Notes 2 Life

Just want to add this entry as the past 2-3 days i did not blog. Nothing much happen. Just went for a date on Thurs and a club outing on Friday evening. We went for steamboat. After that was a bowling tournament with them. Not all of them of course. Went home early next morning... Real early...

Thats about it... What about the weekends you say... Well... If you are a newbie reader, than maybe you shud know something. I don't blog on weekends. Somewhat like a worker, 5days a week is all i do. Something to know about it too... I blog at the last event of the day. The momment before i sleep and after i brushes my teeth. So the dates might be a little screwed up. But heck it, i don't care. What matters most is the entry and the content right?

Im Loving IT...

Home Sweet Home

Today is a boring day but a savings day for me. I spent the whole day at home. Nothing much happens except the plot of land adjacent to my home is finally starting to have some construction. The weather was hot, then cooling, then hot again. Stayed indoors whole day. Ate and played the whole day. Time passed really fast eh... Dinner was eaten at home as Grandma was at home cooking some of my favourite dishes.

I realised how mess this house was today. Especially my room, i have not packed my room since the start of this millennium. My robots are having dust more than 10cm thick! Maybe i should take some time to clean all this up. Cleanning up... Ya, like i'll do it...

Slacking like hell...

Cest La Vie...

Woke up late as i slept late. Sleep on the same day as i wake up on the same day. Confusing but true. Ate something as i watched TV. Went for a bath as the weather is very hot. Prepared for outing as there is a briefing on a camp coming this June. Left home in the early afternoon. Reached school soon after. Went into my club room and its too late. The briefing is done. Everything is finished. Practically i just went there to pay the participant fee. I left with my clubmates(Main Comm). Went to our school bakery to get some snacks. The girls had some quarrel and i didn't knew what was happening. I think it must be trival matters. They were dressed casually. So i knew something was not right. My intuition was right. They went for a chalet without me... Either way, the organisers of the chalet either forgot about me or they did not want me to go. Since im not invited, might as well play along with their plot. Don't wish to crash bash a happy place eh... They waited for a person to pick them up. I know that person. So i left them to avoid rumours. Alone, i ate my lunch at Clementi. After lunch, i went back home. Continued my work on the proposal. Had to finish it ASAP. Watched some TV while snacking. Afterwards, i retreated to my room. Continue where i have left off in the fantasy world of a book.

Im not sure whether the words for my title is spelled correctly. It means thats life in french. In life, there is alot of surprises. That is why life is so exciting. Always so challenging. Never a dull momment. Am i talking in a way to comfort myself? Heck, sometimes these surprises are just too much for me. I may have a heart attack if there are too much. I can handle certain surprises, but some are too much for me to handle alone. I need to talk to somebody about this. Usually i would find a friend. But which one? 'You have so many friends. So which one is really one that you can trust and find whenever you need help?' This is what my 2nd ex told me when we are together. Hope she is fine now. I never thought of that situation before. Having a really good friend. I just concentrated on having as much friends as possible. I realised my mistake. A mistake that will affect my entire life from then on. I hate it if i treat a friend like a buddy, telling him/her everything and in the end, he/she is not the one. If only i can find one friend i can call buddy...

Mystery of Life...

Free & Easy

Morning had a slight shower. Hoping it would last long so i can sleep through the morning. In the end, the rain only lasted around 15mins. What a letdown... Drag myself out of bed and went to do my daily routine. Prepared for later outing. Wore a shirt that i wore only twice. Went out in late morning to school to retrieve a file. Got hold of it, and went on to continue my day. Met my sister and her childhood friend (piggy). Before meeting them, i ate at Bugis foodcourt. The lady overcharged me and the food sucks. I did not finish it. Had to made do with some of it and a can of drink. Met up soon after, we talked and catch up on things. They went for their attachment, a kind of test that puts the student on the actual line of work. Of course they have to be paid... Else how real can it be? Both of them were either complaining on how hard their work is or telling me what other odd job they are told to do. I just listened in and told them my comments. Piggy had to leave early as she had a birthday celebration with her brother. Her bro's birthday is today. We went across the road to get some apple strudel. She left early for home. It only leaves me and sis alone. We walked our way to another MRT station. Talked alot more as the last time we got together was really a long time ago. Just talk and walk. Maybe its just that we are just too compatible as brother and sister. She dropped off earlier than me on the train. Continued my journey home.

