Time is ticking...

A few more days, less than 100 hours left. Countdown to my submission date of my FYP. Headed to school late. Woke up rather late too, had a bad time waking up. After i woke up, the construction site caused a ruckus again. Left home soon after... The sunshine feels so good on the body, making me feel so alive. After some lessons, i went to join my friends to tidy up our presentation. Had to present it today. Rush and rush... Finally we have completed it. Sure enough... It was tough, but at least it was something we did last minute. Crash into the presetation with whatever we had. Not a memorable experience and one that i would never regard as one of my best presentation. After that, i met up with my friend to help her on her project. Taught her as much as possible, could not help her much, instead just encouraged her and and gave her some pointers. Finally, had to accompany her to walk to the train. When we left the lab, i followed her. She asked me to keep her company while she waits for her class of boys to walk together to the train. When they have arrived, we set our destination to the train station. While walking, she chatted with them, but she walked next to me. Maybe she felt it was neccessary to do it as she was the one that asked me to do it. When we reached the train station, we seperated as we took different directiions. The train was kind of late due to the mad rush of a typical Singapore evening. Alighted at the next stop and went on to check out the comic store. Went to take a look around to see if the newest volume of comic have arrived. Im not sure why, but i just like to get my comics from that store. Luck was not on my side, there was no new volumes of comic. What a wasted trip. Left the comic store and went home feeling tired and dissapointed.

Time is running out and im left with that little time to settle all my FYP stuff. We have finished it totally left with some clearing of the codes and a couple of comments here and there. Nothing that cannot be done in this short timing. All that is required are done. Hope everything works well when we present our FYP to our Supervisors and Evaluator. I do hope he gives a remark or comment so that i will get to showcase our project again.

Present, present, present...(1 nouns, 1 verb, 1 adjective)

Bored...

Time to blog, (looks at clock), time to sleep... Nohing much to blog anyway. Same tuesday as usual. Maqybe tomorrow i will blog again. Yesterday blog have been cancelled by blogger server. Damn that server...

Boredom invades me...

Bitter Sweet Monday

Finally, mondays that are not that blue. Went to school as per normal. Had FYP slot in the morning. Went to school settle the final details of my FYP. One more thing, last friday my supervisor did not came to visit me. Today he came. First thing he told me was he forgotten totally about friday visit. Im like... ARGHZ!!! Made me so mad. My supervisor and you made the appointment, than you forget... This sucks. But it does not bother me. I just showed everything to him and told him about our functions and stuff. Had this sense of acheivement where i finally able to let people see what we have been talking and writing on paper so long. After we trial demo our project to him, he gave us some comments and advised us on how to do our final presentation. He left soon after and we went to have our breakfast. After breakfast, we continued with refining of our project. Had to switch labs as the other course of students require to use the lab. Before changing labs, we sat somewhere to settle our meeting tomorrow. It's a formal meeting and we are tested on it. So we definitely have to practice for it. I took this meeting rather serious but seeing my members having fun and not taking it seriously, made me relax my seriousness. They laugh, i laugh along. They smile, i smile along. No matter what, i enjoyed my time being with them. We proceeded to the lab that have the software we wanted. The lab was one of my junior's class. She was suppose to have lesson there, but she came really late. I called her and told her about it. After that, she came over quickly. She was the one that i had to help in her project. Looking at how bad she is doing, i quickly gave her some advice and explained the codes to her. Hope she understands what im talking. She left earlier than me. I stayed in the lab longer to finish up whatever im suppose to do. After finishing, i waited for my teammates to complete their tasks. After that, we left together. Though we walk seperate ways when we walk out of the lab, i still feel that its good to wait for them.

Nothing much to say. Not much to say as i have other things to do. I guess im not setting my time management well. Got to set it right soon.

Today good Monday...

One more week till freedom

Last day of the week. Nothing much i can do now except keep doing trial runs and testing to my project. Arrived early in school to start doing project. Glad my teammates were early too. I had an appointment with my supervisor that i will show him a taste of what we are going to present. In the end, he did not come. He did not even contact me. Im not very happy at this but he is still my supervisor. Maybe its our culture to respect and listen to seniority rather than manners. Waited for him for half an hour. After that, i called and left him a message, and i brought my whole team down for breakfast. Told him to contact me when he wants to meet us. Ate and went back to our project lab. He haven gave me a call. Continue what we are doing and waited for his call. We even shifted our lab. And he still never call me. Well... I gave up on him and i just surfed the net while my teammates are cleaning up our project. Had a conversation with a friend of mine. We graduated at the same year but i enrolled into poly earlier. She could not make it to poly as she failed a major subject. We were quite close so i gave her a helping hand on her project. That is when i get to know more about her poly life. Man... She is so popular and wanted by her classmates. 2 different guys chasing after her. Alas, she like none of them. I had to sit in and act 'to be very close with her'. Well... She was one of my good friend during my secondary school days so i just played along. After some acting and laughing at the 2 idiots, i left her with her friend and i went back home. Changed into my swimming gear and went swimming. Its been sometime since i have such a cooling dip.

Just 2 months ago, our Prime Minister(PM) proposed a five-day-week for all civil servants. This includes the employees of all educational organisations that are government funded and this includes my poly. Now, my poly is closed on saturday. Last time i used to go back to school on saturday to enjoy the facilities of the school. I pay almost a thousand bucks each semester to attend lessons and use the school's facilities. Now im being confined to staying home and spending time with my family. I know... We are a stressful and fast-pace country and society. But saturdays are my days where i get to go out with friends, use the facilities my school provide and increase the bond i have with my club mates. Last time it was simple, a call or a simple message like this would settle my saturday; 'Hey, tmr wan to go club? Play bball/soccer/badminton. 9am, club meet.' This was how my saturday are settled. Not much thinking and not much consideration. Now... I had to plan for my saturdays. I have to think of what am i going to do on saturdays. No more badminton playing or basketball games. This sucks very much. Now i wander around my saturdays... Thinking of what to do, where to go every friday. A new chapter of how i spend my saturday has been forced by the higher levels of the society.

Miss the six-day-week...

The World Is Pink

Today i did something for the 1st time again. Morning i woke up and slacked a little on bed. But in the end, i still woke up and prepared for school. When i am choosing my clothing of the day, i decided to break all barriers and wear a colour that i have shunned for years. I wore a pink coloured polo tee. Yes, i repeat that. I wore a pink coloured polo tee. That is the only colour polo tee that i wore for the 1st time and the only colour that i have in my wardrobe. Wore to school... Had this feeling of pinkish everything. It is like everyone is looking at my pink polo tee. I suddenly have this attraction. Unwanted attraction. Well... Maybe its just me. Went to my first lesson... Felt that the girls in the class were kinda shocked at my attire(20 students, 18 girls). But i took it easy and took a seat like it was nothing. After lessons, i met up with my Welfare Officer and we went for lunch. Her companion kept saying 'eeee... eeee... eee...' Im like, i cannot wear pink issit? She continue with her 'eeee...' I just said, come lets go. Partly to say i don't want to care what she said. Com'on... Its my first time wearing pink and my 1st bad response. I brought my welfare officer to the other end of the food court. We went over to get some chicken chop. She liked the food. But i can see that it was very filling for a girl like her. She did something embarrassing, shall not say much. Later she chase after me with the knife in my club. Well... Nothing much also. Brought her to take a bus behind the school. I bet this is her first time taking bus from the back of the school too. Arrived in our part of the school and we seperated to our individual labs. Came in and found no one i from my class except one. Im kinda shocked. Prepared my computer for work. After awhile, they came and everyone arrived. We started work soon after. Awhile later, my friend called me. She needed my help, so i went over and assisted her and helped her on her project. She does not understand the subject well so i had to help her. But i spend too much time there, casuing a little unhappiness with my teammate. I guess he must be frustrated and such as he still can't solve his error. All the best, i will try my best. Left them early as i had to leave for home. Getting some groceries for dinner. A little pasta, milk and cheese. After grocery shopping, i went back home.

Wow... My first time wearing pink and i met all my friends. I guess most of them said it was nice. Even my teammates say i look alot better wearing pink. I guess it is the special feeling that i gave my friends. I never liked pink when i was young. I never wore pink and i felt that pink was a colour that i could never fit myself into. From today onwards, i have created history in my life. I have challenged myself to wear a colour that i do not like so much. But today i received so much positive response, maybe that should encourage me. There is still one person that have not seen me in pink. I promised her i would show her one day. One prediction i have. Keep it inside me... A secret that will resurface when i meet her with my pink polo tee.

Pink Good Colour...

Interview Done, What's Next?

