The Eve of all Eves

Today was rather a tiring day for me. Tomorrow i predict will be a crazy day as Boss did not give me half-day!!! Tomorrow will also mark the end of my testing and the evaluation of the software i have been trying and testing. Lots of documentation to do too. I think i will give it to my partner to complete it while i finish up the documents that i need to ammend. It is alot and i hate to do it. Sometimes i do not understand... The Boss wants us to have things to do, but please give us something that will let us learn. Moving tables?? Drawing up floor plan?? Spring clean the entire office?? Today i even plan out the telephone wiring and the telephone points. Man... I do not think i am paid enough to do such chores. Even the part-timers do not do that much. The only thing i learn now is the new software. Even though the time given is short, but i still got the chance to learn something. I hope that tomorrow will be a better day. The last day of the year, hope everything will turn out fine.

This year is a year full of surprises... I got my ups and downs. It is because i did some things that caused me to have some things today. What i usually believe in is this theory, cause and effect. It is because of the club, i have made so many friends and found my organising skills back. It is because of friends from this club, i have enjoyed this year more than the previous one. It is because of my deciions that made me felt this way. I have felt like this and this sense of belonging last time. There was once i lost it and felt so homeless, so lonely. But now... I realise that i have found my second home. To me, having one home is never enough. To me, a home for family and a home for friends is what i need. To all my friends and family out there... Let us carry our hopes and happiness to the New Year and forget all the troubles we have for this year.

Time to Party...

Can this be complained...

Boss just gave me a tantamount task. Ask me to plan the telephone wires and sockets for the company, out of the job scope again... He wanted two new lines and Boss Wife did not plan out nicely. So i have to take over. The telephone company workers are here and no plans is out. Have to think of a plan at the spot and quick. After 30mins, i draft a floor plan and let Boss take a look. He discuss with me and made some ammendments. Now i am holding the final draft of the telephone floor plan. I have to wait for my lunch to be bought back as i have to wait for the workers to come back from their lunch. Man... I have not eaten lunch and i have to wait for people that have eaten lunch, ready to do work. Hope that the worker comes before my lunch comes, so they will not disturb me.

2 More Days...

Everyday at work, the boss will ask me to do things that are out of my project scope. Even out of my education scope. I shall briefly explain later. I woke up late in the morning and i had to rush everything. Well, not my first time so it was a rather 'calm' rush. I took everything and got everything done correctly. I arrived at the office on time. Man... What a close shave. I don't know what will happen if i arrive late to work one day. But i sure do not want to know it soon. So as usual, i had to read up and test the new software the company is implementing. The software had alot of problems. Even though it is a Microsoft product, it is still alot of unsolved problems. As an Administrator, i cannot do alot of things. There are alot of things that is said on the website which my partner and i tried and could never get it work. So i heck care and my partner also kind of heck care about it. We even had to sit through an 1 hr web broadcast lesson on how to use the useless software!! It is so boring, feels like im in the lecture theatre listening to the lecturer. Well... After lunch was better... Boss came up to me and told us to stop work on the software. He told us about the new table plan and ask us to deploy it at that momment. We had to squeeze in with four of the permanent staff. Boss say, so all six of us had nothing to say. Now we have to just accept our fate. It is a very tight squeeze... I even had to test two old computers. I guess the computers were as old as me. It was really a headache to test the computers as i had no experience in old computers. Do i look like i operate on old computers?? So i just carried those heavy PCs, set tem up and tested them. In the end, the newest of the old PCs are all spoilt. What a waste of time... Ended work soon after and got home to sleep as i was too tired.

Another year will be over soon after. A new year will step into our lives soon. Somethings we should plan is what will we accomplish next year? There are alot on my mind going now. One of them is completing my tertiary education and get my Diploma. After that, i will shave my head and serve the nation. During that time, i may miss out on a birthday or two, but i promise them... I will get them a big gift each to compensate my absence. A few months down the road and i will get my key to freedom. I do not know how big that event will be but i know it will be the biggest event i will ever hold in my life. After that, i will celebrate a festival that is celebrated not long ago. Hope i can have it like this year. Hope that every year would be like this year. And a few days more, it will be another year. Well... From what i summarise next year. I forsee that its a good year. Always a good year when you have just finished one. Now for a New Year's wish... I wish that my friends and family would be happy and healthy, everyone not to have financial problems and lastly... A year without disasters or mass deaths.

Happy New Year...

The Aftermath

Today was so damn tired. I slept less than six hours. The mind was a total blank when i woke up. Than something hit me really hard. Something non-materialistic. I remembered that today is staff meeting day. I must be 15mins earlier than usual!! ARGHZ!!! So everything was rushed. Clothing, just grab and go. When i was quite near the bus terminal, the bus i was suppose to take left. Right infront of my eyes, it left. I felt that the bus gave me a smirk before leaving. MAN!!! IM GOING TO BE LATE!!! So i hailed a cab and went down to office as fast as possible. To my surprise, i arrive earlier than most of the employees there. Wasted my six bucks. So i attended the meeting and went on with the day. Near the end of the day, with 10mins left to end work time... Boss came over and asked me to do a table plan for the company. He is buying three tables and wants me to adjust the seating plan. Why can't the bos just le me go home?? Ask me do the floor plan... Do i look like an interior design student?? Im an IT student for god's sake... Last week ask me repair lights, this wk ask me do floor plan. Next wk?? I cannot imagine what the Boss will ask me to do next. Clean the company windows?? Fix kettle?? Polish his shoes?? ARGHZ!!!!! Oh, and i started doing something educational. Im beginning to learn a new software.

It was a very sadening Christmas this year. Last week i just told about the King who killed all the babies as he is afraid that the baby would take over him. The slaughter of the innocents... This year the slaughter of the innocents came through. It came, it killed all of them and it left silently. The earthquake that caused so much death and so many missing in South East Asia left everyone shocked. What an enormous earthquake and it killed so many people. Furthermore, we had just celebrated Christmas. Is that a sign or is it just another normal natural disaster? I would not say much... I feel that the lives taken by natural disasters are really sad. Normal people like you and me are taken the right to live in just a few seconds. I suggest that we give thanks to our fortunate lives and say a prayer for the victims, both direct and indirect, that have suffered in the quake.

Bless the dead...

Eve of Christmas Eve

The Eve of Christmas Eve... Some people find it special, some people just take it as another day. For me, its just another day at work. I went to work with a feeling that i should not work tomorrow. It made me feel that Christmas comes earlier than it should. Maybe it is just me... At work, i had to do the most boring office job; Data Entry. I had to sit there for four hours to type data into the computer. Well... Somebody is going to do it. But why me... Why must it be poor me... Since Boss said must be me do, than i had to do it. At some point i almost fell asleep. When all the data entry had been done, my mind is totally exhausted. After that, the lights went out. Not all of them, but three lamps. Boss called me to take the ladder and check on the lights. WHAT?!?! DO I LOOK LIKE A STUDENT FROM EEE??? Since it is orders from the Boss, what can you say?? So i went up and did the lights. After some twitching and stuff, the lights worked again. Boss wife said i have magical fingers. Im like... Huh... Ended work at the same time. So my partner and i went to take the only bus out of the place. We waited for like 15mins. No bus came. Out of nowhere, came this mini-bus. A private mini-bus. The bus stopped infront of us and asked if we wanted a lift. A trip to the train station will cost us 50 cents. A quick trip to the train station at only 50 cents. I don't mind!! We took the claustrophobic bus and squeezed in. I wonder... Each trip to the train station, the driver will earn $6. I wonder how many trips can he make in a day. 10 trips a day would earn him $60. No matter how you see it, it is still quite profitable. After arriving at the train station, i crossed the overhead bridge and took a bus home.

Every Christmas, there would be a Christmas story. Every year the Christmas story would be different. This year, the one i read about was the birth of Jesus Christ that made Christmas... Well, Christmas. It is recorded that when the birth of Jesus, came 3 wise men or wise kings. They knew that a newborn king will lead humankind to freedom. They travelled long and far, days and nights. When they arrived, they each brought gifts to give to the new lord. But in the area where Jesus was born, a greedy king rule over the lands. He heard about the three wise mens coming and also their gifts for a new king. So he invited them over before they met Jesus. He thought that this new 'king' would fight for power over the land and take over him. So he told them to lead him to the new 'king' if they ever find them. But after three days, they never returned. The King was angry and frustrated. So he set out his army to the city and kill every newborn or few days old babies. Luckily, Jesus was informed by an angel. They fled before the troops came to slaughter everyone. This is the day where we call it the 'Slaughter of the Innocents'. An extremely sad day just a few days later of the Lord's arrival.

Merry Christmas Eve...

1 day to Eve, 2 days to Christmas

The year has ended and its the time to celebrate and enjoy. A time of giving and a time of sharing. This is the Christmas spirit. For the past 19 Christmases, i am having holidays so it did felt like Christmas. But now... I am working and the feeling is not there. I even had to ask for a half day during eve. I guess boss is the kind that fully untilise the 5-day week. Now he kept giving those jobs where most of the staff hate to do. Im like the odd job worker, not an intern there. It is damn funny... The company will be having Christmas lunch in the office. The best part about this is... It is not a buffer, it is not a a-la-carte dinner. It is packed lunch. Packed lunch from a caterer... I heard it and im like totally stunned. What the hell... What kind of Christmas lunch is that?? Just eating lunch together is the celebretion?? Maybe the worse has yet to come...

The Christmas spirit... It is the topic on today's radio show. They feel that Singaporeans have lost the spirit and change the meaning totally. They said that the Christmas spirit is about shopping and going Orchard to spend money. I think it is not the truth. Those that are shopping are mostly buying gifts for friends and family. It is no wonder that the city area is extremely packed. Some times the buying of gifts are for the less fortunate. I suppose giving them is the greatest example of showing the true Christmas spirit.

Merry Christmas everyone...

Daytime in Davidson Business Systems

Just finished lunch with a few more minutes to spare, so i decided to make a secret entry in my blog during office hours. Till date, i have not learnt anything useful for the future. All i know is i have to wear formal to work and get ready to do manual work for the boss. 'Move this to here' or 'Do this by (insert time)'. These are the sentences i get everyday. Well... I guess they must be wanting me to learn something from all the jobs they give me. Anyway, the boss sometimes is friendly. You can say he has split personality. But i guess i like the strict one better... As the friendly boss is bit...... Eh... Too friendly i guess...

