Thoughts of the Christmas Gift

I just watched an episode of 'Everybody Loves Raymond'. The entire show was telling the audience about how much thought is put into a gift before giving it to someone they like. It is those little details that his wife emits during those normal days that makes him get something she yearn so much.

After watching the it, i thought to myself... Did i put in enough effort and thought for the gifts i have bought for my loved ones? I sat there, my mind went through all the gifts sitting in my room. How much time i took to find each gift. How much i think would be a good and useful gift to that person. Whether he/she is gonna like it. As my thoughts slowly form up and remind me of time i have spent finding the perfect gift. I realise that my gift would never be a perfect or an overall thoughtful gift. That is because i always miss out on the little things that my loved ones show during the normal times!

The gifts i have bought are what i think they may need. Or What they may like... Like and need are just temporary and usually people will get it for themself in due time. A thoughtful gift is something that they never want to get it for themselves and they want it to come from somebody's hands(or paid by somebody's wallet). The Christmas spirit says 'Tis the season of giving'. I think this has to be taught and learned as a skill. Giving is just a minor step, very easy to learn and hurdle over. What to give and the value of the gift is something that requires years to master.

So what i ask of my friends and who ever reads my post, please be thankful that every gift comes with effort and thought. Every present does come with a price tag, but beyond the price tag, is what made the present worth.

Boring day with a Twist

After so many days of off and rest, i had to go back to work today. Went to work reluctantly and had to report in the wee hours of the morning. Due to that, i had to make an advance booking for a taxi to bring me there. In the end, i had to pay for 5mins of midnight surcharge, a advance booking fee and the fare trip. A total of $17.50. One of the most pricey fare tickets i have ever paid for in my life. So i arrived on time. What made the fare so unworth was that the event started late. 30mins late... I could have saved on the advance booking and made a current booking. There would not be a surcharge. 5mins!!!!

Well... So i just continued and went on with my job. Today i had to help out in the range. So called help... I was sleeping again most of the time. What i did there was almost the same as what i usually do in the office. Slack there, read my magazines there, had my lunch there, sleep there, etc. It was plain boring... To think we would have to come again tommorrow to suffer this again. Boy am i dreading this...

So i went to my usual sleeping pose and started to switch off. Suddenly my partner nudged me and asked me to follow him. We are goin home and not staying back for the night shoot. YEAH!! So we grab our stuff, sat in one of our officer's vehicle and he zoomed us back to office. Damn we are so glad. The conducting officer also said that we are not needed tomorrow, meaning another day of off. Double YEAH!!

Upon arrival at the office, i realise that the security door is locked. There are two doors we need to access before we can go into the office. One is the main door(think of the gate) and the other is the glass door(think of the wooden door). I only had the glass door passcode, not the main door. So it was like... ARGHZ!!!! My bag is inside and my stuff are inside too. Damn... In the end, my partner and i went back home empty handed with only the bare minimal to travel home.

Touching yet so True...

I got this on the net yesterday. Something that i think every husband should read and every wife should learn.

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.

This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls. Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn t help doing so.

I moved Dew s hands aside and said, You go to select some furniture, O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I ve got something to tell you, I said.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I m serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

At that night, we didn t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she
wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn t want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn t want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms , she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to
wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadnt looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger.

I didn t tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, Both you and I didn t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t divorce. I m serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn t value the details of life, not because we didn t love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I ll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Cooking Game

An interesting game hooked me for half of the afternoon today. I should share with everyone. Enjoy ya... Try beating my highscore, $4100.

http://www.eddiezone.net/flashgame/Restaurant.swf

Alone in the Office

If you are reading this, I have successfully inflitrated my office. Not that it have some top secret information that i can steal and sell. I actually volunteered to stay in the office as the next day's event require me to arrive here and be ready early in the morning. So i packed my bag and brought whatever i need to office. Now is the test of whether is this office haunted. Hehe... Any 'stories' i will gladly share with everyone.

Model #626

Another boring day it was. Actually i had a task to do. We are suppose to make our way to Bedok camp for interaction. We should be there by 1130hrs. In the end, there is no transport there and no one is able to send us there. So we stayed in the office minding our own business. As usual, proceed to lunch. But this time we took a walk down SISPEC. The place is HUGE!! I mean, way bigger than the one i attended my BSLC(Basic Section Leader Course). I went to my old company to take a look and by chance meet with any of my seargents. Since they are all on 'leave', i took my leave and head back to office. It was the same-same stuff as every other day but today was rather different. The Doc was in the house and he needed some models to showcase 'injuries' that will happen in war time. A deep laceration on the upper arm down to the side of the body. 2 bullet holes within 15cm apart. It was up to the combat medics to do 'make-up' and making the scars and blood look real. I was promoted to model and had to be 'made-up' for the doc. They applied colors and some glue to make the scars. It was pretty real. Like some Hollywood films special effects. I took a pic of the laceration, but i guess its too late to post the pictures. Well... That is what happens in the army, you only get to do that in the army. Do you think an entrepreneur gets to do make up of bullet wounds, lacerations and burnt flesh in the office?? I don't think so...

