What???

What happened to me... Today is a day of infamy. My fish was pronounced dead today. After so many years of companionship, it finally reported to the gates of heaven. Life of being my fish is a good life. I have a big tank where he can swim around all day with no care in the world. Food was given every morning and evening. When i see the water is all yellow and have a smell, i take out all my stuff and i change the water and clean the tank. All this done while he stay at this corner waiting for his crib to be changed. After that, he wag his fins around like a happy fish. Man... I'm gonna miss those days. Now my tank is empty and the sound of running water is silent. As they say, words can't express what i feel right now. Maybe this is the Lord's way of telling me to get a new fish? I do not know, but what i know is... The tank will be empty for the time being.

Rest in peace...

Brand New Week

This is the special week. This is the first time i ever stayed at home for the whole day just enjoying myself. Immerse myself into my chair and enjoyed my room's stress busters. There is the black and cool looking PS2, the al-powerful CPU, loud-banging Hi-Fi and lastly, my bouncy bed. Man, its heaven on earth here. I practically spent my whole day here. Well not totally every minute. I did went to my kitchen, to make lunch and bring it back to my heaven to eat. I left my heaven for awhile in the evening to accompany my Sis. She is damn tired after an exam today. Looking at her really makes me feel useless. Im her big brother and i can't help her a little bit. All i can do is cheer her up and keep her spirits up. Maybe that is all i can do now. How i wish i could share the burden with her. I sent her home after that. Even though the journey was short, she slept on the bus. Guess she really is tired. After sending her home, i walked about her neighbourhood to look around to see if there were any mobile phone shop. It was really bad i could not find any. So i went back home and continued my games.

I am now on full track on the road to recovery. Im recovering from the stress i have been dealt with for the past 14 weeks. No more stress. No more pressure. No more datelines. Now the road ahead is clear. Enjoyment is all i can see. It will all end when i reach bend in the road. That bend will be called ITP. When that comes, i will stop all this enjoyment and sink myself in that stressful company. That is my challenge for the year. This is a major challenge as i like chanllenges. Hope i can do great on this challenge and continue with my life.

Its to enjoy...

Life of a Free Man

Ah... The good life... Now all that is left is my ITP(Internship Program). After that, its another journey in life that i must undertake. Nothing much happened today. Woke up late as i want to enjoy my bed a little longer. Finally, i got myself up and went to the bathroom to wash myself. Breakfast was next and it was good. Well... Not using my own allowance and furthermore, a good cup of coffee. Definitely it was good. I went back to my room and totally sank myself there. Played games on my PS2, chatted with my ex-VP on the com and listened to great music on my radio. Did not enjoy myself like this for a very long time... After sometime, i went for a swim and cooled myself off. Nothing like soaking up the cold water to relieve your stress totally. My dad came home rather early as he is going to Bangkok for the weekends. We left for the airport and settled our dinner there. Said goodbyes and farewells to him, we went back home.

Nothing is better than a stress-free momment in your life. In this country, every corner is filled with stress. Maybe its just me or is this whole country built on stress? From the day we are taking our PSLE, we are bring pressurised to get good grades. Getting good grades is one thing, but missing a huge chunk of your childhood life is very bad. Do children these days know the fun of marbles? Do they know what is a plastic trasparent piggy bank? Now they are eating ice shavings but it orginated where these shavings were shaped to a ball and sucked the watery cold sweetness from it. When its all dry, we use to throw the ball at one another to create the fun of having snowball fight in a country where there is no winter. Some of the things that i used to do all fading into my memories. Its so pressuring to live in such a stressful life, who wants to pay taxes at everything that have a price on it. Man, i wonder when will the government have such a thing where they tax on the taxes you pay.

Freedom is sweet...

Maniac Monday

If life were this boring everyday, i would commit suicide after three exact same days. Went to school in a happy mood and wanted to make my day better by submitting my project. Once and for all, i am free from the shackles of the FYP. Now for the last final part, the demostration and presentation. This is like leaving the prison just that i have not left the compound. After submitting my project, i left my teammates to deal with the presentation stuff. Prepared a little on it. But i was soon called upon to do another project. Im quite involved in this but the time spent of using the software is too short and we are usually told to just follow the worksheets. I think that is not enough as we do not know what are the functions really doing. So i just sat there and did most of the brain work, while my teammates did all the trial-and-error stuff. It is very drain on the mind. Having to analyze and think whether the diagrams made any sense. I do not know whether was it me or the project, everything seems so boring. I hope after this week, nothing would be this boring even. Did nothing much after i left school. Had this mindset to take a cab home. But maybe my thrifty side kept me from doing that and i took a bus instead.

When i was heading my way to school, i was listening to my favourite DJs of the morning shift. They always have a topic to discuss every weekday morning. Today was no different, today's was about family violence. What really shook me was that husband-beaters are more than wife-beaters and usually husbands that go into the hospital after the abuse tend to be more seriously injured than the former. The reason that the DJs have discussed and confirmed is that husbands when dealing out damage, uses the hands and feet. While wives who does not have the brute strength of a man uses weapons ranging from golf clubs to even a chopper! No wonder that husbands ended in hospital with life-threatening injuries than the wives. My 2 cents, why end up in such violent stuff? We are not the only species that have family violence, and that is a fact. Comparing ourselves to animals or insects, we should be ashamed of ourselves. Why resort to violence when everything can be talked over nicely without raising any weapon or dishing out damage. When couples get married, im sure there will be quarrels. But raising one hand to hit the other, that is getting too far. I believe that when one of the pair starts using violence as a way to end arguements, im sure he/she is not worth the love by his/her partner.

