The World Is Pink

Today i did something for the 1st time again. Morning i woke up and slacked a little on bed. But in the end, i still woke up and prepared for school. When i am choosing my clothing of the day, i decided to break all barriers and wear a colour that i have shunned for years. I wore a pink coloured polo tee. Yes, i repeat that. I wore a pink coloured polo tee. That is the only colour polo tee that i wore for the 1st time and the only colour that i have in my wardrobe. Wore to school... Had this feeling of pinkish everything. It is like everyone is looking at my pink polo tee. I suddenly have this attraction. Unwanted attraction. Well... Maybe its just me. Went to my first lesson... Felt that the girls in the class were kinda shocked at my attire(20 students, 18 girls). But i took it easy and took a seat like it was nothing. After lessons, i met up with my Welfare Officer and we went for lunch. Her companion kept saying 'eeee... eeee... eee...' Im like, i cannot wear pink issit? She continue with her 'eeee...' I just said, come lets go. Partly to say i don't want to care what she said. Com'on... Its my first time wearing pink and my 1st bad response. I brought my welfare officer to the other end of the food court. We went over to get some chicken chop. She liked the food. But i can see that it was very filling for a girl like her. She did something embarrassing, shall not say much. Later she chase after me with the knife in my club. Well... Nothing much also. Brought her to take a bus behind the school. I bet this is her first time taking bus from the back of the school too. Arrived in our part of the school and we seperated to our individual labs. Came in and found no one i from my class except one. Im kinda shocked. Prepared my computer for work. After awhile, they came and everyone arrived. We started work soon after. Awhile later, my friend called me. She needed my help, so i went over and assisted her and helped her on her project. She does not understand the subject well so i had to help her. But i spend too much time there, casuing a little unhappiness with my teammate. I guess he must be frustrated and such as he still can't solve his error. All the best, i will try my best. Left them early as i had to leave for home. Getting some groceries for dinner. A little pasta, milk and cheese. After grocery shopping, i went back home.

Wow... My first time wearing pink and i met all my friends. I guess most of them said it was nice. Even my teammates say i look alot better wearing pink. I guess it is the special feeling that i gave my friends. I never liked pink when i was young. I never wore pink and i felt that pink was a colour that i could never fit myself into. From today onwards, i have created history in my life. I have challenged myself to wear a colour that i do not like so much. But today i received so much positive response, maybe that should encourage me. There is still one person that have not seen me in pink. I promised her i would show her one day. One prediction i have. Keep it inside me... A secret that will resurface when i meet her with my pink polo tee.

Pink Good Colour...

Interview Done, What's Next?

Another special wednesday. Wow... Two wednesdays that are special. Maybe its my luck ya? Woke up just nice to settle my morning rush. Went school late as the lecturer just started his lesson. Crashing into a lesson. Realised that im not that early either... None of my friends were there. Only after awhile, did they come in. That shows that we do not really care about this module. Really boring... After that lesson, i had to attend another lesson. Lesson after lesson... But the best part was during the evening time. I had an appointment for an interview with a company. The company was not as i expected. Located at the industrial areas. Not very my kind of style... The building is fairly secured. The lifts can bring you to every floor, but you have to use an access card to gain access to the level. After stepping into the level, it felt like i was in the movie, 'The Matrix:Reloaded'. The scene where the there is a corridor and many doors. Only the keymaker can access to it. It really felt that way. Thank god my interview was with a friend, my teammate. So we continued down and find our company. When we found it, i took a deep breath and knocked on the door. After that, i push open the door to find an office, about the size of my current classroom. The employees are all sitting together, Boss, sub-boss, all of them. No walls, no rooms, nothing seperates them. It cause a spine-chilling scare in me. Even the waiting reception is open. But the best part was seeing a friend. Well, not actually a friend, he is my ex-President. Didn't knew he was in this company. I had a chance to speak to him and find out more about the company. The company treats all interns rather good. They sent him to seminars and he returns to teach the rest. They gave him a personlised name card. He was treated like one of the working employees there. It is the same as the working world. The marketing manager interviewed me. She asked me questions and told me about what the company does. I did not feel like its an interview, i felt it was like a working excutive talking to a student. It was like a friendly conversation. One thing that i did not like about the company was that they supported Microsoft. Everything they use are all Microsoft products. I do not like Microsoft alot. Maybe after joining this company, it may change my mind and i may have a sudden crush on this software company. After the interview, i just went back home. Soon after, my friend called me and asked me about my interview. I had quite a good time. But i realise that he did not have the same fate as me. He had to go through a test and he failed rather badly for it. The company is going to hire two interns. Im only one of the six. Yes, six. Four from SP, one from NP and one from ITE. I do hope the others did better than me. The office gives me the creeps...

When i imagine my Internship, i imagine myself in working in the city and joining the major workforce. Not coming to an industrial park and join a group of IT executives that work in such an open concept. Yes... Its too open. There is practically no privacy. Nothing... I just cannot take it. I mean, at least give me a desk where there is a partition and my bosses are in rooms. So i can take a break once awhile. In that open concept, i don't think i can even catch a chit chat with my partner or another person. I will definitely go crazy when the stress level rises. This really sucks... One more thing that happened today was when i went back from the toilet, i saw a soccerball flew across the hallway. Next momment, i see this guy chasing after the ball. If that company is hiring an intern, i will definitely submit my resume and agree to all their terms. Im like... Wow, they do wore casual clothing and they do not look stressed up and tired like those in that company. A big difference. Very big... Really do hope the others put in a better interview than me. I specialise in open source softwares, not Microsoft softwares. Hate it when i have to let fate decide my life...