My sister just sent me a link that i felt oblidge to share with all my friends at my personal space online. I'm sure it will entertain everyone for awhile.

Click here for the Piggy Test.

Boring Day

Another boring day has passed. Finally here come the weekends. Also, tomorrow will be my favourite band's concert! Yay!! Haha... It's been 1.5yrs since they last had a concert here in Singapore. It's very high and a rock concert to boast. I have been to Linkin Park's one, but i just don't find it as fun and entertaining as Mayday's. Well... I just have to find out if tomorrow's one is gonna blow me away.

Just had dinner with Hammy. We went to Raffles City to get photo frame and printed a photo. Not exactly A photo, but 10pcs of the same photo. What to do, that is the minimum order of photos. So we paid for the photos and went to hunt for a good place to eat. She wanted to eat sushi, but we just can't find a good place with cheap, i mean, economical sushi bar. The Sakae sushi nearby has closed down leave us like lost sheep. In the end, we went to Funan's Swensens. The food was rather slow but the service is not bad. It took like 25mins for a small bowl of calamari to arrive at our table. See how bad it is... Hammy was so hungry i bet she almost fainted at that point. But i guess she held it back as she felt that my CPR skills not that good. Or is it another reason... Hmm... Anyway, after dinner we walked to the busstop to wait for the bus. She board the bus and went home, while i crossed over and head home.

Note: Some parts of this entry is edited and over exxagerated. If anyone finds it offensive, please accept my apology now. ACCEPT HOR!!

Give me Things to DO!!!

It is so boring in the office. I really hope for some tasks to be assigned to me. For example today, i slept in the rest room the entire morning. Woke up 30mins before lunch, walk lazily to the cookhouse and consume my lunch slowly. After lunch, i walked up to the canteen to get some drinks and newspaper before walking back to office slowly. Went back to my desk and read the newspaper. After some reading went online to surf net and check mail. Also did some 'mail chat' with Hammy, think she is as bored as me. But i guess she has more things to do than me. After that, i went walking around the camp to visit the different schools and buildings there. Went back to office 30mins before knock off. Pack up my stuff, went toilet to ease myself and wash up. 15mins before knock off i signed out and started walkin to the gate. First foot out of camp is at 1658hrs.

Boredom is chasing after me faster than i can kill it.

Life Continues

Now is the 2nd week of my enjoyment at work. Everyday i report to camp at 0745hrs. Sit on my desk and read newspapers. Sleep a little while, surf net a little while... Lunch time!! Come back with more newspapers, read newspapers, surf net. Sleep at the corner. Go back home. Standard procedures everyday. Beginning to dread the daily reporting to office. Becoming more of a bore to go there and rather find excuses or MC to get out of the place. But MCs are expensive... I do not have enough cash to go around, add 1 or 2 MCs is gonna kill my resources even more. Well... What to do... At least i save most of my spending for gatherings and enjoyment with my friends and family. Some of the places i spend alot in...

1) Travelling: No. 1 killer in my money pot
2) Food/beverages: Can't survive without food ya?
3) Weekly bowling: Well... Got a new ball, leaving it alone seems cruel
4) Entertainment (Stress-busters): It's stressful to work in a military environment!
5) Bills, Bills, Bills: All my monthly bills

As you can see, the five major taps are the ones that flushes away my money like water. If i tighten one tap, another tap gets loosen. Never ending. Hope one day i can get a big pool of resources so that my tap doesn't dry it faster than it replenishes.

Kiss of Death

Kiss of Death. A phrase given to a weapon used by Russian spies. A lipstick shaped gun with a single bullet, fires without any sound, light or smoke since its too small. Usually used by the female spies so they can assasinate their target. But the below link change the entire meaning to me. Click on the link and see what i am talking about.

www.theage.com.au/articles/2005/11/29/1133026442736.html

My Birthday Pics

Copy the below link to the place for the download of the zip file...

http://s18.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=11ET4NG8I8RVZ35BYE3U32E4QE

Its about 12mb. So have some patience and wait! ;P

Boring! Boring! BORING!!

This is how i am gonna spend my december working days in the office. Doing nothing and slacking around. There is nothing for me to do and i am in the office because i need to be in the office. I guess life as an ATEC analysis guy is such bore. Maybe things would not be so boring when the new year starts. Im sure things will pick up as soon as im trained in my field of work. But for now... Time travels so slow... My colleagues are mostly sleeping or chatting away at the pantry area. I really wonder... Does this happens most in a cycle or this is the only time we get to sleep in the office during work hours? Now just waiting for time to pass so we can go over to Hendon Camp(Changi Village) for interaction sesion. I guess we are just there to find out more about them and to let them know who we are. That is all...