Love thy partner...

Day of Freedom

After so many weeks... After so many days... Finally... I have completed my project!!! YEAH!!! Got ready for school late as i wanted to stay in bed longer. Already done what I am suppose to do. Arrived in school late, i think my teammates are wondering what the hell am i doing arriving so late. They did not make any enquiries or ask me any questions. But i can see that they are kind of unhappy me being late and them early. I sat down and started up my work area. After awhile, we went for our breakfast. It was rather fast, nothing much was chatted. Maybe everyone is stress and pressurised by the dateline given. With a full stomach, we went back to our lab to continue our project. I had to concentrate on another project as the dateline is today. Totally just compiled and lied about everything. To make the report out, we just had to do all kinds of stuff. A five person project ended up by three person clearing up the rest of the project. Sat there for three full hours to clear up the rest of the stuff. After the greusome challenge, we finally completed it and we submitted it just in time. Went back to join my teammates after that. Did some minor testing and found a bug. But my teammate that was suppose to do that was already on his way home. Shucks... Had to bring that part back home and send it to him. After that, i accompanied the girls of my teammate to print the documentation required for this phase of the project. Wow... We spent almost $15 on printing papers. But at least it is worth it. Gave up my file to one of them as they did not bring a file to keep the papers. After that, we parted and i left for home.

Nothing feels better than having something lifted off your shoulders. The stress, the pressure... All gone. Freedom never felt so good. It feels like life have gone back to normal again. Usually when this happens, most of the time im thinking of what to do and what i will be doing next. This kind of life is also not very good. Maybe i am a picky person. Whatever life throws at me, i will have complains on it. This proves that im still human, im still a Singaporean. Got to learn to be more flexible and more adaptive to my environment. Now that im left with less than three weeks before i reach my holidays. Took the initiative to pack my holidays. This will save me the trouble of thinking what to do and where to go during my holidays. Never done this before, maybe this will be a good start to a long period of holiday.

Be stress free...

Bai Ri Meng (Daydreaming)

Another sub-boring day has passed. Woke up too early so i went back to bed, in the end, i woke up late. Damn... Have to stop doing that to myself, wasting time sleeping so much. Pushed myself to the bathroom and prepared myself for the day. Chose my clothing of the day. During that time, i was chatting with my ex-VP. She just got online and i decided to have a short chat with her. So sad to hear that she is all alone today. Her partner is sick(i presume...), and she have to endure the lonliness in the office. I said my goodbyes and i left for school. Arrived late to my first lesson. Glad the lecturer did not mark that im late. He is a kind lecturer and i think he remember as a student of his class and not a student who is always late for his class. I hope he does the former... After his lesson, i went on for the last lesson of the day. Good: The lecturer was a good one, she knows her stuff and she taught very well. Bad: The computer is down!! She talked and talked and we were often caught off-guard by her highlited points. The lecture was the same as taking the bullet-train in Japan. Man, that was fast. Did not complain much as i managed to absorb as much as possible. It was lunch time after lessons. Met up with my Welfare Officer to have our weekly date. Haha... Had quite a good time with her. She wore really nice today. Skirt and a sleeveless shirt... *drool~~* Okie, that was uncalled for. Lunching with her is always fun, always expect the unexpected. Guess that is why lunching with her is never boring. After lunch, i went back to our respective labs to continue our projects. Did nothing much there, practically just testing and trial runs. Did some improvements for the site when i saw it was needed. I received a call that needed me. Went to my friend's rescue. Provided as much help as possible. If you are reading this, you are owing me too many favours le. Keep accumulating, and u might as well commit suicide and stop living. Left her to study the coding. I have complete confidence that she will understand my programming codes and do it without my help. Just when i thought i have completed whatever was needed for the day, my teammate threw me something to do. Im kind of shocked that the function was not done. I tried and tried but i just cannot do it. Maybe its the end of the day therefore giving me not a good mood to do that function. After trying out for the last time, i packed my bag and left the stressed-filled lab for home.

WM(my friend): Hey, i ask you a question. There are 2 girls behind a curtain each. You are to choose one and have sex with her no matter how she look like or what shape she is. That is the bad part, the good part is this. One is a extremely hot babe and the other is the total opposite. If given this choice, would you want to try?

Me: (Think for awhile...)Yes.

WM: Why? Lets think, if you get the ugly one, what will you feel?

Me: I think it the other way, at least i get the chance to have sex with a hot girl. Do you think you have any other chances closer than that?

That is my conversation with him during our 'self-declared' break. What you guys think? Did i make a good choice? Or i was foolish to do something that crazy. I always think life is a challenge, how long we live is also a challenge. We challenge to see who will live the longest. So i look this as a challenge, high risk but high return. Maybe its my nature to like risk.