Another special wednesday. Wow... Two wednesdays that are special. Maybe its my luck ya? Woke up just nice to settle my morning rush. Went school late as the lecturer just started his lesson. Crashing into a lesson. Realised that im not that early either... None of my friends were there. Only after awhile, did they come in. That shows that we do not really care about this module. Really boring... After that lesson, i had to attend another lesson. Lesson after lesson... But the best part was during the evening time. I had an appointment for an interview with a company. The company was not as i expected. Located at the industrial areas. Not very my kind of style... The building is fairly secured. The lifts can bring you to every floor, but you have to use an access card to gain access to the level. After stepping into the level, it felt like i was in the movie, 'The Matrix:Reloaded'. The scene where the there is a corridor and many doors. Only the keymaker can access to it. It really felt that way. Thank god my interview was with a friend, my teammate. So we continued down and find our company. When we found it, i took a deep breath and knocked on the door. After that, i push open the door to find an office, about the size of my current classroom. The employees are all sitting together, Boss, sub-boss, all of them. No walls, no rooms, nothing seperates them. It cause a spine-chilling scare in me. Even the waiting reception is open. But the best part was seeing a friend. Well, not actually a friend, he is my ex-President. Didn't knew he was in this company. I had a chance to speak to him and find out more about the company. The company treats all interns rather good. They sent him to seminars and he returns to teach the rest. They gave him a personlised name card. He was treated like one of the working employees there. It is the same as the working world. The marketing manager interviewed me. She asked me questions and told me about what the company does. I did not feel like its an interview, i felt it was like a working excutive talking to a student. It was like a friendly conversation. One thing that i did not like about the company was that they supported Microsoft. Everything they use are all Microsoft products. I do not like Microsoft alot. Maybe after joining this company, it may change my mind and i may have a sudden crush on this software company. After the interview, i just went back home. Soon after, my friend called me and asked me about my interview. I had quite a good time. But i realise that he did not have the same fate as me. He had to go through a test and he failed rather badly for it. The company is going to hire two interns. Im only one of the six. Yes, six. Four from SP, one from NP and one from ITE. I do hope the others did better than me. The office gives me the creeps...

When i imagine my Internship, i imagine myself in working in the city and joining the major workforce. Not coming to an industrial park and join a group of IT executives that work in such an open concept. Yes... Its too open. There is practically no privacy. Nothing... I just cannot take it. I mean, at least give me a desk where there is a partition and my bosses are in rooms. So i can take a break once awhile. In that open concept, i don't think i can even catch a chit chat with my partner or another person. I will definitely go crazy when the stress level rises. This really sucks... One more thing that happened today was when i went back from the toilet, i saw a soccerball flew across the hallway. Next momment, i see this guy chasing after the ball. If that company is hiring an intern, i will definitely submit my resume and agree to all their terms. Im like... Wow, they do wore casual clothing and they do not look stressed up and tired like those in that company. A big difference. Very big... Really do hope the others put in a better interview than me. I specialise in open source softwares, not Microsoft softwares. Hate it when i have to let fate decide my life...

Please fail interview...

A Few Good Days

A few more days and i am free from the shackles of my FYP. Woke up early today as there was a lesson to attend. Arrived late but earlier than my lecturer. So im still considered early. Lesson was ok, not too boring. We entertained ourselves most of the time. There will always be a short lesson break in between and we always go for a long breakfast. Who cares anyway... I met my sister at the foodcourt. She has been suffering from lack of sleep and tons of stress. Her face shows everything. From a lively cute looking to dull lacklustre facial expressions. Looking at her in such a bad state, i feel very sorry for her. Wish i could do something for her to relieve her from so much stress. In the end, i just bought her a cup of ice lemon tea. After breakfast, we went back to lesson. Lesson ended with the lecturer forming us in our group to do a meeting roleplay. Im assigned a role, tell you more when we have been through it. After that, we went to our FYP lab to do our project. Stayed there for quite sometime, did not even went for my usual break. Did tons of cleaning up and adjusting of the project. But i suggestted that i leave early as my job scope have been completed. None of them complained, so i went home earlier than the rest.

Its just a few more days. I finally see some light of my proposed project. This is what i have been dreaming of for the last few weeks. I realise that the stress level have been lifted and the feeling is not the same as previous projects when we rush and rush when our dateline is near. Just another 12 days or so and im very relaxed. Too relaxed maybe... I may have to do some studying for my other modules. Not much mood to study anyway. Maybe, maybe when i have fully submit my project and did my demostration of my project. By then, i will be totally free, free like the wind.

Waiting for freedom...

Monday Blues... Tuesday ???

Another Monday... Another day of boredom. Morning woke up late due to too much drinking last night. Had a party to celebrate my brother's birthday. Drank this and that to entertain my uncles. When i arrived at school, i realise my classmates were booking the appointment for the NS medical checkup. I followed with them and we went along to book the same timing and date. Didn't really care when was it anyway... Just kept a reminder in my phone to remind me of the big day. Went on to submit last week FYP attendence to my supervisor. Setup my computer for later assignment. As soon as my com is ready, i was being called upon to go for breakfast. After breakfast, we went back to continue our project. We did not have much to do as it is near the end of our project. Now mostly is doing testing and trial run. There is still one final step we must do, i guess i will let the two girls that did the less to complete it. At least let them have a sense of commitment to the project. My classmates arranged a last minute outing to watch movie. Since it was a very good movie and i have seen it, i agreed to watch. We went over during evening time and bought the tickets. Laughed and enjoyed myself for the movie. After the movie, i suggested that we plan for the next movie. Another good movie coming and it involves one of my favourite games. We went to find a place to settle our dinner. But i did not eat there, i went home to eat. Did not want to spend anymore... End of the month is equilvalent to empty pockets. Joined them for dinner and we went on our own ways after that.

Monday blues... Who created that and where? Why is monday called the blues and not other colour? I wonder... So are they any other colours for other days? Tuesday green? Wednesday red? Thursday yellow? I tried finding on the Internet on how it came about. But to no avail... But while searching around this, i suddenly have this urge to buy a Risk boardgame. I searched around and all that were around were the newer versions. I did not quite like it, it is too fancy. Maybe it is me that likes old stuff. Some things are good when they are old, when they are improved, i just do not think it is nice. So currently im hunting for this old game. If you are reading this and you have an old Risk set, please contact me. Hope your set does not come with free moths and lizards. I do not accept foreign objects. Thanks and help spread the word.

Monday Tuesday Wednesday...

No Lens VS Hard Lens

Today had something different. I tried something new today. I went to school late as i had to bring my Grandma to the market. I so afraid that she might get into some accident or something... But as soon as i left her at the market, she felt like she belonged there. Maybe it is the elderly best place to get good and cheap groceries. I went to school soon after. Reached the place a little late, 40mins late to be exact. When i have settled down, i quickly setup my computer and started on my assigned work. It is just a minor job and i completed it very fast. After that, i just slack there and practically stared at my computer. I had an appointment to do some eye check. This time i had to try some lens. Hard lens. My friend checked my cornea to see whether is there any damage to it. After that, she left to find the hard lens. It was quite a long wait, so i sat on the chair and i fell asleep. Woken up by the lecturer there. Phew... Very embarrassing to be caught sleeping there. So she came over and looked at my eyes. She gave my friend some advice and asked her some questions. Asking her what should she do when she saw this. I have complete trust in my friend as i know she is a very hardworking and smart lady. I even made a pact with her, when we graduate from poly, she will be my personal eye doctor while i will help her in any IT problems she have. Today i tried something new... I tried a pair of hard lens. Wow... It was really an unforgettable experience. It was really bad at first. Cried as the eyes cannot get use to the lens. My friend cold hands helped me put on the lens. Took sometime for it to settle in. after 15mins, my eyes got used to it but i still have this irritant lens on my eye. Not really used to it. My friend even best, gave me a pair of special specs with removable lenses to wear. Asked me to read words on the wall. It felt really irritating, had to wear it for very long time. Man... Im a man of hard tears, and she is one lady dat made me cried like im a small baby. After that, she got her lecturer to come over and take a look at my eyes. Check if the lens fit my eyes. She said something of flat and steep. Not very sure what are they talking... So after awhile, my friend came back. She said something to me... 'The lens abit wrong ar. How bout this... I switch over and we check again.' Im like... !?!?! Huh?? What are you talking? Can you repeat that again in slow motion. I said, anything loh. But when she tried to take the lenses out, i tink my eyes is sensitive to it. I just can't seem to let her take it out with ease. She tried on my left and it caused a stinging pain. It was because the tip of the lens push against my cornea. It will take some time to let the cornea go back to usual shape, around 12 hours. It was difficult to put the lenses in. I realise that getting them out was almost the same or even more difficult. Cried somemore this time... Have this really painful stinging feeling. My friend kept apologising. She felt really bad to ask me to do this torturing tryout. Well... I volunteered and i trust her. So if im blind, i have to blame myself. Went home with a stinging eye.

'Hard lens cover the retina area, soft lens cover the entire cornea. That is why soft lens is more preferred.' When i heard that, i wanted to ask why did she gave me a pair of hard lens. But i kept it back as she just want to get experience of fitting a pair of hard lens. She is my future eye doctor. So using my youth, i will help her to complete her goal to become an eye specialist. This is the first time i met someone with an ambition to do something that is beyond what normal people like to do. Medical and Law. Both industry that only accept the hardworking and diligent students. I wish her all the best in her strive for being a medical specialist.

Hard or Soft...

Long Live Arcade!!

Today was another enjoyment day. It was a self declared half day for all of us. Went to school in the morning to attend lessons. Did not do my work but i just sat in and listened to the lectuerer. He asked me to take attendence. I just took and closed it, did not really care whether are they here or not. Full attendence. Guess im a good guy. After that, i went for another lesson. That was the last lesson of the day and of the week. Have lunch with a clubmate. The usual lunch date. Missed two weeks of lunchdates with valid reasons. I repeat, VALID REASONS. So when i came over, she was with a friend. Quite sweet looking. Name was... Shall not say it, i do not say names here if you notice. Had lunch with two beautiful ladies. The new friend was dressed rather simple. T-shirt, shorts and slippers. When she left, i was kinda shocked at her attire... Im like, 'Wah, she come school wear like dat ar?' Furthermore she is in the business school. Maybe one of a kind, special cases only. Haha... After lunch, my classmates asked me out for movie. I met up with some of them and we headed to the cinema together. Some left for karaoke while some continued the movie outing. Sat in the cinema for around 90mins. It is the 2nd movie of the week. Another movie outing with my seniors is coming this saturday. Wow... one week three movies... Guess i can break my ex-VP's record! After movie was lunch, a very late lunch. We went around different places to find a vegetarian store as one of my classmates was a strict vegetarian. Some complained and made fun of her. But i just consoled her and said, since she is the one that is vegetarian, we will find a place and sit there to settle our lunch. Finally found the place. Finished lunch and we chatted for sometime. Soon after, we left the place and went back home.