Please fail interview...

A Few Good Days

A few more days and i am free from the shackles of my FYP. Woke up early today as there was a lesson to attend. Arrived late but earlier than my lecturer. So im still considered early. Lesson was ok, not too boring. We entertained ourselves most of the time. There will always be a short lesson break in between and we always go for a long breakfast. Who cares anyway... I met my sister at the foodcourt. She has been suffering from lack of sleep and tons of stress. Her face shows everything. From a lively cute looking to dull lacklustre facial expressions. Looking at her in such a bad state, i feel very sorry for her. Wish i could do something for her to relieve her from so much stress. In the end, i just bought her a cup of ice lemon tea. After breakfast, we went back to lesson. Lesson ended with the lecturer forming us in our group to do a meeting roleplay. Im assigned a role, tell you more when we have been through it. After that, we went to our FYP lab to do our project. Stayed there for quite sometime, did not even went for my usual break. Did tons of cleaning up and adjusting of the project. But i suggestted that i leave early as my job scope have been completed. None of them complained, so i went home earlier than the rest.

Its just a few more days. I finally see some light of my proposed project. This is what i have been dreaming of for the last few weeks. I realise that the stress level have been lifted and the feeling is not the same as previous projects when we rush and rush when our dateline is near. Just another 12 days or so and im very relaxed. Too relaxed maybe... I may have to do some studying for my other modules. Not much mood to study anyway. Maybe, maybe when i have fully submit my project and did my demostration of my project. By then, i will be totally free, free like the wind.

Waiting for freedom...

Monday Blues... Tuesday ???

Another Monday... Another day of boredom. Morning woke up late due to too much drinking last night. Had a party to celebrate my brother's birthday. Drank this and that to entertain my uncles. When i arrived at school, i realise my classmates were booking the appointment for the NS medical checkup. I followed with them and we went along to book the same timing and date. Didn't really care when was it anyway... Just kept a reminder in my phone to remind me of the big day. Went on to submit last week FYP attendence to my supervisor. Setup my computer for later assignment. As soon as my com is ready, i was being called upon to go for breakfast. After breakfast, we went back to continue our project. We did not have much to do as it is near the end of our project. Now mostly is doing testing and trial run. There is still one final step we must do, i guess i will let the two girls that did the less to complete it. At least let them have a sense of commitment to the project. My classmates arranged a last minute outing to watch movie. Since it was a very good movie and i have seen it, i agreed to watch. We went over during evening time and bought the tickets. Laughed and enjoyed myself for the movie. After the movie, i suggested that we plan for the next movie. Another good movie coming and it involves one of my favourite games. We went to find a place to settle our dinner. But i did not eat there, i went home to eat. Did not want to spend anymore... End of the month is equilvalent to empty pockets. Joined them for dinner and we went on our own ways after that.

Monday blues... Who created that and where? Why is monday called the blues and not other colour? I wonder... So are they any other colours for other days? Tuesday green? Wednesday red? Thursday yellow? I tried finding on the Internet on how it came about. But to no avail... But while searching around this, i suddenly have this urge to buy a Risk boardgame. I searched around and all that were around were the newer versions. I did not quite like it, it is too fancy. Maybe it is me that likes old stuff. Some things are good when they are old, when they are improved, i just do not think it is nice. So currently im hunting for this old game. If you are reading this and you have an old Risk set, please contact me. Hope your set does not come with free moths and lizards. I do not accept foreign objects. Thanks and help spread the word.

Monday Tuesday Wednesday...

No Lens VS Hard Lens

Today had something different. I tried something new today. I went to school late as i had to bring my Grandma to the market. I so afraid that she might get into some accident or something... But as soon as i left her at the market, she felt like she belonged there. Maybe it is the elderly best place to get good and cheap groceries. I went to school soon after. Reached the place a little late, 40mins late to be exact. When i have settled down, i quickly setup my computer and started on my assigned work. It is just a minor job and i completed it very fast. After that, i just slack there and practically stared at my computer. I had an appointment to do some eye check. This time i had to try some lens. Hard lens. My friend checked my cornea to see whether is there any damage to it. After that, she left to find the hard lens. It was quite a long wait, so i sat on the chair and i fell asleep. Woken up by the lecturer there. Phew... Very embarrassing to be caught sleeping there. So she came over and looked at my eyes. She gave my friend some advice and asked her some questions. Asking her what should she do when she saw this. I have complete trust in my friend as i know she is a very hardworking and smart lady. I even made a pact with her, when we graduate from poly, she will be my personal eye doctor while i will help her in any IT problems she have. Today i tried something new... I tried a pair of hard lens. Wow... It was really an unforgettable experience. It was really bad at first. Cried as the eyes cannot get use to the lens. My friend cold hands helped me put on the lens. Took sometime for it to settle in. after 15mins, my eyes got used to it but i still have this irritant lens on my eye. Not really used to it. My friend even best, gave me a pair of special specs with removable lenses to wear. Asked me to read words on the wall. It felt really irritating, had to wear it for very long time. Man... Im a man of hard tears, and she is one lady dat made me cried like im a small baby. After that, she got her lecturer to come over and take a look at my eyes. Check if the lens fit my eyes. She said something of flat and steep. Not very sure what are they talking... So after awhile, my friend came back. She said something to me... 'The lens abit wrong ar. How bout this... I switch over and we check again.' Im like... !?!?! Huh?? What are you talking? Can you repeat that again in slow motion. I said, anything loh. But when she tried to take the lenses out, i tink my eyes is sensitive to it. I just can't seem to let her take it out with ease. She tried on my left and it caused a stinging pain. It was because the tip of the lens push against my cornea. It will take some time to let the cornea go back to usual shape, around 12 hours. It was difficult to put the lenses in. I realise that getting them out was almost the same or even more difficult. Cried somemore this time... Have this really painful stinging feeling. My friend kept apologising. She felt really bad to ask me to do this torturing tryout. Well... I volunteered and i trust her. So if im blind, i have to blame myself. Went home with a stinging eye.