One Week has passed

One week has passed and i have only 15 weeks more to endure. Today was really a boring day. Boss was around most of the time, so i had to do things a little more productive. Well, i must say i put a very nice show today. He gave me the most boring job of all. I had to amend the alignments and header of 50 plus forms. All on word document. I'm like staring at the screen for more than three hours non-stop. Man, I was so afraid that it might kill my eyes!! Well, my seat faced one of office's windows. Once awhile i took some time off and stared at far away objects. What made it worse was my window is actually facing the Singtel building that is located just next to it!! It made me think of school and my friends... What a saddening momment for me... I also took physical breaks in between. Go toilet more often, drank more water and refill more often. Today is even worse... My partner was given a outdoor task! Man, he left the office at 2 plus. He was out sending corporate gifts to other clients of the company. I envy him. Able to leave the hell hole and go out enjoy the scenery. How i wished it was me who was outside giving the gifts. But as soon as evening approaches... I wasted time by going to the toilet slowly, took my cup and wash it in the pantry slowly. When it was time to leave, i pack my stuff, grab my bags and leave the hell hole totally. I met up with my ex-VP. I was really tired but how can i miss a dinner with her. So i went on and met her for dinner. We ordered a couple meal. Haha... In the end, it was like me eatin the couple meal and her eating the side dishes... After that, she got herself dessert by eating frozen yoghurt. We walked about while she slowly finishes her dessert. I can see that she is enjoying it with glee as she gobble down so fast that it freezes her mouth. I think its also due to the dessert that made her hiccup while i sent her home. Seeing her arrive safely at her home lift lobby and watching her go up, it gave me peace that she is home without a scratch. I headed my way to the busstop and took the long journey like i use to towards home.

I read an article about our language used by our children of Singapore. Some said that we should have a good grasp of the English language. While others supported aggressively on the importance of the Mother Tongue language. But i am wondering, we are Singaporeans. We are the multi-racial country that other countries admire. It is definitely we have our own culture of language. I totally support that. So if we are jacks of all language, but master at none. I personally feel that it is a good thing. Once awhile we may get mis-communications and mis-pronounciation. But what communication's goal is to get the message across. As long the message gets across to the desired party, it doesn't matter if the language spoken is not understandable by both parties.

Speak your language...

Microsoft Seminar

Today i attended my company's Microsoft(MS) Seminar. Man... It was a big event, i was not one of the important people so i did not know most people. I do not know who is our competitors, who are the MS people and who are the attendees. My duty is to give out free gifts to attendees. But how i know who is who?? In the end, i just gave out to who i see... Also, Boss have printed namecards for me. I took a small stack and went around giving my namecard to people. I do not care who is it but just give the namecards out. In the end, i like gave out almost 10 plus cards. Now what i am afraid is that clients will call and find me. By then, i do not know what to say... Think i will know what to say, what to do by then... I woke up damn early for the event and was totally tire out. We went back to office and continued to work. Boss did not give half day off to us. Man, i woke up at 6am to arrive at the place on time!!! I think that is why he is the boss and i am the intern. After work, i went to find my ex-VP. We had dinner together. We chatted and talked about everything. I sent her home as it was late. We ate near her home but it was dark and i could never let a girl walk home alone at night. So i sent her to her lift and said our goodbyes. I learnt this phrase in a camp when the camp chief closed the camp, 'Goodbyes are such sweet sorrows.' I believe i felt it all over again at that momment...

School: ITP is a good way for students to learn the working life outside. They will experience what is the working life and find that it is a tough world outside.

Me: ITP is a good way to see cheap labour. Companies get interns to do all kind of crap and pay them the minimum sum given by the school. So we find out that the real world treat interns as if they are paid to work but at a cheaper price.

My comments on my ITP till now. Maybe it will change, maybe it will not. But all i know is... Will my ITP change my thoughts and views about the Microsoft company?

Personal views noted...

2nd Day

Day two of torture. Nothing much was done, nothing much was learnt. I learnt that printing labels can be really troublesome. Aligning and test print, i like took 1hr to adjust the stupid thing. After that i still had to trim the labels. I practically spend the whole day using a razor and ruler to cut the labels up. In the morning, my partner and i both took tests. The company had these tests to determine your IT knowledge and stuff. In the end, none of the tests we passed. I expect my partner to do better than me, but he failed all of them too. Guess we are both on the same boat. There are still somemore tests for me to take. It is so dead boring, almost fell asleep doing the tests. But the office had some biscuits so i took a packet and ate while doing the tests. Perk me up a little to finish the tests. The tests are not what you learn in Poly. Those tests ask questions that are posed for the professionals. Maybe the company think too highly of the both of us. We left the company late and i joined my sis for dinner. She accompanied me to buy clothing required for Thursday. I got what i wanted but i ran out of cash and she did not bring her card out. So i had to reserve it and got my Aunt to pick it up tommorrow. Guess i owe her one. After that, i ate dinner at one of the stalls in Takashimaya. At first i wanted to eat fish & chips. But the store is fully occupied. All the customers were just arrived and just started eating. In the end, i just settled my dinner at some Japanese stall. I ate and chatted with my sis. It has been a long time since i met up with her. I can see that she is fine and healthy. Hope she stay this way all the time. After dinner, we walked across this fun fair to take bus. I joked to her that she can go up on the bouncy castle as she is below the acceptable height of 1.6m. She laughed and laughed. As we walked about, we talk about everything. At the busstop, i decided to send her home. Its pretty late and to let a pretty lady walk home alone is definitely not me. Especially she is my sister. After seeing her arrive safely at home, i embarked on my journey home. Sis home is just 1hr away from mine.

Life is beginning to feel boring. 3-4 days ago, i felt that going to work or going for my ITP should be fun. It should be different from studying in the Poly. I was right and wrong. Nothing much was learned while there. Difference is definitely felt. Instead of jeans and tee, im wearing long-sleeves and straight pants with leather shoes. I report to work 9am sharp instead of always going to lesson late. I had to eat faster than usual. I had to report whatever i do to someone. It is like im a cheap labour in a high earning company. I can see that the boss is very rich and he can afford high class stuff. Maybe that is why he is so successful now. Hope one day i can be like him and become rich. But he is not my role model, my role model would always be my Dad. He will be my life model. I will learn what is right from him and use his faults to learn mistakes. One thing that i must crack before anything bad happens to him... How did a primary 4 dropout married a degree holder???

Learning everything possible...

ITP Starts...

Today marks my first day in ITP. I have officially started my ITP. Man, woke up at 7am. The sky was still kind of dark here... I did things a little faster than usual and i ended up arriving at the company earlier than expected. I met up with my ITP partner, first impression was that he take the office job a little too serious. What's with the tie and blazer?? I almost broke out laughing. But i held back. The office staff let us in and introduce themselves to us. The whole office is made up of a couple of consultants, marketing and executives. Led by a very smart couple. One word to describe the entire office; strict. Lady boss was really strict, she is really adamant about what she wants and what she means. The boss is a very anology guy. He likes to use military stuff and action stuff to describe the situation to everyone. Every Monday will be meeting day, durin the meeting today, he came out with something of a military vehicle and stuff. Makes me think of Metal Gear Solid. The whole day in the office was rather bland. We did nothing much. The entire morning was orientation and some office skills training. I still not used to the printer. Guess i will make it a point to win over the printer. Now the office is gearing up for a seminar this coming Thursday. When i am on my way home, one of the staff called me and told me about the attire on Thursday. Blazer, white shirt, spotted tie, black pants and black leather shoes. Man... That looks so much like some gangster attending another gang's funeral. That leave me no choice but to get what is required.

A day has passed and it have left some nice feeling on me. I feel that the honeymoon time is ending. As soon as i step onto Thursday, i can start to accept crazy stuff. Im trying my best to adapt into the company and learn whatever they are willing to teach me. I do hope i can make the best out of this four months. My ITP partner is doing his best to do what he can. I have not seen his true power yet, a few weeks more and maybe his knowledge of IT will be passed over to me. Hope the company pay me a little more than what the last intern get. I have alot of bills to pay!!

Breathing for air...

Final Three Days...

Time has come... It has finally come. My ITP nightmare is starting to begin... Time to prepare for the final stage of my life as a Polytechnic student. The company gave my Liason Officer(LO) a couple of things to note before i went start my ITP. For example... I have to work on certain saturdays. Maybe that will mean alternate saturdays. What the heck... I have to work on these saturdays... And they are really under paying me. Sometimes i do wonder, why do they call it internship? More like getting cheap labour to work in the company. It is another pair of hands but paying lesser. Well enough of that... Today was rather a simple day, nothing exciting was done. Morning i had the ITP briefing followed by a photo-taking session for the yearbook. Later i joined my juniors for lunch. We chatted and joked around. It was really enjoyable. After that, they went back to the club to clean the stuff and sort the things they used during camp. I did not stay as i want them to interact with the year 1s more. I met up with my ex-VP and we went shopping. I wanted to watch a movie as it was a long time ago since we watched one together. After movie, we went for more shopping. We kind of wasted so much time walking about stores that does not intrest her at all. In the end, we rested by having something to drink and a couple of snacks. Actually all i wanted was to dump some rubbish after our snack time, but something caught her eye. A jacket from Fox:Women. She tested one of them but shop ran out of her size. We went over to another shopping centre to look for the same item, but it was also out of stock. At the 2nd shop, they were playing a song; Blue - Sorry Seems to be the Hardest Word. She could not get what she wanted so she sang along with the song!! After that, we went to a store and she bought a cute bag. It looks to me like a grocery shopping bag but to her another bag to put stuff. She paid for it and we went back home. I sent her home personally as she was not feeling well. After that, i went home and bought some instant noodles on the way home. Man, it was really good. I ate two packets while my brother ate one. Really spicy really delicious...

Updates! Updates!! UPDATES!!!

