Brief Event

Try something new today. Don't write in paragraphs and i see what happens... If its nice, maybe i will adopt it.

Woke up and prepared for school.

Reached school early to do report.

Continued and finished up work assigned and undone.

Waited 'patiently' for my lecturer.

Lecturer came, she saw, she gave us good and bad feedback.

Had to wait for the next lecturer. Waited, waited, and waited...

Hate wasting time... Finally he came.

Checked and gave us a good and OK sign.

Relieved and somewhat happy.

Went for lunch near evening time.

Prepared for meeting at the SCS resource centre.

Went in late as other teammates were preparing for stuff.

Arrived at the centre around 30mins late. Bad... Real Bad...

Talked and talked. Response from the floor... Than back to talk and talk...

More talk... Once it ends, we scramble out of the place.

Went on to see where we can have dinner. None wanted to join, am i too unpopular??

Joined my parents for dinner later. Ordered coconut, sandwiches and an ice cream. ate abit of fries, salad, steak and cod fish.

Went home after dinner.

The Tertiary League

Another stressful day have passed. Woke up earlier to do my tutorial. Tutorial at 10, woke up at 8 to do. Spent one hour scribbling everything and all the answers. After that, just chuck into bag set off for school. Attended lesson as usual. Nothing much special excpet a lecturer now remembers my name. That is something normal for me, the more lecturers i know, the better is it. A gruesome struggle at my project work today. Another bomb was dropped at me. Consulted 2 lecturers that were good in that topic. Was really stressed as it felt like we cannot do anything right. It sucked. After we explained our logic to our Supervisor, he said its okie as its alright. We were like worrying non-stop for 1.5 days. Distributed the job to the others and i went off. Left early as i need to go for a meeting with other poly members. Meeting was rather fruitful. Had a result out. Have to present our idea tomorrow. Hope i have the energy to present and make the presentation a good one. After i ajourned the meeting, those that need to go left. The remainder stayed back to have dinner together. We talked, laughed, joked and even share experiences. Maybe that is the good part about meeting people from different polys. Met this gal from NP, she is very tall. Taller than me!! Maybe one day i have a picture taken with her and you can see the height difference. But she looks good. Skinny and good. Furthermore, she lived quite near me. Its just a few blocks away from me. I wonder, we live that close but we never got to see each other before. Seperated from her at our train station.

Today was one of the meeting of the main polys and the advisors of the previous event. Im the Chairman of this year's event. A position which is does not have much things to do but have alot of responsibilities to carry. Im considered the leader of this event. The Overall In-Charge. I am glad that the other polys are helping out extensively. Today's meeting have made me seen a good response from all the Polys. Made alot of new friends and from there, i get to know about their school and how their school works. Its like a league, all polys would come together and plan out a major event. Furthermore, my mind is not all the time about this event. Once awhile i will come back and review what i am going to do. What are the things to be done. Its a very taxing job but someone got to do it. Maybe all this hardwork is going to pay off. I'm sure in the near future, im going to see some achievements in putting effort in this team.

Preparing for presenting...

Nomination Day 04/05

Woke up with a purpose today. Go school for lessons but i skipped the 1st lesson. Just couldn't wake up in time. So i hurried and did my stuff and dashed out of the house. Went to school as fast as i could to get to the next class. Good thing by the time i stepped in, the lecture had just started. Something to do with the audio/visual stuff again. Maybe that stroke of luck made me not to miss a single lesson. Anyways, today was electives day. Every wednesday is electives day. We just went for our electives and did nothing for the project. Had lunch with my project mates, not all but 2 of them. After lunch, i went to the nomination booth to nominate a clubmate to become the next Treasurer. Was abit chaotic like the previous time. After that, i went back for lessons. Had to settle on a business plan and submit the proposal to the lecturer for checking. A tough job with little resources. Didn't enjoy the lesson much. After that, i went back to club to continue the nomination of the new Main Committee(MC). This time it was even more chaotic... All hell broke loose... Had to do alot of proposing and secondering(not sure if there is such a word). After that i rested my mind in the club. Soon after, my sis called me and i rushed to meet her up. Halfway through, i met an old classmate. Tapped his cap to say hi, but he gave me an unfriendly gesture and walked away. I understand maybe he and his gal got into some problems. Maybe... So this time i forgive him. Whether he says sorry or not, i won't pursue the matter. Board the train and met up with my sis. Went to this IT mall to look for a printer. She needed one so i was her advisor. After that, we went over to another shopping mall to have our tea break. She bought a bowl of soup and shared it with me. Soup was great. Kinda full so we went around and talked. Tired after some walking and we took a seat facing the sea. We talked about everything. Its like i have not seen her for ages. After that, i began to feel hungry. Than i wanted to eat dinner before going home. So we went to the nearest Burger King. After dinner, we boarded the train and went back home. Upon reaching home, i saw my dining table with leftovers of dinner. Mum said i have to finish as much as i can. So i took my for and spoon and finished what i could. Take no prisoners was what i usually do with food. But this time,. some POWs will be locked up in the fridge where they will suffer the cold turkey treatment.