How far would i go for a friend? A simple question that can have infinite answers. It had to depend. If that friend is just an aquitance, that most probably i won't do much for him. The furthest i would do anything for a friend would definitely be my VP. We have so much in common together. That would be a lie if i told it infront of her. But i don't mind losing an arm for her. Eh... That is just too much. Maybe a lie or two would be the most. Why would i do so much for her?? Well, we are good friends. I know her inside out. Literally not physically, think the former not the latter. Another to add on the list would be my sister and brother. Both so close to me therefore i will do my best to help them. I don't mind donating my kidney to my brother or cutting up half of my liver for my sis. They are the people that makes my life entertained.

Far Further Furthest...

You Drive me Car-azy

I survived!! Finally... It all happened this morning. Went to the driving school to attend a practice session before i went for my Eval test. It was grueling but it pays off. I took the practice papers over and over again. I think i did each paper at least 3 times. Haha... Rested for 15mins before i went for the Eval. Went in, click click... Since both practice and Eval are PC based, it was rather fast. I finished my Eval in 15mins. Scored 80/80!! FULL MARKS!! So now i can apply for the test. But that will only take place on 8th june. A very long way from now. For celebration, i went over to Jurong Point for lunch. Bought tickets for evening movie. Ate a big plate of Chicken Chop with black pepper sauce. Delicious... Lingered around the shopping centre till the next lesson. Really tired... Almost fell asleep in the classroom. But thanks to the Instructor, he made the class lively and that helped in waking me up. After the lesson, i met up with my brother and we went for a movie. Rent a book before the movie. After the movie, we went for dinner. After dinner, we went to a store where my brother tried his luck on some miniature figurines. Not bad, he got what he wanted. We went home via bus soon after.

Really tired. Don't know what to blog for thoughts today. I think my mind's a blank now. Maybe after the weekends, i may have something new again.

Eyes wide shut...

Driving My Life

Had lessons at the driving school today. Went early to do some practice for a pre-exam. The school rules goes this way, you must pass an evaluation test before going for the real exam. This is a good way, but i find it rather troublesome. Having to pass 2 exams to get a Provisional Driving License (PDL). With that PDL, i am legally able to drive a car. Spent the whole day there. Had lunch at a nearby Macdonald's. Went back to the school to attend the lesson. Part of the whole course requires us to attend 5 lessons. 2 Basic Theory and 3 Advanced Theory lessons. I have completed the 2 basic and 1 advanced. Going for the final 2 lessons soon. After that, i met up with my Brother to browse around in Clementi. Went to bank in some money afterwards and realised i have only 2 digits before the decimal. Feel the pinch getting harder and harder...

I dedicate this holidays specifically for learning how to drive a car. I want to drive a car legally before the end of my 1st month of school. Hope everything goes smoothly for me. But seriously, if i were to really drive a car. The first person i wan to pickup is my parents. Time i return the favour of them driving me around. After that, i want to bring my sis to eat at nightspots around my area. She have been craving for the prata near my home. After that, im going to bring my friends around in a car. I kinda pormised my VP i drove her around. At least she knew a friend that drives so that she can stay up late and still be able to reach home. I want to drive so i can use the car when i go out at night. Sometimes a car would do alot of convenience to me. No waiting for busses, no squeezing in the MRT, i get to listen to my favourite radio station or plug in my discs for entertainment. At least now i can choose where to go, without wasting time at all.

Praying to pass...