Having risky life...

Time is ticking...

A few more days, less than 100 hours left. Countdown to my submission date of my FYP. Headed to school late. Woke up rather late too, had a bad time waking up. After i woke up, the construction site caused a ruckus again. Left home soon after... The sunshine feels so good on the body, making me feel so alive. After some lessons, i went to join my friends to tidy up our presentation. Had to present it today. Rush and rush... Finally we have completed it. Sure enough... It was tough, but at least it was something we did last minute. Crash into the presetation with whatever we had. Not a memorable experience and one that i would never regard as one of my best presentation. After that, i met up with my friend to help her on her project. Taught her as much as possible, could not help her much, instead just encouraged her and and gave her some pointers. Finally, had to accompany her to walk to the train. When we left the lab, i followed her. She asked me to keep her company while she waits for her class of boys to walk together to the train. When they have arrived, we set our destination to the train station. While walking, she chatted with them, but she walked next to me. Maybe she felt it was neccessary to do it as she was the one that asked me to do it. When we reached the train station, we seperated as we took different directiions. The train was kind of late due to the mad rush of a typical Singapore evening. Alighted at the next stop and went on to check out the comic store. Went to take a look around to see if the newest volume of comic have arrived. Im not sure why, but i just like to get my comics from that store. Luck was not on my side, there was no new volumes of comic. What a wasted trip. Left the comic store and went home feeling tired and dissapointed.

Time is running out and im left with that little time to settle all my FYP stuff. We have finished it totally left with some clearing of the codes and a couple of comments here and there. Nothing that cannot be done in this short timing. All that is required are done. Hope everything works well when we present our FYP to our Supervisors and Evaluator. I do hope he gives a remark or comment so that i will get to showcase our project again.

Present, present, present...(1 nouns, 1 verb, 1 adjective)

Bored...

Time to blog, (looks at clock), time to sleep... Nohing much to blog anyway. Same tuesday as usual. Maqybe tomorrow i will blog again. Yesterday blog have been cancelled by blogger server. Damn that server...

Boredom invades me...

Bitter Sweet Monday

Finally, mondays that are not that blue. Went to school as per normal. Had FYP slot in the morning. Went to school settle the final details of my FYP. One more thing, last friday my supervisor did not came to visit me. Today he came. First thing he told me was he forgotten totally about friday visit. Im like... ARGHZ!!! Made me so mad. My supervisor and you made the appointment, than you forget... This sucks. But it does not bother me. I just showed everything to him and told him about our functions and stuff. Had this sense of acheivement where i finally able to let people see what we have been talking and writing on paper so long. After we trial demo our project to him, he gave us some comments and advised us on how to do our final presentation. He left soon after and we went to have our breakfast. After breakfast, we continued with refining of our project. Had to switch labs as the other course of students require to use the lab. Before changing labs, we sat somewhere to settle our meeting tomorrow. It's a formal meeting and we are tested on it. So we definitely have to practice for it. I took this meeting rather serious but seeing my members having fun and not taking it seriously, made me relax my seriousness. They laugh, i laugh along. They smile, i smile along. No matter what, i enjoyed my time being with them. We proceeded to the lab that have the software we wanted. The lab was one of my junior's class. She was suppose to have lesson there, but she came really late. I called her and told her about it. After that, she came over quickly. She was the one that i had to help in her project. Looking at how bad she is doing, i quickly gave her some advice and explained the codes to her. Hope she understands what im talking. She left earlier than me. I stayed in the lab longer to finish up whatever im suppose to do. After finishing, i waited for my teammates to complete their tasks. After that, we left together. Though we walk seperate ways when we walk out of the lab, i still feel that its good to wait for them.

Nothing much to say. Not much to say as i have other things to do. I guess im not setting my time management well. Got to set it right soon.

Today good Monday...

One more week till freedom

Last day of the week. Nothing much i can do now except keep doing trial runs and testing to my project. Arrived early in school to start doing project. Glad my teammates were early too. I had an appointment with my supervisor that i will show him a taste of what we are going to present. In the end, he did not come. He did not even contact me. Im not very happy at this but he is still my supervisor. Maybe its our culture to respect and listen to seniority rather than manners. Waited for him for half an hour. After that, i called and left him a message, and i brought my whole team down for breakfast. Told him to contact me when he wants to meet us. Ate and went back to our project lab. He haven gave me a call. Continue what we are doing and waited for his call. We even shifted our lab. And he still never call me. Well... I gave up on him and i just surfed the net while my teammates are cleaning up our project. Had a conversation with a friend of mine. We graduated at the same year but i enrolled into poly earlier. She could not make it to poly as she failed a major subject. We were quite close so i gave her a helping hand on her project. That is when i get to know more about her poly life. Man... She is so popular and wanted by her classmates. 2 different guys chasing after her. Alas, she like none of them. I had to sit in and act 'to be very close with her'. Well... She was one of my good friend during my secondary school days so i just played along. After some acting and laughing at the 2 idiots, i left her with her friend and i went back home. Changed into my swimming gear and went swimming. Its been sometime since i have such a cooling dip.