Today was nomination day. Official day where the new MC will take over from us and improve the club further. No one wants to see the club at a stagnant mode. But i have faith in this new committee. I feel that this committee will do what we cannot do. Correct what we did wrong. Improve on the things that were done. Finally, bring ICT club to a higher level. BRING SPSU DOWN!!! CONQUER SPSU CLUBROOM!!! MUAHAHAHAHA! Hope they learn from their mistake. They have been through planning stages together and i can feel that they will be together for a long time. They will remember the days they are together and the momments of agony they will be going through. This is how the club life is about. Once through, they will be bonded even closer and they will make their friendship as solid as titanium.

Godspeed to MC...

Get Ready, Get Set, Die!!

What a way to get things done. Finally, a day i wake up not to the sound of constuction. But to a very very weird dream i had. Tell u more later... Did the usual stuff and went school. Attended this lesson where the lecturer taught us how to tackle issues such as interviewing, resume writing and etc. The lecturer is trying very hard to keep the lesson humourous and intresting. Kept citing examples of his friends. One momment his friend is a lady, the next momment he is a male. Then he changes back to a lady. We are like laughing real badly each time he starts another example. Well, at least he tried to make the lesson less boring. After the lesson was back to proeject. Spent the rest of the day there. Think about this... Its 20 degrees and im like directly under the air-con's mercy. To think i have another 13weeks more to endure. If by the 4th week im still unable to adapt to the environment, i guess im going to get my winter gear to school. After school was nothing much, went home feeling lethargic and tired. Went for my scheduled run. Realised that running around wearing a shirt and shorts are a common thing around here. Its like so common, i guess its the trendy wear in my neighbourhood. Jogging, checked! Next, a cold bath, dinner, project and sleep!!

I was running. Escaping from some place. Around me are trees, big big trees. At the back, i heard screams of 'There he is!' and 'Get that boy!!' I ran, keep on running. Until i stumble over a ledge. I went over the ledge and starting falling.... Falling... Falling... Fell on top of my pillows and blanket. That is how i woke up this morning. I really wonder. What does my dream means? Why am i escaping? Where am i? It ran through my mind and i had to keep wondering this amazing dream i have. I know i like adventure, but escaping and being chased like an escapee is not my kind of adventure. My kind of adventure is exploring places unknown and conquering mountains and seas. That is my kind of adventure. Furthermore, i don't look like a boy. Im a man. Im nearing my 20s. For god sake, i old enough to be called an adult. What an insult by calling me a boy. Do i look that young?? What qualities does a man have that i don't?? Okie... I guess im getting harsh. I hope tonight when i go to bed, i will continue my dream. No more running, no more escaping, no more LEDGES!! Give me a horse, a panther, a tiger... Anything... Heck, even a donkey. I will be contented to be riding on such beasts.

NO MORE RUNNING...

P.S. I know how to ride a horse. So please, give me a black stallion.... And if not, please don't give me a talking donkey.

How Miserable Can This Be???

Another monday has passed like this. Just don't like mondays. Woke up not feeling refreshed but rather feeling more sleepy. But i had to carry my heavy body and prepare for school. Brought my bag and stuff, took a bus and headed straight for school. Started out nicely, but had a long discussion with my supervisor. He was once my lecturer so i know how to speak to him and how to explain to him so that he will understand what we are doing and where we have err. He told us alot of things, alot of things we missed out during our discussions. One thing he said that made me realise how much he have seen in his life was this; 'The more you discuss, the bigger your problems, the closer you are to your goal.' But i realise the more i discussed, the bigger the problems, the closer i get was more stress. Maybe stress comes with the goal. Furthermore, i have fallen to a sickness. My arch-enemy. Flu. Did not enjoy the feeling of blocked nose and coughing. Ate medcine after lunch. Felt groggy after 1hr... Than, after i finished all i had to do. I took a short nap. I was out  for 15mins. It felt like an hour... So after that, i waited for my classmates to end their project timing. We went to see I, Robot. A very futuristic show. Find it rather unbelieving to see robots doing so much of our work and we just take them for granted. A very intresting story about creators and creations. The show was nice, but the cinema wasn't. It sucked... After that, i left my friends and took a bus home.
 