'Hard lens cover the retina area, soft lens cover the entire cornea. That is why soft lens is more preferred.' When i heard that, i wanted to ask why did she gave me a pair of hard lens. But i kept it back as she just want to get experience of fitting a pair of hard lens. She is my future eye doctor. So using my youth, i will help her to complete her goal to become an eye specialist. This is the first time i met someone with an ambition to do something that is beyond what normal people like to do. Medical and Law. Both industry that only accept the hardworking and diligent students. I wish her all the best in her strive for being a medical specialist.

Hard or Soft...

Long Live Arcade!!

Today was another enjoyment day. It was a self declared half day for all of us. Went to school in the morning to attend lessons. Did not do my work but i just sat in and listened to the lectuerer. He asked me to take attendence. I just took and closed it, did not really care whether are they here or not. Full attendence. Guess im a good guy. After that, i went for another lesson. That was the last lesson of the day and of the week. Have lunch with a clubmate. The usual lunch date. Missed two weeks of lunchdates with valid reasons. I repeat, VALID REASONS. So when i came over, she was with a friend. Quite sweet looking. Name was... Shall not say it, i do not say names here if you notice. Had lunch with two beautiful ladies. The new friend was dressed rather simple. T-shirt, shorts and slippers. When she left, i was kinda shocked at her attire... Im like, 'Wah, she come school wear like dat ar?' Furthermore she is in the business school. Maybe one of a kind, special cases only. Haha... After lunch, my classmates asked me out for movie. I met up with some of them and we headed to the cinema together. Some left for karaoke while some continued the movie outing. Sat in the cinema for around 90mins. It is the 2nd movie of the week. Another movie outing with my seniors is coming this saturday. Wow... one week three movies... Guess i can break my ex-VP's record! After movie was lunch, a very late lunch. We went around different places to find a vegetarian store as one of my classmates was a strict vegetarian. Some complained and made fun of her. But i just consoled her and said, since she is the one that is vegetarian, we will find a place and sit there to settle our lunch. Finally found the place. Finished lunch and we chatted for sometime. Soon after, we left the place and went back home.

Before we went into the cinema, i entered the nearby arcade and played my heart out. It has been a long time since i stepped into one and enjoyed the fun it provides. I realise that i do not belong to the place anymore. Five years ago, i went to the arcade as if it was like a second home. I would spend quite a sum inside and enjoy the latest game and become a guru at it. That was when my life was still boring and i did have alot of free time on my hand. Today when exchanged $2 to play, i realise how much money i have wasted during my life then. Playing all these games and wasting all my money and time... How i wish i could go back in time and get back all this time and money. I realise that i could use this time and money to learn new skills and know more friends. Should have thought of that during that time. Well... Maybe its because im not that matured yet, still have the child like thinking of yesteryears. After today, i have decided on one thing. I shall never spend more than $5 in the arcade at one time. Rather save the extra for my marriage.

But arcade fun...

This is Good Day

Today has been a good day. Have completed one part of a particular assignment. Hope that i can score well for it. As usual, wednesdays are boring. But not today, because an event has made me rather happy. Tell more later... Had lessons as usual. I still have the privillege of having lessons in the Mass Lecture Theatre(MLT). I have a teammate telling me that he misses the feeling of sitting in one and listening 'attentively' to the lecturers. Well... We sure will miss some stuff once a while. Im going to miss to much so much when i graduate. Had lunch at a different place. Another foodcourt in my institution. Ate Japanese cuisine, it has been some some since i ate from the stall. Im very glad the uncle still remembered me. Maybe it was because of the famous incident with my seniors last year. I will never tell, unless you have ate with us before. Im sure some of them will know... Or maybe not... After lunch i went back to more lessons. Same old boring lessons. But this time the lecturer came over and helped us a little. At least i feel that we have received help from him. After that, i went over to my club's Annual General Meeting(AGM). Had some fun just shouting and laughing all the time. As there was a lucky draw, i wrote down five names. So i had five chances. Than out of nowhere, my buddy got like ten plus tickets. Im like stunned... Next momment, i got thrown all the tickets to me. Telling me to help them check. So i sat through the entire AGM. Towards the end, it was time for the lucky draw. Suddenly, all those people that gave me their tix, grabbed them all back. So im left with a couple of tix. But those were not mine. My buddy got all mine. But he was finding the one tix that belongs to her girl, and it was in my hands!! Muahahaha... So when the 1st consolation prize was announced, my number was called. My buddy got it. He took all my tix. So he went down and collected the prize. Awhile later, he got it again. But this time, all the other tix were disqualified. So he sat there in dispair. After a long while... It went into the last three prizes. I miss out on the 3rd. But when they call for the 2nd, i got the tix. It belong to my buddy, but since he got 2 consolation prizes. Might as well let me take this. Im sorry, people that laugh first, laugh last. Even worse, when they announce the 1st prize, it was a tix that was disqualified. My buddy was very fed up. His disqualified tix just cost him the 1st prize. We all laughed at him. That was a double blow for him. After that, we went outside to have refreshments. Ate and ate... Just keep on eating... I even challenged my clubmates to a fruit eating contest. Wow... My Logistics Head can really eat. He ate like double of what i ate. A contest of how many pieces you can really eat. Eventually, i stood at the 2nd one to give in. Man... Talk about a stomach full of fruits... Joined them for debrief and a short meeting. Left with them and proceeded home.