Just 2 months ago, our Prime Minister(PM) proposed a five-day-week for all civil servants. This includes the employees of all educational organisations that are government funded and this includes my poly. Now, my poly is closed on saturday. Last time i used to go back to school on saturday to enjoy the facilities of the school. I pay almost a thousand bucks each semester to attend lessons and use the school's facilities. Now im being confined to staying home and spending time with my family. I know... We are a stressful and fast-pace country and society. But saturdays are my days where i get to go out with friends, use the facilities my school provide and increase the bond i have with my club mates. Last time it was simple, a call or a simple message like this would settle my saturday; 'Hey, tmr wan to go club? Play bball/soccer/badminton. 9am, club meet.' This was how my saturday are settled. Not much thinking and not much consideration. Now... I had to plan for my saturdays. I have to think of what am i going to do on saturdays. No more badminton playing or basketball games. This sucks very much. Now i wander around my saturdays... Thinking of what to do, where to go every friday. A new chapter of how i spend my saturday has been forced by the higher levels of the society.

Miss the six-day-week...

The World Is Pink

Today i did something for the 1st time again. Morning i woke up and slacked a little on bed. But in the end, i still woke up and prepared for school. When i am choosing my clothing of the day, i decided to break all barriers and wear a colour that i have shunned for years. I wore a pink coloured polo tee. Yes, i repeat that. I wore a pink coloured polo tee. That is the only colour polo tee that i wore for the 1st time and the only colour that i have in my wardrobe. Wore to school... Had this feeling of pinkish everything. It is like everyone is looking at my pink polo tee. I suddenly have this attraction. Unwanted attraction. Well... Maybe its just me. Went to my first lesson... Felt that the girls in the class were kinda shocked at my attire(20 students, 18 girls). But i took it easy and took a seat like it was nothing. After lessons, i met up with my Welfare Officer and we went for lunch. Her companion kept saying 'eeee... eeee... eee...' Im like, i cannot wear pink issit? She continue with her 'eeee...' I just said, come lets go. Partly to say i don't want to care what she said. Com'on... Its my first time wearing pink and my 1st bad response. I brought my welfare officer to the other end of the food court. We went over to get some chicken chop. She liked the food. But i can see that it was very filling for a girl like her. She did something embarrassing, shall not say much. Later she chase after me with the knife in my club. Well... Nothing much also. Brought her to take a bus behind the school. I bet this is her first time taking bus from the back of the school too. Arrived in our part of the school and we seperated to our individual labs. Came in and found no one i from my class except one. Im kinda shocked. Prepared my computer for work. After awhile, they came and everyone arrived. We started work soon after. Awhile later, my friend called me. She needed my help, so i went over and assisted her and helped her on her project. She does not understand the subject well so i had to help her. But i spend too much time there, casuing a little unhappiness with my teammate. I guess he must be frustrated and such as he still can't solve his error. All the best, i will try my best. Left them early as i had to leave for home. Getting some groceries for dinner. A little pasta, milk and cheese. After grocery shopping, i went back home.

Wow... My first time wearing pink and i met all my friends. I guess most of them said it was nice. Even my teammates say i look alot better wearing pink. I guess it is the special feeling that i gave my friends. I never liked pink when i was young. I never wore pink and i felt that pink was a colour that i could never fit myself into. From today onwards, i have created history in my life. I have challenged myself to wear a colour that i do not like so much. But today i received so much positive response, maybe that should encourage me. There is still one person that have not seen me in pink. I promised her i would show her one day. One prediction i have. Keep it inside me... A secret that will resurface when i meet her with my pink polo tee.

Pink Good Colour...

Interview Done, What's Next?

Another special wednesday. Wow... Two wednesdays that are special. Maybe its my luck ya? Woke up just nice to settle my morning rush. Went school late as the lecturer just started his lesson. Crashing into a lesson. Realised that im not that early either... None of my friends were there. Only after awhile, did they come in. That shows that we do not really care about this module. Really boring... After that lesson, i had to attend another lesson. Lesson after lesson... But the best part was during the evening time. I had an appointment for an interview with a company. The company was not as i expected. Located at the industrial areas. Not very my kind of style... The building is fairly secured. The lifts can bring you to every floor, but you have to use an access card to gain access to the level. After stepping into the level, it felt like i was in the movie, 'The Matrix:Reloaded'. The scene where the there is a corridor and many doors. Only the keymaker can access to it. It really felt that way. Thank god my interview was with a friend, my teammate. So we continued down and find our company. When we found it, i took a deep breath and knocked on the door. After that, i push open the door to find an office, about the size of my current classroom. The employees are all sitting together, Boss, sub-boss, all of them. No walls, no rooms, nothing seperates them. It cause a spine-chilling scare in me. Even the waiting reception is open. But the best part was seeing a friend. Well, not actually a friend, he is my ex-President. Didn't knew he was in this company. I had a chance to speak to him and find out more about the company. The company treats all interns rather good. They sent him to seminars and he returns to teach the rest. They gave him a personlised name card. He was treated like one of the working employees there. It is the same as the working world. The marketing manager interviewed me. She asked me questions and told me about what the company does. I did not feel like its an interview, i felt it was like a working excutive talking to a student. It was like a friendly conversation. One thing that i did not like about the company was that they supported Microsoft. Everything they use are all Microsoft products. I do not like Microsoft alot. Maybe after joining this company, it may change my mind and i may have a sudden crush on this software company. After the interview, i just went back home. Soon after, my friend called me and asked me about my interview. I had quite a good time. But i realise that he did not have the same fate as me. He had to go through a test and he failed rather badly for it. The company is going to hire two interns. Im only one of the six. Yes, six. Four from SP, one from NP and one from ITE. I do hope the others did better than me. The office gives me the creeps...

