Matter of Choice

I went in for training today. Missed yesterday as i was too tired. A splitting headache in the morning and feverish in the evening. Spent the day at home resting and recuperating. I went back to the training class and realise that i lost out alot. I missed out so much! I had to catch up while the trainer is teaching the theories of the next chapter. But i did manage to catch up. During lunchtime, a guy came up to me to ask for donation. He spoke alot of his fasting, he cannot ask for donations after 12pm. So i just gave him $2 and walk off. People would think i am foolish to give him money, but i think he may need that $2 more than me. Had lunch and went back to training. Than the lesson became boring. More theories and less hands-on. It felt like studying in MLT 12 again... Haha... At least i had a computer which i installed some programs. Entertained me during those boring hours.

Friend: 'Why you want to go back and help your club? The school give you cca pts isit?'
Me: 'No, i promised them. I said i would join them in their event two weeks ago. Now you tell me got such program, how am i suppose to split myself?'
Friend: 'since no cca pts dan dun go la... why go when u can learn to earn money'
Me: 'Because i choose to...'

Above was what my close friend and i talked about. He was rather pissed at hearing that i cannot make it to a seminar. What can i say is sorry... Why i chose the club than that seminar was not the promise itself. Even though if the things are reversed, i would choose to go for club activities. Why? Simple... When you have found a home, you do not want to leave it. I told some of my clubmates that once you have found something that you can devote your time in, nothing will stand in the way. Everything you do will be enjoyable, even though it is the most mundane job. Like a volunteer worker, low pay and no fixed working hours. But why do people choose this line? Same logic with me. A simple sentence to sum everything up; the passion and the drive.

Passion & Drive...

Graduation Dinner 04/05

The weekends have been very fun for me. I attended my graduation dinner organized by my juniors. It was amazing... I enjoyed myself very much, taking photos and looking at all the beautiful ladies that night. The food was not bad, but the Chef is a little generous on the MSG or salt. Intake of water was the mid-result ending many of us heading to toilet breaks often. I took more than 100mb of photos and videos. Guess i maxed out my card's memory. I even took home a prize, so-called 'slo-cooker'. Haha... Guess i will be cooking in my room in the future. At the end of the dinner, more photo taking sessions. I accompanied my friends to send some a couple home. We met back together and went to watch a movie. After movie, we proceeded to Swensen's for ice cream and some food. The current President of the club and i shared the bill. The rest of the guys just paid the GST. Sat in the restaurant to talk and chat. By then, it was almost 5am. Everybody was extremely tired, except me. I was still hyper. Maybe its the mood i am in, or the friends that i have not met for such a long time. Either way, when i reach home that morning, i could not go to sleep immediately. Well... Nothing beats enjoying some of the greatest times of my life.

Next update would be about the club's chalet and the 5-day training with a rather new Microsoft product.

Quote of the Month

Nothing much was done today. I went to visit my attachment company. They are still the same, slave drivers. But i went back to see my supervisor. Miss her torments she dealt out. Haha... I guess after all the torture she gave me, i kinda miss them. It makes me feel stress but i know i am contributing to the company. Right now i just rot at home and wonder what to do next. Boss even joked to give me an assignment, pay me to do some software testing. I didn't know why i just reject it. Maybe i just do not want to be involved in the company after all. Maybe... So what else can i do?? I just read books, magazines, net-ticles (online articles), and newspapers. Keep reading and reading... Maybe it may increase my knowledge... Maybe...

'Should I smile because we are friends or cry cause thats all we will ever be?'
Ricland Thrush, The Crown of Kings

I got this quote from an online book someone wrote. This knight loved a beautiful princess. He gave her everything, always there for her. A perfect man for the perfect woman, so as he thought... But that is not the twist of the story, the Lady did not like her. She just treat her like a friend. As the knight could not handle the truth, he was devasted. Using this weakness, evil forces gave him power to control whatever he wanted. Building on this hatred, his power increased. Before he gave his mind to madness, he said the above sentence. After that, evil thoughts and the dark side just overwhelm him. At his humble abode, he started his killing. Overnight, blood covered the entire area. No one was spared, no living thing was left standing. He has succumbed to the demon's way. That is where i left off. I think i will keep the quote in my mind for some time. Maybe it is just me... Maybe it is my determination... Maybe... Just maybe...

15 Things You Probably Never Knew or Thought About

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.




2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.




3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.




4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.




5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.




6. You mean the world to someone.




7. If not for you, someone may not be living.




8. You are special and unique.




9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.




10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.




11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.




12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.




13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.




14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.




15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Remembrance of DBIT 1A/01(Yr 02/03)

Here have been outdated. I could not update as i am busy planning and enjoying my time at my last gathering with my poly classmates. Those are some of the best friends i have ever made. Even though we are seperated by class and study, when we gather together, it seems like all the seperation does not matter to us. We are still the same old classmates that were together during that year. It made me realise that classmates do not change. They stay the same. Some will be prettier, some will be more suave. But deep down, their personalities are still the same. I had my share of fun and laughter. A simple 3 day 2 nights stay with them makes me think i would want to stay this way forever. But nothing stays forever. The gals will move into the industry, the guys will serve the Nation. Nothing will ever be the same again. I believe that this would be the last time where we will have so much fun together. As we split into our seperate lifestyles, i wonder when will be our next gathering. I hope it is not to far away as i miss the days we spent laughing and enjoying ourselves.