Maybe im not getting enough rest. Maybe not enough sleep either. Furthermore, i have been in a lab that pumps cold air like crazy. Its freezing in there... I guess im getting weak now. As weak as a sapling, like a helpless chick waiting for the wolf to gobble it. This flu is not a kind of sickness where i rest and eat medication will get well. But it will stay with me unless i really take care of it. Been feeling like a weakling. Sometimes i do not wish to appear this weak in front of my friends. I want to the the strong person that they will look up to. I guess its time we change sides. Time for me to get weak and get sympathy from people. Must get well. Must stay strong. Must fight on and never give up. My will to live is stronger than the strongest metal found on earth. I will survive and not only survive, i will come up and knock down all my opponents. Just wait and see...
 
Preparing final blow...

Complicated Life

Why must it always be the construction workers?!?! What done is done, just hope they hurry things up and leave ASAP. Went to school in a groggy mood. Thought i would be late, but the lecturer was the one being late. His lessons uaually drag in the middle and rush through at the end. So usually its like turtle speed in the middle and lightning speed. After that, i went for lecture again. It was back to back lessons. No rest in between. After the lessons, i had to meet my lecturer to settle some admin stuff. Had to update him on the things that are going to happen to the school. Im in-charge of a major event involving other schools too. So it is better to keep him informed and updated. So a short meeting was held with him. Parted with him when it was over and went over to the clubroom to take a look how was things there. Did see quite a change. People were more rowdy and more noisy. Girls were more open and allow any of the guys there to touch them. I wonder... Are we getting somewhere like this?? So anyway... I continued my day and left the clubroom. My Treasurer and Logistics Head left early. They asked me to join them but i declined. Went home soon after...
 
Why does life have to be so complicated? Do we complicate things or things are just that complicated when we were born. Have you ever thought that if they did not invent the computer, we do not even have the internet and we do not need to study about technology. But if we do not invent or innovate such machines, our lives would be a total mess. A simple sending of mail may take up to more than 3-5 days since there is no automation and mails have to be hand sorted Sometimes i wonder why life cannot be simple. Simple as in no worries, no stress and no sadness. Everything would be done together with friends. Talking to friends would be face to face rather than just reading words and seeing emo-icons. We wont be wasting time watching TV or playing games but rather spending time with family members or neighbours and entertain each other. I think that would make our relationship stronger. This is my kind of simple life... My expected kind of life.
 
Change of lifestyle...

Where were you??

Woke up to the same sound as yesterday... CONSTRUCTION NOISES!!! Can anyone please stop them or make them reduce those noises?!?! When i go NZ, i have to pay a very special kind of tax. Noise Tax. Maybe i have to write to the GRC and maybe the construction company will give me some compensation?? Anyway, i continued the day. Washed up and prepared for school. Went school to start where i have left off yesterday. It was a long day, had to do work with only 5-6 hours of sleep. Not enough rest... Just have to plough through and fight on. Spent almost 7 hours in school to do all the work. Had breaks in between but those breaks were short... Not enough for sleeping. After work, i went over to get the photos. From there i went home. Stressed out and tired, bathed and rested my brain soon after.
 
Yeah... The title says it all. Where were you?? Where were you when the world stop turning? Where were you when the world have fallen on me?? Who cares... Who cares about lowly me? Maybe when im down with a sickness, than will people turn to me and say they really care about me?? Maybe i am bed-stricken than people will show come kindness and ask for how am i today. Why do i have such sad thoughts? Im not sure... Maybe its life playing tricks on me again. Another obstacle i have to climb over, another hole in the road i have to get over... Whatever it is, it is stopping my life. Preventing me to be myself. So what do i have to do to get this obstacle over? Im not sure, i do not know what will remedy the situation now. But i do hope i get myself back on track as soon as possible. Don't wish to stop here for long.
 
I am waiting...