When i imagine my Internship, i imagine myself in working in the city and joining the major workforce. Not coming to an industrial park and join a group of IT executives that work in such an open concept. Yes... Its too open. There is practically no privacy. Nothing... I just cannot take it. I mean, at least give me a desk where there is a partition and my bosses are in rooms. So i can take a break once awhile. In that open concept, i don't think i can even catch a chit chat with my partner or another person. I will definitely go crazy when the stress level rises. This really sucks... One more thing that happened today was when i went back from the toilet, i saw a soccerball flew across the hallway. Next momment, i see this guy chasing after the ball. If that company is hiring an intern, i will definitely submit my resume and agree to all their terms. Im like... Wow, they do wore casual clothing and they do not look stressed up and tired like those in that company. A big difference. Very big... Really do hope the others put in a better interview than me. I specialise in open source softwares, not Microsoft softwares. Hate it when i have to let fate decide my life...

Please fail interview...

A Few Good Days

A few more days and i am free from the shackles of my FYP. Woke up early today as there was a lesson to attend. Arrived late but earlier than my lecturer. So im still considered early. Lesson was ok, not too boring. We entertained ourselves most of the time. There will always be a short lesson break in between and we always go for a long breakfast. Who cares anyway... I met my sister at the foodcourt. She has been suffering from lack of sleep and tons of stress. Her face shows everything. From a lively cute looking to dull lacklustre facial expressions. Looking at her in such a bad state, i feel very sorry for her. Wish i could do something for her to relieve her from so much stress. In the end, i just bought her a cup of ice lemon tea. After breakfast, we went back to lesson. Lesson ended with the lecturer forming us in our group to do a meeting roleplay. Im assigned a role, tell you more when we have been through it. After that, we went to our FYP lab to do our project. Stayed there for quite sometime, did not even went for my usual break. Did tons of cleaning up and adjusting of the project. But i suggestted that i leave early as my job scope have been completed. None of them complained, so i went home earlier than the rest.

Its just a few more days. I finally see some light of my proposed project. This is what i have been dreaming of for the last few weeks. I realise that the stress level have been lifted and the feeling is not the same as previous projects when we rush and rush when our dateline is near. Just another 12 days or so and im very relaxed. Too relaxed maybe... I may have to do some studying for my other modules. Not much mood to study anyway. Maybe, maybe when i have fully submit my project and did my demostration of my project. By then, i will be totally free, free like the wind.

Waiting for freedom...

Monday Blues... Tuesday ???

Another Monday... Another day of boredom. Morning woke up late due to too much drinking last night. Had a party to celebrate my brother's birthday. Drank this and that to entertain my uncles. When i arrived at school, i realise my classmates were booking the appointment for the NS medical checkup. I followed with them and we went along to book the same timing and date. Didn't really care when was it anyway... Just kept a reminder in my phone to remind me of the big day. Went on to submit last week FYP attendence to my supervisor. Setup my computer for later assignment. As soon as my com is ready, i was being called upon to go for breakfast. After breakfast, we went back to continue our project. We did not have much to do as it is near the end of our project. Now mostly is doing testing and trial run. There is still one final step we must do, i guess i will let the two girls that did the less to complete it. At least let them have a sense of commitment to the project. My classmates arranged a last minute outing to watch movie. Since it was a very good movie and i have seen it, i agreed to watch. We went over during evening time and bought the tickets. Laughed and enjoyed myself for the movie. After the movie, i suggested that we plan for the next movie. Another good movie coming and it involves one of my favourite games. We went to find a place to settle our dinner. But i did not eat there, i went home to eat. Did not want to spend anymore... End of the month is equilvalent to empty pockets. Joined them for dinner and we went on our own ways after that.

Monday blues... Who created that and where? Why is monday called the blues and not other colour? I wonder... So are they any other colours for other days? Tuesday green? Wednesday red? Thursday yellow? I tried finding on the Internet on how it came about. But to no avail... But while searching around this, i suddenly have this urge to buy a Risk boardgame. I searched around and all that were around were the newer versions. I did not quite like it, it is too fancy. Maybe it is me that likes old stuff. Some things are good when they are old, when they are improved, i just do not think it is nice. So currently im hunting for this old game. If you are reading this and you have an old Risk set, please contact me. Hope your set does not come with free moths and lizards. I do not accept foreign objects. Thanks and help spread the word.

Monday Tuesday Wednesday...