Before we went into the cinema, i entered the nearby arcade and played my heart out. It has been a long time since i stepped into one and enjoyed the fun it provides. I realise that i do not belong to the place anymore. Five years ago, i went to the arcade as if it was like a second home. I would spend quite a sum inside and enjoy the latest game and become a guru at it. That was when my life was still boring and i did have alot of free time on my hand. Today when exchanged $2 to play, i realise how much money i have wasted during my life then. Playing all these games and wasting all my money and time... How i wish i could go back in time and get back all this time and money. I realise that i could use this time and money to learn new skills and know more friends. Should have thought of that during that time. Well... Maybe its because im not that matured yet, still have the child like thinking of yesteryears. After today, i have decided on one thing. I shall never spend more than $5 in the arcade at one time. Rather save the extra for my marriage.

But arcade fun...

This is Good Day

Today has been a good day. Have completed one part of a particular assignment. Hope that i can score well for it. As usual, wednesdays are boring. But not today, because an event has made me rather happy. Tell more later... Had lessons as usual. I still have the privillege of having lessons in the Mass Lecture Theatre(MLT). I have a teammate telling me that he misses the feeling of sitting in one and listening 'attentively' to the lecturers. Well... We sure will miss some stuff once a while. Im going to miss to much so much when i graduate. Had lunch at a different place. Another foodcourt in my institution. Ate Japanese cuisine, it has been some some since i ate from the stall. Im very glad the uncle still remembered me. Maybe it was because of the famous incident with my seniors last year. I will never tell, unless you have ate with us before. Im sure some of them will know... Or maybe not... After lunch i went back to more lessons. Same old boring lessons. But this time the lecturer came over and helped us a little. At least i feel that we have received help from him. After that, i went over to my club's Annual General Meeting(AGM). Had some fun just shouting and laughing all the time. As there was a lucky draw, i wrote down five names. So i had five chances. Than out of nowhere, my buddy got like ten plus tickets. Im like stunned... Next momment, i got thrown all the tickets to me. Telling me to help them check. So i sat through the entire AGM. Towards the end, it was time for the lucky draw. Suddenly, all those people that gave me their tix, grabbed them all back. So im left with a couple of tix. But those were not mine. My buddy got all mine. But he was finding the one tix that belongs to her girl, and it was in my hands!! Muahahaha... So when the 1st consolation prize was announced, my number was called. My buddy got it. He took all my tix. So he went down and collected the prize. Awhile later, he got it again. But this time, all the other tix were disqualified. So he sat there in dispair. After a long while... It went into the last three prizes. I miss out on the 3rd. But when they call for the 2nd, i got the tix. It belong to my buddy, but since he got 2 consolation prizes. Might as well let me take this. Im sorry, people that laugh first, laugh last. Even worse, when they announce the 1st prize, it was a tix that was disqualified. My buddy was very fed up. His disqualified tix just cost him the 1st prize. We all laughed at him. That was a double blow for him. After that, we went outside to have refreshments. Ate and ate... Just keep on eating... I even challenged my clubmates to a fruit eating contest. Wow... My Logistics Head can really eat. He ate like double of what i ate. A contest of how many pieces you can really eat. Eventually, i stood at the 2nd one to give in. Man... Talk about a stomach full of fruits... Joined them for debrief and a short meeting. Left with them and proceeded home.

Today is a good day. Assignment complete half. Lecturer came and help us. Won 2nd prize in AGM. Had a ton of fruits in my stomach. Well... Nothing come this close to being one of the best wednesdays of the semester. This is definitely the best day of the week.

Go shopping le...

Rain Rain Go Away...

Today is a very rainy day. It rained whole day. Gonna keep it short today. Feeling very tired after continuing my report for one of my project. Do not really like that module. Been bored to death since i started on it. It is almost the same as one of a module i have taken when im in my first year. What a total waste of time. Today did nothing much. Same old go school and come back from school. My project is ending and my job is finishing. Now i leave the testing and debugging to my teammates. They will check everything and make sure everything works fine. During this time, i will have some free time on hand to concentrate on my other projects. If i have the mood to do them. Nothing much else to talk about. Getting very tired. Think something is wrong with me, sleeping late and waking up early to do boring stuff. Maybe that is how life is suppose to be. Looking forward to the next few days.

Time to rest...

Monday Blues??

What is Monday Blues? To me, it is a day where everything that should go right went the opposite way. This morning i have to wake up at eight. But i woke up at half-past seven. So i went back to sleep. Next momment, i look at my ringer, it looks like i slp for 15mins. But i took a closer look and i found it is 15mins before nine. Im shocked!! I got up and did everything at the speed of light!! Very very fast, grab and go. A workout can be choreograph i think... But that is not the worst part, it started to rain. Quite heavy too. Therefore i had to bring an umbrella. Take notice, i brought an umbrella out. Reached school soon after and started work. Had to settle on some administrative stuff before i can start work. Usual for every MONDAY. Had breakfast earlier since the stressed curve have curved back to normal. Went back to the lab in a better mood. Maybe the stress level is getting lesser and im getting less pressurised. So went back to continue work. Realised that most of them had nothing much to do. Maybe we have completed what we need to do and now in the testing stage. Shall let them do the testing and trial runs. I left my teammates. I do not wish to add this here as i may want to forget it. A little of good and bad... But i did went out to catch a movie. Quite a short one, 90mins of film. But a good one to laugh it out. Went home soon after. On the way home, i saw this cute girl in her secondary school uniform. She is very cute. Long hair, big round eyes and when she smile, i can see clearly the dimples she have on her cheeks. Smooth skin white skin. Not my type of skin color, but its still attractive. I give her a 8/10. We alighted on the same stop. I walked slightly slower to findout where she actually lived. Lucky me... She walked into a condominium earlier than me. Now i know where she lives... Think our chances of meeting again would be high and low. Depending on luck again. At this very momment, i realise something... My brolly was gone. Thinking back where i left it... I realise i left it in the cinema. Shucks...

Time is passing at a steady speed. Im completing my Poly studies and im ending my final year. After this, i will be going for my Internship. Soon after that, i will be joining the army to serve the nation. Never knew time would pass me by that fast. Thinking back, i realise that things just come and go every minute, every second. I learn to treasure the times i had with my friends, my club mates and my family. I learn to hold on to memories that are dear to me and keep them deep in my heart. I picked up experiences that not most people are able to see or hear. I have seen the most beautiful sun set and sun rise during my trip to NZ. I have done so much that i could write a book and compete with all the celebrity authours around. Haha... Wonder if i did that, would anyone buy my book? I do not think i will even reach the top ten sellers. But that will be considered if someone were to pay me to do it.

Time to relax...

Eye Examination

Today i have an eye examination. Quite fun, but at some point is quite tiring. This morning, i woke up early enough for me to play a game of soccer on my PS2. I always let my mom use the toilet as she needs it more than me. While playing, i waited for the sound of the door to unlock. Once i heard it, i quickly went in with my towel and do my necessary chores. Prepared my bag for the day and left home in a rush. Reached the lab a little late as i had to walk a big round the staduim now. Damn those construction fence... When i arrived, i started to do my stuff. I reviewed on my teammates jobs and how was their progress. They did what they were told and im quite delighted. After i finished what im suppose to do, i went to have breakfast with one of my teammate. He had some gripe on the other team members. I can't blame him for having it. What he said was the truth. I can see it with my own eyes. But it is near the end of the project. I do hope they will learn from this project and understand the basic learning skill of picking up a programming language. I left them in the afternoon to go for my eye examination appointment. Played some new equipment today. I had to take my eye pressure again. I also played with something called a Visual Field Identifier... Something like that... Well... You just cover one side of the eye and the machine will flash dots of light on the spherical background. You will have to stare at the light and push a button when u see the light. You are not allowed to see the light, but press the button if you see it. I did it one round, than the trainee optometrist checked my results with the lecturer. The lecturers there are qualified eye doctors. So they found something wrong with my eyes. My blindspots are totally wrong and my eye alignment is off course. Im kinda shocked to hear that, so i went for another test. Eye nerve photographic test. A small machine with a huge lens aimmed at my eye. I was suppose to look directly at it and they take a photograph of it. Wow... After the flash of light, the next few seconds was rather white. One flash for each eye actually. But my left eye was naughty, i blinked at the wrong time and the lens did not capture what was intended. So i had to retake again. After that, the lecturer came in and looked at the photographs. She told me nothing was wrong with my eyes. I have perfectly fine eyes. So it must be measurement of my blindspot error. I was like... Thank god... But the blindspot machine is kinda like an ordeal. Fun at first, then five minutes later it start to feel bored. 15mins later, i was totally scared of it. Not something comfortable to play with. To think i have to go through it again!! ARGHZ!! I think lady luck was with me, someone came in after us and changed the parameters of the machine. It couldn't work. So i had to make another appointment to come another time to do that freaking machine again. ARGHZ!! After that, i left the test centre and went back to the lab where i left my teammates. They left while i stayed on to do my part. Improved on the codes and added some new pages. Still not tested or validated yet, but i will get it done next week. Three more weeks till total freedom!! Left the lab in the evening to find a couple of my friends. They asked me out for dinner. How can i reject them? Its been some time since we had a meal together. Met them up, chatted and we ate dinner together. Chatted about our school. We are the same age, we graduated from high school at the same time. But i admitted to Poly one year earlier then them, so i have finished what they are going through. Gave them some pointers on their modules they are going through. Had quite some fun taking and making fun of them. Too bad i did not take my camera, wished i took with me. Able to snap some pics to keep as momentos. Went home and joined my parents for dinner. Did not eat much as was kinda full. After that, they went into the jackpot room. I went in too. It was fully packed. All the machines were used, except one. My mum went up to reserved it. So my dad changed some for a basket of coins and urged me to play. I played and played... No winning at all... Got kind of fed up with it, so i went to get a cup of coffee. Walked about to cool myself down. Mum was playing another machine. She lost like $40 to a machine. She gave up on that machine and she handed me the rest of the $10 to follow up on my current machine. I inserted all the coins in and tried my luck. Again, lady luck smiled on me again. Shall not disclose how much i won, maybe a hint. I need more than two hands to count my winnings. Haha...