Does this consider an update?? It is just a few days only. Im like just blog not long ago and im blogging again. Sounds like good news ya? But not actually... Nothing much happened these few days. Yesterday i went driving, the results were rather bad. Got quite a scolding from my instructor. I was a little nervous and stuff so i did badly for it. Especially parking, i can't park a car. Man, i really sucked at parking a car. I think the near future, car mechanics must invent a kind of device in cars where the car will auto park for you. Then... Then the parking system for the world will be a better place. Haha... Must be dreaming too much le. A few hours later i am going for my driving revisions... I do hope i can get a test date as soon as possible. One more day and it will be SAT day. Praying hard that i will do well and my ex-VP will do well too.

Pray for us...

Counting Down...

Another 2 more weeks... 1 more week till camp and 2 more weeks till ITP. A few days more to my SAT exam. Busy studying for it. Hope i can get a good grade out of it. I was suppose to have study sessions with my ex-VP but i think her schedule is maxed out and we could not meet up. Well, she got to help her sister for her prom night. I remember my prom night. Man... We all dressed as formal as we could to have catered buffet dinner at our school hall. Man... It was really a flop. That momment, us guys just ate and later sat down to think of what to do next. But good thing we left our sports shoes in the classroom. We quickly went up to change our shoes and grab a ball. Next momment, we are sweating like pigs playing soccer at night. Haha... Firstly is only us guys, later on the girls came over and watched us play the game. Prom night, a night to remember. Yes, it is a very memorable night for me. Soccer at prom night. Nothing much to update now... It is all studying and reading. I guess having enjoyed most of your holidays, its time to study and sacrifice for hte future.

Update on Life

How long i left this blog static is very obvious. I should have updated it daily. But its the holidays now and i usually do not have much problems. Nothing much happens during the holidays. I myself do not know what to blog so i do not want to blog the usual boring stuff that happens around the house. It will be very very very very boring. Even now as i blog i feel boring. Maybe after i find some fun activities to do... Then the blogging will begin to liven up again.

Sound Test

What a long day it is for me... In the morning, i met up with some of my friends and we headed down to Creative Building to buy products which are at discounted price. When i went over, my budget was actually $200. But i guess good buys are my weakness. Such good products at such cheap price... A technie like me, how can i forgo it? So i got myself another set of speakers and a new soundcard. Went home with happy. Dropped my stuff and brought my brother out for a movie. We watched The Incredibles. A pretty funny movie with a mystery ending at the end. Till now, i still do not know what is the last member of the Incredibles family power. Very confusing. Anyone that knows what power he has, please leave a comment. Thanks in advance. I went back home again. Chatted with my ex-VP... Somewhat got scolded by her for not greeting her. Well... I was configuring my soundcard so i did not bother to chat with anyone. But since she messaged me, i just continued the chat with her. Doing two things at one time. It was not long before we stopped our conversation and continued our lives. I bet she must be dead boring at the company she is in. Hope the boss do not torture her and let her leave the company early. She also fell sick yesterday. Pray that she will get well soon.

After installing that new soundcard, its a totally new way to listen my music. The music was really powerful and the sound quality is awesome. The set of speakers i bought was meant for my PS2. Now playing on my PS2 is totally different. I got slight surround sound now while playing games. Experience differently now by replaying all the old games i have. I have to admit, i am really a technie. I like to own the latest gadgets and hardwares. Things that look good, should sound as good too. A Singaporean life is so stressful, the only entertainment that we can easily reach are two types; the Television and the Radio. So if these are our main source of relieving stress, i do not mind spending money on it. Well, i do not mind spending money too if it brings me happiness.

Extreme Sound Drive...

Long Break

We just had a long break in Singapore. We had a straight row of holidays among the weekends. So... I got kinda hooked up with alot of things and left my blog to rot online. I afraid that most people also don't realise that. I spent my birthday during that long weekend. Had a fruitful birthday weekend. On the actual day i celebrated with my friends. They asked me out to have lunch, so i expected them to pay for my lunch. It is so expected... After that, i met up with my ex-VP. She had some personal problems but i just brush it aside and accompanied her all the while. I am a man with a major weakness; unable to see girls cry. If i see a teardrop or a sniffle from a girl, i go crazy. I cannot control my thoughts and i will panic. Yes, panic. My worse weakness... Hope all the girls that read this would not use the same tactic to attack me. After that, on the saturday i went to the beach to had some fun under the sun. It was not very sunny, did not get tanned at all. In between there was this major rain. We hitched a ride on a 'train'. Rode the train on its usual route along the entire beach. Kinda crappy... When the rain stopped, we went back to our usual spot and continued our day. The gals left early and left us boys to enjoy the beach longer. Ended the day by having dinner together at mainland. We parted when the skies were dark. I did something that i regretted terribly. Maybe its luck, maybe it is something else. But i know i will keep it inside and regret on it forever.

Birthday Eve

Last entry was like so far away. Maybe due to the holidays so nothing much to record down. Today is a public holiday for Singapore, Deepavali. A celebration for all the Hindus in our sunny country. Woke up in the morning to find the sun shining hard on my face. A glance on my clock and found that it is near noon time. Man, the latest time i had woken up on this half of the year. Maybe the next time i will wake up that late would be near Christmas season, hope my friends do not challenge me to another drinking competition. Ate lunch soon after and watched TV PROGRAMMES all the way... My uncle came over with the intend to bring me to Little India, but it rained so we cancelled the trip. We killed time by playing a new kind of chess. It was bought from Germany. The game is rather special, two teams with around ten pieces buildings and you place your buildings around. It is a strategy game. We really killed time with it as it was really enjoyable. Play and play till evening time. Nothing much was done then... My uncle went back and im back to enjoying time with the tv again. A public holiday and im rotting at home.

Happy birthday to myself. That is all i have to say.

Happy Birthday Me...

Fruitful Monday

Another useful use of a monday. No blues, no sadness, a little setback for awhile but nothing big enough to hold me back. The day started when i suddenly pop my eyes open. After trying my best to go back to sleep, i gave up and went to wash up. Nothing much was done in the morning except playing games and clearing my table. It is always messy, do not know why... Just pack it not long ago, now messy again. *sigh* After that i messaged my ex-VP to see what i can do to entertain her. We chatted on the phone using messages. It is rather stressful on her phone bills with so many people to reply. Her com is down so we can't do some serious chatting online. She made an appointment with me to go down and 'cure' her com. Hope i can help her as much as possible so that we can both return to our normal lives. We met up in the afternoon to have our lunch together. When i first met her, i find her rather funny. Not comedy funny, but unusual funny. Not her normal self, something is wrong there. Maybe lunch would do her some good as i know she like to skip meals. So we went for some food and chatted a little there. The seats were... Eh... Somewhat memorable. I think this is something only me and her would understand. Haha... We continued our day with a little window-shopping on our way to Coffeebean. It was a rather long walk. By the time we reached the cafe, i think she must be dragging her tired body to the seat. We sat quite long at the cafe... Our favourite hangout point. A few sips of the coffee and she is on her way to pick herself up. Something that she always like. We did somemore window-shopping and this time was looking at some phones. Her target, Samsung E600C, was on promotional offer. We checked it out and it was on a rather affordable price. I urged her to get it while its on offer, she shunned it all and decided to think through it and maybe see whether she have her allowance from her ITP. I predict she will be getting it if she receives it. She bought some groceries before heading home. I accompanied her home as it was rather near. After i see her arrive safely home, i left her place and head for home.

My cousin was featured on the newspaper today. Check it out on Straits Times papers. I would like to talk a little about it. My cousin is autistic. Yes, he is. He could not express himself well when things do not go his way. He would bawl, cry and throw tantrums if things do not go his way. When i first heard that he was autistic, all i could think was how my uncle and auntie accepted the news. It was a heavy blow for them but it took them quite sometime to accept it. As an elder cousin, i do not pity him. But i admire him. He is one that does not give up easily. He has other talents too. He reads like a Primary 4 student when he is studying at Primary 2. He try new words where younger kids would shun the word. Everyday, he is willing to learn. But still like a kid, he still got alot of things to learn. He likes me and he respect me alot. All i can give him is the knowledge i learn and teach him the fun things that i do. I see him trying to complete the task really puts a smile on my face. Sometimes he say things that are totally inappropriate like saying that everybody is going to die when we are taking the Skytrain from one side of the airport to the other. Yes, i did laugh. But was laughing at his words, not him. He seeing me laugh, laugh along innocently. Now all i worry is his future. What would he do? How would he fend for himself in this world where there are many outside ready to bully them? I do not know how to help him, but i will always be there if he ever needs help. I will do my best to help him.

Autistic != Idiot...

My life rating...

My life is rated R.
What is your life rated?

After reading my Welfare Officer's blog, i went to do the survey too. Man... Im rated R... Those under 17, please click the small little 'x' the top right corner of this page. NOW!!!

End of Semester

Nothing means the most to students all over the world. It's the holidays. Today mark the last day of the semester of my school. All my friends are now free from educational stress. Now is the time where i can find them and ask them for outing and dates. Haha... Nothing much happened today. In the morning i went to attend talks on University entries. I realise there are so many people there. All wanting to grab a place in the local Uni. For me... I do not know where i want to go? A local Uni with a simple degree? Or an overseas degree with something out of the box? I have been looking around for the degree i want... But local Uni do not provide such a degree, i guess its either overseas or local. Currently aiming three places; England, Japan and America. Sorry, Australia just do not have what i want... Too bad. After the talk, i had lunch with my team mates. I think it is the last time i can ever have lunch with them again. With lunch in our stomach, we head to a lab to upload our FYP project to the school's server. Yes, my project is chosen for exhibition. Applause please... I left earlier as i have to attend a driving lesson. When i left them, almost everything is done. My mind was thinking of the project all the time when i driving. Maybe its my passion for the project. I called them when i finished my lesson, just to confirm that everything is done properly and alright.

Universities... One school that i will enrol after i have completed my National Service(NS). Currently im preparing myself for the SAT exams. I know that i will need it soon. Two years in the army is a very short period of time. Well, most probably i might make new friends when i enrol into the Uni. It is the time of my life where i will be seperated from my current friends now. As we have different things to do and places to go. I do hope we can still be together like what we usually do now. If i go overseas, i will sure miss all my friends here. Especially those who are very close to me... My sis told me that i will survive pretty well overseas. I have a feeling that i can make it alive... But i just have this feeling that by the time i come back home and find all my friends, i may be the only one left standing alone with the degree i always wanted.

Friends vs Degree...

It's All Over...