No Lens VS Hard Lens

Today had something different. I tried something new today. I went to school late as i had to bring my Grandma to the market. I so afraid that she might get into some accident or something... But as soon as i left her at the market, she felt like she belonged there. Maybe it is the elderly best place to get good and cheap groceries. I went to school soon after. Reached the place a little late, 40mins late to be exact. When i have settled down, i quickly setup my computer and started on my assigned work. It is just a minor job and i completed it very fast. After that, i just slack there and practically stared at my computer. I had an appointment to do some eye check. This time i had to try some lens. Hard lens. My friend checked my cornea to see whether is there any damage to it. After that, she left to find the hard lens. It was quite a long wait, so i sat on the chair and i fell asleep. Woken up by the lecturer there. Phew... Very embarrassing to be caught sleeping there. So she came over and looked at my eyes. She gave my friend some advice and asked her some questions. Asking her what should she do when she saw this. I have complete trust in my friend as i know she is a very hardworking and smart lady. I even made a pact with her, when we graduate from poly, she will be my personal eye doctor while i will help her in any IT problems she have. Today i tried something new... I tried a pair of hard lens. Wow... It was really an unforgettable experience. It was really bad at first. Cried as the eyes cannot get use to the lens. My friend cold hands helped me put on the lens. Took sometime for it to settle in. after 15mins, my eyes got used to it but i still have this irritant lens on my eye. Not really used to it. My friend even best, gave me a pair of special specs with removable lenses to wear. Asked me to read words on the wall. It felt really irritating, had to wear it for very long time. Man... Im a man of hard tears, and she is one lady dat made me cried like im a small baby. After that, she got her lecturer to come over and take a look at my eyes. Check if the lens fit my eyes. She said something of flat and steep. Not very sure what are they talking... So after awhile, my friend came back. She said something to me... 'The lens abit wrong ar. How bout this... I switch over and we check again.' Im like... !?!?! Huh?? What are you talking? Can you repeat that again in slow motion. I said, anything loh. But when she tried to take the lenses out, i tink my eyes is sensitive to it. I just can't seem to let her take it out with ease. She tried on my left and it caused a stinging pain. It was because the tip of the lens push against my cornea. It will take some time to let the cornea go back to usual shape, around 12 hours. It was difficult to put the lenses in. I realise that getting them out was almost the same or even more difficult. Cried somemore this time... Have this really painful stinging feeling. My friend kept apologising. She felt really bad to ask me to do this torturing tryout. Well... I volunteered and i trust her. So if im blind, i have to blame myself. Went home with a stinging eye.

'Hard lens cover the retina area, soft lens cover the entire cornea. That is why soft lens is more preferred.' When i heard that, i wanted to ask why did she gave me a pair of hard lens. But i kept it back as she just want to get experience of fitting a pair of hard lens. She is my future eye doctor. So using my youth, i will help her to complete her goal to become an eye specialist. This is the first time i met someone with an ambition to do something that is beyond what normal people like to do. Medical and Law. Both industry that only accept the hardworking and diligent students. I wish her all the best in her strive for being a medical specialist.

Hard or Soft...

Long Live Arcade!!

Today was another enjoyment day. It was a self declared half day for all of us. Went to school in the morning to attend lessons. Did not do my work but i just sat in and listened to the lectuerer. He asked me to take attendence. I just took and closed it, did not really care whether are they here or not. Full attendence. Guess im a good guy. After that, i went for another lesson. That was the last lesson of the day and of the week. Have lunch with a clubmate. The usual lunch date. Missed two weeks of lunchdates with valid reasons. I repeat, VALID REASONS. So when i came over, she was with a friend. Quite sweet looking. Name was... Shall not say it, i do not say names here if you notice. Had lunch with two beautiful ladies. The new friend was dressed rather simple. T-shirt, shorts and slippers. When she left, i was kinda shocked at her attire... Im like, 'Wah, she come school wear like dat ar?' Furthermore she is in the business school. Maybe one of a kind, special cases only. Haha... After lunch, my classmates asked me out for movie. I met up with some of them and we headed to the cinema together. Some left for karaoke while some continued the movie outing. Sat in the cinema for around 90mins. It is the 2nd movie of the week. Another movie outing with my seniors is coming this saturday. Wow... one week three movies... Guess i can break my ex-VP's record! After movie was lunch, a very late lunch. We went around different places to find a vegetarian store as one of my classmates was a strict vegetarian. Some complained and made fun of her. But i just consoled her and said, since she is the one that is vegetarian, we will find a place and sit there to settle our lunch. Finally found the place. Finished lunch and we chatted for sometime. Soon after, we left the place and went back home.

Before we went into the cinema, i entered the nearby arcade and played my heart out. It has been a long time since i stepped into one and enjoyed the fun it provides. I realise that i do not belong to the place anymore. Five years ago, i went to the arcade as if it was like a second home. I would spend quite a sum inside and enjoy the latest game and become a guru at it. That was when my life was still boring and i did have alot of free time on my hand. Today when exchanged $2 to play, i realise how much money i have wasted during my life then. Playing all these games and wasting all my money and time... How i wish i could go back in time and get back all this time and money. I realise that i could use this time and money to learn new skills and know more friends. Should have thought of that during that time. Well... Maybe its because im not that matured yet, still have the child like thinking of yesteryears. After today, i have decided on one thing. I shall never spend more than $5 in the arcade at one time. Rather save the extra for my marriage.