Today is a good day. Assignment complete half. Lecturer came and help us. Won 2nd prize in AGM. Had a ton of fruits in my stomach. Well... Nothing come this close to being one of the best wednesdays of the semester. This is definitely the best day of the week.

Go shopping le...

Rain Rain Go Away...

Today is a very rainy day. It rained whole day. Gonna keep it short today. Feeling very tired after continuing my report for one of my project. Do not really like that module. Been bored to death since i started on it. It is almost the same as one of a module i have taken when im in my first year. What a total waste of time. Today did nothing much. Same old go school and come back from school. My project is ending and my job is finishing. Now i leave the testing and debugging to my teammates. They will check everything and make sure everything works fine. During this time, i will have some free time on hand to concentrate on my other projects. If i have the mood to do them. Nothing much else to talk about. Getting very tired. Think something is wrong with me, sleeping late and waking up early to do boring stuff. Maybe that is how life is suppose to be. Looking forward to the next few days.

Time to rest...

Monday Blues??

What is Monday Blues? To me, it is a day where everything that should go right went the opposite way. This morning i have to wake up at eight. But i woke up at half-past seven. So i went back to sleep. Next momment, i look at my ringer, it looks like i slp for 15mins. But i took a closer look and i found it is 15mins before nine. Im shocked!! I got up and did everything at the speed of light!! Very very fast, grab and go. A workout can be choreograph i think... But that is not the worst part, it started to rain. Quite heavy too. Therefore i had to bring an umbrella. Take notice, i brought an umbrella out. Reached school soon after and started work. Had to settle on some administrative stuff before i can start work. Usual for every MONDAY. Had breakfast earlier since the stressed curve have curved back to normal. Went back to the lab in a better mood. Maybe the stress level is getting lesser and im getting less pressurised. So went back to continue work. Realised that most of them had nothing much to do. Maybe we have completed what we need to do and now in the testing stage. Shall let them do the testing and trial runs. I left my teammates. I do not wish to add this here as i may want to forget it. A little of good and bad... But i did went out to catch a movie. Quite a short one, 90mins of film. But a good one to laugh it out. Went home soon after. On the way home, i saw this cute girl in her secondary school uniform. She is very cute. Long hair, big round eyes and when she smile, i can see clearly the dimples she have on her cheeks. Smooth skin white skin. Not my type of skin color, but its still attractive. I give her a 8/10. We alighted on the same stop. I walked slightly slower to findout where she actually lived. Lucky me... She walked into a condominium earlier than me. Now i know where she lives... Think our chances of meeting again would be high and low. Depending on luck again. At this very momment, i realise something... My brolly was gone. Thinking back where i left it... I realise i left it in the cinema. Shucks...

Time is passing at a steady speed. Im completing my Poly studies and im ending my final year. After this, i will be going for my Internship. Soon after that, i will be joining the army to serve the nation. Never knew time would pass me by that fast. Thinking back, i realise that things just come and go every minute, every second. I learn to treasure the times i had with my friends, my club mates and my family. I learn to hold on to memories that are dear to me and keep them deep in my heart. I picked up experiences that not most people are able to see or hear. I have seen the most beautiful sun set and sun rise during my trip to NZ. I have done so much that i could write a book and compete with all the celebrity authours around. Haha... Wonder if i did that, would anyone buy my book? I do not think i will even reach the top ten sellers. But that will be considered if someone were to pay me to do it.

Time to relax...