Life at ATEC

Well... To sum it up, my life at ATEC is not gonna be as tough or tiring as i thought it would be. I guess my life is definitely gonna be better than trainee days. Who says unit life sucks or trainee life is the way to go? I can say without regrets now that unit life is the way for all NSF. Just yesterday, i was sent home early as there was nothing to do. Nothing that i can help or render my assistance to. I just settled my admin stuff and went back home. Even got the chance to meet my sister and Piggy out for dinner. Haha... Boss even forced me to take 2 days of leave as there will be no one around the office so even if we are there, we are just sitting around. We won't be doing much stuff as we are not trained in the field of work we are assigned to. The nearest course will start in January, making me useless in the unit. That means i will be doing CBL(Chok Bo Lan) all the way till Jan. I also plan to take leave on the week after Christmas so i can go overseas with my sister. Haha... Bring her to Bangkok for shopping and eating. Just afraid not enuff money after i buy my PSP.

The Gruelling 28KM Route March

'Are you ready for the challenge??' bellowed the CO of SISPEC before i set foot for my 28KM march. That was on friday night at 10pm, at the football field facing the HQ building. Together with me are my buddies from my section and friends from the same platoon. We all dread this day as we know the 28KM will definitely 'injure' us more than we enjoying it. Nevertheless, we just pushed ourselves for it and advanced towards the final checkpoint. During the march, some will want to fall out, some wanted to give up. 'No F**king way are you going to fall out this last time,' said my Platoon Seargent. I kinda agreed with him. After 10 weeks of tough trainning and crazy mind games they play with us, are we going to just fall out and quit like a loser? Are we such quitters that we do not have any self-pride of finishing the 28KM march? NO F**KING WAY!!! Haahaha... Well, none of us fell out. We completed the march with the same numbers as we started out. It was an achievement, a personal achievement. Definitely something to remember before i finish my NS liability. With every training has been done and passed, therefore the only thing that is left is the corporal rank that will be put on by my officer to mark the end of my training and also the 'level up' of rank. Finally... I am a corporal!! Definitely some bloody idiots will say, 'Corporal so what, everywhere also can find.' Well... It is definitely hard earned and mine will be special... Mine, like the others who graduate with me, will get to promote to the seargent rank. The rank of leadership. Which means more responsibiity, more tough training and definitely more shit work. But it pays better than some normal corporal. Spiderman's phrase for survival is 'With great power, comes with great responsibility.' I guess for me, it should sound something like this, 'With higher or more salary, comes with higher level or more shit work.' Haha... Well, posted to ATEC. Now will be going there to report and see what they do. Whether will i suffer or enjoy my life there, i cannot choose. But im glad that im left with 1 year, 7 months in the Army.

I am Tagged...

Blog-tag(i shall name it that)
rules of the game:
1) post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.
2) At the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.

5 weird/random stuffs about me:

1) I like to sleep with my right arm under my pillow, left arm near my chest, right leg straight and left leg 90 degree up.
2) My left eye is bigger than my right eye. (Or issit the other way... Hmmm...)
3) I agreed to donate all my organs when i die. (Wonder who will benefit from my brain...)
4) I wear my right shoe than my left shoe.
5) My 2 pinky fingers are crooked at the last phalanx when put together.

Hmm... Who... Guess i do not have the time to list out. Nvm than, the tag stops mommentarily at me...

Level up!! Higher rank = More pay!!

Finally... After 9 weeks of argubly the worse training i ever received yet, i finally able to put some rank on my upper arm. But i must agree that time really flies when you are busy training hard to defend the freedom of my country. Like i said before, 'The more we sweat in peace time, the less we bleed in war time.' Been through so much and i'm back to square one where i just graduate from BMT. Wondering where i would be posted to after this phase of training. My officer says im selected for this brand new unit that has appeared this half of the year. In short, i will be a step ahead all my peers that will phase into the '3G Army' era. He said i will be dealing with high-tech equipment and analyzing field data. Some sort of a recce trooper but without the motorbike. Kinda look forward to it and hope i get in since its new... The best part of wishing what it is, hoping that it is a 8-5 training and job scope. Haha... Have been very tired of travelling from the west to the east for the past 5-6 months. I hate travelling week in week out. But this new vocation of mine i am not sure where i will receive training. I hope its at the main base! Full of air-con and ladies to see. Haha...

21st Birthday Party

The party was great!! Haha... Finally got to see so many of my friends here. Even invited my internship colleagues to my party. Im just glad they came. All my seniors were there and now they have a new nickname for the group, 'Bowling Kakis'. I find it rather lame but as long we are happy, im fine with it. I had plenty of presents... Most of them were clothing. One that stood out very well is the bowling ball. My 'Bowling Kakis' have their personal ball. So i was kinda pressured to have one myself. So when they got me that ball, i jumped through the roof with happiness. Now i devote myself to another National sport, Bowling. But its a costly sport... But i still believe in this theory, as long you are enjoying doesn't matter how much you pay. Next was the bags that my other gang got. Now i finally do not need to bring a 'XXX' bag out... Haha... Think only Hammy will understand that. She is the one that came up with this codeword. Next thing that caught my eye was the glass ship in a bottle. It was given by my BMT brothers. Now displaying in my cabinet ups the level of class in my room. Haha... That's about it. Oh ya... One more surprising and unique present from my juniors... They got me a card and (?????)a bag of coins. They are very practical people. I guess getting a present for someone is a headache for most people. Well... I do appreciate their present and i do not diss it or something. It is the thought that counts most of the time.