I have decided to create something for this day. Day of Remembrance, left it here for all to read.

We were strangers, each of us. We did not knew each other then.
Loneliness pushed us to friendship, where we sail off as friends on a ship.
Regrets were never there, as we soon found treasure chests lying everywhere.
As the time to choose our dreams arrive, we were seperated to our own lives.
After three years as classmates and friends, nothing beats sailing together.
We wished that time would just stood still, so we can enjoy treaure hunting forever.

Dedicated to all my classmates. I believe that one day when we look back where we have sailed and all the treasure chests we found, it would be one of the day i look forward most to.

Day of Remembrance...

The Most Dangerous Place

Today was another busy day. I woke up early for a jog. Been sometime since i have jogged about in the morning. The morning activities in a weekday is very simple. Not much dog walking or children playing. It is just cars all leaving their homes for work. I came back with sweat and dirt, mostly from car exhaust. Think i go swimming next time. I bathed and prepared myself. Went to attend this training. Training on a business software. 5-day course to learn this software. Hope they give the software at the end of the training. After the training, i went on to another training. Which is a speech training. Something to boost my speaking skills. Learnt quite alot from there. A professional speaking master was the trainer and i paid a nominal fee for it. Always worth it when signing up courses organized by the Community Club. Lesson learnt and went back home. One of the participants volunteered to drive me home. He just live a few streets away. Well, got a free ride home and fast too. Haha...

Some people say that the most dangerous place is the safest place. This sentence is very stupid. According to my point of view, i think that in any nature or natural beings, the most dangerous place is between the mother and the child. Look at any animal species, all of the mothers are so protective of their children. A mother would sacrifice anything for the protection of their child. I think this is maternal instinct. There are some cases where the mother tortures the child and detest the child she have. I think that such cases the mother should be dragged out and given the worse corporate torment ever.

Mother and Child...

Personality Test: Final Cut

This is the final of the entire test. Realise that this one is not that good. Some parts i do not quite like it.

PART 2: OCCUPATIONAL PREFERENCE EVALUATION:

Social (S) people seem to satisfy their needs in teaching or helping situations. They are drawn more to seek close interpersonal relationships and are less apt to engage in intellectual of extensive physical activity. The S type generally likes to help, teach, and counsel people more than engage in mechanical or technical activity. The S type usually likes to be around other people, working in groups and sharing responsibilities. They are good communicators and are interested in how people get along, and like to help other people with their problems. They like nursing, or giving first aid and providing information. They generally avoid using machines, tools, or animals to achieve a goal. They see themselves as helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.

Okie... So i am a social person. I like to pass knowledge, maybe that is why i like to communicate with people. Yes, i like to work in groups. Pairs or single work is not my cup of tea. One person jobs with no one to support or encourage me, not my liking. I prefer to work in groups and have a knitting relationship with them. As for the nursing part... I think i hate to be a male nurse. Nurse school have babes and stuff but i just do not see myself as a nurse. First aider maybe, but definitely never a nurse. I like to help, i like to make friends and have trust in them. So that they can return the trust on me.

Story writer mood kicks in...

Personality Test: Part 6

I suddenly realise that my personality test has the same chapters with the entire Star Wars story. Okie, that is way too misleading. But this is the last part of my personality test. It is such a abrupt ending but at least it is the end...

The way you Think/Reason: Concrete VS Abstract
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You are moderately concrete in your thinking. Your intellectual style is related to superior job performance when working with the public. One reason for this is that you often prefer dealing with people or things rather than ideas.

Sometimes i feel that letting this information on the net seems to invade into my personal privacy. But i seem to like it. It is for friends and acquitances to know me more. Let them know that such a angel is living inside a devil's skin. I think i type too much. I should start to think of what to type for my next entry. Maybe i should do some research on human psychology. Something that is so indepth but does not have the sciences to back it up. Maybe one day...

Change of Life...

Personality Test: Part 5

This is the one before the last. Just one more entry... I think this could be one of the best week entries i ever made.

Your Openness to Change: Practical VS Imaginative
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You are quite practical. You want just the facts - keep it plain and simple. You are practical, pragmatic and well grounded. You have no time for carelessness and impracticality. You prefer to keep your emotions to yourself, rather than exposing your feelings to the world. Life moves along much better for you when you can maintain a schedule and have routine in your life. Unexpected surprises and chaos are a major inconvenience to you. You tend to be conservative and are somewhat resistant to change. Others respect your ability to act properly in your everyday life.

Again the results hit right on the spot. I like people to throw the facts right in my face. I do not like them to add things to it and try to package it nicely to me. As for my emotions... Some people get to see it, some don't. Lucky for those who don't. Definitely like to schedule my life. I am a person that looks at the clock and treats it like a good friend. I am resistant to change. Like usual, i think traditional ways than new-age ways. If it is worth the change, i will take it and persuade myself to it. I do not understand what is act properly. Acting properly gains respect?? Kind of confused...