Eye Examination

Today i have an eye examination. Quite fun, but at some point is quite tiring. This morning, i woke up early enough for me to play a game of soccer on my PS2. I always let my mom use the toilet as she needs it more than me. While playing, i waited for the sound of the door to unlock. Once i heard it, i quickly went in with my towel and do my necessary chores. Prepared my bag for the day and left home in a rush. Reached the lab a little late as i had to walk a big round the staduim now. Damn those construction fence... When i arrived, i started to do my stuff. I reviewed on my teammates jobs and how was their progress. They did what they were told and im quite delighted. After i finished what im suppose to do, i went to have breakfast with one of my teammate. He had some gripe on the other team members. I can't blame him for having it. What he said was the truth. I can see it with my own eyes. But it is near the end of the project. I do hope they will learn from this project and understand the basic learning skill of picking up a programming language. I left them in the afternoon to go for my eye examination appointment. Played some new equipment today. I had to take my eye pressure again. I also played with something called a Visual Field Identifier... Something like that... Well... You just cover one side of the eye and the machine will flash dots of light on the spherical background. You will have to stare at the light and push a button when u see the light. You are not allowed to see the light, but press the button if you see it. I did it one round, than the trainee optometrist checked my results with the lecturer. The lecturers there are qualified eye doctors. So they found something wrong with my eyes. My blindspots are totally wrong and my eye alignment is off course. Im kinda shocked to hear that, so i went for another test. Eye nerve photographic test. A small machine with a huge lens aimmed at my eye. I was suppose to look directly at it and they take a photograph of it. Wow... After the flash of light, the next few seconds was rather white. One flash for each eye actually. But my left eye was naughty, i blinked at the wrong time and the lens did not capture what was intended. So i had to retake again. After that, the lecturer came in and looked at the photographs. She told me nothing was wrong with my eyes. I have perfectly fine eyes. So it must be measurement of my blindspot error. I was like... Thank god... But the blindspot machine is kinda like an ordeal. Fun at first, then five minutes later it start to feel bored. 15mins later, i was totally scared of it. Not something comfortable to play with. To think i have to go through it again!! ARGHZ!! I think lady luck was with me, someone came in after us and changed the parameters of the machine. It couldn't work. So i had to make another appointment to come another time to do that freaking machine again. ARGHZ!! After that, i left the test centre and went back to the lab where i left my teammates. They left while i stayed on to do my part. Improved on the codes and added some new pages. Still not tested or validated yet, but i will get it done next week. Three more weeks till total freedom!! Left the lab in the evening to find a couple of my friends. They asked me out for dinner. How can i reject them? Its been some time since we had a meal together. Met them up, chatted and we ate dinner together. Chatted about our school. We are the same age, we graduated from high school at the same time. But i admitted to Poly one year earlier then them, so i have finished what they are going through. Gave them some pointers on their modules they are going through. Had quite some fun taking and making fun of them. Too bad i did not take my camera, wished i took with me. Able to snap some pics to keep as momentos. Went home and joined my parents for dinner. Did not eat much as was kinda full. After that, they went into the jackpot room. I went in too. It was fully packed. All the machines were used, except one. My mum went up to reserved it. So my dad changed some for a basket of coins and urged me to play. I played and played... No winning at all... Got kind of fed up with it, so i went to get a cup of coffee. Walked about to cool myself down. Mum was playing another machine. She lost like $40 to a machine. She gave up on that machine and she handed me the rest of the $10 to follow up on my current machine. I inserted all the coins in and tried my luck. Again, lady luck smiled on me again. Shall not disclose how much i won, maybe a hint. I need more than two hands to count my winnings. Haha...

Today made me realise something:
1) Trust your doctor when he say that you have something wrong. Do not argue with him/her.
2) Do not belive the above if your doctor is a quack.
I almost got a shock when i heard the lecturer told me i had some eye problems. Of my five senses, i love my eyes the most. Sight is something i would want to lose the last. I don't mind being deaf, don't mind be dumb. But i will never tolerate if i cannot see. Even if i cannot smell or taste, i would sacrifice these for my eyes. A simple reason why is very simple. I want to see God's creation. I want to see things that most people are unable to. I want to see the pretty girls that walk on the street. Most of all, I want to see and remember all the beautiful things that have crossed my path in my lifetime. That will include my friends too. They will sit at the top forever for being there for me.

Sight is precious...

Homely Home

What a way to do some constructive work alone. Today was not a day as expected. I woke up late and decided to go school late too. So while preparing to leave home, the skies changed for the worst and i found myself trapped at home. Looking out of my window, i can see the usual flood around my area. Just a stone throw away, there is the construction site. There are a lot of bangladeshi workers there. Since it was flooding, they wade their way around the site. My form of seeing bangla workers swimming in Singapore. So trapped in my home, i decided to stay home and use my computer to type all the reports that i need to do. Home was not a really good place to do work. I have alot of distraction around me. My PS2, my Hi-Fi, the kitchen, etc. Why the kitchen you would ask... While i like to cook once awhile, sometimes when im hungry, i would think of crazy things to cook up and try. So today i did something intresting. I took my leftover spiral pasta and a can of campbell meal soup. Mixed them together to make my lunch. Added some carrots and brocholli to supply my veggie intake. Voila!! I created another dish. Haha... Not bad, tasted rather nice. But a tad salty as it was still canned soup. After lunch, i continued back to my computer. Sat there to type finish all that was required. Another 2 weeks and i need to submit the report. Type type type... For 3 straight hours, i was typing away. Finally i complete what im suppose to do. Then i went to watch tv as i have not been spending time with it. Than something miraculous happen, tv was showing Garfield!! The Garfield i like so much. So i took some biscuits and sat there for 30mins watching the cartoon. But i realise that not the entire cartoon is about Garfield. There was this section where another not so famous comic characters that was drawn by Jim Davis (Garfield comic creator) too. So when it show that, i was like turned off. After the end of the cartoon, i went back to my room and continued to type my life away. Type and type... Im like those clerk in office working, but in a more comfortable zone. After that, i ate dinner. Rested awhile, enjoyed some timeout. Played some games using my PS2. I do not know what hit me, but i had this urge to swim. Yes!! At night... So i went swimming. The water was bloody cold. Felt like shivering when i came out of the pool. After bathing, i connected back with my computer and i started to chat with my frens.