Gotta go now... Back to camp soon and in two weeks time graduate from that place. Gonna up my rank also... No more Private Koh, its gonna be Corporal Koh!!

Happy 21st Birthday!!!

Its soooo good to be back!

Haha... Finally got the time to update this site. I know i took a very long time to post a new entry but army life is really taking almost 90% of my time. I seldom get to use a computer like i used to, therefore now very lost to the IT world or the internet zone. Some events to update and keep it as memories for myself.

Enrollment to SISPEC
I have officially enrolled into SISPEC and now is a trainee of the school. Right now i am in a company who is well-known for the suffering and torturous training. Maybe it's the change of the chief so everything seems kinda slack now. But nevertheless, i still prepare myself for the worse to come and be prepared for any surprise attack on me.

New pair of Levi's
I realise that i need another pair of jeans when i wore the same pair of jeans for 2 consecutive book out weekends. Shopping to all the guys is a very simple thing. It involves only a few steps:
1) Go into the shop(in this case, a Levi's boutique).
2) See, touch and try the item required.
3) If it fits requirements proceed to step 4, else repeat step 2.
4) Pay up at the cashier and leave the shop.
Well, that was what happened and my mother still cannot believe why i left the shop so 'eagarly'.

Fish and Co. splurge
A very frightening event happened to me and i was on a thin line between my future and a future that i never thought before. Never mind that, its all over and shall put it behind me. I met up with Hammy to relieve stress together. Its been a long time since i have had such a good meal. Price was within budget and the meal was good. Especially the fresh oysters... Damn they were good... After that we went around to hunt for Rong's birthday present. Nothing came to mind but i suggested a watch. In the end we did not get anything on that day due to lack of funds and unsure funds. Well... Went home after that to rest and prepare for the next book in after that.

5-day break
Finally it is here. The five day break that i have awaited so long for. But i guess it will go by faster than i can feel it. Well... What to do... Time flies, no... Time zooms past us when we are having fun. After booking out on that Saturday, i met up with some old friends to attend Rong's 21st birthday. At that place, im like ajar between all of her friends that comes from our Poly. I wanted to split myself up so i can join everyone but i realise that i can never do that. Therefore my decision is to join the ones that i have not met for a long time. Chat and ate... Enjoyed myself alot. After that joined Hammy, Rose and ZhenZhen on the train back home. I guess everyone was tired except me. Being trained to take little rest and operate longer than usual, i chatted with them to keep them entertained. The environment and especially some addtional characters.

That's about it. Guess my next update would be a very long time than...

Field Camp Conquered!

Haha... Back from 7 days of field camp, finally its all over. All the memories there will stay with me for as long as i live. It is there where i learn how to be a fighting soldier. What we do in camp was just physical training. Give us a rifle each but not teach us the method of firing or aiming is simply useless. We learnt how to fire in a group, how to evade an enemy and also how to charge at the enemy when we are being ambushed. My friends all agreed that we look more like soldiers now. Before that, we only knew how to run, do chin-ups and carry weights. Now... We are able to pick up a loaded rifle and defend the country when the need arises. One of the most memorable was trench digging day. We dug for 12 hours before we knock ourselves out in our own trench. Photos were aplenty as my bunk mate brought along his camera. Once posted will copy the link here. The sad thing about field camp is that we will be going back there again soon. But this time it is for test. Field camp is to condition us for the wild and allow us to be familiar with the so-called jungle. The next field camp will be a 3 day Situational Test, in short Sit Test. At the camp, we will be tested for our leadership and analytical qualities. Proving ourselves to be a good leader for future soldiers. Hope it won't rain for the 3 days. Just glad that we are back in civilization. As one of my friends would say... Im finally back to civilization and may require some time to adjust back to it. - _ -|||

Next on the menu: Field Camp

Another week has passed in my days as a recruit. Life is getting tougher and tougher but im getting used to it. Most of my friends are down with sickness, coughs and fevers. I hope im not next on the list... I want to go through the rest of my BMT(Basic Military Training) without anymore hiccups. Furthermore, the next two weeks will not be releasing to civilization due to field camp. Haizz... Not to fret, i predict that i will be stronger and slimmer wafter that. Look out for a smaller me then. Muahahaha...

Got the chance to went out with some of my closest friends in my poly days. I did some planning for the couple in the end it did not turn out to be that way. Thought i could give them their personal time, in the end they just din't fall into plan. Gave up the plan but was kinda delighted as i finally ate the MUSHROOM SWISS WHOPPER from Burger King. Felt so heavenly and it lasted only 15mins... It is still worth it. Worth every cent! After that we went to watch 'The Island'. Futuristic movie with a very deep plot. It is about cloning humans for another human's survival. A little exxagerated in the middle but overall a good movie. I gave it 4 out of 5 chin-ups. A must watch for organ donors and futuristic geeks.