A Long Day

Another FYP meeting was held today as its the last day to finalised the whole proposal. We came down to school, met up and discussed the final details of the project. Had quite alot of thinking to do, but finally finished up the whole proposal. Submitted the proposal soon after. Hurried my way back to the clubroom to join another meeting. The whole committee was there, well, almost. The Welfare Officer is not around. I don't mind, she have worked so hard for the ADD. Time for her to take some R&R. After the meeting, i waited for the rest to finish up the proposal for the Mass Orientation Programme (MOP). After that, we went to Tanglin Mall. My VP and Logistic Head each bought a pair of knitting equipments. They suddenly got intrest in knitting. After that, we walked all the way to Takashimaya. We had our lunch over there. The library was where we headed next. They borrowed a book on knitting and we headed home afterwards. The train had some delay due to technical fault. My Secretary and I waited like 15mins for a train home. Packed like sardines, the ride back home was an uncomfortable one. I left early as my stop was before hers. After that, i took a bus and headed straight for home.

I suddenly feel the gals surrounding me suddenly become enlightened and went really lady like. My Treasurer, also my classmate, also my FYP group mate, went in search for skirts and exposing garments. When i mean exposing, i mean real girl type. Usually she wears long pants and t-shirt. Very seldom does she wear a skirt or a spaghetti top. Things are really changing here. My VP also start to change. She started by learning how to bake stuff, now she wants to go into knitting. The Logistic Head is alright for doing such stuff as she is the kind that portray a femenine person. But its really getting more and more obvious. I guess... When girls go through a certain stage, they began to evolve. I think i shud not use the word 'evolve'. As if my VP is going to become a monster or such. Maybe its another factor, a factor that changes a person's thinking. I guess im gonna see a more feminine side of my friends.

I am evolving...

Work work...

Today was one of the days that I hope it never would have taken place during my holidays. Having to help out at my father's place. A place of boredom, place of sadness and most probably... A place of suffering. Well... Not all is true, some of them are over exaggerated. The whole day was spent there. Don't want to write it here. Brings up bad memories... Went home with Mom & Dad at night. Real late.

Fate and destiny. What are those things? Those things, those two words that does not exist in my vocabulary. Words that i will never use except telling people that i dun believe in them. Blaming things that happen on fate and sweetening the situation by saying it is destiny is not my way. I belive in the cause and effect. If you don't study, you will fail. If you don't eat, you will feel hungry. If you don't work, you will have no money. It is that simple, what you do will definitely affect your future. It is not fate or destiny that 2 person are not meant to be together. It is the lack of trust and time that cause both person not being together.

F&D are lies...

Freedom

The morning was really sunny and clear. I went for my FYP (Final Year Project) meeting and we settled on a project title and theme. We will be doing a Friendster kind of project except its more virtual. Know more about it when the time comes. Had lunch with them and continued with the meeting. After the meet, i went out with 3 of my groupmates. Didn't knew where to wander, so we went to Plaza Singapura to window shop. Since my sis (younger) is on attachment there. She is... ahem... Selling popcorn and drinks at the counter. Bought a drink and continued our wandering. Wandered around the area then left the girls to meet her. I met her at the station. Then we went over to a building to send flyers and record the address at the same time. After that, we walked our way to the Singapore River and we chatted there. We walked along the river and finally to i sent her to a place where her father picked her up. I went home alone soon after.

Being decent. Does that mean not being cheeky infront of girls? Or maybe not be touchy in a relationship. Decent can mean alot of thing in this human world. Decent guys does not exist in this world, proclaims my sister. All guys think of is sex even before he thinks of getting her to be his gal. I totally disagree with her. There are decent guys around. I mean just take a look at how some girls are wearing. They are showing more skin in the city area than those at the beach!! How can a guy not drool or even fantasize when he sees this? I can tell u, its natural. If a guy does not do that, either he is gay or he decides to go for a sex transplant.

I am decent... ;)

Final Preparation

One more day... One more day till the ADD. Went to school early to meet with a supplier of prizes that we bought from him. Talked alittle and he passed us all the receipts as that is the most important thing. Met back at our clubroom, discussed awhile what is happening. Continued the day by going for a haircut. Damn stylist... Took on so many customers... Had the longest haircut in my life, currently that is. Had to collect my blazer and pants at Raffles Place at 6pm. Ended the haircut at 4pm, so i bought a movie ticket to watch and brought in my lunch. The movie lasted 1hr 15mins. Not very good and not very bad eiter. Entire cinema was populated by 5 viewers including me. Movie ended, therefore its time to collect my stuff. Upon reaching the place, the person gave me my package and i tried it out. Very fitting, just as i wanted. Took the stuff and travelled home.

