he gonna sit for biz exams?? I like dun understand 3 topics and i find it very hard to study biz topics by yourself. Phew... Wonder how those P.h.D. pple study business.... 3 words: So Much CRAP!!

Nothing much happen today. The same old thing that happen every thurs. Help my partner abit on her MMWD project. Man, her design was rather power!! Mine is still in a nursery stage... Guess im gonna drink more coffee, there goes the coffee machine.

Calmness seeks entry...