Dilemma

I realise i always run into dilemma in Australia. Back in Singapore, things were much simpler, choices were much easier to make and things weren't that complicated.

I'm not sure what i'm doing is correct. But i realise that i have two sides inside me. One side where i show myself often, to my friends and my team mates, whether is it my soccer mates or my project mates. The other side which i keep to myself, not showing it often as i do not want to break the relationship i have with anyone. I'm now stuck with lots of issues...

My love life has not been on a smooth journey. Like i told some of my friends before, i do have someone in mind here in Australia. But she always seem to be withholding back the moment we seem to be moving on to the next step. I guess it is her ambition and her life that she wants to keep in control. She wants to complete her degree and work here while i'm gonna finish up mine end of the year and return back to SG to work. Lifestyle here is not my cup of tea.

My friends who have have been making fun of me have been throwing female names that could be related to me. I know it's for fun but i've wondered sometimes is it a clue to their true feelings or is it just for laughs. Sometimes i do really wonder...

There is this girl which asked me one night...

Girl: How would you know if the things a guy do is not gonna be mistaken?

Me: Well, it depends on how you as the female see it then.

Girl: Okie, so how would you determine what is the line?

Me: I dunno... Maybe how he treats you overall?


I'm thinking if i answered her questions correctly. I know how girls think and their usual actions. But i'm sometimes totally lost when it comes to hinting in relationships. Guess i'm too used to going after girls and waiting for a positive or negative reply to understand the receiving part.

Life in Short

Rampant persue of career heights or academic excellence often leaves one lonely in the middle of the night, thinking whether he/she will ever find the right person...