I officially close off my relationship with my school academic year of 04/05 Sem 1. I have nothing more to do with it anymore. The day started with some noise from the construction site. Maybe its the economy, picking up means more work for the bangladshi workers. Prepared for school and left home soon after. Met with my current President, Logistics Head and Welfare Officer. The momment i stepped in, i know i will be out of place. All of them are studying really hard. We chatted for awhile and we went for lunch together. It has been two weeks since i have eaten from school. I guess i miss school food when i do not get to eat it regularly. After lunch, we went back to our club and continued to mug for our exams. Well... I did not mug much as i had done quite a lot during the two weeks. After awhile, we went to our respective venues for our exams. My exam was rather... Eh... Expected. I expected some to come out and most of them came out. So im quite happy with it. It was drizzling outside so i went to Clementi to read some novels. Realised that the rain has died down, i took the train and met up with my ex-VP. We walked about the shopping centre as she was looking for a thank you card for her company. She got some clothing from Giordano too. After so much walking about, we were tired. So we went to have our dinner. I ordered a plate of fried oysters, a couple of pan-fried dumplings and a plate of black pepper udon. Starting she had doubts on the udon, but when it was served, she did ate quite a portion. Haha... Halfway through our dinner, she remembered that she need to buy ham for her little sister. So we quickly ate our dinner and rushed back to the supermarket to get some ham. Good thing the supermarket was not closed. We got the ham and she bought a row of Yakult. We pay up and we left the place.

Nothing much to think or say... Its all written on top. Guess im using more time on other places now.

Dreams of dreaming...

Fun-filled Day

Alot of things happened today. I do not think i can keep myself awake any longer... Woke up at dawn, it has been a long time since i have woken up this early. I have to go to the driving centre to attend my driving lesson. It is the 1st lesson of the day for the centre. Felt like it was really empty as the centre is usually bustling with people. Did my driving and booked more lessons when i ended it. I came home as it was still early, it is the late morning. I came home and i chatted with my ex-VP. We chatted awhile and i left home soon after. I went to meet up with my friends to celebrate my ex-Treasurer birthday. What a sad day for her, we actually wanted to go cycling. But it was raining. Real bad... So in the end, we went to this restaurant to have our lunch there. We bought cake for her and we ate at the place. It was full of fun and laughter. Took some photographs during the afternoon. It is definitely fun-filled. After the afternoon fun, i had to rush to a meeting. This meeting is rather important as i have to present what we have planned for the previous few months. I have confidence that i can head this committee and make the event a success. The meeting ended rather late because there were so many questions raised and lots of comments on each event. I had to answer them and give response to all of them. It was not a really good one as some of the lecturers and professors were really giving me a headache... After the meeting ended, we went to have dinner together. Dinner was simple and nothing much was chatted. After dinner, my committee member and i took the same bus home. We live like 10mins away from each other. On the bus trip, we chatted and laughed. Had a good time chatting with her. Before i alight from the bus, i gave her something to think about. I guess she is still stunned at the sentence.

Raining on your birthday. That is something that anyone who celebrate their birthday hate the most. Unless you are an pessimistic person, than raining on your birthday would not be any problems for you. You cannot do alot things outdoor. What a sad story for the birthday person. I think today we did our best to entertain her and keep the mood up. I can see that she look a little dejected that the weather did not go in her favour, but we did had a great time. I guess i can conclude one thing. As long as you have fun, it does not matter if it rains hail or have a hurricane around.

Happy Birthday hor...

Driving Slow and Calm

I had a lot of driving practice today. ALOT... Today i had learnt quite alot of things. Learn to overtake and drive off a slope. The instructor told me about the test routes the Traffic Police(TP). One way is easier, while the other is damn difficult. I hope that i can finish it as soon as possible. It was really tiring to drive 200 mins at one shot. But it was worth it. I was really hungry after all the driving, so i went to a nearby Macdonald's to have lunch. Its been quite awhile since i had a meal there. After lunch was haircut. I decided to have my hair cropped to a very short length, the one that i use to have. My stylist was kind of shock as she did not expect me to wait so long till my next haircut. She did my hair and i changed my image again. Back to normal, back to last six months ago. Short hair does not need much time to dry or style. The haircut was very enjoyable, its like having a hair therapy. Totally relaxed and having somebody to take care of my hair. It was home sweet home after that.

What is wrong with cars with a 'L' plate? Does that mean that they can be bullied on the streets? Give them some chance and let them learn how to drive. I mean... You were once on the road like that too. I think if every driver just give way to them, everything would be fine. A few minutes of giving way and having some patience with them... Is it so difficult? Give them a chance and in future, they might remember this and give the future drivers a chance to learn.

Please Give Way...

Terrific Tuesday

Ah... Its a busy Tuesday. In the morning, i went to attend my driving lesson. I was almost late. Thank god the train came just in time. The training was kinda tedious as i have to train myself to get use to the driving skills required. Still not very good at it. My goal; to pass my driving lesson by the end of this year. So that i can drive my friends around during Christmas Season. Add another one is to bring my sister to all the places with the good food. I can do it!! After the lesson, i met with a friend. Had lunch with her. Chatted about the old times and the current situation. I sent her home after that as i was going on the same way. After she alighted, i went on to get another SAT form. It was an arduous journey, but i managed to complete it. I have to apologise to my ex-VP as i messed up the info she sent me. She told me to wait at City Hall at 6.15pm. Even though the bus i came in broke down and i had to wait for the next bus, i arrived on the dot. But i was at the wrong location!!! ARGHZ... I quickly rush down to City Hall to meet up with her. I explained my reasons and i guess she did not really forgive me. Maybe i am thinking too much. Had dinner together. We talked about her FYP project and my current free time. I understand she is always aiming at me for my free time. It is the fact, im really too free to. Finding things to occupy myself. The seat we chose was not a very good one. We had a usual seating place, but we chose another as she wanted to fill up the forms. In the end, we never checked the 'feng shui' and we got quite a bad table. We had our dinner quick and i taught her how to fill up the forms. After filling up all the forms, we chatted a little while more before we left the building. We went to a nearby Macdonald's and i bought her an ice-cream cone. She has this sweet-tooth for desserts after dinner. We continue our way to the busstop where i accompanied her till her bus came. Said our goodbyes and the bus carried her homeward. I went across the road and took a bus home.

"When you get bad grades... Think of this, you can blame two things; either the school is teaching you the wrong way or you are learning the wrong way."

This is a quote i read from a book. It talks about the world where Certificates and qualitications rule all the major jobs. It is quite a long one. From the book, it says that different people learn things differently. Some learn it by doing it than read about it later. Some is after a thorough understanding of the theory, than they start doing. This is the two major category. There are many many more in each category and it is explained in that book. I think that this book is very good as it explains that not everyone is judged by that exam paper. Yes, i do agree that grades show how intelligent you are at the subject. But think about this, it only shows how intelligent you are at answering questions and throwing facts. One last thing before i end this. Another quote from the book, but taken from the Father of Relativity, Prof. Albert Einstein.

"My brain does not keep facts. I do creative thinking in my head. You want facts, go visit a library."

World stop turning...

Super Monday

Another beautiful Monday... Some Mondays are that sweet, some Mondays just killed you over and over and over and over... Well... Today is not that day. I was abruptly woken up by my mobile. Man, i was dreaming. Dreaming of a very good time. Darn that phone, should have shut it last night. It was a serious matter as my Supervisor had lost our Peer Evaluation forms. Now he wants us to redo it and send him a soft copy. Im like so pissed off at this and wonders why is he still keeping that post of a Supervisor of FYP projects. Well, action was taken swiftly. I messaged the rest of my teammates and sent them a copy of the form. By the early noon, i had received almost all the forms. Except one... Its expected... Maybe i will push him a little bit tomorrow. After that, i went to make my breakfast. Nothing beats a cup of hot coffee, eggs and a delicious and nutritious sandwich. I think im overeating... Maybe its my nature that i eat alot. I have to confess... My biggest sin, eating. I love to eat. Not only that, i like to cook too. Enough of that. After breakfast, i rested awhile and packed my table. Nothing much has changed but at least its neater. With the table packed, i opened my cupboard and picked my clothing for leaving home later. I went to this building at the city area where i was suppose to register for the SAT exams. Man... Its really a long walk. Reach the building, got the forms, understood what was suppose to be done and left the building in search of another item. Tonight was the big beef cookoff. I was searching for a bottle of sour cream as i ran out of it. I forgot where i got that bottle but i could not find it anywhere. So i went home without the sauce. Reached home and took the beef out to thaw. Rest my tired body by totally relaxing infront of the television watching a re-run of The Simpsons. Do not know why but i find that the award-winning hit comedy always make me laugh. No matter how many times i see it. After that sparks the beef cook off. Everything went well except that without the sour cream, everything tasted a little off...

Registering for another kind of exams. I always wanted to get a degree. Wear that square hat and tossing up in the air to see it spin. With that degree, i can wear the graduation coat and have a family photo. I always wanted to have a family photo. Looking back at all the photos, i realise that i have never had a family photo taken before. Okie, the baby pictures does not count. I mean, i want to be standing behind them while they are sitting on chairs. Once, my teammate showed us a photo of her family photo. It was really nice and it was beautiful. Really shows the bond the family have. I looked at it and wished that my family have one taken. I just want to keep one in my wallet so that whenever im lonely, i will take it out and look at all the loving and caring faces that i see everyday in my home. That will be a very long time before it can ever be fulfilled. Currently the photos in my wallet are those i care alot. I keep them inside there and take out once awhile to look at it.

Love thy family...

Time is of the Essence

I did not blog for like so long. Count the hours man... A quick recap on what has happened. On tuesday, i had my last and final lesson for the semester. Its all over, my school life have ended. All that involves me in school for school work has come to an end. On Wednesday, i had lunch with my ex-VP. Pin high hopes on her dressing, in the end, its just a normal attire i have seen from the day i met her. Man, that WAS dissapointing. Was expecting her to be in blouse and skirt, at least something that will blend in with the rest. I definitely could not blend in, a Polo-tee and jeans. Man, i stood out like a sore thumb. Anyway, we had a fantastic lunch. Maybe its been a long time i had a weekday lunch with her. After that, i sent her back to her office... Ground floor. After taking my last look on her, i set my course to find those toys i have been collecting since i was a child. It was located at some walking distance. But i guess lady luck was not shining on me. I went in search of the shop and it was closed. Closed for the week as they have gone to Japan to get more toys back. ARGHZ... What rotten luck. So i hit the road, board a bus and head straight home.