Today was a little longer than usual. Today alot of things happen that was not the usual. Hate doing the usual things. Like going school in the morning and coming back home late. Im used to the life but i really like to do things that is always changing. I take everyday as a challenge. Everyday have something new for me to try, something new for me to eat, someone new to meet, someone new to see. If it is the same things over and over again. Im afraid i might not be able to take it. Hope in future, i have something new to do everyday. Something that won't bore me for long.

Feel so homely...

Life Support Machine

Nothing much happened today. Except i wasted most of my time in school when i can use it else where more fruitfully. Morning was rather sunny. It had sunshine written all over Singapore. Furthermore, i wore a black shirt and a cap. The cap would block the sun. But the black shirt was something wrong. That is because my room were covered up by the curtain. Anyways... I took the bus and headed for school. Had to walk a big round like what i did last semester. Hated doing that. Its a very long walk and i waste precious time. Attended lesson just on time again. But the worst thing happened during lesson time. THE AIR-CONDITION BROKE DOWN!! Lesson carried on in a sauna. After lesson, i went on with the day and went to do one of my project. Stayed in the lab for quite sometime. I even skipped lunch to do the project. Through hunger i endured and completed the assignment. After that, i went to meet my friends. Since i did not have lunch, i told them to join me for lunch. While walking to the foodcourt, we walked past this buffet table. The buffet was intended for the business student. But, as Singaporeans, we just walked over, took the plates and forks and got ourselves a couple plateful of food. Settled my lunch. Thanks to all the SB people. Since it was raining, i decided to go to the computer lab to entertain myself there. Spent around an hour plus there watching flash projects. Lab closed soon after. I was suppose to meet my sister for dinner. In the end, she had to do something important. Our dinner date just went up in smoke like fire touching water. It was rather sad for me, so i went home alone. All alone... Lonely...

The project datelines are getting closer and closer. Im getting stresser and stresser. My FYP project is at some standpoint where i can take it easy. But now i have to concentrate more on the other projects. I do not know how long will we take to finish the rest of them. But i do hope to finish them all as soon as possible. Today i got my exam dates too. I have one at October 6, the last one will be at November 2. I think im going to waste my time during the exam period. Study for my SAT, study for the final exam and also attend lessons for my driving. Not even close to that stage and im packing it. Guess im preparing not to get bored.

Life is sad...

Heavy Heavy Day

Today was not the usual stressful day. It was a day filled with tiredness, boredom, stress and laughter. As usual, woke up early in the morning for school. Went school and attended the lesson on the dot. Just came in when the lecturer started his lesson. Sat down and listened to what he have to say. Having test next week. Not sure whether to score for this or just do it for the sake of it. Breakfast was taken during his lesson. As usual. During our lunch break, i stayed in the lab and played some games. Lunchtime was assigned too early for us. So i pushed back to later. Went up to my lab to continue my project. I sat down and reviewed on what we have done and what we still need to do. I realised that we have done most of it but left with all the difficult parts. It was really stressful to look into every problem when you have not even solved your own. One momment im looking at this page, analyzing the error. The next momment, i helping the other to explain the logic and the coding material. When i got back to my desk, i only had a few minutes of thinking for my problem. Before i can come up with any solution, im being called upon again. Im like so... ARGHZ!! Keep losing my track of thoughts. I wonder when i led this team, did i sink myself into something that would make myself commit suicide. The guys left early and i sat a little longer to think of my problem. But by that time, im totally exhausted and unable to think anymore. I sat there, blankly looking at the screen. Totally lost. I couldn't take it anymore, i shut down my com and left for home. On my way home, i realised that there is a perimeter fence made up. I have enjoyed the shortcut since the start of the school. Now they are going to fence up the area and i have to walk around it. It sucks to the core...

Being a leader, something that is quite normal for me. I have taken up numerous leadership roles in this lifetime. Being a leader is not easy. Able to keep the teammates together to work for the common goal is a skill that combines alot of different skills together. Are you able to practice tact to keep the members happy. Are you able to think faster and logically before committing to any move suggested by the team members. Are you able to oversee their actions. Are you able to let them keep the glory when the team succeed and take all the blame when everything fail. I have tried. I have experienced all. I can tell you, being a leader is not a good thing. This society reward the leaders. If you are a good leader, you will be rewarded. But i realise something, when you receive the award, you must be able to withstand even more responsibility. Being a leader is stressful and tiring enough, being an awarded leader is even worse. You got to live up to the award expectations... Else you will be branded a fake.

Tired of leading...

Take a look at this!!

Aphrodite/Eros


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One Country, Many Leaders

Nothing much today, today's entry is a special one. Im going to tell a story. A story of a country. A summary of what i did today will be here. So do not worry. Morning went school, first to arrive. Start work on project. Had breakfast. Continue with project. Ate lunch. Back to Project. Finished my assigned tasks of the day. Went to have dinner with friends. Went home. Now back to the story. It is quite long so go get yourself a cup of water and for some, go get your reading glasses. You might need it.