After the movie, something bad happened. I do not want to say much but it did stunned me pretty badly. Anyway its all over, nothing to good to talk about. I went home soon after and collect the keys for the car to have supper with my sister. I picked her up with her colleague. After sending her colleague home, we went to macdonalds to have supper. Chatted with her about army life, the future, her future, her university stuff and also about my personal life. It felt like we have not met for a very long time, suddenly its like so much to talk about. Maybe its the distance and time that set us so far apart after being so close for such a long time. Guess she will be the one and only closest half-kin to me...

Final words before ending...

The more we sweat in peace time, the less we bleed in war time.

A line i learned from my poly classmate.

Life as a Soldier

I have left this place for 1 month. Able to see that it has grown lots of cobwebs and algae. Some parts starting growing mushrooms!! Okie, enough of the crap talk. I have not updated about my life for a very long time. My time of using the computer is so limited. Not only do i have limited computer time, i also have limited freedom time. I am now a recruit of the Singapore Armed Forces. A training soldier that will defend this country when the call of duty is sounded. Even though i have not fired a real gun nor used a weapon of any sort to kill or injure my enemy, i learn that losing the battle is just not acceptable. Now the training for me is usually physical. We are to train our physical and mental strength so that we can repel any forces trying to invade into our country. Training is tough, but the tough gets going. But the main concern is the food they serve in the army. It really sucks to the core. Nothing beats eating mainland Singapore than having meals in the army. Food is always a big thing in the army. All my friends and seniors have been complaining about the food. But what to do? It is after all the Government right?

Time to Take a Rest

Arghzzz... It has been pretty long since i have updated this place. Find it hard to sit myself on the chair and update. Busy going around doing the things that i wanted to do. The day is finally arriving, i am going to a place where i get to change. They say the place change boys to men. Finally, i am going there. After so long... I will miss alot of things. But maybe that is just me, the bloody sentimental side. I know it is just two years but sometime you just hang on to certain things, its hard to let go. The past two weeks is very fruitful for me. I have done the most enjoyable things and met with all my wonderful friends. Everyday is events after events after events. Nothing boring has happened to me. Friends and relatives are blessing me with luck for my upcoming challenge. Yes, i look at it as a challenge. A challenge that is so different, so unexpected, that i put my whole 100% effort and energy in it. I will emerge as one of the top people there. I will do my best and go for whatever they throw at me. I want to make my family proud. I want my friends looking up to me. I will not let everyone down. Nothing is going to stop me.

NOTHING!!

Home Sweet Home

This afternoon i met up with my ex-colleague and a good friend whom i have known of for four years. We went to this fish and chips stall at town area. I ate there for the 2nd time so it was still kinda new to me. It was new to her so i introduced the steps on eating the fish and the chips. We chatted to update each other for awhile. She is now working with a pretty high salary. I guess by the time she comes out, she maybe able to get me a present finally. Haha... We left each other as she joins her friends for shopping while i go and get some computer equipment for my parent's office. After that i stopped by at the office to fix up the new computer equipment. That done, i went back to school to visit my old home. No longer it looks like the usual place. I met up with my old clubmates and chatted with them. We went for dinner and i paid for them. Cheap dinner so i do not mind paying for them. It has been some time since we met. It is the bond that i have with them. I guess it will never be the same again.

It was another fruitful day spent. I realise that when the days creep nearer to my enlistment date, i treasure them more and more. I feel that i am starting to miss all my friends outside. All of us are going through a transition where we go into our seperate ways and move on with life. No longer can we have fun together, share our stress levels together and enjoy lunches and dinner together. I am going to miss all these fun times. I will miss all my friends who have joined me to overcome obstacles in my life journey. I hope that one day we will be able to come together and be like our student days. It is going to be difficult but i have hope that it will come one day. Praying hard that the day will come soon...

It will come...

Challenge Completed

Finally... I have completed the challenge given to my by my parents. Thanks to an ex-classmate of mine that i have found a suitable employer for the company. She will officially start work next monday. She was new to the area so i went over to Harbourfront to pick her up. Initially upon meeting up, she looked timid and soft-spoken. After some chatting and knowing more about her history, she is actually a grown woman in a petite body. Haha... On the bus, an old lady smiled at me and pointed a finger at her. I just smiled back and wishing we were not on the same wavelength. I doubt she noticed her as she just walked to the back of the bus. Before we alight from the bus, it was a little drizzling. Its a good thing i brought a brolly down. I opened up the brolly to shield her from the rain. Felt like some kind of romantic movie... When we reached the office, my parents were having lunch. So it was pretty awkward for her to see them. So i introduced her to them and took her outside to explain the daily business flow of the company. I guess i did a pretty good job. She understood everything. After that, i photocopied the application form for her. After completing the form, my Mum spoke to her on her job scope. She felt that she might be a good employee so she(Mum) hired her(employee) immediately. The accomplishment of this task made me felt that i have contributed to the company permanently. I have faith in her that she will be an asset to the company. After everything, i sent her to the bus stop. He bus came abruptly and she left hurriedly. I celebrated quietly after she boarded the bus and walked back to the office. Along the way, i forgot to pass her our namecard! Arghz... Maybe next time...