2 Weeks have passed

2 weeks of school have passed. I realise that my stress is getting heavier and heavier everyday. Furthermore, i had a ultimate emotion bomb dropped on myself. Woke up to the sound of construction. Damn construction workers. Can't they work quieter... Popped out of bed and went into the bathroom to freshen up. Went directly to school. Spend the whole morning there. Did not do much as i had to bring them back home to complete. After the morning shift ended, i went over to photo developing uncle. Gave him a disc that contained pictures that my dad took when he was in Portugal watching the Euro Finals. Man... Each piece is 40cts. And the pictures are 117!! 4-5 days of overseas can get so much pictures!! After that, i went back home. Missed the days where there is a good book with me while i sit on long bus trips. Reached home and started drawing all the diagrams for my FYP. Very tedious work, but somebody got to do it. Here and there i took some break. Had this urge to drink but to think i would not control my mind fully made me shun it. Ate dinner at home, alone. Had canned hot dogs and instant noodles. After that i went back to work again.
 
Some people say relationships are a game that involves 2 person of different sex. They come together, being happy and leave each other when the happiness ends. Another version is love is just a fling. You either like being in one or you do not have the privillege to have one. To me, i think relationships are very personal stuff. It goes deep into your heart and show feelings that you will not show to others. You find someone you can be really comfortable with. Show all your care and concern to him/her. But sometimes, these relationships just cannot continue. Some reasons are you get bored of your partner. Others may feel that they are not meant to be... Either way, it will leave a deep scars on the heart. To me... This has happened for a few times. As times goes by, the scars get deeper. Some tell me these are experiences to keep so that you will not repeat the same mistake. Some say these will fade away when you have meet your life partner. I do not know which is true. But all i know is... These scars are going to be with me for the rest of my lives. Heard this on a show before... 'If you look back on this sadness, it comes after all the happiness that you have experienced. You would not feel this sad if you did not feel that happy at those times.'
 
Back being single...

Bangin' Against The Wall

What the hell happened to the original posting?!?! Doesn't matter, as long it post nicely i don't care how it looks. So i continue with my daily blog. Woke up early so i can go school early, but in the end had to bring my Grandmother to the wet market. Accompanied her to walk around, learn some tips and tricks to select groceries. Where and how to get the premium vegetables at cheap prices. After that, i brought her home and went on my way to school. The skies don't look that good when i walk to the busstop. Even waiting for the bus the sky is still alright. But as soon as i board the bus, raindrops start falling. Since my bus trip is only 10mins, near the ending, it rained ultra heavily. So i called my groupmates and told them my location and situation. Had to sit at the busstop for 30-40mins. Waited till the rain died down than i continued my journey. Did my project for the rest of the day. Keeping getting stucked at one corner. It was really demoralising but we had to slog through whatever is thrown at us. I even volunteered to re-read some of our past modules so as to finish 1 big part of the project. Man... Self-inflicting stress on myself. Furthermore, today is the day i have to be responsible of the notebook we loaned. It is so heavy!! Like carrying weights walking around. But it does not matter anway... After we parted, i went over to club to rest awhile. Had to accomplish a task set by my Treasurer. After that, i went to meet my VP. Had a 'short' and meaningful conversation with her. She brought her cheesecake and i had the privillege to eat it. Quite nice, maybe its me cause i like cheesecake alot. Also went shopping with her. She wanted to get a VCD. So we walked about and finally she got it. Paid for it and left the shop. Continued to walk around as she wanted to get a pair of earrings. But i advised her that if she spend on that pair of earrings, where is she going to save up money?? In the end, she did not buy and decided to save up on the cash. Accompanied her to the busstop. Hey, at least im a gentleman. Right? Of course, no need to think so much. As soon as seeing her board her bus. I left the busstop and proceeded to mine. Went home in a long bus trip.
 
FYP... The final trial of the Poly days. But its like so diffcult. Keep banging into walls. Hate this feeling. Its like you want to advance but you just can't. So in the end, its like wasting time cramming ur cranium solve something that is too sophisticated to even start out in the first place. ARGHZ!! Its even affecting me when im away from it. But sometimes i wonder how the other previous groups did this. Did they meet the same problem as us? Maybe we doing something that is not our area. Something that is totally new from our course. But we are a group that always want to try new things. Maybe this will be a challenge to us. If we overcome this challenge, to put in our group language, 'Wah... I level up liao.'
 
Stress is bad...