Today made me realise something:
1) Trust your doctor when he say that you have something wrong. Do not argue with him/her.
2) Do not belive the above if your doctor is a quack.
I almost got a shock when i heard the lecturer told me i had some eye problems. Of my five senses, i love my eyes the most. Sight is something i would want to lose the last. I don't mind being deaf, don't mind be dumb. But i will never tolerate if i cannot see. Even if i cannot smell or taste, i would sacrifice these for my eyes. A simple reason why is very simple. I want to see God's creation. I want to see things that most people are unable to. I want to see the pretty girls that walk on the street. Most of all, I want to see and remember all the beautiful things that have crossed my path in my lifetime. That will include my friends too. They will sit at the top forever for being there for me.

Sight is precious...

Homely Home

What a way to do some constructive work alone. Today was not a day as expected. I woke up late and decided to go school late too. So while preparing to leave home, the skies changed for the worst and i found myself trapped at home. Looking out of my window, i can see the usual flood around my area. Just a stone throw away, there is the construction site. There are a lot of bangladeshi workers there. Since it was flooding, they wade their way around the site. My form of seeing bangla workers swimming in Singapore. So trapped in my home, i decided to stay home and use my computer to type all the reports that i need to do. Home was not a really good place to do work. I have alot of distraction around me. My PS2, my Hi-Fi, the kitchen, etc. Why the kitchen you would ask... While i like to cook once awhile, sometimes when im hungry, i would think of crazy things to cook up and try. So today i did something intresting. I took my leftover spiral pasta and a can of campbell meal soup. Mixed them together to make my lunch. Added some carrots and brocholli to supply my veggie intake. Voila!! I created another dish. Haha... Not bad, tasted rather nice. But a tad salty as it was still canned soup. After lunch, i continued back to my computer. Sat there to type finish all that was required. Another 2 weeks and i need to submit the report. Type type type... For 3 straight hours, i was typing away. Finally i complete what im suppose to do. Then i went to watch tv as i have not been spending time with it. Than something miraculous happen, tv was showing Garfield!! The Garfield i like so much. So i took some biscuits and sat there for 30mins watching the cartoon. But i realise that not the entire cartoon is about Garfield. There was this section where another not so famous comic characters that was drawn by Jim Davis (Garfield comic creator) too. So when it show that, i was like turned off. After the end of the cartoon, i went back to my room and continued to type my life away. Type and type... Im like those clerk in office working, but in a more comfortable zone. After that, i ate dinner. Rested awhile, enjoyed some timeout. Played some games using my PS2. I do not know what hit me, but i had this urge to swim. Yes!! At night... So i went swimming. The water was bloody cold. Felt like shivering when i came out of the pool. After bathing, i connected back with my computer and i started to chat with my frens.

Today was a little longer than usual. Today alot of things happen that was not the usual. Hate doing the usual things. Like going school in the morning and coming back home late. Im used to the life but i really like to do things that is always changing. I take everyday as a challenge. Everyday have something new for me to try, something new for me to eat, someone new to meet, someone new to see. If it is the same things over and over again. Im afraid i might not be able to take it. Hope in future, i have something new to do everyday. Something that won't bore me for long.

Feel so homely...

Life Support Machine

Nothing much happened today. Except i wasted most of my time in school when i can use it else where more fruitfully. Morning was rather sunny. It had sunshine written all over Singapore. Furthermore, i wore a black shirt and a cap. The cap would block the sun. But the black shirt was something wrong. That is because my room were covered up by the curtain. Anyways... I took the bus and headed for school. Had to walk a big round like what i did last semester. Hated doing that. Its a very long walk and i waste precious time. Attended lesson just on time again. But the worst thing happened during lesson time. THE AIR-CONDITION BROKE DOWN!! Lesson carried on in a sauna. After lesson, i went on with the day and went to do one of my project. Stayed in the lab for quite sometime. I even skipped lunch to do the project. Through hunger i endured and completed the assignment. After that, i went to meet my friends. Since i did not have lunch, i told them to join me for lunch. While walking to the foodcourt, we walked past this buffet table. The buffet was intended for the business student. But, as Singaporeans, we just walked over, took the plates and forks and got ourselves a couple plateful of food. Settled my lunch. Thanks to all the SB people. Since it was raining, i decided to go to the computer lab to entertain myself there. Spent around an hour plus there watching flash projects. Lab closed soon after. I was suppose to meet my sister for dinner. In the end, she had to do something important. Our dinner date just went up in smoke like fire touching water. It was rather sad for me, so i went home alone. All alone... Lonely...

The project datelines are getting closer and closer. Im getting stresser and stresser. My FYP project is at some standpoint where i can take it easy. But now i have to concentrate more on the other projects. I do not know how long will we take to finish the rest of them. But i do hope to finish them all as soon as possible. Today i got my exam dates too. I have one at October 6, the last one will be at November 2. I think im going to waste my time during the exam period. Study for my SAT, study for the final exam and also attend lessons for my driving. Not even close to that stage and im packing it. Guess im preparing not to get bored.

Life is sad...

Heavy Heavy Day

Today was not the usual stressful day. It was a day filled with tiredness, boredom, stress and laughter. As usual, woke up early in the morning for school. Went school and attended the lesson on the dot. Just came in when the lecturer started his lesson. Sat down and listened to what he have to say. Having test next week. Not sure whether to score for this or just do it for the sake of it. Breakfast was taken during his lesson. As usual. During our lunch break, i stayed in the lab and played some games. Lunchtime was assigned too early for us. So i pushed back to later. Went up to my lab to continue my project. I sat down and reviewed on what we have done and what we still need to do. I realised that we have done most of it but left with all the difficult parts. It was really stressful to look into every problem when you have not even solved your own. One momment im looking at this page, analyzing the error. The next momment, i helping the other to explain the logic and the coding material. When i got back to my desk, i only had a few minutes of thinking for my problem. Before i can come up with any solution, im being called upon again. Im like so... ARGHZ!! Keep losing my track of thoughts. I wonder when i led this team, did i sink myself into something that would make myself commit suicide. The guys left early and i sat a little longer to think of my problem. But by that time, im totally exhausted and unable to think anymore. I sat there, blankly looking at the screen. Totally lost. I couldn't take it anymore, i shut down my com and left for home. On my way home, i realised that there is a perimeter fence made up. I have enjoyed the shortcut since the start of the school. Now they are going to fence up the area and i have to walk around it. It sucks to the core...

Being a leader, something that is quite normal for me. I have taken up numerous leadership roles in this lifetime. Being a leader is not easy. Able to keep the teammates together to work for the common goal is a skill that combines alot of different skills together. Are you able to practice tact to keep the members happy. Are you able to think faster and logically before committing to any move suggested by the team members. Are you able to oversee their actions. Are you able to let them keep the glory when the team succeed and take all the blame when everything fail. I have tried. I have experienced all. I can tell you, being a leader is not a good thing. This society reward the leaders. If you are a good leader, you will be rewarded. But i realise something, when you receive the award, you must be able to withstand even more responsibility. Being a leader is stressful and tiring enough, being an awarded leader is even worse. You got to live up to the award expectations... Else you will be branded a fake.

Tired of leading...

Take a look at this!!

Aphrodite/Eros


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One Country, Many Leaders

Nothing much today, today's entry is a special one. Im going to tell a story. A story of a country. A summary of what i did today will be here. So do not worry. Morning went school, first to arrive. Start work on project. Had breakfast. Continue with project. Ate lunch. Back to Project. Finished my assigned tasks of the day. Went to have dinner with friends. Went home. Now back to the story. It is quite long so go get yourself a cup of water and for some, go get your reading glasses. You might need it.

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A long time ago, there was this mass big vast of land. All the people lived happily. All the people worked towards a common goal. They were happy. They were prospering. And soon, the elected their leader. This leader was tall. He had a good support. He helped his people. But because he committed too much to a section of the country, one part of the country suffered. It started only a little, but as time goes by... The section weakened. When the current leader was old, the people of the country had no choice to elect this leader. This new leader was chosen by the old one's companinion. The companions' each had a few candidates, but they narrowed down to one. A election was done. Finally, a new leader was born. But to help him, they also chose a couple of good companions to assist him.