Totally prepared for the event tomorrow. Don't have much brainpower to think anyway.

Being fully prepared...

Can You Handle the Truth?

Today seem to pass very fast. As promised to myself, i woke up real late. Skipped breakfast and went school to get our ADD doorgift receipt. But before i went to my clubroom, i went over to our school's digital print shop. I saw our poster. The poster that my clubmate(maybe not yet, but soon...) designed. When i see it, im really impressed and in awe. Finally able to see something that is going to be present on that day. After that was picking up the receipt and went on to collect the doorgift. At the shopping centre, i ate my lunch. Went back to school soon after to continue the packaging of the doorgift. It is very nice and the 3 of us, VP and Logistics Head, packed all 150 pieces of it. But i realised something when we are about to finish. There are only 130 pieces. Im shocked, so we called the supplier and enquire about the missing 20 pieces. In the end, we just got a reason saying he will help us check it out. I packed our stuff into a box and prepared them to be sent over via car. I parted with VP and Logistics Head and went to a nearby shopping centre to rent a DVD. Bought my monthly gaming magazine and went home straight. Slept for awhile and woke up for dinner. Settled some administrative problems and went on to watch my movie.

The truth... Is the truth really that important? Does everybody say the truth all the time? Im sure everyone handles the truth differently. I always speak the truth. I don't like my friend to hear lies or hear what he/she wants to hear. It is alot better to hurt them now by telling them the truth than allowing them to find out for themselves. Some of my friends tell me to practice tact. That way, i make less enemies and more friends. If telling lies and hiding the truth can do that, do lawyers have multiple accounts in friendster to accomodate all their so-called 'friends'?? I belive in telling the truth. Hiding the truth can only make the situation better for awhile but hurt it in the long run. So please don't get hurt or get mistaken when i say the truth. Because sometimes, the truth really hurts.

Speaking the truth...

Fun Filled Day

I set today to be my most enjoyable day during the week of the ADD. I have been slogging my ass the past few weeks and I am beginning to feel very anxious about the event. But the day had to start with a morning shower... Anyway... I was suppose to go school to inspect at our event banner and some of the prizes. Went there in the early noon and saw no banner, no prizes, better still no uncle... So I guess he might have forgotten or left before I arrived. So I continued my day by meeting my Treasurer and we proceeded to Far East Plaza to meet with the rest. Arrived kinda early so we walked about for awhile. Met the rest and went for lunch. Talked and laugh while eating Chicken Rice (a Chinese dish that consists of chicken meat and rice). Then, we walked over to a karaoke place to sing our hearts out. Sang from past 2pm to 7pm. Spent around $15 per person. Left the place and went over to another building. At the place we bought our token of appreciation, chocolates that cost more than $100 bucks. Haha... Anyway, its my VP idea and I support her idea of getting something presentable. I bought a plate of fried Japanese noodles and we left the building for home. Halfway through my Welfare Officer wanted to go to a departmental store. So she asked whether we wanted to go too. I went along but my VP decided to go home as she have to join her family for dinner. Along the way, my mum called. She wanted me to go back to her office and check her system out. She lost some important files. So i left Welfare Officer and Logistics Head to rush over to her place. Had quite a hard time to search for some files. I guess its all gone now. Even the backup does not have the file she is holding. Went home with them afterwards.

I learned about punctuality when i was in primary school. My maths was real bad, i don't like analytical thinking. So i had to attend for remedial lessons. Since remedial lessons are 1 hour earlier then school reporting time, i seldom arrive on time for the lesson. So after 1 week being late, the teacher got fedup and decided to lock the door after 10mins have passed. Got caught once or twice but ever since then, i learned that punctuality is very important in life. In my secondary school days, i was never late. Arrived early or just in time. By then i realised that time is so important not only to me but also the person that i have arranged to meet. I try my best not to be late so as not to leave a bad impression of myself. I also learned that, time is the essence of everything. Most importantly, first dates are not supposed to be late. Never let the other party wait. Well... Some of my first dates are late, not me but the other party. But they are girls and if i continue... That is another story.