Long Long Day

A long day have passed and i feeling really really tired. Morning attended a lesson late. Not sure whether my attendence is taken or not. After that, a lecture of the same module. The lecturer told the whole class she saw me day in day out but not sure who i am. Finally... Im famous!! After that, i continued my day by doing my FYP project. Had to borrow our notebook by today else we wont be able to get it anymore. So i took sometime to go over the place and get the notebook. After that, we came back and continued our project. Had alot of deep discussions and such. Finally we ended the day and went back home to rest.

Helping people is how i live my life. During my younger years, i will never lose an arm or a leg to help another person. Whether the person is familiar or not. Until the day i met my 1st love. She helped people all the way. She would go through everything to help others in need of help. After breaking up with her peacefully(yes, PEACEFULLY), i learn that helping people is actually very fulfilling for me. When people is in need of help, all they need is a glimmer of hope that somebody will hear their cry and come to give them aid. For me, if i feel that i can only see and hear but cannot do anything. I will feel helpless. One thing in life is to be happy and do happy things. Helping other people and seeing them smile is happiness for me.

Always there 2 Help...

Official Leave from FYP

Today is deemed the official rest day from my FYP. Since everyone is busy from their chosen electives. So after school, we would not meet up to do project but rest from the hustle and bustle of FYP life. Nothing much happened today other than the usual school life. Had to go through boring lessons and still survive to stay awake. Proceeded to my driving school to attend a practice session for my theory test. Went with my classmate since he is going to make a booking for his theory test. He taught me the way to take busses there, very confusing and hard to remember. Maybe i consult him again on the buses to take the following day. He went on to book his test while i continued my way for my practice session. While queueing up for a computer to be assigned to me, i saw this gal that i used to give advice. Remembered her cute face and lovable smile. At first i could not make out her face as the room was rather dark. So i just took a peek once awhile... Caught her looking at me too, maybe she recognises me as the idiot that gave her advices on promoting the school courses. Anyway, she left earlier so i had no chance to walk up to her and maybe chat her up. After that, i took a bus back home. The bus trip was rather long, 30 mins trip. Singapore is so small, and i had to take a 30mins bus trip. At least its much better than my usual way, the latter had to switch transport which is really troublesome. But i sat in a seat that gave me a really good time eveasdropping on a pair of gals from their secondary school. They were talking so loudly, i did not need to concentrate much to listen in to their conversation. They were discussing what they did wrong or right in their exam papers, what they will do after they finish their secondary education to donating 3KG of blood. I got some laugh and some entertainment while on the boring bus trip. But they dropped off early so i had sometime to think through what they discussed. Not long after, i pressed the bell and alight to walk home and have a good rest.

Hearing those 2 gals talking about their exams and such really makes me think of myself when im in that stage. Guys will sit in a group and discuss about our dreams and ambitions. I once told my teacher that i want to create a game that is made in Singapore but played everywhere in the world. That is my dream. She just gave me a very discouraging sentence, 'There are so many games in this world. Why would you want to make another to add on?' I guess she is still in the era that gaming would not be a profitable business. Who cares?!?! As long my dream is fulfilled, i do not care even if the President says my idea sucks. But to think i was in their position when im their age. Looking at them makes me feel that i have alot of experience and can advise them on their next step. But i realise i did not consult anyone when i receive my 'O' level results. I just let my dreams take over and see where i can go to fulfill them as soon as possible. Maybe that is why i ended up doing partly business and partly IT. Now, i have long term goals too. But my goals are not even near my dreams. Maybe my dream will be fulfilled one day. Maybe it will be fulfilled by my children. I'm not sure... Like what some of my friends like to say, 'let nature take its course'.

Dreams become Reality...

Extreme Exhaustion

Still feeling the aftermath of yesterday's outing. Feeling very lethargic the whole day. Start the day by going for a class that teaches us how to write resumes, take minutes and tackle interviews. Spend three hours in a lab that cannot see the screen well. Really sucks to go school and pay so much yet cannot see screen. After lessons, we went for our lunch break. Ate little and went back to our respective com labs to continue our project. Had to slog through work and alot of stress is built thinking of expressing ideas into words. Took breaks in between to freshen up before continuing. Left my groupmates early to meet my financial advisor. He told me and reccomended me a new kind of savings plan where i put in a sum of money monthly to save for long term. But for the short term, im able to take out some money here and there. Alot of math and calculation to be done before i commit to deal. First barrier i have to go through is my parents, they ARE my finance department. So we met and talked like 30mins. After that, i went to collect my photos. Had them developed last week. Since over the weekends had planned activities, had to drag till today to collect. Finally, got to see all the photos i have taken in New Zealand. After that, it was home sweet home to rest and recuperate.