Well... That is about it, i shall continue about my life tonight. If i got the time...

Timing is right...

What???

What happened to me... Today is a day of infamy. My fish was pronounced dead today. After so many years of companionship, it finally reported to the gates of heaven. Life of being my fish is a good life. I have a big tank where he can swim around all day with no care in the world. Food was given every morning and evening. When i see the water is all yellow and have a smell, i take out all my stuff and i change the water and clean the tank. All this done while he stay at this corner waiting for his crib to be changed. After that, he wag his fins around like a happy fish. Man... I'm gonna miss those days. Now my tank is empty and the sound of running water is silent. As they say, words can't express what i feel right now. Maybe this is the Lord's way of telling me to get a new fish? I do not know, but what i know is... The tank will be empty for the time being.

Rest in peace...

Brand New Week

This is the special week. This is the first time i ever stayed at home for the whole day just enjoying myself. Immerse myself into my chair and enjoyed my room's stress busters. There is the black and cool looking PS2, the al-powerful CPU, loud-banging Hi-Fi and lastly, my bouncy bed. Man, its heaven on earth here. I practically spent my whole day here. Well not totally every minute. I did went to my kitchen, to make lunch and bring it back to my heaven to eat. I left my heaven for awhile in the evening to accompany my Sis. She is damn tired after an exam today. Looking at her really makes me feel useless. Im her big brother and i can't help her a little bit. All i can do is cheer her up and keep her spirits up. Maybe that is all i can do now. How i wish i could share the burden with her. I sent her home after that. Even though the journey was short, she slept on the bus. Guess she really is tired. After sending her home, i walked about her neighbourhood to look around to see if there were any mobile phone shop. It was really bad i could not find any. So i went back home and continued my games.

I am now on full track on the road to recovery. Im recovering from the stress i have been dealt with for the past 14 weeks. No more stress. No more pressure. No more datelines. Now the road ahead is clear. Enjoyment is all i can see. It will all end when i reach bend in the road. That bend will be called ITP. When that comes, i will stop all this enjoyment and sink myself in that stressful company. That is my challenge for the year. This is a major challenge as i like chanllenges. Hope i can do great on this challenge and continue with my life.

Its to enjoy...

Life of a Free Man

Ah... The good life... Now all that is left is my ITP(Internship Program). After that, its another journey in life that i must undertake. Nothing much happened today. Woke up late as i want to enjoy my bed a little longer. Finally, i got myself up and went to the bathroom to wash myself. Breakfast was next and it was good. Well... Not using my own allowance and furthermore, a good cup of coffee. Definitely it was good. I went back to my room and totally sank myself there. Played games on my PS2, chatted with my ex-VP on the com and listened to great music on my radio. Did not enjoy myself like this for a very long time... After sometime, i went for a swim and cooled myself off. Nothing like soaking up the cold water to relieve your stress totally. My dad came home rather early as he is going to Bangkok for the weekends. We left for the airport and settled our dinner there. Said goodbyes and farewells to him, we went back home.

Nothing is better than a stress-free momment in your life. In this country, every corner is filled with stress. Maybe its just me or is this whole country built on stress? From the day we are taking our PSLE, we are bring pressurised to get good grades. Getting good grades is one thing, but missing a huge chunk of your childhood life is very bad. Do children these days know the fun of marbles? Do they know what is a plastic trasparent piggy bank? Now they are eating ice shavings but it orginated where these shavings were shaped to a ball and sucked the watery cold sweetness from it. When its all dry, we use to throw the ball at one another to create the fun of having snowball fight in a country where there is no winter. Some of the things that i used to do all fading into my memories. Its so pressuring to live in such a stressful life, who wants to pay taxes at everything that have a price on it. Man, i wonder when will the government have such a thing where they tax on the taxes you pay.

Freedom is sweet...

Maniac Monday

If life were this boring everyday, i would commit suicide after three exact same days. Went to school in a happy mood and wanted to make my day better by submitting my project. Once and for all, i am free from the shackles of the FYP. Now for the last final part, the demostration and presentation. This is like leaving the prison just that i have not left the compound. After submitting my project, i left my teammates to deal with the presentation stuff. Prepared a little on it. But i was soon called upon to do another project. Im quite involved in this but the time spent of using the software is too short and we are usually told to just follow the worksheets. I think that is not enough as we do not know what are the functions really doing. So i just sat there and did most of the brain work, while my teammates did all the trial-and-error stuff. It is very drain on the mind. Having to analyze and think whether the diagrams made any sense. I do not know whether was it me or the project, everything seems so boring. I hope after this week, nothing would be this boring even. Did nothing much after i left school. Had this mindset to take a cab home. But maybe my thrifty side kept me from doing that and i took a bus instead.

When i was heading my way to school, i was listening to my favourite DJs of the morning shift. They always have a topic to discuss every weekday morning. Today was no different, today's was about family violence. What really shook me was that husband-beaters are more than wife-beaters and usually husbands that go into the hospital after the abuse tend to be more seriously injured than the former. The reason that the DJs have discussed and confirmed is that husbands when dealing out damage, uses the hands and feet. While wives who does not have the brute strength of a man uses weapons ranging from golf clubs to even a chopper! No wonder that husbands ended in hospital with life-threatening injuries than the wives. My 2 cents, why end up in such violent stuff? We are not the only species that have family violence, and that is a fact. Comparing ourselves to animals or insects, we should be ashamed of ourselves. Why resort to violence when everything can be talked over nicely without raising any weapon or dishing out damage. When couples get married, im sure there will be quarrels. But raising one hand to hit the other, that is getting too far. I believe that when one of the pair starts using violence as a way to end arguements, im sure he/she is not worth the love by his/her partner.

Love thy partner...

Day of Freedom

After so many weeks... After so many days... Finally... I have completed my project!!! YEAH!!! Got ready for school late as i wanted to stay in bed longer. Already done what I am suppose to do. Arrived in school late, i think my teammates are wondering what the hell am i doing arriving so late. They did not make any enquiries or ask me any questions. But i can see that they are kind of unhappy me being late and them early. I sat down and started up my work area. After awhile, we went for our breakfast. It was rather fast, nothing much was chatted. Maybe everyone is stress and pressurised by the dateline given. With a full stomach, we went back to our lab to continue our project. I had to concentrate on another project as the dateline is today. Totally just compiled and lied about everything. To make the report out, we just had to do all kinds of stuff. A five person project ended up by three person clearing up the rest of the project. Sat there for three full hours to clear up the rest of the stuff. After the greusome challenge, we finally completed it and we submitted it just in time. Went back to join my teammates after that. Did some minor testing and found a bug. But my teammate that was suppose to do that was already on his way home. Shucks... Had to bring that part back home and send it to him. After that, i accompanied the girls of my teammate to print the documentation required for this phase of the project. Wow... We spent almost $15 on printing papers. But at least it is worth it. Gave up my file to one of them as they did not bring a file to keep the papers. After that, we parted and i left for home.

Nothing feels better than having something lifted off your shoulders. The stress, the pressure... All gone. Freedom never felt so good. It feels like life have gone back to normal again. Usually when this happens, most of the time im thinking of what to do and what i will be doing next. This kind of life is also not very good. Maybe i am a picky person. Whatever life throws at me, i will have complains on it. This proves that im still human, im still a Singaporean. Got to learn to be more flexible and more adaptive to my environment. Now that im left with less than three weeks before i reach my holidays. Took the initiative to pack my holidays. This will save me the trouble of thinking what to do and where to go during my holidays. Never done this before, maybe this will be a good start to a long period of holiday.

Be stress free...

Bai Ri Meng (Daydreaming)

Another sub-boring day has passed. Woke up too early so i went back to bed, in the end, i woke up late. Damn... Have to stop doing that to myself, wasting time sleeping so much. Pushed myself to the bathroom and prepared myself for the day. Chose my clothing of the day. During that time, i was chatting with my ex-VP. She just got online and i decided to have a short chat with her. So sad to hear that she is all alone today. Her partner is sick(i presume...), and she have to endure the lonliness in the office. I said my goodbyes and i left for school. Arrived late to my first lesson. Glad the lecturer did not mark that im late. He is a kind lecturer and i think he remember as a student of his class and not a student who is always late for his class. I hope he does the former... After his lesson, i went on for the last lesson of the day. Good: The lecturer was a good one, she knows her stuff and she taught very well. Bad: The computer is down!! She talked and talked and we were often caught off-guard by her highlited points. The lecture was the same as taking the bullet-train in Japan. Man, that was fast. Did not complain much as i managed to absorb as much as possible. It was lunch time after lessons. Met up with my Welfare Officer to have our weekly date. Haha... Had quite a good time with her. She wore really nice today. Skirt and a sleeveless shirt... *drool~~* Okie, that was uncalled for. Lunching with her is always fun, always expect the unexpected. Guess that is why lunching with her is never boring. After lunch, i went back to our respective labs to continue our projects. Did nothing much there, practically just testing and trial runs. Did some improvements for the site when i saw it was needed. I received a call that needed me. Went to my friend's rescue. Provided as much help as possible. If you are reading this, you are owing me too many favours le. Keep accumulating, and u might as well commit suicide and stop living. Left her to study the coding. I have complete confidence that she will understand my programming codes and do it without my help. Just when i thought i have completed whatever was needed for the day, my teammate threw me something to do. Im kind of shocked that the function was not done. I tried and tried but i just cannot do it. Maybe its the end of the day therefore giving me not a good mood to do that function. After trying out for the last time, i packed my bag and left the stressed-filled lab for home.

WM(my friend): Hey, i ask you a question. There are 2 girls behind a curtain each. You are to choose one and have sex with her no matter how she look like or what shape she is. That is the bad part, the good part is this. One is a extremely hot babe and the other is the total opposite. If given this choice, would you want to try?

Me: (Think for awhile...)Yes.

WM: Why? Lets think, if you get the ugly one, what will you feel?

Me: I think it the other way, at least i get the chance to have sex with a hot girl. Do you think you have any other chances closer than that?