Street-smart and knowledge-smart. Which is better? Some say that learning how to survive in the real world is more important. Some say the opposite. What do i say? I say getting a degree in street-smart and holding a diploma in knowledge-smart. Why i say so? Life experiences and failures are what books and teachers cannot pass on. It is experiencing it by yourself that you know the ups and downs of the obstacles in life. When the obstacle repeats, you would not fall into the same trap as the previous obstacle. The Human mind learns to survive, not to absorb knowledge. If i ever want knowledge, i can always read up in the library. That is where the knowledge bank is, with unlimited withdrawals. Even though the withdrawals are loans from the back, they are usually interest free(unless you return late). If there is a financial bank that operates the same as the library, please feel-free to contact me as soon as possible.

Live and Learn...

Brothers Team VS. Sisters Team

Have not been updating recently... In another few days time, i might not be able to update le. This webby will start to grow cobwebs le. Just to let everyone know what is happening in the past few days... On friday, i slacked at home. Just enjoy my computer and the coolness of the swimming pool. The weekends was spend very fruitfully. I attended my friend's wedding. I as a guy, was the team leader of the Brothers Team. We did crazy things... The Sisters Team really made a fool of us. Shall not write all the embarassing things we did here. At the wedding dinner, the Brothers Team was the one that emerged the winner in the Team games. Too bad for the ladies, we have a phone card. Haha... Somethings just cannot use money to buy. Hehe... As for today, i went out the entire day. Was out at Orchard and an old lady came up to me. I was listening to my player so i could not hear what she said. She held a plastic bag with a bottle of cooking oil. She asked me to buy. I rejected and continue walking. Friends say i do not have heart for the lady. But i see it as i do not know what the bottle contains. It may look like oil, maybe its some flammable liquid and i may be fined heavily. Anyway, one message to my friends... If you complain i do not have heart for the lady, YOU SHOULD INTERRUPT AND PAY FOR THE OIL.

Simple as that...

Calmer Seas Now...

After so many days of rough seas, the waters are calmer now. No more thunders or lightning and tall, dangerous waves. Once awhile a blow of strong wind and a crackle of rain here and there. The sea is better but i still think that stronger winds are building up and maybe another major storm coming up. Have to start to make preparations for the next storm... Right now, a uplifting story to share with everyone.

The Merchant and The Mighty One
A merchant was very bad at business. He have been making losses for the past few months. One night, when he was counting his losses, he decided that it was all his luck. So he called out to God, 'Oh my God, why must you do this to me? I am a devoted person to your religion and why i deserve such punishment??' At that momment, God appeared infront of the Merchant. God said, 'I am God, the Mighty One. I heard that you have a problem with me?' The Merchant was shocked and replied, 'Yah, I need to ask you three things. You must answer me with all your knowledge.' 'Okay, what are your three questions?' asked God.
The merchant asked, 'What is a million hours to you?'
God replied, 'Just one second.'
Next the merchang asked, 'So... What is a million dollars to you?'
God replied, 'Just a single mortal cent.'
The merchant sat down and think before he came up with the third question...
'Can you give me one mortal cent?'
God replied, 'Of course... In the time of one second.'

I've learnt not to ask much in one lifetime. Just be content with what you have. Enough is enough, just feel blessed that you are sleeping under a roof, in a bed and blanket. Some are sleeping in a cupboard box as young as 6months old...

Camp, New Friends and a Bad Ending

Totally stretched... From head to toe. The past two days have been spent helping out at my club's FO camp. The freshmen came to enjoy and i saw happy faces. There were sad faces but they soon changed to happy ones. The first day was not very tiring. I was a station master and a couple of friends. We went shopping before we went to our station. At the station, i used a marker pen to draw on their arms. They are to write their group name and the initials of the camp. It was pretty hectic at some point and i predicted that something will happen at the back. So when we are finished with our station, we moved to the last one to help out. It was a blessing that we went as the station was out of manpower. Do it a fast one and send them back to school for dinner. The next day was spent at Sentosa. I was there for more than 12hours. Now my parts of my body are in reds. Burnt and sore. But i had a great time. Even though the entire body was wrecked and the skin was burnt, the sensation was great. After that was something that i did not enjoy much. Something bad happened and i could not enjoy at the camp. In the end, i just slept through the night and prepared for the worse at home. I do not wish to say much about this. I know how to handle such emotions now. Already been through 20 years of my life, i am well aware on how i should behave. Now it just waits for time to pass...

Rejection X 2!!