As the land was in good condition, many other people came to join this land. Hoping to ride on the wealth the country have build up. So after accepting all the new immigrants, the old man stepped down for the younger leader to come up. But this leader was not as committed as the previous one. It was the strong supporters that kept the country going. They supported each other and carreid on the daily stuff the country. The pervious leader, with three other companion came back to help this supporters. They knew that the leader was not doing anything and they cannot see this group suffering. Without them, the supporters will never survive. The supporters boycott the leader and seldom listen to him. Since he did not sacrifice for the country, why should his views be heard. So when they held discussions, he gave excuses and did not attend any of it. The supporters were tired and they were looking for successors. So they picked a few young ones to be the future leaders. This time, they decide that they shall not make the same mistake as the previous leadership. The older generation of leaders, who are still enthusiastic about their role in the country, started to help this upcoming leaders. But they chose to meddle too much in their affairs. Such that, the young ones do not like them. And they think that the supporters are with them too. So they did their own stuff. Without consulting the ones with experience and knowledge. Without much experience and they think so highly of themselves, they have walked right into a trap they have created. The supporters wanted to help, but they got rejected everytime they offeredtheir services. It was a very hard lesson for them to learn.

It was time for the supporters to resign and allow the new leadership to come up. The supporters have chosen a few to take up important ranks. Those who were not given a rank retreated and joined the old ones. The old ones because of this incident, did nothing to care about the land. Whether it wither to death or it burned to the ground. They do not care. They left the country and vowed never to come back again. The supporters, who resigned from leadership, assigned themselves to be advisors of the country. They call themselves the Vanguards. They dedicate themselves to assist these young leaders. When they have doubts, they are there for them. But there is a clause, these Vanguards are not allowed to make any decision. The young leaders are to make the decision. Ever since the new leaders were chosen, the Vanguards were in place, the country was not the same as before. A portion of the country followed the ways of the old ones. They disregard the young leaders. But this was just the minority. The rest of the country was follwed the rule of these young leaders. The young leaders with a good lesson learnt, knew that experience should not be ignored. Advices had to be heard, hand to be asked for. This is what the Vanguards hoped for...

This is near the end of the story. From a happy, fun loving country of people that worked together. They have been through quite some rough winds together. They seen leaders rise and they seen leaders fall. Those that follow close to how the leaders work, knew their hardship and their sacrifices. Those that do not know, listen to stories that is passed down by word of mouth. Now the country have seperated. Vanguards were banded together to provide insight on problems. The old ones started out serving the country. They resigned to their fate and ran away from the problems when things do not go their way. This country, this once happy and peaceful country, when will they be the same again. Will they ever be pieced back together... As some people say... This is story have ended and that is another story.

Rest your eyes...

Revival of the Blog

After 3 days of leave for the blog, it is time to revive it once again! I decided to rest it as currently im having holidays from school. And what i usually do are just go school and continue my FYP project. Nothing much happens around when im doing my project. Just stay in the lab and do coding all the time. Boring eh... Well... That is all that happen most of the time during this holiday week. But today i had something special. My teammate's birthday. We prepared a cake and some 'extra' for fun. He had a surprise so our plan was kinda taken out nicely. Had whipped cream on plate and thrown all around. He got quite alot on himself... So it was rather fun. But i had all the cleaning up to do. Since we thrashed the place, we shall keep it clean. After that ate our cake and went back to our lab to continue project. Left really really late.

I realise that when u start something that you do daily, once you stopped, you will feel that something is missing. When i stopped the blogging for 3 days, when i sleep i have this thing bugging me to write my blog. Since i have set to rest it for 3 days, i shall keep to it. So tonight i definitely must write an entry. Feels good to come back to keep a page of my life history in this blog. That way, when i lose those precious memories, at least i have this place to read up. Just make sure i don't forget my username and my password...

I am back!!!

Stress 17:0 Life

Yeah... My life is now filled with stress and tiredness... Really hope to finish this and skip this stressful part as soon as possible. Morning i had nothing much. Took my time to wake up. Watched TV and slowly picked my clothes. Even sat down and think whether should i bring any coins to school!! Haha... After that, i met my Welfare Officer for breakfast. I was late, I have to abmit.The bus was late, not me. I waited like 20mins for it. Usually the bus will arrive every ten minutes, this time it was late so i sat in the hot sweltering sun for the bus. So in the end, the lateness dragged to her. Felt really sorry to be late. But at least she waited for me. Got to thank her for that. When we went to get our food, my Logistics Head came and told me that we are not allowed to keep flamable stuff in the clubroom. Man, i was shocked. The next he told me is, when caught having flamable stuff in the clubroom, it will be a revoke of the clubroom and we have to bear all the responsibility. That means i will have a club without a clubroom. Well... At least they settled it. After lunch, i read up on my work. Have to do some reading so that i can contribute to the project later on. Don't like this feeling where i only nod my head while the others just keep commanding me what to do. So i must have a lead on what to do. That way, i can contribute more to the project. When i got bored of all the reading, i went to my lab to join my teammates to continue my project. I am still stuck at that error. I do not know what error it is... But im just stuck there. I guess it is some stupid error that i still cannot find. I hope that i can make it quick and get it done as soon as possible. After that, i went home alone.

Today stress have scored another goal against life. I wonder when will life score one for me? When will i ever beat stress?? In school, i feel the stress. But when im home, the stress level seem to drop and i feel much better. I will talk with my friends and just let loose my mind. Let it rest after the day's tiring work. I guess friends are the only thing that stress will never conquer. They are the ones that help you beat stress and win the battle over stress. I wonder, those that without much friends, what do they usually do? I heard that some just stay at home and do practically nothing. I wonder how do they enjoy life? I should not care so much about them. To each his own. Different people will have different way of thinking about life. Enjoying about life. Just take life as a path filled with obstacles and pit holes. Friends are just tools that make these obstables easier to overcome and pit holes simpler to come out of.

I need you...

Another Boring Chapter

Life is always boring on wednesday. Good thing i know how to entertain myself. Woke up early for school. No more construction noises to wake me up. Furthermore, when i left my home, i saw a couple of th workers using the slicing machine to cut the tarmac of the road. If they were to do it in the morning before i wake up, i think those Bangladeshi workers will turn from black skin to red skin. Arrived 15mins late for the lecture. Although i was not the latest, i was one that have arrived. The lecture was pathetic. Around 20 students, only seven turned up. So... Not something new to me, not something new to the lecturer anyway. Must be something wrong, somewhere... Anyway, i attended the lesson and continued my day. Later, i received news from another lecturer that school lessons will be off on Thursday and Friday. WOO HOO!! Finally some time off before the start of the term break. But that does not mean i do not have to do my project. I guess this gives me more time to do my project and allow me to rest my mind. After all the lessons were done ang gone, i accompanied my friend to the guild house. My school's guild house, a.k.a. club house. We played bowling there. This was one of the days where we were shocked to see the guild house full and the lanes totally used up. Finally something new... But what amazed me the most was catching Remy Ong, our national SEA Games Gold Medalist bowler. What is he doing there you will ask right? Well, he is coaching some kids, aged around 7-9 years. Im really impressed on the parents. I wonder how much are they paying him to coach two kids for one hour. Some gossip to add on, he drives a BMW Z4. I try and see whether i can get the link to the car, but if you really want to know more about it. Well, i just tell you the price it will cost you to own one of these road speedsters. This car is worth $400k. Close your mouth please... Thank you... After the bowling game, i met up with my sister and we had dinner together. After dinner, i sent her home and i went home on my own.

Im too bored to say anything. Maybe some entertainment would be good for me, something to intrest me when i come home. Something to make me feel busy but still want to do it. Maybe that is something i need to make my life complete. Well... All not complete yet... I still have to find my other half to complete my life fully...

Yawnz Yawnzz Yawnzzz...

Nobody's Perfect...

Another blogger accident happened again. My last entry was erased and the entry was not entered. That part of my life will be gone forever. Maybe it will be put as a bookmark in my life. The missing link in my life. Currently there are two. Hope blogger wont make more missing links. Today was a long day for me. Woke up early and i was thinking whether to skip lesson or not. That lesson is always so boring. Going there is like a chore for me. Did not learn much today either. A two hour lesson is usually playing games on the computer, chatting and listening to music. Not very enjoyable as i can do this comfortably at home. After that, i rotted in the com lab. Playing game this time. Decided to kill a boss before we head back to the usual lab. During lab hours, i sat in the full 4 hours to do my project. No break or lunch break were taken. Must be an achievement for me. When i did what i could for my part, i ended my session in school. Left my teammates there and i accompanied my sis and her friend(Piggy) for dinner. We ate KFC. Piggy ate very less as she is afraid of getting fat. She think she is fat. She don't look fat to us... Maybe its the extra kilo she gained or the extra flab she found near her arms or waist. But to me, she is still the same usual Piggy. Its a long time since my sis and i catched a movie together. So she got a pair of free tickets, she asked me to for a movie date. Haha... We watched a movie titled, The Stepford Wives. Somewhat funny show. Tell more later... After the movie, we set off for home. Accompanied her as long as i could. After that, i took a bus home and enjoyed the night scenery throughout the entire bus trip.

After watching the show, i realise that you cannot force your life partner to be perfect. A loving and homely woman that take care of the children and cleans the home spotless. Some beautiful girls wants to be successful in the career line and manage a family. But her focus will always be her career. The men do not like that and they moved to Stepford. Well... Shall not say much else it will spoil the show. It rang to me that nobody is perfect. You cannot expect your wife to be perfect all the time. She cannot do so many things and perfect in everything. But if she is too perfect, wouldn't it be scary? Lastly, i thought of this while on the bus home. A side proverb that mixes with mathematical equation. Hope you guys can figure it out like me...