That is my conversation with him during our 'self-declared' break. What you guys think? Did i make a good choice? Or i was foolish to do something that crazy. I always think life is a challenge, how long we live is also a challenge. We challenge to see who will live the longest. So i look this as a challenge, high risk but high return. Maybe its my nature to like risk.

Having risky life...

Time is ticking...

A few more days, less than 100 hours left. Countdown to my submission date of my FYP. Headed to school late. Woke up rather late too, had a bad time waking up. After i woke up, the construction site caused a ruckus again. Left home soon after... The sunshine feels so good on the body, making me feel so alive. After some lessons, i went to join my friends to tidy up our presentation. Had to present it today. Rush and rush... Finally we have completed it. Sure enough... It was tough, but at least it was something we did last minute. Crash into the presetation with whatever we had. Not a memorable experience and one that i would never regard as one of my best presentation. After that, i met up with my friend to help her on her project. Taught her as much as possible, could not help her much, instead just encouraged her and and gave her some pointers. Finally, had to accompany her to walk to the train. When we left the lab, i followed her. She asked me to keep her company while she waits for her class of boys to walk together to the train. When they have arrived, we set our destination to the train station. While walking, she chatted with them, but she walked next to me. Maybe she felt it was neccessary to do it as she was the one that asked me to do it. When we reached the train station, we seperated as we took different directiions. The train was kind of late due to the mad rush of a typical Singapore evening. Alighted at the next stop and went on to check out the comic store. Went to take a look around to see if the newest volume of comic have arrived. Im not sure why, but i just like to get my comics from that store. Luck was not on my side, there was no new volumes of comic. What a wasted trip. Left the comic store and went home feeling tired and dissapointed.

Time is running out and im left with that little time to settle all my FYP stuff. We have finished it totally left with some clearing of the codes and a couple of comments here and there. Nothing that cannot be done in this short timing. All that is required are done. Hope everything works well when we present our FYP to our Supervisors and Evaluator. I do hope he gives a remark or comment so that i will get to showcase our project again.

Present, present, present...(1 nouns, 1 verb, 1 adjective)

Bored...

Time to blog, (looks at clock), time to sleep... Nohing much to blog anyway. Same tuesday as usual. Maqybe tomorrow i will blog again. Yesterday blog have been cancelled by blogger server. Damn that server...

Boredom invades me...

Bitter Sweet Monday

Finally, mondays that are not that blue. Went to school as per normal. Had FYP slot in the morning. Went to school settle the final details of my FYP. One more thing, last friday my supervisor did not came to visit me. Today he came. First thing he told me was he forgotten totally about friday visit. Im like... ARGHZ!!! Made me so mad. My supervisor and you made the appointment, than you forget... This sucks. But it does not bother me. I just showed everything to him and told him about our functions and stuff. Had this sense of acheivement where i finally able to let people see what we have been talking and writing on paper so long. After we trial demo our project to him, he gave us some comments and advised us on how to do our final presentation. He left soon after and we went to have our breakfast. After breakfast, we continued with refining of our project. Had to switch labs as the other course of students require to use the lab. Before changing labs, we sat somewhere to settle our meeting tomorrow. It's a formal meeting and we are tested on it. So we definitely have to practice for it. I took this meeting rather serious but seeing my members having fun and not taking it seriously, made me relax my seriousness. They laugh, i laugh along. They smile, i smile along. No matter what, i enjoyed my time being with them. We proceeded to the lab that have the software we wanted. The lab was one of my junior's class. She was suppose to have lesson there, but she came really late. I called her and told her about it. After that, she came over quickly. She was the one that i had to help in her project. Looking at how bad she is doing, i quickly gave her some advice and explained the codes to her. Hope she understands what im talking. She left earlier than me. I stayed in the lab longer to finish up whatever im suppose to do. After finishing, i waited for my teammates to complete their tasks. After that, we left together. Though we walk seperate ways when we walk out of the lab, i still feel that its good to wait for them.

Nothing much to say. Not much to say as i have other things to do. I guess im not setting my time management well. Got to set it right soon.

Today good Monday...

One more week till freedom

Last day of the week. Nothing much i can do now except keep doing trial runs and testing to my project. Arrived early in school to start doing project. Glad my teammates were early too. I had an appointment with my supervisor that i will show him a taste of what we are going to present. In the end, he did not come. He did not even contact me. Im not very happy at this but he is still my supervisor. Maybe its our culture to respect and listen to seniority rather than manners. Waited for him for half an hour. After that, i called and left him a message, and i brought my whole team down for breakfast. Told him to contact me when he wants to meet us. Ate and went back to our project lab. He haven gave me a call. Continue what we are doing and waited for his call. We even shifted our lab. And he still never call me. Well... I gave up on him and i just surfed the net while my teammates are cleaning up our project. Had a conversation with a friend of mine. We graduated at the same year but i enrolled into poly earlier. She could not make it to poly as she failed a major subject. We were quite close so i gave her a helping hand on her project. That is when i get to know more about her poly life. Man... She is so popular and wanted by her classmates. 2 different guys chasing after her. Alas, she like none of them. I had to sit in and act 'to be very close with her'. Well... She was one of my good friend during my secondary school days so i just played along. After some acting and laughing at the 2 idiots, i left her with her friend and i went back home. Changed into my swimming gear and went swimming. Its been sometime since i have such a cooling dip.

Just 2 months ago, our Prime Minister(PM) proposed a five-day-week for all civil servants. This includes the employees of all educational organisations that are government funded and this includes my poly. Now, my poly is closed on saturday. Last time i used to go back to school on saturday to enjoy the facilities of the school. I pay almost a thousand bucks each semester to attend lessons and use the school's facilities. Now im being confined to staying home and spending time with my family. I know... We are a stressful and fast-pace country and society. But saturdays are my days where i get to go out with friends, use the facilities my school provide and increase the bond i have with my club mates. Last time it was simple, a call or a simple message like this would settle my saturday; 'Hey, tmr wan to go club? Play bball/soccer/badminton. 9am, club meet.' This was how my saturday are settled. Not much thinking and not much consideration. Now... I had to plan for my saturdays. I have to think of what am i going to do on saturdays. No more badminton playing or basketball games. This sucks very much. Now i wander around my saturdays... Thinking of what to do, where to go every friday. A new chapter of how i spend my saturday has been forced by the higher levels of the society.

Miss the six-day-week...

The World Is Pink

Today i did something for the 1st time again. Morning i woke up and slacked a little on bed. But in the end, i still woke up and prepared for school. When i am choosing my clothing of the day, i decided to break all barriers and wear a colour that i have shunned for years. I wore a pink coloured polo tee. Yes, i repeat that. I wore a pink coloured polo tee. That is the only colour polo tee that i wore for the 1st time and the only colour that i have in my wardrobe. Wore to school... Had this feeling of pinkish everything. It is like everyone is looking at my pink polo tee. I suddenly have this attraction. Unwanted attraction. Well... Maybe its just me. Went to my first lesson... Felt that the girls in the class were kinda shocked at my attire(20 students, 18 girls). But i took it easy and took a seat like it was nothing. After lessons, i met up with my Welfare Officer and we went for lunch. Her companion kept saying 'eeee... eeee... eee...' Im like, i cannot wear pink issit? She continue with her 'eeee...' I just said, come lets go. Partly to say i don't want to care what she said. Com'on... Its my first time wearing pink and my 1st bad response. I brought my welfare officer to the other end of the food court. We went over to get some chicken chop. She liked the food. But i can see that it was very filling for a girl like her. She did something embarrassing, shall not say much. Later she chase after me with the knife in my club. Well... Nothing much also. Brought her to take a bus behind the school. I bet this is her first time taking bus from the back of the school too. Arrived in our part of the school and we seperated to our individual labs. Came in and found no one i from my class except one. Im kinda shocked. Prepared my computer for work. After awhile, they came and everyone arrived. We started work soon after. Awhile later, my friend called me. She needed my help, so i went over and assisted her and helped her on her project. She does not understand the subject well so i had to help her. But i spend too much time there, casuing a little unhappiness with my teammate. I guess he must be frustrated and such as he still can't solve his error. All the best, i will try my best. Left them early as i had to leave for home. Getting some groceries for dinner. A little pasta, milk and cheese. After grocery shopping, i went back home.

Wow... My first time wearing pink and i met all my friends. I guess most of them said it was nice. Even my teammates say i look alot better wearing pink. I guess it is the special feeling that i gave my friends. I never liked pink when i was young. I never wore pink and i felt that pink was a colour that i could never fit myself into. From today onwards, i have created history in my life. I have challenged myself to wear a colour that i do not like so much. But today i received so much positive response, maybe that should encourage me. There is still one person that have not seen me in pink. I promised her i would show her one day. One prediction i have. Keep it inside me... A secret that will resurface when i meet her with my pink polo tee.

Pink Good Colour...

Interview Done, What's Next?

Another special wednesday. Wow... Two wednesdays that are special. Maybe its my luck ya? Woke up just nice to settle my morning rush. Went school late as the lecturer just started his lesson. Crashing into a lesson. Realised that im not that early either... None of my friends were there. Only after awhile, did they come in. That shows that we do not really care about this module. Really boring... After that lesson, i had to attend another lesson. Lesson after lesson... But the best part was during the evening time. I had an appointment for an interview with a company. The company was not as i expected. Located at the industrial areas. Not very my kind of style... The building is fairly secured. The lifts can bring you to every floor, but you have to use an access card to gain access to the level. After stepping into the level, it felt like i was in the movie, 'The Matrix:Reloaded'. The scene where the there is a corridor and many doors. Only the keymaker can access to it. It really felt that way. Thank god my interview was with a friend, my teammate. So we continued down and find our company. When we found it, i took a deep breath and knocked on the door. After that, i push open the door to find an office, about the size of my current classroom. The employees are all sitting together, Boss, sub-boss, all of them. No walls, no rooms, nothing seperates them. It cause a spine-chilling scare in me. Even the waiting reception is open. But the best part was seeing a friend. Well, not actually a friend, he is my ex-President. Didn't knew he was in this company. I had a chance to speak to him and find out more about the company. The company treats all interns rather good. They sent him to seminars and he returns to teach the rest. They gave him a personlised name card. He was treated like one of the working employees there. It is the same as the working world. The marketing manager interviewed me. She asked me questions and told me about what the company does. I did not feel like its an interview, i felt it was like a working excutive talking to a student. It was like a friendly conversation. One thing that i did not like about the company was that they supported Microsoft. Everything they use are all Microsoft products. I do not like Microsoft alot. Maybe after joining this company, it may change my mind and i may have a sudden crush on this software company. After the interview, i just went back home. Soon after, my friend called me and asked me about my interview. I had quite a good time. But i realise that he did not have the same fate as me. He had to go through a test and he failed rather badly for it. The company is going to hire two interns. Im only one of the six. Yes, six. Four from SP, one from NP and one from ITE. I do hope the others did better than me. The office gives me the creeps...