What the hell has happened to me? Why am i so weak? Why i did to make myself so tired? I really have to review on yesterdays' events and see what made me so tired. Luncheon with lecturer, LAN gaming and a steamboat dinner. I still wondering what made me so tired. Am i getting old or am i losing grip on my concentration. Maybe its time i should get some tonic to boost my energy. Any ideas?

Energy boost needed...

Last Minute Outing

Had a really lazy morning, even had a thought of not going to school. But in the end, still crawled out of bed to start my day. First stop was school, met my groupmates to do our FYP project. In the next 4 months, my blog will mostly contain things about my FYP. It is because it takes up alot of my time!! But we did not do much anyway. My lecturer in-charge met us early around 11am for lunch. The school gave each student $5 for an outing with the lecturer. As long there is an outing, it does not matter whether we spend fully the amount given to us. So we had a lunch buffet at a restaurant located in the school. The food was quite good. We had quite a spread, roast beef, satay chicken, fried asparagus with garlic, etc. Our highest hit from the buffet table is the cream puff. Its like enlightenment when you pop one into your mouth. After that, we went back to our labs to continue our FYP project. Did a little bit and went off to join the other classmates for a class outing. Wasted like 20mins thinking of where to go and what to do. So in the end, we splited up into 2 groups. A group of gentlemen and another group of ladies. The ladies went for a Karaoke session. A very long session... The guys, we went over to pool saloon and enjoyed a game of table top ball games. After that, we moved to another location to play a round of LAN gaming. Had quite some fun and really enjoyed my time there. After that, both groups got back together. We wasted another 10-15mins deciding on where to eat. So after alot of discussion and thorough thinking... We decided on eating steamboat and BBQ at Marina South. Feel very funny that we took Monday like another normal saturday. Played and enjoyed ourselves like nobody's business. To add insult to injury, we are all doing our FYP. How 'stressful' that is... Ate, drink and took photos till late. Had to share a cab with 3 other friends to go home as we are all too tired to take other forms of public transport.

Logically speaking, this shouldn't be the way. What i expect today was a trip to Johor Bahru. I even brought my passport to go pass the Customs. In the end, it was striked off and we had to replan on the spot. Not my kind of class outing where we seperated ourselves into 2 groups. Do 2 different things and join back again for another event. I rather we plan one big event, spend the whole day there and do everything togethr. At least everything.... As im sure when you have more than 10 pple, its very difficult to get all to participate in the same event. But this outing have brought me closer to my other classmates. We have joked and laughed and really crapped everything under the sun. Even though im like not really the fun kind when it comes to studies and lessons, they accepted me as their classmate and their friend. They don't punch me, scold me for fun and disturb me like they do to the others. But i can see that when im with them, they would ask me along and they would think of my well being. Very happy to have them as classmates, even happier to have them as friends.

So very tired...

Return of the SuperHero!!

1st week have ended so fast. Five days of school have finally ended and im now waiting for the time to go into the weekends. As i wait slowly, i shall dictate my events today. Morning was really cool as the early morning had a slight shower. Good thing i brought an extra piece of clothing. The lab that i was using to do my project is freezing. It was rather slack as we are in the weekend mood and most of us are not really in the mood of doing the work. So we just spent our time doing little stuff and really is just organizing work to the others. After that, we seperated and went our own ways. A couple of us went over to our classmates and discussed where to go for our class outing. We decided on going across the Causeway. Going to the state to enjoy our time there. But i wonder, will we tire ourselves out and be unable to attend classes the next day? Who cares man?!?! Left them and followed my Treasurer(yes, she is my group mate) to the club. She had to settle some finance paperwork. So i follwed her around and accompanied her everywhere. After that, we helped our friend to sell popocorn. It was placed in a transparent cup and the popcorn is soft. Not really nice... What do you expect for a big cup of popcorn for 50cts? Left my Treasurer in the club after that because her main motive is to settle the paperwork and wait for someone, someone special. Went over to my friend's place to develop photos. He is an elderly that have been in the photography biz for like 30years. A very friendly and nice guy. Handed over 4 rolls of film. He look at me shocked and ask me whether i want it in 1 day time. I told him to take his time and i will get from him as soon as he finishes it. After that i receive a call from my VP. She is meeting me to collect some stuff she left with me. Was actually wanting to walking around and see what have changed, but i guess the only thing that change was my event timetable. So after putting down the phonecall, i quickly took a bus and went over to meet her. Passed her everything, had a conversation over a cup of lemonade. Waited for another friend so that we can go catch a movie together. She came just in the nick of time. Left my VP and went to the cinemas. Went to watch Spiderman 2. A great movie, quite good storyline. But i guess the sequel is alot more about his lovelife rather than his battles against the enemy. After the movie, i brought her to the nearby food centre to have dinner. Since its quite late, most of the stalls are closed. Had to settle for a small selection of choice. Ate and chatted. Had a good time with her. Got to know her even more. Went back home together and seperated after i reach my stop on the train.