Practice makes perfect.
Nobody is perfect.
So why practice?

Happy Teachers' Day...

Go The Distance

Nothing really, just someting that crossed my path of life. More later... Today had a good sleep. Too good a sleep. Overslept by a full hour. My first time since a very long time ago. But i was not the only one. There were some that were late too. But i realise we did not do much today. I spent most of my time at school to solve a problem in our project. Time is slowly getting on us, we are not bucking up and still taking things as lightly and doing things slowly. Maybe as a leader, i see things more up close and feel the dateline getting closer and closer. Hope the rest will understand this and move a little faster. I'm giving them alot of space to retreat and did not pressure them. Know them too well as they do not work best under stress unlike some of my friends that do. Walked around like a zombie in school as it was really tiring to spend four hours solving a stupid error. Hope this does not arise again tomorrow. After that, i took two bus trip to the shopping centre near my place to return a movie i rented during the weekends. Went there and the lady did some marketing and pushed some movies to me. Maybe they experience some fall in revenue. Get somebody like me who does not have much time to watch movies and persuade me to rent one or two. But i thank her for her gesture and told her i wanted another movie. Currently that movie is a hot favourite so its not around, but she will hold on to it and i will collect it on wednesday. I think i get my brother to do the dirty job. Went home soon after. One more thing, i changed my service plan for my phone. The customer service girl was not bad, the service she gave me was a good one. But for a friend of mine, he got more complains than the service he received. Maybe that is something that can be compared among the mobile phone service companies.

Once in awhile, there are reports or stories that says that long distance relationship happening. When it appears to the mass, they are usually the ending of the 'getting-to-know-each-other' period and proceeding to 'geting-married-and-happily-ever-after' period. Some couples just get it along as if they have met since they were born. Some had common intrests so they get together and they got together better and better as time goes by. For me, i never did try such long distance relationship. Once during my secondary school days, my school hosted another Scout group from Malaysia, Sarawak. There were girl scouts and boy scouts coming. It was something new for me as i never hosted any overseas scouts in my life. When we were all sitting in the Auditorium, i saw this girl. She was beautiful. Some people say when men wear their uniform, they look alot better and and more eye catching. I think its true. Just think of it, we are wearing well pressed uniform and have achievements all sewed to our uniform. When you wear it, you feel so proud in it. But for the girl scout, she was captivating. That is my first time i ever see a girl looking so nice in a girl scout uniform. Maybe i was still young and unexperienced. But their stay was short. Took them around for shopping and enjoying. At that time, they came over for a short holiday. But also, they came over as a friendly marketing stinct for their mid-year Jamboree (multi-national Scout camp). Before she left, she asked me whether i will see her again. I told her, i will work hard and work my way there. By hook or by crook, i make sure i will get to see her in her homeland. And that is what i did the following year. I went over to Sarawak and met her there. Maybe its fate, maybe its the scout association there. My campsite is just next to hers. And my tent is just 2 lines of fence away from her. During the 7 days stay there, i chatted with her everynight. One of my most memorable nights i have spent. Left when my stay is up. When we were waiting for our flight at the airport, she came and wished my good luck. And i promised i will contact her as soon as i arrived in Singapore. When i board the plane, the most saddening part was thinking of leaving the place i had so much memories in. So much fun. So much enjoyment. Maybe that is how much i miss the place. That is how much i miss her.

Stuck in Singapore...

Another Fruitful Day

Finished what i am suppose to do. Finally... As yesternite was movie nite, i slept very very early. So the next morning i had difficulty in waking up. But all it need was a mental push and up i went to continue my day. Reached school for lesson, man its been quite sometime since i reached the venue early. Thursdays are usually the same, lessons than lunch with my friend. This time more gossip... Would not want to say more, maybe later... Had a fruitful lunch with her. Maybe its the friendship we share and treasure. But i think that she is a good friend to have and lamest entertainer i will ever have. After lunch, we walked back to our area. We seperated when we reached. She left me for another friend. A closer friend. But i do not have any sad feelings or anything. I got my own things to do too. So i walked back to my lab to continue my project. Today completed one of the hardest and most tedious part of my FYP. Had a great deal of satisfaction. After completing that, i went on to do some other stuff. Started on something new. Maybe this will keep me busy for another week or so. Left the school with 2 teammates still doing the work assigned to them. Really appreciate their commitment to the project. I promise, when we have completed our project, i shall give them a treat.

Today i am going to address to something that i think everyone should have. Privacy. To some, privacy can be something intimate, something that they don't want people to know or see. Others think that privacy is being alone and not called for anything. For me, i think that privacy what everyone have but it depends on the limit they set. One privacy i think everyone have but seldom use is the freedom of choice. I have my own choice. I do not have to be forced to take a choice that i don't like. Each of us have a choices to make to make our lives. It is wrong to diss another person's choices. It is like dissing him/her privacy. Even between relationships, there are bound to be a privacy limit. I don't think no relationship would be so opened that they know each other's secret. That would be something written out of a love story and everyone knows that love stories does not happen in this world. Privacy, a small word that means so much. SO DON'T POKE AROUND ANYMORE!! Muahahaha...

Don't Touch Anything!!

Yawnzzz...

Yeah... Today sure is boring... Chose the most boring elective that the school provided. Regrets? Definitely. All wednesdays will be boring for this semester. Finish the day with alot of things on hand to do. Lessons were done and over with. After that i had a compulsory briefing for my ITP (Internship Training Program). After that, i had to attend this student dialogue session where they question me and another person on why do we sign up to SP and not other Polys. Big issue, small and simple answer... Its near my home!! In the end, the whole room that consists of third year students, was only me and her. Funny thing was... They chose to ask us third year students where i have graudated from my secondary school two and a half years ago. Damn funny how SP works... Finished the dialouge session and i went over to the stationery shop to get my ammunition, i mean my pens as i'm running out of it. But the shop keeper said the manufacturer has no stock. Man, this sucks. So i have to depend on other pens again. Maybe one day i may get to use those sort of pens again. Strolled back home and got some R&R.

Less than 10 weeks more before we submit our FYP project. The stress level is rising every second. Even as im going to sleep, my mind is thinking of how to solve such problems. And when i got one, i quickly jot it down on a book. I would forgo sleep and rest for that idea to be written down and rather lose it and spend time thinking again. Sometimes i think too much and later i could not go to sleep. Not a very good way to pass my nights but this is how i operate when in pressure. Some of my friends will know that i don't show the stress out. My face always conceal what im thinking and what im suffering. A good thing or a bad thing... That is for you to find out and for me to know.

Hit by stress...

Sir!! Incoming Virus at 2 O'Clock!!

Man... Today was another day my com was attacked by viruses. Shouldn't have downloaded any artistic shows... Oopss... Spent the morning at home. A very bad diarrhea. Must be yesternite dinner or supper. Either way, it was unclean or my hands were unclean. Rested at home since i could not move my legs well. But my fingers were still alrite, so i excercised them by playing games on my PS2. Its been awhile since i spent some precious time with it. After some playing, i sat down, again, on my chair and my table. Started to think of ways to do my project. Thinking of ways to solve problems. Even without the screen and the codes, im able to visualise the problem and think of ways to solve it. Well... A 'Code Blueprint' is what i usually called it. When my ass got a little bit better, i went to school to join my teammates to continue our project. Improved on my work, but still a long way to go. Took some time off to have lunch. After that, it was all work and no play. Not even logging into e-Messenger. Work work... All the way till 6.45pm. Went home soon after.

My computer was under virus attack again. This time, my defence did not detect it as the old one crippled it and allow it to bypass my firewall!! Man, this infuriates me. In the end, i had to scan my computer countless times. Search for the virus and delete manually. I even had to restore my system. Did not like what i did. Its a little like operation to my computer. Hate doing that. Almost gave up and wanted to reformat my computer. That will be the worse of the worse to happen. Maybe one day i will do a total backup of my computer to another HDD. That way, my computer is save and my time can be spent on other things.

Damn you viruses...

Vigilante Driver

Simple meaning of the title says it all. Man, this is my first time driving at 70kph!! Haha... Usual morning stuff. No more construction noises. Better sleep. Went to school to start my project work. But realised that there were some technical problems. What a way to start a day!! So i rested and restarted my mood to do work. After some simple use of the computer, my teammates and i went for our breakfast. A long breakfast. We ate like as if nothing is important. Maybe the stress level is not there yet. After breakfast, we stroll our way back to the lab. What a lazy morning it is. Did some coding but not much... Usual monday blues. After that, i went for my final driving lesson of the semester. Finally some sharp turns. Not very good at it yet. Still got some practising to do. But the best part is... I drove outside at 70kph. Highest speed record till date!! Haha... After the driving lesson, i took a slow and winding bus trip back home. A very slow and winding road. But at least i got home in one transportation. Sat infront of my TV and watched some of the Olympics 2004. Track and Field games. Ate lunch late so i try not to eat that much. Watch the Simpsons later and after it ended, i went back to my com. ARGHZ!!! My com is sick!! Took like 3-4hrs to repair it. Finally i got rid of the virus. Im afraid that maybe other viruses will attack soon. Hope it is just the end of the virus attack.