But arcade fun...

This is Good Day

Today has been a good day. Have completed one part of a particular assignment. Hope that i can score well for it. As usual, wednesdays are boring. But not today, because an event has made me rather happy. Tell more later... Had lessons as usual. I still have the privillege of having lessons in the Mass Lecture Theatre(MLT). I have a teammate telling me that he misses the feeling of sitting in one and listening 'attentively' to the lecturers. Well... We sure will miss some stuff once a while. Im going to miss to much so much when i graduate. Had lunch at a different place. Another foodcourt in my institution. Ate Japanese cuisine, it has been some some since i ate from the stall. Im very glad the uncle still remembered me. Maybe it was because of the famous incident with my seniors last year. I will never tell, unless you have ate with us before. Im sure some of them will know... Or maybe not... After lunch i went back to more lessons. Same old boring lessons. But this time the lecturer came over and helped us a little. At least i feel that we have received help from him. After that, i went over to my club's Annual General Meeting(AGM). Had some fun just shouting and laughing all the time. As there was a lucky draw, i wrote down five names. So i had five chances. Than out of nowhere, my buddy got like ten plus tickets. Im like stunned... Next momment, i got thrown all the tickets to me. Telling me to help them check. So i sat through the entire AGM. Towards the end, it was time for the lucky draw. Suddenly, all those people that gave me their tix, grabbed them all back. So im left with a couple of tix. But those were not mine. My buddy got all mine. But he was finding the one tix that belongs to her girl, and it was in my hands!! Muahahaha... So when the 1st consolation prize was announced, my number was called. My buddy got it. He took all my tix. So he went down and collected the prize. Awhile later, he got it again. But this time, all the other tix were disqualified. So he sat there in dispair. After a long while... It went into the last three prizes. I miss out on the 3rd. But when they call for the 2nd, i got the tix. It belong to my buddy, but since he got 2 consolation prizes. Might as well let me take this. Im sorry, people that laugh first, laugh last. Even worse, when they announce the 1st prize, it was a tix that was disqualified. My buddy was very fed up. His disqualified tix just cost him the 1st prize. We all laughed at him. That was a double blow for him. After that, we went outside to have refreshments. Ate and ate... Just keep on eating... I even challenged my clubmates to a fruit eating contest. Wow... My Logistics Head can really eat. He ate like double of what i ate. A contest of how many pieces you can really eat. Eventually, i stood at the 2nd one to give in. Man... Talk about a stomach full of fruits... Joined them for debrief and a short meeting. Left with them and proceeded home.

Today is a good day. Assignment complete half. Lecturer came and help us. Won 2nd prize in AGM. Had a ton of fruits in my stomach. Well... Nothing come this close to being one of the best wednesdays of the semester. This is definitely the best day of the week.

Go shopping le...

Rain Rain Go Away...

Today is a very rainy day. It rained whole day. Gonna keep it short today. Feeling very tired after continuing my report for one of my project. Do not really like that module. Been bored to death since i started on it. It is almost the same as one of a module i have taken when im in my first year. What a total waste of time. Today did nothing much. Same old go school and come back from school. My project is ending and my job is finishing. Now i leave the testing and debugging to my teammates. They will check everything and make sure everything works fine. During this time, i will have some free time on hand to concentrate on my other projects. If i have the mood to do them. Nothing much else to talk about. Getting very tired. Think something is wrong with me, sleeping late and waking up early to do boring stuff. Maybe that is how life is suppose to be. Looking forward to the next few days.

Time to rest...

Monday Blues??

What is Monday Blues? To me, it is a day where everything that should go right went the opposite way. This morning i have to wake up at eight. But i woke up at half-past seven. So i went back to sleep. Next momment, i look at my ringer, it looks like i slp for 15mins. But i took a closer look and i found it is 15mins before nine. Im shocked!! I got up and did everything at the speed of light!! Very very fast, grab and go. A workout can be choreograph i think... But that is not the worst part, it started to rain. Quite heavy too. Therefore i had to bring an umbrella. Take notice, i brought an umbrella out. Reached school soon after and started work. Had to settle on some administrative stuff before i can start work. Usual for every MONDAY. Had breakfast earlier since the stressed curve have curved back to normal. Went back to the lab in a better mood. Maybe the stress level is getting lesser and im getting less pressurised. So went back to continue work. Realised that most of them had nothing much to do. Maybe we have completed what we need to do and now in the testing stage. Shall let them do the testing and trial runs. I left my teammates. I do not wish to add this here as i may want to forget it. A little of good and bad... But i did went out to catch a movie. Quite a short one, 90mins of film. But a good one to laugh it out. Went home soon after. On the way home, i saw this cute girl in her secondary school uniform. She is very cute. Long hair, big round eyes and when she smile, i can see clearly the dimples she have on her cheeks. Smooth skin white skin. Not my type of skin color, but its still attractive. I give her a 8/10. We alighted on the same stop. I walked slightly slower to findout where she actually lived. Lucky me... She walked into a condominium earlier than me. Now i know where she lives... Think our chances of meeting again would be high and low. Depending on luck again. At this very momment, i realise something... My brolly was gone. Thinking back where i left it... I realise i left it in the cinema. Shucks...