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A long time ago, there was this mass big vast of land. All the people lived happily. All the people worked towards a common goal. They were happy. They were prospering. And soon, the elected their leader. This leader was tall. He had a good support. He helped his people. But because he committed too much to a section of the country, one part of the country suffered. It started only a little, but as time goes by... The section weakened. When the current leader was old, the people of the country had no choice to elect this leader. This new leader was chosen by the old one's companinion. The companions' each had a few candidates, but they narrowed down to one. A election was done. Finally, a new leader was born. But to help him, they also chose a couple of good companions to assist him.

As the land was in good condition, many other people came to join this land. Hoping to ride on the wealth the country have build up. So after accepting all the new immigrants, the old man stepped down for the younger leader to come up. But this leader was not as committed as the previous one. It was the strong supporters that kept the country going. They supported each other and carreid on the daily stuff the country. The pervious leader, with three other companion came back to help this supporters. They knew that the leader was not doing anything and they cannot see this group suffering. Without them, the supporters will never survive. The supporters boycott the leader and seldom listen to him. Since he did not sacrifice for the country, why should his views be heard. So when they held discussions, he gave excuses and did not attend any of it. The supporters were tired and they were looking for successors. So they picked a few young ones to be the future leaders. This time, they decide that they shall not make the same mistake as the previous leadership. The older generation of leaders, who are still enthusiastic about their role in the country, started to help this upcoming leaders. But they chose to meddle too much in their affairs. Such that, the young ones do not like them. And they think that the supporters are with them too. So they did their own stuff. Without consulting the ones with experience and knowledge. Without much experience and they think so highly of themselves, they have walked right into a trap they have created. The supporters wanted to help, but they got rejected everytime they offeredtheir services. It was a very hard lesson for them to learn.

It was time for the supporters to resign and allow the new leadership to come up. The supporters have chosen a few to take up important ranks. Those who were not given a rank retreated and joined the old ones. The old ones because of this incident, did nothing to care about the land. Whether it wither to death or it burned to the ground. They do not care. They left the country and vowed never to come back again. The supporters, who resigned from leadership, assigned themselves to be advisors of the country. They call themselves the Vanguards. They dedicate themselves to assist these young leaders. When they have doubts, they are there for them. But there is a clause, these Vanguards are not allowed to make any decision. The young leaders are to make the decision. Ever since the new leaders were chosen, the Vanguards were in place, the country was not the same as before. A portion of the country followed the ways of the old ones. They disregard the young leaders. But this was just the minority. The rest of the country was follwed the rule of these young leaders. The young leaders with a good lesson learnt, knew that experience should not be ignored. Advices had to be heard, hand to be asked for. This is what the Vanguards hoped for...

This is near the end of the story. From a happy, fun loving country of people that worked together. They have been through quite some rough winds together. They seen leaders rise and they seen leaders fall. Those that follow close to how the leaders work, knew their hardship and their sacrifices. Those that do not know, listen to stories that is passed down by word of mouth. Now the country have seperated. Vanguards were banded together to provide insight on problems. The old ones started out serving the country. They resigned to their fate and ran away from the problems when things do not go their way. This country, this once happy and peaceful country, when will they be the same again. Will they ever be pieced back together... As some people say... This is story have ended and that is another story.

Rest your eyes...

Revival of the Blog

After 3 days of leave for the blog, it is time to revive it once again! I decided to rest it as currently im having holidays from school. And what i usually do are just go school and continue my FYP project. Nothing much happens around when im doing my project. Just stay in the lab and do coding all the time. Boring eh... Well... That is all that happen most of the time during this holiday week. But today i had something special. My teammate's birthday. We prepared a cake and some 'extra' for fun. He had a surprise so our plan was kinda taken out nicely. Had whipped cream on plate and thrown all around. He got quite alot on himself... So it was rather fun. But i had all the cleaning up to do. Since we thrashed the place, we shall keep it clean. After that ate our cake and went back to our lab to continue project. Left really really late.

I realise that when u start something that you do daily, once you stopped, you will feel that something is missing. When i stopped the blogging for 3 days, when i sleep i have this thing bugging me to write my blog. Since i have set to rest it for 3 days, i shall keep to it. So tonight i definitely must write an entry. Feels good to come back to keep a page of my life history in this blog. That way, when i lose those precious memories, at least i have this place to read up. Just make sure i don't forget my username and my password...

I am back!!!

Stress 17:0 Life

Yeah... My life is now filled with stress and tiredness... Really hope to finish this and skip this stressful part as soon as possible. Morning i had nothing much. Took my time to wake up. Watched TV and slowly picked my clothes. Even sat down and think whether should i bring any coins to school!! Haha... After that, i met my Welfare Officer for breakfast. I was late, I have to abmit.The bus was late, not me. I waited like 20mins for it. Usually the bus will arrive every ten minutes, this time it was late so i sat in the hot sweltering sun for the bus. So in the end, the lateness dragged to her. Felt really sorry to be late. But at least she waited for me. Got to thank her for that. When we went to get our food, my Logistics Head came and told me that we are not allowed to keep flamable stuff in the clubroom. Man, i was shocked. The next he told me is, when caught having flamable stuff in the clubroom, it will be a revoke of the clubroom and we have to bear all the responsibility. That means i will have a club without a clubroom. Well... At least they settled it. After lunch, i read up on my work. Have to do some reading so that i can contribute to the project later on. Don't like this feeling where i only nod my head while the others just keep commanding me what to do. So i must have a lead on what to do. That way, i can contribute more to the project. When i got bored of all the reading, i went to my lab to join my teammates to continue my project. I am still stuck at that error. I do not know what error it is... But im just stuck there. I guess it is some stupid error that i still cannot find. I hope that i can make it quick and get it done as soon as possible. After that, i went home alone.