Today while walking to the toilet, i overheard 2 guys talking about our national peddlar, Li Jiawei. Even though she did not win a medal for Singapore, but being 4th of the world is an achievement for her. She did all she could and we should be proud of her. The guys were talking how useless she were to get to the bronze finals and not winning anything back. They were saying how useless she is. Com'on she is ranked fourth in the Olympics. What more could you ask for? Maybe in the SEA games, she will emerge as the Gold Medalist. Im sure she can do it. Have hopes in her. She will be Numero Uno one day. Mark my words, those 2 idiots, she will win a gold medal one day.

Believe in her...

Robots of the world... UNITE!!

The construction site management kept their promise. No 0900hrs, no start work. So i had a quite a good wake up mood. Went to the usual busstop to take my bus to school. Something happened that pissed me off really. Almost lost my cool... I was waiting at the busstop when the bus came. Than the worse of the worse happened... The bloody bus driver just drove off. He stared at me when i stood at the edge of the busstop. At the momment, i almost lost my cool and pointed something at the bus. But i realise that this is Singapore, civilised people will deal with this civilly... Muahahaha... Let me see... Bus number plate, check. Bus number, check. Bus arrival time, check. Hmm... What can i do with all of this? Don't need to say much. In the end, i was late for my lesson and im being marked late. Not worth it... After lessons, i ate lunch with a clubmate. She is now the Welfare Officer. We had lunch and chatted together. Maybe in the future, we will be eating lunch on every thursday. Hope my friends that see me with HER will get MISUNDERSTOOD. Thank you my friends... After lunch, i went back to my computer lab to continue my project. When i walked in, i was shocked!! Where the hell are my teammates? I called one, no pick up. I called another, no pick up also. In the end, i got fed up and sat there and did my own stuff. A few minutes later, one of them called me and apologise. Im not a person that keep grudges long so i accepted his apology and waited for their arrival. Upon arriving, they apologise again and we started our work. No breaks were taken today. No 'makan' breaks that is... Other short breaks were given to them. Its an incentive for them for being so hardworking and really putting effort to complete the project. Around evening time, it was a long and tiring day for them. I can see that their minds were exhausted so i declared end of day for them. I stayed on for a couple more minutes to complete my part of the work. Completed like 50% of the assigned worked. By end of tmr, i shall complete everything. I knock off soon after i closed all the programs that i opened.

Today while having a short break. I decided to browse around for any new robots that i like. Than this monstrosity caught my eye. A huge humanoid robot that carried 2 laser sabres at the back, hung 3 long swords at the each side, attached to left arm are shurikens and flying daggers, to his right is a laser cannon and held in each hand are guns that can blow a new holes for his enemies. I looked at the robot design and im like in awe. But truthfully, how can a robot carry this much stuff?? Just look at the armoury this guy is holding? I wonder how fast can he move? But just looking at the weapons he is holding is a miricle that such a machine can carry that much. But the that thing cost $200 plus... I sure like it, but i think it is too expensive and too unreasonable. I got a few robots currently now sitting and standing in my room. Some people say that im still a child, playing with all this toys. But what i see them are displays. Dreams and visions of the future. One day, maybe one day we can have gigantic robots walking on earth. Not for war but for other purposes like construction, fire fighting and even disaster assistance. But before we enter that age, that era... I shall marvel at the concept designs that are found everywhere and enjoy the art pieces that populate my room.

Human + robot = ???

Boring Boring Boring Day

Today was not a very intresting day. Nothing intresting happened. All was boring and it was one of the boring-est day this week. Woke up with only a few hours of sleep. Very tired but still had to go school for lesson. Frist lesson was boring. Teaches us something that we have learnt during our 1st year. Boring is one big word to describe. After that, i went for other lesons. All were lessons... Some were okie, some were dead boring. After lessons... I went for my lunch. Bored of eating in school. FOr the past 6 weeks... I have been eating breakfast and lunch at school. Bored of it totally... After lunch, i left for home. Did not have much to do either... Catch my favourite Simpsons show and went for a shut eye later.

Same old boring day...

Today was no different form any other day. I spent it in school and nothing much happens as i did the usual, FYP and more FYP. One thing that differs from other days is i wrote another love letter. Written it in class and had it read to the entire class. Was not a very good one, but i expressed my feelings in words. Maybe my words are too difficult to understand. Maybe one day i may write a very good one and give it to the girl im in love with. When i declared its time to knock-off from school and go back to our normal lives, i realised i needed some stationery. So i hopped on a bus and went to the nearest Stationery shop. Must be some luck... I did not find my pens neither did i find my special erasers. But i would not give up, so i took another bus and went to another stationery shop. While on the bus, i met up with a friend. He was on his way to giving tuition at a nearby condominium. We chatted and talked about our diffculties and our fate. I alighted earlier than him. So i continued my hunt for stationery. Alas... I could not find my objective and i ended buying another kind of eraser to reload my erazer (there is a difference!!). Before leaving the building, i went to rent a movie as it has been some time i have seen a good movie. Went in grabbed one and left quickly. Title of the DVD; Big Fish. Yeah, i've seen it before, but its still a great movie. It is one movie that will accompany me through my life and i will remember it. One thing i will always carry with me after watching is that life is as beautiful as each person sees it. No two person sees a thing the same and will articulate totally the same. Some may belt out facts, boring and true. But some, some will weave stories and add magic to them to make them intresting. Whatever the ending is, the main message is get acrossed to the targeted audience.

Fact or Fiction...

Exchange a few days??

Who would like to exchange a few days with me? Would give a million bucks to exchange a few days of R&R... Woke up feeling tired. The mind is willing but the flesh is weak. So i dragged my tired body to the bathroom to wash up. Set off soon after. Went school in a cheery mood. Started work soon after. Had breakfast later and continued to do work. Halfway, i left my group to do another project. Man, another boring project. So we slog it out and quicly cleared it. Went back to my group to continue my work. Had a very frustrating time. Could not pass the hurdle i met. Keep staying at the same point. Didn't know what to do. So i had to shut the com down and went home to rest my brain.

I think a few days of rest would perk me up. Im like always feeling so tired and lethargic. Not only that, i have more and more work piled up on me as each passing day. I can't seem to clear them as i move on. Maybe that is the way or that is the usual lifestyle of a typical Year3. Before you graduate, they force you with all kinds of things and make sure you die of suffocation. After that, they pump you with alot of information and stuff before letting you leave the institution offically. I mean... Is this how our poly grad must go through? It is like a tradition. Every poly student must pass it to be considered a graduate from poly. But one thing you will notice is that we are trained to be able to handle stress better than other people. We are being trained to get used to the outside world and understand the ups and downs of a office worker. It is here where we learn to do what we will be doing for the rest of our lives. Some of us may not agree with what i said, but no matter how you argue...We are trained to fit into the working world. This is our advantage over other people. Maybe one day i will reflect on this gruesome days and laugh at those 'O' level graudates for choosing poly as their higher learning.

Wanting to switch...

Phase II commence...

Team Member: Sir, we have completed and achieved good results for our phase I of the mission. What shall we do next, sir?

Team Leader (That's me!!): Well... Looking at how our objectives are met in our phase I, i believe we are able to start phase II. All hands on deck! We shall begin phase II now. Set a course to finish all the coding and designing. Full speed ahead. Let's finish before expected time.

Team Members: Aye Aye Sir!!

Nay... Nothing of such happened. Dun think it will happen ever. Haha... Wished it was that exciting. But i have started our 2nd phase of my FYP. It is time for nightmares to begin. Today i had 3 major events. Morning, noon and night. During the morning, i met up with my teammates and we continued our phase II. It is a looooooonnnng time since i touched programming. Needed sometime to get use to the pressure and stress. Especially the shortcuts and the rules of the language. Had to leave school as i had a driving lesson in the afternoon. Went there to drive round and round and left the school to the outside world. Boy, it was fun driving outside. But very dangerous. Good thing the instructor had a brake pad, else i do not know what castatrophic accidents will happen. After the end of the lesson, i headed back to school. Wanted to find my teammates but they could not be found. Alas, i went on and headed for club. Before going there, i went elsewhere to find a lady. This lady is very powerful, she is the Liason Officer for Student Clubs. Short, she is the Clubs' sub head. Wanted to ask her if im able to get CCA points for helpers and orgainsers of my event. But she wasn't there. Kinda dissapointed but still alright. Sat in the club and relaxed my mind of the stress and pressure. After that, i went to meet my friends at a train station. Boy... I waited and waited and waited. I waited for 90mins for 2 gals that i dun have any intrest in. For those that know me, they will know that i will wait till end of time if i arranged a date with a gal. But since these 2 gals are kinda close with me... I shall forgive them this time. Waited from daylight till night... So we went to my senior's 21st birthday party. Had some fun but wasn't as good as expected. Still think i have some gap with them. Don't want to elaborate more, too much is bad for my health.

Nothing much to say as it is very early (Look at the entry time). Maybe i will talk more on monday. When im well rested and fully charged.

Mission to success...

Presentation Cleared

A big load have taken off my shoulders. Now feeling rather light and stressless, but it won't be long... Woke up earlier than usual as i could not sleep. Don't know why, maybe too nervous and anxious. Daily routine and stuff... Wore formal clothing again... Like going to Raffles Place to work. Arrived early for lesson, and as usual... The lecturer came late again. Always we waiting for him and not him waiting for us. Anyway, my teammates did not come at all. So i thought they skipped the lesson together. Damn them... Never gave me info to skip... After that, it was the usual lessons. One thing i learn is get close to lecturers to get build up relationship with them. But getting to know them will put oneself in dangerous postitions. I was nominated, with a gun pointing to my head, to be my module class representative. She kept enphasising that these people will get more General Points (GP). But max cap is 10. And she like give it freely every lesson, i think some of the noisy classes that pariticipated actively got like thousand over points. No matter what... Im still the unlucky one. As if i had not enough things to do on hand currently. Started on my project on the same module. Had some problems importing the data into the software. I almost killed my teammate as she forgot to close the other program before importing to the other software. Lunch came swiftly and go swiftly too. I met up with my teammates and we added some details into our presentation slides. Not long later... We went for our presentation. It was rather exciting. Not because this is the first time presenting but the first time presenting something that we did not do before. Totally new. No copycats. I think that is enough to elborate my point. Well... Everything works well and we did not have any major problems. After that, we seperated and i accompanied my ex-Treasurer to the club to take a look at things. Update ourselves on the happening of the club and also take some time off on the stress. Went home after settling on the stuff on hand.