Time not enough...

What the hell...

Political crap happen to me again. Planned a meeting at 10am with my clubmates to discuss the final details of the ADD. But most of them were late. The best part about it is my President is late but earlier then the others. Therefore, he went over to the enrollment booth at the otherside of the school to help them out. But when everyone have arrived, it was around 1.30pm. I called him to join us, but in the end he gave a reason of going to work at 2pm. Cannot blame him totally, we are at fault too. So after meeting, we had lunch together. Since i borrowed most of my money to the enrollment, therefore i kinda owed my lunch to my VP. The both of us, though different sex, can be very good friends. Just maybe we know each other too much... Haha... Lunch was rather heavy, or should i say extremely heavy. My VP cannot finish her portion of her rice and gave me like 1/2 of it!! Im like... 'Man, im unable to walk.' We continued our own stuff after lunch. I went over to the enrollment area, helped them a little. When i came back, my VP and Treasurer went to the same place to pass them something. Stayed in the clubroom afterwards and helped out in the packing of our doorgift for our ADD. We went for dinner afterwards. Talked and laugh all the while. Went home alone as my club's secretary did not accompany us for dinner.

Im not sure what to say today, but maybe i talk more about a topic i shared with my VP. We are very close friends so we are very open about our topics. We were talking about our partners and whether are they the right choice. My view was since he/she is there, take first. You might not know, maybe she is the right one. My VP point of view was not taking it first. Wait and see to find a better one. But i realise... Finding a partner is like finding a tree to be chopped down for building a wood house. A good tree would make good house. But the rule is that you cannot change your mind when you decide that the next tree would be better than the current one. By the time you keep skipping the next tree or keep changing your mind. Maybe you have gone through every suitable tree in the forest. I would have gotten the first tree i seen most suitable. Even though it does not meet all my requirements, but at least it would make a stable house.

Political issues sucks...

Long & Winding Road

When i took a peek at my mobile this morning, i was shocked that it was already 8.30am. I had to rush to a driving school which is like 20-30mins away. First lesson starts at 9.50am. Rush rush rush... Glad i made it to the school in time for lesson. I booked the lessons there early to prevent from stakeouts. Actually... I decided to finish my basic in one day. There are 3 levels in our driving; basic theory, follow by final theory lastly practical test by the traffic police. So i attended lessons for the basic and went for the exam. Man... Upon 80marks, u are suppose to score at least 72. Sad to say... I only scored 70. At that momment, i felt really frustrated. But nevermind, i went on to book more dates for practice and another round of exam. Whole day was gone in that school itself. After that was meeting my clubmates. My VP, Welfare Officer & the General Secretary was there. We met the entertainment people. He discussed alot on the program flow and we really like his ideas. Since on that day is my Logistics Head birthday, we decided to make a prank on her. Not to disclose too much, just have to wait and see... After that was lunch at Long John Silver's. Why must we take the freezing seats? I can see my VP shivering when we were talking to the entertainment people. So after dinner we went over to a nearby Starbucks for coffee and more discussion. Chat and chat and chat... Then... Boom!! My VP fell asleep. Actually no boom, but just nodding of her chubby cheek head. The place was not really a good one as there are smokers smoking and i can see my Welfare and Secretary both horrid faces. Settled things quickly and went off soon.

Will i ever drive a vehicle myself? In the gaming world, i can drive a souped up Mazda RX5, with rims, spoilers, turbo engine, ECU fuel gauge, extended exhaust and best of all... NOz!!! Just hear the sound of the engine reving up, gives me a very satifying feeling. In real life... The nearest that i ever driven a vehicle was parking a 15-feet lorry at my father's warehouse. The feeling was nice at the start, but it began to wind down and boring too... In the end, i never went back to help reverse lorries again. This time, im gonna pass my license and im gonna drive a car. Physically stepping on the accelarator pedal and move a vehicle. That is this year's dream. No more chauferring by a taxi-driver. No more waiting for overnight travelling buses. No more hassle of thinking what to do when it begin to rain. That is my dream. Not forgetting to chauffer my gal too...