When i imagine my Internship, i imagine myself in working in the city and joining the major workforce. Not coming to an industrial park and join a group of IT executives that work in such an open concept. Yes... Its too open. There is practically no privacy. Nothing... I just cannot take it. I mean, at least give me a desk where there is a partition and my bosses are in rooms. So i can take a break once awhile. In that open concept, i don't think i can even catch a chit chat with my partner or another person. I will definitely go crazy when the stress level rises. This really sucks... One more thing that happened today was when i went back from the toilet, i saw a soccerball flew across the hallway. Next momment, i see this guy chasing after the ball. If that company is hiring an intern, i will definitely submit my resume and agree to all their terms. Im like... Wow, they do wore casual clothing and they do not look stressed up and tired like those in that company. A big difference. Very big... Really do hope the others put in a better interview than me. I specialise in open source softwares, not Microsoft softwares. Hate it when i have to let fate decide my life...

Please fail interview...

A Few Good Days

A few more days and i am free from the shackles of my FYP. Woke up early today as there was a lesson to attend. Arrived late but earlier than my lecturer. So im still considered early. Lesson was ok, not too boring. We entertained ourselves most of the time. There will always be a short lesson break in between and we always go for a long breakfast. Who cares anyway... I met my sister at the foodcourt. She has been suffering from lack of sleep and tons of stress. Her face shows everything. From a lively cute looking to dull lacklustre facial expressions. Looking at her in such a bad state, i feel very sorry for her. Wish i could do something for her to relieve her from so much stress. In the end, i just bought her a cup of ice lemon tea. After breakfast, we went back to lesson. Lesson ended with the lecturer forming us in our group to do a meeting roleplay. Im assigned a role, tell you more when we have been through it. After that, we went to our FYP lab to do our project. Stayed there for quite sometime, did not even went for my usual break. Did tons of cleaning up and adjusting of the project. But i suggestted that i leave early as my job scope have been completed. None of them complained, so i went home earlier than the rest.

Its just a few more days. I finally see some light of my proposed project. This is what i have been dreaming of for the last few weeks. I realise that the stress level have been lifted and the feeling is not the same as previous projects when we rush and rush when our dateline is near. Just another 12 days or so and im very relaxed. Too relaxed maybe... I may have to do some studying for my other modules. Not much mood to study anyway. Maybe, maybe when i have fully submit my project and did my demostration of my project. By then, i will be totally free, free like the wind.

Waiting for freedom...

Monday Blues... Tuesday ???

Another Monday... Another day of boredom. Morning woke up late due to too much drinking last night. Had a party to celebrate my brother's birthday. Drank this and that to entertain my uncles. When i arrived at school, i realise my classmates were booking the appointment for the NS medical checkup. I followed with them and we went along to book the same timing and date. Didn't really care when was it anyway... Just kept a reminder in my phone to remind me of the big day. Went on to submit last week FYP attendence to my supervisor. Setup my computer for later assignment. As soon as my com is ready, i was being called upon to go for breakfast. After breakfast, we went back to continue our project. We did not have much to do as it is near the end of our project. Now mostly is doing testing and trial run. There is still one final step we must do, i guess i will let the two girls that did the less to complete it. At least let them have a sense of commitment to the project. My classmates arranged a last minute outing to watch movie. Since it was a very good movie and i have seen it, i agreed to watch. We went over during evening time and bought the tickets. Laughed and enjoyed myself for the movie. After the movie, i suggested that we plan for the next movie. Another good movie coming and it involves one of my favourite games. We went to find a place to settle our dinner. But i did not eat there, i went home to eat. Did not want to spend anymore... End of the month is equilvalent to empty pockets. Joined them for dinner and we went on our own ways after that.

Monday blues... Who created that and where? Why is monday called the blues and not other colour? I wonder... So are they any other colours for other days? Tuesday green? Wednesday red? Thursday yellow? I tried finding on the Internet on how it came about. But to no avail... But while searching around this, i suddenly have this urge to buy a Risk boardgame. I searched around and all that were around were the newer versions. I did not quite like it, it is too fancy. Maybe it is me that likes old stuff. Some things are good when they are old, when they are improved, i just do not think it is nice. So currently im hunting for this old game. If you are reading this and you have an old Risk set, please contact me. Hope your set does not come with free moths and lizards. I do not accept foreign objects. Thanks and help spread the word.

Monday Tuesday Wednesday...

No Lens VS Hard Lens

Today had something different. I tried something new today. I went to school late as i had to bring my Grandma to the market. I so afraid that she might get into some accident or something... But as soon as i left her at the market, she felt like she belonged there. Maybe it is the elderly best place to get good and cheap groceries. I went to school soon after. Reached the place a little late, 40mins late to be exact. When i have settled down, i quickly setup my computer and started on my assigned work. It is just a minor job and i completed it very fast. After that, i just slack there and practically stared at my computer. I had an appointment to do some eye check. This time i had to try some lens. Hard lens. My friend checked my cornea to see whether is there any damage to it. After that, she left to find the hard lens. It was quite a long wait, so i sat on the chair and i fell asleep. Woken up by the lecturer there. Phew... Very embarrassing to be caught sleeping there. So she came over and looked at my eyes. She gave my friend some advice and asked her some questions. Asking her what should she do when she saw this. I have complete trust in my friend as i know she is a very hardworking and smart lady. I even made a pact with her, when we graduate from poly, she will be my personal eye doctor while i will help her in any IT problems she have. Today i tried something new... I tried a pair of hard lens. Wow... It was really an unforgettable experience. It was really bad at first. Cried as the eyes cannot get use to the lens. My friend cold hands helped me put on the lens. Took sometime for it to settle in. after 15mins, my eyes got used to it but i still have this irritant lens on my eye. Not really used to it. My friend even best, gave me a pair of special specs with removable lenses to wear. Asked me to read words on the wall. It felt really irritating, had to wear it for very long time. Man... Im a man of hard tears, and she is one lady dat made me cried like im a small baby. After that, she got her lecturer to come over and take a look at my eyes. Check if the lens fit my eyes. She said something of flat and steep. Not very sure what are they talking... So after awhile, my friend came back. She said something to me... 'The lens abit wrong ar. How bout this... I switch over and we check again.' Im like... !?!?! Huh?? What are you talking? Can you repeat that again in slow motion. I said, anything loh. But when she tried to take the lenses out, i tink my eyes is sensitive to it. I just can't seem to let her take it out with ease. She tried on my left and it caused a stinging pain. It was because the tip of the lens push against my cornea. It will take some time to let the cornea go back to usual shape, around 12 hours. It was difficult to put the lenses in. I realise that getting them out was almost the same or even more difficult. Cried somemore this time... Have this really painful stinging feeling. My friend kept apologising. She felt really bad to ask me to do this torturing tryout. Well... I volunteered and i trust her. So if im blind, i have to blame myself. Went home with a stinging eye.

'Hard lens cover the retina area, soft lens cover the entire cornea. That is why soft lens is more preferred.' When i heard that, i wanted to ask why did she gave me a pair of hard lens. But i kept it back as she just want to get experience of fitting a pair of hard lens. She is my future eye doctor. So using my youth, i will help her to complete her goal to become an eye specialist. This is the first time i met someone with an ambition to do something that is beyond what normal people like to do. Medical and Law. Both industry that only accept the hardworking and diligent students. I wish her all the best in her strive for being a medical specialist.

Hard or Soft...

Long Live Arcade!!

Today was another enjoyment day. It was a self declared half day for all of us. Went to school in the morning to attend lessons. Did not do my work but i just sat in and listened to the lectuerer. He asked me to take attendence. I just took and closed it, did not really care whether are they here or not. Full attendence. Guess im a good guy. After that, i went for another lesson. That was the last lesson of the day and of the week. Have lunch with a clubmate. The usual lunch date. Missed two weeks of lunchdates with valid reasons. I repeat, VALID REASONS. So when i came over, she was with a friend. Quite sweet looking. Name was... Shall not say it, i do not say names here if you notice. Had lunch with two beautiful ladies. The new friend was dressed rather simple. T-shirt, shorts and slippers. When she left, i was kinda shocked at her attire... Im like, 'Wah, she come school wear like dat ar?' Furthermore she is in the business school. Maybe one of a kind, special cases only. Haha... After lunch, my classmates asked me out for movie. I met up with some of them and we headed to the cinema together. Some left for karaoke while some continued the movie outing. Sat in the cinema for around 90mins. It is the 2nd movie of the week. Another movie outing with my seniors is coming this saturday. Wow... one week three movies... Guess i can break my ex-VP's record! After movie was lunch, a very late lunch. We went around different places to find a vegetarian store as one of my classmates was a strict vegetarian. Some complained and made fun of her. But i just consoled her and said, since she is the one that is vegetarian, we will find a place and sit there to settle our lunch. Finally found the place. Finished lunch and we chatted for sometime. Soon after, we left the place and went back home.

Before we went into the cinema, i entered the nearby arcade and played my heart out. It has been a long time since i stepped into one and enjoyed the fun it provides. I realise that i do not belong to the place anymore. Five years ago, i went to the arcade as if it was like a second home. I would spend quite a sum inside and enjoy the latest game and become a guru at it. That was when my life was still boring and i did have alot of free time on my hand. Today when exchanged $2 to play, i realise how much money i have wasted during my life then. Playing all these games and wasting all my money and time... How i wish i could go back in time and get back all this time and money. I realise that i could use this time and money to learn new skills and know more friends. Should have thought of that during that time. Well... Maybe its because im not that matured yet, still have the child like thinking of yesteryears. After today, i have decided on one thing. I shall never spend more than $5 in the arcade at one time. Rather save the extra for my marriage.