The presentation was something that all of us are very nervous of. We did our best and we presented what we wanted the lecturers to know. Although at the end we got comments on our project, one thing that still pissed me off is the communications between my Supervisors. They are 2 sides of a coin. Although they are our Supp, they talk totally different things. Before the start of my presentation, one of them said not to put any diagrams in the presentation slides. After the entire presentation has ended, the other Supp asked us what happened to all the diagrams. We were like, '?!?!?!' Arghz... Both are good lecturers and both are helping us alot, but they do not seem to have the communication and the understanding of each other. As the leader of the group, im still kinda pissed at this point. 6 weeks have passed and they are still this way. Think the coming weeks, i shall only contact one of them. Don't know what they are trying to do to us...

Objective one met...

The Interview

Thank god my VP called me. If she did not do that, i guess im gonna be late. But i think she called twice. Cos when i picked up the phone... Well... Let's skip that. Brush teeth, wear my formal clothing and leather shoes. Boy, i looked like a businessman. White collar worker. I walked as if im going to Raffles Place. But... Im actually going to school to attend an interview test. Man... It was short. Maybe my interview wasn't that great. But it was shorter than my teammates. Kind of excited and dumbfounded at times. But i smoked my way through. Haha... Breakfast was all i think of after the test. Ate and went to back to lab to continue our presentation. Did up on our powerpoint slides and rehearse for the first time. Wasn't a really good timing. But we are different. We want to be different. Maybe the difference is scaring us. Ended the rehearsal soon and we seperated our ways. Had to meet up with some friends from Quests Inc. (an open adventurers club) to discuss about future events and where we want to do. Last minute and i was really tired. After the meeting, I went back home to rest and catch some shut eye. Had very little sleep the previous night.

Something that my lecturer told me after the interview:
L: Eh... Your position you are looking for is very high leh. You are just a fresh graudate and you want to be head ar?

Me: Not really lah. Since i want to do e-commerce stuff, dan that is the only one i can find. So might as well take it loh.

L: Next time when u looking for job, dun find such high level. Chances of getting it is very low for a grad like you.

Me: Okie... (Bloody hell... Fresh grad cannot be head la?!?!)

After he said that, i left the room and my friend went in for his interview. Did not have much to talk with him anyways. I don't really take this interview for real as my plans for the future is not to find a job after i graduate. I intend to finish my National Service (NS) as fast as possible and continue to study after that. After i get my degree, than i will search for a job. But i think my degree that im pursuing won't be related to my course of study now. But who cares... It's my dream and i live to dream. One day... Just one day... I will create a game that receives an award that is internationally known; Game of the Year Award.

Interview is sucky...

Happy Birthday SG!!

What a lazy morning i had. Woke up really late. Nothing much to rush so i did things rather slowly. Ate breakfast slowly, changed slowly and bathed slowly. All things done slowly. It is so relax to do things at my own pace. After that, i came back to prepare my presentation for my project. Did not have much concentration to do it. So i went for a swim. Man, the water is so damn cold. Put shivers down my spine. Swam and swam... Been long since i ever swim that much. A long bath was taken after that too. Played some games and totally forgotten about my preparations. But since did not do... Whatever la... Had dinner elsewhere as my uncle gave us a treat. Skipped the whole National Day Parade (NDP). After dinner is home sweet home.

A big congratulations to my country. My motherland. It is her 39th birthday and we are celebrating in style!! No more just simple display of stuff and such. But this time we had a sub event, the fireworks event or something. Attracted dozens of and dozens of crowds and people to see a 5 min fireworks display. Yes... 5 mins. I can see each of you reading this thinking, 'Haha... Stupid people.' Not to offend any of my friends that were there, but you should feel quite dumb to squeeze like crazy for a 5min fireworks display. No matter what... Still a very different celebration for the nation.

Onward and Forward...

Motivation Needed... Badly...

Late for lessons again... This time same as yesterday... Attendence taken at the end of lesson. Should have woken up at 8am, but a message shattered my dream. After shutting up the phone, i went back to sleep. A very bad mistake... In the end, woke up at 8.10am. ARGHZ!!! Rush rush rush... Arrived to class 15mins late. If that bus driver drove a tat faster... Maybe i would be 10mins late. Anyways, i continued my day. It was really boring. Feel so sleepy throughout the day. Almost fell asleep during lesson time. But held on to stay awake. After that was lunch. Had lunch with a friend from SCS. He came over to present and hold a roadshow for another event. One that i don't wish to be involved. Well... Since he came over, might as well play host and join him for lunch. Got him a cup of coke and talked about stuff. Told me how the his school operates and stuff. Had some laughs together too.After lunch, he headed to his destination to prepare for his roadshow while i went back for more lessons. Attended this lesson where we had no motivation to do our project. Sat there just to let time pass... Wonder what will happen to our project. Maybe that is the lifestyle of final year students. It eneded rather fruitless... But my teammates were like not giving a care. Maybe after sometime they will start to care. Went out of school to go for a haircut. Usually there would be a young girl, around my age, to wash my hair. She is very good at it. We even had common topics to converse. But today, it was a guy. I guess he is a trainee or a under-study. He washed my hair without much experience and had no courage to speak loudly. His voice sounded so timid. Maybe its his 1st day. But he is still good. Trained from a school, must be of some standard. My hair stylist came after the wash to fix up my messy hair. Same old style. She asked me whether i want to add colour to my head. I don't think i want to do it there. Its just so costly to get her to do it. Maybe i get my friend to help me. Wash, cut, rinse and style. End of haircut process. Proceeded back to school to attend a meeting. Even though i have stepped down, i still feel for the club. I guess there are some people still trying to add their influences in the club. Its a he. Just don't want him to take over from the MC. Maybe one day i should talk to them to get them to be more independent. Meeting ended rather late. So when we went back home, we had to squeeze our way into the public trains. But don't expect much from cheap transportation.

Man... If my project continues to be undone, nobody cares. I think im going to go crazy soon. I guess we have no motivation and we do not see a need to complete that project. One thing that i think is we need girls in our team. They are the menticulous gender and im sure the guys wont want them to get angry. Big mistake... Now our team are like lost sheeps. Wondering what to do and does not know what is happening. I think we shall get some people to do this project and some to concentrate more on other things. I may have to sacrifice here and there. Maybe less sleep and more work?? Its something i have to balance up.

I have decided to dedicate this to my club's current Welfare Officer. She today just got played out by the 'fake freshie'. Every year we have this happening to them. I knew of the trick so i decided not to get any of the contacts to call. In case im got hold of one of them. In the end... She is the lucky gal. Before they distribute, i was like thinking who will get played out. Didn't expect her to be the one. Hahaha....

Motivate me please...

Presenting a Presentation

What do you need for a good presentation?? Well... Tell you more when u continue reading. Was a very tiresome day. Woke up by my phone. It was 7.30am than... Since initial wake up time is 8am, i continue slping. In the end, i woke up late. So i went for lesson late again. But when i arrived, lesson not started and im not the one that is late. Im like early. That feels abit good. Well, lesson as usual. BORING!! In the middle, we had a test. Not a very good one. Did not put in my best... Guess the results will be not my best either. After the test, we are suppose to put our names for our timeslot for an interview test. So... Alot of things happened and then... Conflicts started out of nowhere. Than my team shatters into pieces of glass. Well.. The happy times were broken like that because of a timetable. It took some time for the pieces to glue back and form a nice piece of glass. As soon they settled their differences, we got back to our work. Had to redo our presentation slides. Tedious work, but somebody got to do it. Settled that once and for all. Went to town area to look at the clothing required for our presentation. Guys were simple, get a colour and style we like. Pay for it and go. For the girls... Well... They do the 1st and 2nd step more often than the last. I have to admit that makes them the biggest difference between girls and guys. Went home on a bus trip back home. Was a rather long trip, but it normal for us.

I had my team's presentation slides totally striked off for redo as what we did was not required. Was a little sad at the start and frustrated too. In the end, we had to summarise our points on powerpoint and present using speech more often. So we sat down, discussed what is needed and such. Summarise all your major points. When presenting a project to a client, make sure he understands what your system is and what you are doing. It does not matter whether the server has more than 200GB of space. All he wants to know is what the hell are you doing and what is the final product. So we have to summarise things. Listed is an example:


PPT slide:
- Member uses message system.

Speech:
our system will allow members to use our internal messaging system to send private messages to one another. initially, we thinking of just sending messages via email, but that will be out of our boundary. Also, a private messaging system will improve on the communication between members.

Well... If this does not help, i guess we might as well forgo our 10% on presentation and focus more on the programming part of our project. Maybe in life, presenting oneself and presenting is one important aspect in life. It is a life skill. Some are born with it, some are trained in it. With practice and perfection to errors, im sure everyone can present like a pro.

Training on presentation...