Today stress have scored another goal against life. I wonder when will life score one for me? When will i ever beat stress?? In school, i feel the stress. But when im home, the stress level seem to drop and i feel much better. I will talk with my friends and just let loose my mind. Let it rest after the day's tiring work. I guess friends are the only thing that stress will never conquer. They are the ones that help you beat stress and win the battle over stress. I wonder, those that without much friends, what do they usually do? I heard that some just stay at home and do practically nothing. I wonder how do they enjoy life? I should not care so much about them. To each his own. Different people will have different way of thinking about life. Enjoying about life. Just take life as a path filled with obstacles and pit holes. Friends are just tools that make these obstables easier to overcome and pit holes simpler to come out of.

I need you...

Another Boring Chapter

Life is always boring on wednesday. Good thing i know how to entertain myself. Woke up early for school. No more construction noises to wake me up. Furthermore, when i left my home, i saw a couple of th workers using the slicing machine to cut the tarmac of the road. If they were to do it in the morning before i wake up, i think those Bangladeshi workers will turn from black skin to red skin. Arrived 15mins late for the lecture. Although i was not the latest, i was one that have arrived. The lecture was pathetic. Around 20 students, only seven turned up. So... Not something new to me, not something new to the lecturer anyway. Must be something wrong, somewhere... Anyway, i attended the lesson and continued my day. Later, i received news from another lecturer that school lessons will be off on Thursday and Friday. WOO HOO!! Finally some time off before the start of the term break. But that does not mean i do not have to do my project. I guess this gives me more time to do my project and allow me to rest my mind. After all the lessons were done ang gone, i accompanied my friend to the guild house. My school's guild house, a.k.a. club house. We played bowling there. This was one of the days where we were shocked to see the guild house full and the lanes totally used up. Finally something new... But what amazed me the most was catching Remy Ong, our national SEA Games Gold Medalist bowler. What is he doing there you will ask right? Well, he is coaching some kids, aged around 7-9 years. Im really impressed on the parents. I wonder how much are they paying him to coach two kids for one hour. Some gossip to add on, he drives a BMW Z4. I try and see whether i can get the link to the car, but if you really want to know more about it. Well, i just tell you the price it will cost you to own one of these road speedsters. This car is worth $400k. Close your mouth please... Thank you... After the bowling game, i met up with my sister and we had dinner together. After dinner, i sent her home and i went home on my own.

Im too bored to say anything. Maybe some entertainment would be good for me, something to intrest me when i come home. Something to make me feel busy but still want to do it. Maybe that is something i need to make my life complete. Well... All not complete yet... I still have to find my other half to complete my life fully...

Yawnz Yawnzz Yawnzzz...

Nobody's Perfect...

Another blogger accident happened again. My last entry was erased and the entry was not entered. That part of my life will be gone forever. Maybe it will be put as a bookmark in my life. The missing link in my life. Currently there are two. Hope blogger wont make more missing links. Today was a long day for me. Woke up early and i was thinking whether to skip lesson or not. That lesson is always so boring. Going there is like a chore for me. Did not learn much today either. A two hour lesson is usually playing games on the computer, chatting and listening to music. Not very enjoyable as i can do this comfortably at home. After that, i rotted in the com lab. Playing game this time. Decided to kill a boss before we head back to the usual lab. During lab hours, i sat in the full 4 hours to do my project. No break or lunch break were taken. Must be an achievement for me. When i did what i could for my part, i ended my session in school. Left my teammates there and i accompanied my sis and her friend(Piggy) for dinner. We ate KFC. Piggy ate very less as she is afraid of getting fat. She think she is fat. She don't look fat to us... Maybe its the extra kilo she gained or the extra flab she found near her arms or waist. But to me, she is still the same usual Piggy. Its a long time since my sis and i catched a movie together. So she got a pair of free tickets, she asked me to for a movie date. Haha... We watched a movie titled, The Stepford Wives. Somewhat funny show. Tell more later... After the movie, we set off for home. Accompanied her as long as i could. After that, i took a bus home and enjoyed the night scenery throughout the entire bus trip.

After watching the show, i realise that you cannot force your life partner to be perfect. A loving and homely woman that take care of the children and cleans the home spotless. Some beautiful girls wants to be successful in the career line and manage a family. But her focus will always be her career. The men do not like that and they moved to Stepford. Well... Shall not say much else it will spoil the show. It rang to me that nobody is perfect. You cannot expect your wife to be perfect all the time. She cannot do so many things and perfect in everything. But if she is too perfect, wouldn't it be scary? Lastly, i thought of this while on the bus home. A side proverb that mixes with mathematical equation. Hope you guys can figure it out like me...

Practice makes perfect.
Nobody is perfect.
So why practice?

Happy Teachers' Day...