But arcade fun...

This is Good Day

Today has been a good day. Have completed one part of a particular assignment. Hope that i can score well for it. As usual, wednesdays are boring. But not today, because an event has made me rather happy. Tell more later... Had lessons as usual. I still have the privillege of having lessons in the Mass Lecture Theatre(MLT). I have a teammate telling me that he misses the feeling of sitting in one and listening 'attentively' to the lecturers. Well... We sure will miss some stuff once a while. Im going to miss to much so much when i graduate. Had lunch at a different place. Another foodcourt in my institution. Ate Japanese cuisine, it has been some some since i ate from the stall. Im very glad the uncle still remembered me. Maybe it was because of the famous incident with my seniors last year. I will never tell, unless you have ate with us before. Im sure some of them will know... Or maybe not... After lunch i went back to more lessons. Same old boring lessons. But this time the lecturer came over and helped us a little. At least i feel that we have received help from him. After that, i went over to my club's Annual General Meeting(AGM). Had some fun just shouting and laughing all the time. As there was a lucky draw, i wrote down five names. So i had five chances. Than out of nowhere, my buddy got like ten plus tickets. Im like stunned... Next momment, i got thrown all the tickets to me. Telling me to help them check. So i sat through the entire AGM. Towards the end, it was time for the lucky draw. Suddenly, all those people that gave me their tix, grabbed them all back. So im left with a couple of tix. But those were not mine. My buddy got all mine. But he was finding the one tix that belongs to her girl, and it was in my hands!! Muahahaha... So when the 1st consolation prize was announced, my number was called. My buddy got it. He took all my tix. So he went down and collected the prize. Awhile later, he got it again. But this time, all the other tix were disqualified. So he sat there in dispair. After a long while... It went into the last three prizes. I miss out on the 3rd. But when they call for the 2nd, i got the tix. It belong to my buddy, but since he got 2 consolation prizes. Might as well let me take this. Im sorry, people that laugh first, laugh last. Even worse, when they announce the 1st prize, it was a tix that was disqualified. My buddy was very fed up. His disqualified tix just cost him the 1st prize. We all laughed at him. That was a double blow for him. After that, we went outside to have refreshments. Ate and ate... Just keep on eating... I even challenged my clubmates to a fruit eating contest. Wow... My Logistics Head can really eat. He ate like double of what i ate. A contest of how many pieces you can really eat. Eventually, i stood at the 2nd one to give in. Man... Talk about a stomach full of fruits... Joined them for debrief and a short meeting. Left with them and proceeded home.

Today is a good day. Assignment complete half. Lecturer came and help us. Won 2nd prize in AGM. Had a ton of fruits in my stomach. Well... Nothing come this close to being one of the best wednesdays of the semester. This is definitely the best day of the week.

Go shopping le...

Rain Rain Go Away...

Today is a very rainy day. It rained whole day. Gonna keep it short today. Feeling very tired after continuing my report for one of my project. Do not really like that module. Been bored to death since i started on it. It is almost the same as one of a module i have taken when im in my first year. What a total waste of time. Today did nothing much. Same old go school and come back from school. My project is ending and my job is finishing. Now i leave the testing and debugging to my teammates. They will check everything and make sure everything works fine. During this time, i will have some free time on hand to concentrate on my other projects. If i have the mood to do them. Nothing much else to talk about. Getting very tired. Think something is wrong with me, sleeping late and waking up early to do boring stuff. Maybe that is how life is suppose to be. Looking forward to the next few days.

Time to rest...

Monday Blues??

What is Monday Blues? To me, it is a day where everything that should go right went the opposite way. This morning i have to wake up at eight. But i woke up at half-past seven. So i went back to sleep. Next momment, i look at my ringer, it looks like i slp for 15mins. But i took a closer look and i found it is 15mins before nine. Im shocked!! I got up and did everything at the speed of light!! Very very fast, grab and go. A workout can be choreograph i think... But that is not the worst part, it started to rain. Quite heavy too. Therefore i had to bring an umbrella. Take notice, i brought an umbrella out. Reached school soon after and started work. Had to settle on some administrative stuff before i can start work. Usual for every MONDAY. Had breakfast earlier since the stressed curve have curved back to normal. Went back to the lab in a better mood. Maybe the stress level is getting lesser and im getting less pressurised. So went back to continue work. Realised that most of them had nothing much to do. Maybe we have completed what we need to do and now in the testing stage. Shall let them do the testing and trial runs. I left my teammates. I do not wish to add this here as i may want to forget it. A little of good and bad... But i did went out to catch a movie. Quite a short one, 90mins of film. But a good one to laugh it out. Went home soon after. On the way home, i saw this cute girl in her secondary school uniform. She is very cute. Long hair, big round eyes and when she smile, i can see clearly the dimples she have on her cheeks. Smooth skin white skin. Not my type of skin color, but its still attractive. I give her a 8/10. We alighted on the same stop. I walked slightly slower to findout where she actually lived. Lucky me... She walked into a condominium earlier than me. Now i know where she lives... Think our chances of meeting again would be high and low. Depending on luck again. At this very momment, i realise something... My brolly was gone. Thinking back where i left it... I realise i left it in the cinema. Shucks...

Time is passing at a steady speed. Im completing my Poly studies and im ending my final year. After this, i will be going for my Internship. Soon after that, i will be joining the army to serve the nation. Never knew time would pass me by that fast. Thinking back, i realise that things just come and go every minute, every second. I learn to treasure the times i had with my friends, my club mates and my family. I learn to hold on to memories that are dear to me and keep them deep in my heart. I picked up experiences that not most people are able to see or hear. I have seen the most beautiful sun set and sun rise during my trip to NZ. I have done so much that i could write a book and compete with all the celebrity authours around. Haha... Wonder if i did that, would anyone buy my book? I do not think i will even reach the top ten sellers. But that will be considered if someone were to pay me to do it.

Time to relax...

Eye Examination

Today i have an eye examination. Quite fun, but at some point is quite tiring. This morning, i woke up early enough for me to play a game of soccer on my PS2. I always let my mom use the toilet as she needs it more than me. While playing, i waited for the sound of the door to unlock. Once i heard it, i quickly went in with my towel and do my necessary chores. Prepared my bag for the day and left home in a rush. Reached the lab a little late as i had to walk a big round the staduim now. Damn those construction fence... When i arrived, i started to do my stuff. I reviewed on my teammates jobs and how was their progress. They did what they were told and im quite delighted. After i finished what im suppose to do, i went to have breakfast with one of my teammate. He had some gripe on the other team members. I can't blame him for having it. What he said was the truth. I can see it with my own eyes. But it is near the end of the project. I do hope they will learn from this project and understand the basic learning skill of picking up a programming language. I left them in the afternoon to go for my eye examination appointment. Played some new equipment today. I had to take my eye pressure again. I also played with something called a Visual Field Identifier... Something like that... Well... You just cover one side of the eye and the machine will flash dots of light on the spherical background. You will have to stare at the light and push a button when u see the light. You are not allowed to see the light, but press the button if you see it. I did it one round, than the trainee optometrist checked my results with the lecturer. The lecturers there are qualified eye doctors. So they found something wrong with my eyes. My blindspots are totally wrong and my eye alignment is off course. Im kinda shocked to hear that, so i went for another test. Eye nerve photographic test. A small machine with a huge lens aimmed at my eye. I was suppose to look directly at it and they take a photograph of it. Wow... After the flash of light, the next few seconds was rather white. One flash for each eye actually. But my left eye was naughty, i blinked at the wrong time and the lens did not capture what was intended. So i had to retake again. After that, the lecturer came in and looked at the photographs. She told me nothing was wrong with my eyes. I have perfectly fine eyes. So it must be measurement of my blindspot error. I was like... Thank god... But the blindspot machine is kinda like an ordeal. Fun at first, then five minutes later it start to feel bored. 15mins later, i was totally scared of it. Not something comfortable to play with. To think i have to go through it again!! ARGHZ!! I think lady luck was with me, someone came in after us and changed the parameters of the machine. It couldn't work. So i had to make another appointment to come another time to do that freaking machine again. ARGHZ!! After that, i left the test centre and went back to the lab where i left my teammates. They left while i stayed on to do my part. Improved on the codes and added some new pages. Still not tested or validated yet, but i will get it done next week. Three more weeks till total freedom!! Left the lab in the evening to find a couple of my friends. They asked me out for dinner. How can i reject them? Its been some time since we had a meal together. Met them up, chatted and we ate dinner together. Chatted about our school. We are the same age, we graduated from high school at the same time. But i admitted to Poly one year earlier then them, so i have finished what they are going through. Gave them some pointers on their modules they are going through. Had quite some fun taking and making fun of them. Too bad i did not take my camera, wished i took with me. Able to snap some pics to keep as momentos. Went home and joined my parents for dinner. Did not eat much as was kinda full. After that, they went into the jackpot room. I went in too. It was fully packed. All the machines were used, except one. My mum went up to reserved it. So my dad changed some for a basket of coins and urged me to play. I played and played... No winning at all... Got kind of fed up with it, so i went to get a cup of coffee. Walked about to cool myself down. Mum was playing another machine. She lost like $40 to a machine. She gave up on that machine and she handed me the rest of the $10 to follow up on my current machine. I inserted all the coins in and tried my luck. Again, lady luck smiled on me again. Shall not disclose how much i won, maybe a hint. I need more than two hands to count my winnings. Haha...

Today made me realise something:
1) Trust your doctor when he say that you have something wrong. Do not argue with him/her.
2) Do not belive the above if your doctor is a quack.
I almost got a shock when i heard the lecturer told me i had some eye problems. Of my five senses, i love my eyes the most. Sight is something i would want to lose the last. I don't mind being deaf, don't mind be dumb. But i will never tolerate if i cannot see. Even if i cannot smell or taste, i would sacrifice these for my eyes. A simple reason why is very simple. I want to see God's creation. I want to see things that most people are unable to. I want to see the pretty girls that walk on the street. Most of all, I want to see and remember all the beautiful things that have crossed my path in my lifetime. That will include my friends too. They will sit at the top forever for being there for me.

Sight is precious...