Another hectic day for me... Morning busy answering phone calls, preparing invoices and checking that orders are correct. Arghz... Almost gave a customer hell when he is so fussy about a few crates of beer. What more do you want me to do?? Taste every single bottle before i send it to u to confirm that they are fresh? With all the daily stuff, i still have to do up the new system for acceptance. So many things to do... But i overcomed everything and completed it all. Came home with mom and ate dinner. After that was packing of bags for the camp.

I actually rejected 2 person that wanted to apply for the position. The first one was because she was malay. She fitted every requirement i needed. But she was a malay. A christian malay. Too bad, cause our customers are 99% Chinese, they speak dialects and mandarin. How to communicate with them?? The other was introduced by a friend. My friend, shall not say who, told me she is willing to work. She needs the money. I do not ask for her contact, but waited for her to contact me. In the end, she let me wait for a couple of days and contacted me. Forgive her as i do not know her. She asked me lots of questions, silly questions. I asked questions and she did not gave me a satifactory answer. One of my most hated answer she gave me was, 'Eh... Your company cover transportation anot?? Do i need to entertain customers?' It is just a simple office job, did i mention anything about entertaining them?? Guess she is just another 'tai tai' in the making. Definitely will give my parents a hell of a time.

Bottlenecked!!

Last few days been rather busy. Everyday fully packed and did not have much time to update here or do things i wanted to do. Below will be a little recap on things during my absence.

Thursday
Been out the whole day. Morning was surfing the net on some resources and learning how to do more management on cashflow. There is alot to learn on cashflow management. If we were to just earn money and be a good employee all our lives, i guess we are just living on the 'next paycheck' type of lifestyle. I decided that i will not live like that. I want freedom to learn what i want. Later in the afternoon, i joined my juniors to their preparation camp. It was Amazing Race in the city limits. In the end, i joined the gals and they brought me around shopping... But i knew what i was supposed to do. So its like pretty prepared. I left them around the evening time to send my dad off. He is going to London to catch a match by Liverpool. The irony here is, he will land at Manchester, take a stadium tour of Old Trafford and live in the city. The only time he will go Liverpool is on the match day and its a bus ride over. Irony right?? We bid him farewell while he is on his way to the customs. Hope he finds the business class lounge.

Friday
Woke up early in the morning to join my mum for work. Will be substituting my dad for the meantime. I cannot cover everything but at least there is an extra pair of hands. Most of my time are spent reading newspapers and doing up the computer system. The rest are spent doing checks on goods, picking up calls and doing invoices. In the evening, i went for a SCS meeting. It was a mix of leaders from each IT tertiary school. It was rather boring but seeing old friends there was pretty good. I like the ideas thrown out for the events that will be organised this year. The bad part is that i will not be part of it. No... Its not the bad part. It is the worse part...

Work and play...

Interview with a Vampire

Have not been blogging for the past few days. I celebrated Mother's Day during the weekends. This year decided not to buy her something. I went to the market and bought a couple of lobsters and made bbq-ed cheese lobsters for her. I make a mastercard commercial out of these...

Lobsters... $48.
Cheese... $5
Herbs and spices... $15
The look of my mum with that lobster dish... Priceless...

Haha... Total rip off!! But the look on her face is really satisfying. I wasted 2 lobsters, the first had too much cheese and it was not well cooked. The next was overcooked and the cheese did not melt. But the last 2 lobsters was perfect. Man, it was good. We ate it with my family and i created another recipie! Hehe... Next time i bring the recipie to bbq party.

My dad gave me a task to contribute to the family business . He asked if any of my friends would like to work for us, females only. He want to unload some of the stress that my mum is handling so she would not work so hard. Should have done that a long time ago. So i went around and asked friends to spread the message. But they have to go through an interview. My interview. That is why the title. It is the title of one of my favourite movies by Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise. I will filter the candidates and see which i would hire. Any mistakes or unhappiness my parents have, i will be responsible. Well, talk about responsibility and committment. Furthermore, i have to do it before i enlist. A tough challenge. But i have confidence that i will conquer it.

Divide and Conquer!!!

Spectrum of Colors

Nothing much today. Another boring day again... Morning was up early to prepare breakfast and eat it. Sometimes cooking your own breakfast in the morning is so satisfying. But it seems that after cooking, eating and washing up, the feeling of going back to sleep again haunts you. I tried to keep awake by using my computer. Thanks to a good friend of mine, we played some games together while i send her the graduation dinner photos. She is very good at that game, out of three games, i won only one. Till date, i think i won like four out of 20 games? Haha... Time to study more on that and win more often. I logged off later to buy some light bulbs from the hardware store. Came back and fixed everything up. Did not bother to log on again as i decided to play a game using a new tactic. Testing how would the game flow. Not a bad experience, learn a couple of things. My brother came back in the evening, taught him some tricks for his exams tomorrow. Hope he score well to make my parents' happy. Dinner soon followed and i sat down to read up more about some universities courses. All of them say they are the best, but whom shall i believe?