Time is passing at a steady speed. Im completing my Poly studies and im ending my final year. After this, i will be going for my Internship. Soon after that, i will be joining the army to serve the nation. Never knew time would pass me by that fast. Thinking back, i realise that things just come and go every minute, every second. I learn to treasure the times i had with my friends, my club mates and my family. I learn to hold on to memories that are dear to me and keep them deep in my heart. I picked up experiences that not most people are able to see or hear. I have seen the most beautiful sun set and sun rise during my trip to NZ. I have done so much that i could write a book and compete with all the celebrity authours around. Haha... Wonder if i did that, would anyone buy my book? I do not think i will even reach the top ten sellers. But that will be considered if someone were to pay me to do it.

Time to relax...

Eye Examination

Today i have an eye examination. Quite fun, but at some point is quite tiring. This morning, i woke up early enough for me to play a game of soccer on my PS2. I always let my mom use the toilet as she needs it more than me. While playing, i waited for the sound of the door to unlock. Once i heard it, i quickly went in with my towel and do my necessary chores. Prepared my bag for the day and left home in a rush. Reached the lab a little late as i had to walk a big round the staduim now. Damn those construction fence... When i arrived, i started to do my stuff. I reviewed on my teammates jobs and how was their progress. They did what they were told and im quite delighted. After i finished what im suppose to do, i went to have breakfast with one of my teammate. He had some gripe on the other team members. I can't blame him for having it. What he said was the truth. I can see it with my own eyes. But it is near the end of the project. I do hope they will learn from this project and understand the basic learning skill of picking up a programming language. I left them in the afternoon to go for my eye examination appointment. Played some new equipment today. I had to take my eye pressure again. I also played with something called a Visual Field Identifier... Something like that... Well... You just cover one side of the eye and the machine will flash dots of light on the spherical background. You will have to stare at the light and push a button when u see the light. You are not allowed to see the light, but press the button if you see it. I did it one round, than the trainee optometrist checked my results with the lecturer. The lecturers there are qualified eye doctors. So they found something wrong with my eyes. My blindspots are totally wrong and my eye alignment is off course. Im kinda shocked to hear that, so i went for another test. Eye nerve photographic test. A small machine with a huge lens aimmed at my eye. I was suppose to look directly at it and they take a photograph of it. Wow... After the flash of light, the next few seconds was rather white. One flash for each eye actually. But my left eye was naughty, i blinked at the wrong time and the lens did not capture what was intended. So i had to retake again. After that, the lecturer came in and looked at the photographs. She told me nothing was wrong with my eyes. I have perfectly fine eyes. So it must be measurement of my blindspot error. I was like... Thank god... But the blindspot machine is kinda like an ordeal. Fun at first, then five minutes later it start to feel bored. 15mins later, i was totally scared of it. Not something comfortable to play with. To think i have to go through it again!! ARGHZ!! I think lady luck was with me, someone came in after us and changed the parameters of the machine. It couldn't work. So i had to make another appointment to come another time to do that freaking machine again. ARGHZ!! After that, i left the test centre and went back to the lab where i left my teammates. They left while i stayed on to do my part. Improved on the codes and added some new pages. Still not tested or validated yet, but i will get it done next week. Three more weeks till total freedom!! Left the lab in the evening to find a couple of my friends. They asked me out for dinner. How can i reject them? Its been some time since we had a meal together. Met them up, chatted and we ate dinner together. Chatted about our school. We are the same age, we graduated from high school at the same time. But i admitted to Poly one year earlier then them, so i have finished what they are going through. Gave them some pointers on their modules they are going through. Had quite some fun taking and making fun of them. Too bad i did not take my camera, wished i took with me. Able to snap some pics to keep as momentos. Went home and joined my parents for dinner. Did not eat much as was kinda full. After that, they went into the jackpot room. I went in too. It was fully packed. All the machines were used, except one. My mum went up to reserved it. So my dad changed some for a basket of coins and urged me to play. I played and played... No winning at all... Got kind of fed up with it, so i went to get a cup of coffee. Walked about to cool myself down. Mum was playing another machine. She lost like $40 to a machine. She gave up on that machine and she handed me the rest of the $10 to follow up on my current machine. I inserted all the coins in and tried my luck. Again, lady luck smiled on me again. Shall not disclose how much i won, maybe a hint. I need more than two hands to count my winnings. Haha...

Today made me realise something:
1) Trust your doctor when he say that you have something wrong. Do not argue with him/her.
2) Do not belive the above if your doctor is a quack.
I almost got a shock when i heard the lecturer told me i had some eye problems. Of my five senses, i love my eyes the most. Sight is something i would want to lose the last. I don't mind being deaf, don't mind be dumb. But i will never tolerate if i cannot see. Even if i cannot smell or taste, i would sacrifice these for my eyes. A simple reason why is very simple. I want to see God's creation. I want to see things that most people are unable to. I want to see the pretty girls that walk on the street. Most of all, I want to see and remember all the beautiful things that have crossed my path in my lifetime. That will include my friends too. They will sit at the top forever for being there for me.

Sight is precious...