Next and final entry: The way you Think/Reason: Concrete VS Abstract

Personality Test: Part 4

Your Anxiety Level: Excitable VS Relaxed
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You are slightly relaxed. You have the ability to cope just fine in stressful situations. You feel the stress and frustration in pressure-filled situations, but you are able to overcome any negative feelings. You tend to worry slightly, but not enough to interfere with your activities. If you are experiencing a tough time in your life, you are able to stave off feelings of depression. You are able to think clearly and realistically in difficult circumstances, so that you can devise a sensible solution. Sometimes you can be impatient, other times you can be relaxed - it just depends on the circumstance and how much you can control it. People are not afraid that you will lose your temper. You are able to manage your emotions when necessary. When you do become angry, it is only because something is out of your power.

Nothing much to comment. All above is true. Describes me from the inside out. I think people are afraid of me losing temper. When i do, i warn everyone to get as far away frm me as possible.

Next entry: Your Openness to Change: Practical VS Imaginative

Personality Test: Part 3

Part 3 of my personality test... There is something that i dislike about this test. It is always so accurate about my thinking and actions. It is like i cannot bluff my way through the questionnaire.

Your Self-Control: Impulsive VS Cautious
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You are quite impulsive. You are an independent thinker. You do not need a book of rules to tell you how to behave - you know inside what is right and what is wrong and you act accordingly. You are able to live life spontaneously, because you are able to make decisions without endless deliberation. In fact, when you and another person are making a decision, you are able to reach a solution fairly quickly while the other person has to cautiously plan every step. Eventually, they will agree with you, which is frustrating when your first impulse is usually the correct one in the decision-making process. You tend to be a little more casual, and you do not feel out of sorts when your home or office is not perfectly neat. In general, your life is pleasurable - you know how to have fun and will never be accused of being staid or stuffy.

Yes. I am a little impulsive. I do not like rules and i believe that rules are made to be broken. My decision-making process is simple. Dive into it, see what happens and proceed on with the next step. Planning and strategising for a decision is just not my style. It is frustrating when my first solution is put aside and later reused again. But the frustration only last that few minutes. About the casual thingie... I definitely like casual stuff rather than formal stuff. Between a party and a ball, i would choose the former. Fun is something i always look for. Nothing beats having fun alone or with friends and family.

Next entry: Your Anxiety Level: Excitable VS Relaxed

Personality Test: Part 2

This is part 2 of my personality test. As usual, i just paste whatever the results are and put in my comments.

Your Agreeableness: Candid VS Considerate
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You are moderately considerate. You are an agreeable person. This means that you are well liked and people really enjoy your company. And why wouldn't they? People can sense that you are taking a genuine interest in them and this makes them feel special and as a result, they have high regards for you. With your altruistic personality, you get a lot of practice at making people feel special. In fact, you feel great joy when you help others. Another nice feature you possess is your ability to cooperate. Not everyone can do this, so it is very important in a meeting or social situation to have someone like you present in order to maintain a harmonious situation. This comes from your tendency to want equality and fairness. In dealing with others, you prefer not to manipulate people instead you tend to be open and sincere. This makes you a popular and well-respected individual.

Moderately considerate only?!?! MODERATE?? When around with friends, of course i take a genuine interest. Definitely feel great joy when i get to help people. Cooperation is something i really believe in. Without any cooperation, i feel the world is not going to move on. I am starting to like this personality test. It is so damn true that i do not like to manipulate people. I prefer to guide and persuade. It is always my preferred way of doing things. Manipulation not only disturbs the underlying principles of a human being but touches the sensitive issues of the person itself.

Next entry: Your Self-Control: Impulsive VS Cautious

Personality Test: Part 1

I actually done a personality test during the weekends. The website is a place for human psychology and skills test. So i signed up for an account. One of the test is to find out how is your personality and what kind of jobs would suit you the best. I will enter the details by sections and my personal comments to the results.

Your Social Boldness: Introverted VS Extraverted
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You are slightly extraverted. It's so nice to be you. You are comfortable being the center of attention, and you are just as comfortable sitting back and letting others take the spotlight. Your warm and friendly personality allows you to take a leadership role - that is, if you want it. In general, you do not mind public speaking, but sometimes you have to be in the proper frame of mind to feel at ease when making a presentation. When you believe in something, you do not hesitate to state your mind. People enjoy when you do this, because you have a cheerful way about you. At times, you seek thrills, and adventure, but a night home relaxing is just as fun for you.

I have to agree with it hands down. I just don't understand the 2nd sentence... So nice to be me?? Who would want to be me for a day? I do seek thrills. That is so true about me. I like the risk factor of certain things i do. Maybe that is why my parents do not care when i am around and shower me with lots of love when i am missed. A night home relaxing is fun but it must be RELAXING. If not, i think it would be just another waste of time.

Next Entry: Your Agreeableness: Candid VS Considerate