Are human beings always changing? Why do people get together today, talk and laugh till tomorrow but shun each other the next day? Can we have like a group of friends that we will always stay together forever? I guess that will be always a fantasy. Life will be ever changing. Some of my friends can even forget about me. Am I that unpopular to not stay in your mind? I guess us humans just see what is important and who are close to us at the momment. The other friends we will just meet once awhile. Maybe friends that are close to us currently will help us to accomplish tasks on hand easier. My childhood friends are really not that close. We ran all around the neighbourhood and enjoyed our time together. Will never forget the times we had. But now? Im going into my 3rd year, one of them is studying in the 2nd year and the other is going army or at army now. Went into Boys' Home(juvenile type of prison) when we were still in High School. Time have really changed us.

Power of time...

My Ultimate Dream

Today don't have the feeling of blogging. I shall keep it short. My dream is to create a world-class game that everyone will play and enjoy. Know that it is made in Singapore and make Singapore known to the world as another hub. A gaming hub.

Showcrap 2004

Really a busy day today. Woke up early for a lesson that starts at 9am in the morning. Went for lessons for the whole day and atteneded a talk. Today was rather special. It was my school's showcase. Showcasing 100 best projects and assignments done by our students. Get to see alot of different projects and works in the labs. The talk was rather boring, about all kinds of security for IT. Didn't knew that IT needed so much security. Maybe the more its being researched, we must spend the same amount of time and money to think of ways to keep it secured. Maybe there is an untapped market for another kind of IT security that is not discovered yet. Let the future unfold itself and we will see. Club was where i went after everything ended. Met up with my clubmates for dinner. Somewhat like a farewell dinner for our Main Committee in the club. Went to Fish & Co. for dinner. Ordered 2 big dishes and 1 small one. Even though it was like quit alot, but i did not fill my stomach fully. Guess im a big eater at night. I do not wish to elaborate any further as it might hurt the other's feelings. After that, we took some photographs using the camera i brought. Went over to Plaza Singapura to grab a couple of drinks. Walked about the complex and talked awhile before heading home. Reason: some of them are tired and one of them needs to work. So i went back with one of them, boarded the train together. I dropped off early. Since i was still hungry, i went over to a nearby coffeeshop(eatery equivalent) to have some food. Had indian rojak, if i have the time i will explain what this dish contains. Rest and watched TV at the coffeeshop and headed back home soon after.

Today was the day where ICT students get to show off thier projects to the rest of the world. All the best projects were put on exhitbition. Looking at all these, i realise that the school is actually trying to sell thier students to the industry rather than wait for the companies to buy them. So i wonder... Are they trying to make sure that their top students get a job ASAP when they graduate? Or are they trying to seperate the good students that are good at these projects and the rest that are just an average joe? Than i wonder why in the first place we all study the same poly, the same course and get the same diploma when we are marketed differently? I guess the school is making a name of themselves and hoping that the industry is mainly hiring SP students. I guess when you are a private tertiary institution, you have to think like an organization sometimes.

School admin sucks...

Day 2 of Torture

Okie... I admit, the title does not fit the entry. But its the truth. The whole truth. Nothing but the truth. Woke up early to attend a driving lesson. Had lots of dun driving a car. After that, i went back home to rest and eat. Updated my portable MP3 player before heading to school. Started everything from scratch. Had to plan the system layout, the users and what they can do or interact with the system. Sat there to finish the job until late. The process we had laughter and arguments, but we had things done. The way i see it, we are progressing rather good. So we ended late, had food late. Before i started my FYP, i had a message from my VP. She came to school for a meeting. So i promised her i meet her after my meeting. But in the end, we never met up. Her meeting ended quite late. Therefore i went on my own to continue my day alone.