Zoom Zoom Zooom...

Let the Party Begin!!

What a rainy day it was today. Woke up with the skies really dark. Then... BOOM!! It started raining. ARGHZ!! How am i gonna meet her?? Had quite alot of thinking through my head. To meet her or not to meet her. That is the question. In the end, i decided to meet her. Glad i made the right decision. I braved through the rain and all and went to sch top-dry bottom-wet. Haha... Met her and realised that she was sick. Kinda hurt and pitied her. No, pity is a very wrong word, sympathise would be better. So i accompanied her to her father's company doctor. Whoa... The company i huge. I mean huge fish tank!! Very beautiful fishes... After the doc trip, i sent her home and she was kinda alone at home. Her father is on business trip. So i think i may have a chance to meet her outside next week. YEAH!! After that, i rush back to school. On the bus, i met my clubmate. A year1, he taking a different paper but same time. But we are in the same boat, studied the minimum to cover the maximum. Haha... After the exam, i went for my discussion for my showcase assignment. Spent some time there and after that went for a movie. After movie, was home sweet home. Met a fren that helped my ADD out, i call her the banner specialist. Talked till she went off the bus. It was a lonely journey after that...

My friends that read my blogs say that i dun put the person's name. They want to know who issit. Well... Let me answer this tonight. I DO NOT PUT MY FRIENDS NAME. I want to keep thier identity unknown, undisclosed and secret. Can't a guy keep a secret? So if you really want to know who are who and why i call them that. You can either i) follow me around and see what happened or ii) ask me and see whether i got the mood to tell you.

Preparing to party...

Boring Boring Day

Its been awhile since i last blog. Very quiet and very boring. Im staying at home most of the time to study for my next paper. Realise that i spend alot of time lazing around. No mood to study at all. Wonder how my friends get the mood to study. Later is gonna be my DVID paper... A module that i like playing around but not with the theory part. Getting tired and slping soon. Have a date with her, eating breakfast together. This time im gonna choose my food carefully. Don't want to be embarassed in front of her.

Preparing the worst...

Submission of Proposal

Woke up kinda early today, went back to sleep again. Than woke up totally at 10 plus. Ate breakfast, played some console games. Went swimming in the early afternoon and swam for like an hour. Bathed and went out to have lunch outside. Met my clubmates and celebrated one of thier birthday at Heeren. Bought her a cake and we share the cost. Discussed about the ADD stuff alittle... Walked over to Hyatt Hotel to view what equipments the entertainer have for us. Looked at the way he talk and the system he have. I got to agree... He is very professional. Guess the entertainment for our ADD is in very good hands. Ate dinner afterwards. We dispersed and sent my treasurer home. After that, i accompanied my VP and my Secretary to join a friend for dinner. Actually is just to spend time with him. Talked alot and laughed alot too. Went home together with my VP and secretary. Talked alot with my secretary. Looks like we have much to talk about.

Topic of the day. Submission of proposal... Not the business type but the emotional type. Submitting from one sex to the opposite sex. I guess us humans are really affectionate beings. Unlike animals, they reporduce to continue the life of the species. Courtship is a matter of being the strongest among the competitoin. But us humans do not see this... Courtship can means alot of things, you don't have to win everyone or be the best in everything. Just feelings enough will win over everything. I guess this is why we are ranked highest in the food chain and highest in intellectual ability. In my opinion, feelings will change. Maybe he/she have moved your heart once... But it does not mean he/she will stay in there forever. People change, even the concrete will crack someday. So what makes you so sure that the heart will not change? One thing is for sure that the heart will not change, one thing that will be difficult to implement when a couple is in a relationship. That thing is call TRUST.

Things remind her...