With great power comes with great responsibility. This quote comes from one of my favourite comic hero, he is fast, strong, swings around the concrete jungle and is extremely agile. Yes... He is Spiderman. For his case, his powers are to be handled with great responsibility. So for a lowly person like me, what is my great power? Does that mean i do not have a great responsibility to handle? I have been taught of responsibility since i joined the Scouts in my secondary school days. Every action i do will have a little responsibility to handle. Im trained to take responsibility no matter how big or small. So does that make me a responsible person? Can people believe that im a very responsible person? I doubt so... I think that you must be given a great power before you can think of the great responsibility.

Responsible to oneself...

1st Day of School

Today was the first day of school. For some, it is the start of their Poly life. Some, continuation of their Poly life. And some... Well... We can't seem to get out as soon as possible. Had to report to school early for a briefing. In the end, the lecturer was late. What the hell was i doing so early in school anyway. But it was a good way to see all the course mates in one room. My group got together once more. We ate breakfast together and talked about our holiday stuff. Met my friend that went overseas for attachment. Not much change but still a good friend. After breakfast, we met our PTN. He is a lecturer that is in-charge of our FYP. Hope we have a good time with him. One more thing, the school Administration Department had a hidcup or something. I was robbed of my innocence. Last week i checked my timetable and i was in 3A/01. This morning i checked again i was posted to 3A/02. And i booked my driving lesson way before. So i had to skipped lesson today and attend my driving lesson. What a way to start the 1st day of school, skippping lessons. After that, i went back to my father's office to help out. Spent the rest of the day there.

School have not changed much since we ended 2 months ago. I guess i have been going back to school for so long i don't really notice the difference. Just last week, i went back every single day. But all i know is that the whole school(not the entire institution) is covered by posters. Posters of 'ICT Showcase'. Im like in so awe... But i dun have the feeling of exhibiting my wares. And the feeling of skipping lesson on the 1st day is not what i wanted. Maybe that is how Mondays should be...

Getting stressed soon...

L is for Lonely

Woke up really really early... Actually to see Holland crash out of the competition is really not very entertaining. But the soccer match is really exciting. Continue to sleep for awhile and wake up later to prepare for school. This time i went straight to my school instead of going to the clubroom. The students are scrambling to get to thier classes to retrieve their cans and prepare for thier voluntary work outside. We just assisted in crowd control and guiding lost sheeps. After that, i went out with my VP, Treasurer and Logistics Head for breakfast. Ate duck rice(duck meat with rice and cucumbers). My VP require to withdraw money to pay for her mobile bills. Since i'm more close to my VP, i brought her to the bank and we went together. She PASSED me her bank book for safekeeping. So after getting the money, she paid for her bills. She kept complaining that she is getting broke. But im sure she have another source of 'income'. Went back to school to discuss about the future posts of our club. Settled on the people and continued with our day. Went back to our school to help out in the fund raising. Sort out the coins and the notes and such. Had quite fun and tire ourselves out. In the end, we went out for dinner together. Met another guy from another club. So we ate Long John Silver for dinner. Had a filling dinner and rest and laughed out loud. Literally... Had the whole restaurant looking at us. Near the end of the day, we left the restaurant and took the way home. My VP had this sudden craving for ice-cream. So we had ice-cream and she bought one for me. Maybe for owing too much, she repay me by buying me ice-cream. Why... Why not other things but ice-cream... Haha... So we ate on the steps of the biggest shopping centers in Singapore. Ice-cream finished we went home straight.

Getting lonely soon... As the time ticks away, we the seniors of the club is seperating our ways. Half of us is leaving school for Internship Attachment(ITP). The other half is staying in school to start our Final Year Project(FYP). Im actually gonna miss the days we have together and hope that time stays still and not move. I do not want to gradutate that fast. I still want to have fun. Fun of just planning and organising events. Fun of participating in events and making lots and lots of friends. Fun of just enjoying and not care what will happen tommorrow. That kind of fun is leaving me as we speak(or read). But i think it another way, at least i used to had this much fun. That means i did not waste my life in the club. Something to comfort myself. Somthing to keep in my heart... Always...

Lonely not forever...