It rained this afternoon and near the ending, the sun shone brightly. It was the evening sun then... I was playing my game that time. The wall that the sun shone had became multi-coloured!! It was pretty shocking at first but i soon realise that it is just the rainbow of colours. I looked at it for awhile and enjoyed it. I grabbed my phone to take a photo of it... But no matter how i try, the phone just cannot capture the colour. Guess only the human eye can see such colour. Lousy phone...

Rain + Sun = Rainbow...

What Age Am I...

You Are 23 Years Old

23 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

The Gift

What an extremely boring day... Nothing was achieved today. Morning was spent watching anime. Old anime... I dug out my old VCDs and put them on the player to remind me of the times i spend watching them. Can't believe they are still in tip top condition. After that i went back to my room to play games. There was nothing much to do so i decided to do some research on the game itself. Had some amazing finds. After gaming, i exited the program and sat infront of my computer to chat with my friends. At the same do some maintenence work on my PC. I didn't realise there were so much crap in my computer disk. Dinner soon followed and i continue my gaming investment. Hehe... A little time was spent there as i soon decided to research more on project management. It seems that there are an estimated of 500K trainned professionals in that industry. Wow... And i am like one of the trainned but uncertified. Going to do more research tomorrow and see if i can get any leads to a certification.

No gift is too small to give, nor too simple to receive, if it is chosen with thoughtfulness and given with love.
Aesop Fables

Aesop Fables is a book of filled with children stories. It contains lots of entertaining yet valuable lessons for children to read and learn. One of the most familiar kind is the thirsty crow and the jug with half filled water. The crow put in stones so that the water will rise and blah blah blah... I'm sure most of us will know that story. The book contains lots of other stories. As a child, i loved that book. It taught me the virtues of life. The sentence above I have quoted is one that i will never forget. I still keep that in mind whenever a gift is given or received. But it depends on who is the receiver and giver.

Given with love...

A Few Hundred Years

What a hectic day i have today... At least i spend them wisely. Morning was nothing much, just a simple breakfast and a 90mins movie to go along. The perfect match for a lazy morning i would say. After that, i just sat in my room and watched anime for the next two hours. Bathed and prepared to meet the club members for a good round of LAN gaming. Arrived late and lost too. Had false information causing me to be blur... Nvm, next time i show them. Played three games in total. Sucked at the previous two but the last... I almost ruled them!! Haha... Played for like 15 rounds and i fragged some who started out way longer than me. A waste i could not stay long enough to grab top fragger. Haha... Left them midway, to join my ex-colleagues for movie. While having dinner at Cineleisure, i met up with an old friend. He was there for movie watching too. Too bad we are not watching the same movie. I caught up with my colleagues. Man... The new interns are giving my bosses and supervisor extreme headaches. Think about it... An intern installed a spyware to track the password of every user including the Administrator account?? My Boss was furious. I never saw him got angry before but when i heard the story, i believed that he is very scary when angered. People that do not show anger often, will explode at the worse momment. Just like me... Hehe... We watched 'XXX: The Next Level'. A good movie with lots of action, explosion, mod-cars, military vehicles, more mod-cars and a Fort Shelby Cobra!!! I think the movie just set the next level for action packed stuff.

Part of movie made me think that the African-American are taking over. In the movie, the hero, or anti-hero is a black person. His gang are black too. A few hundred years ago, black people or negros are considered last-class people. Not second class or even third class. Directly the last class. They are traded and treated as slaves. Till date, the whites and the blacks are not in good relations still. We are listening to music, sang by black people. Almost every sport we have or at the top is a black person. Celebrities and pop stars are moving towards the blacks. Even rappers like Xzibit, Snoop Dogg, Ice Cube have made it to the big screen. I play a game that are featuring black people that fight like they do not care. Black people are modding cars that the whites just ride them. It all goes to show that black people are rising. They are no longer considered last class people. They are rising to first class, and fast. So who are helping them rising? Simple... The Media.

World Turning Black...

Picking Up the Pieces

What a good day to waste at home. Maybe it is just the feeling of staying home and enjoying all the hardware i have in my home. Morning was playing games, all kinds of computer and console games. My parents say that i am spending too much time playing games and should be using it to do something more fruitful. The way i see it... I see it as investing into my knowledge bank on gaming and its ideology. I do see myself as a game programmer or a game designer in the future. By absorbing all this foreign talent, one day i dream to create a game that the Americans, Japanese and South Koreans will play it like it is their staple food. In the afternoon, i made some macroni with cheese and herbs. Did not eat much as soon after i went swimming. A hot day for a cool dip. So i went down to the pool, in the end... I got the hot day but not a cool dip. The water was warm. Damn... A few laps to and fro and i gave up. I guess my body temperature is heated up by the water and not by itself. In the evening i just laid back on my couch and watched tv. Quality tv... At least it entertained me for two hours. Than it all ended when my Dad and my Brother came back with a new kind of amazon fish. I had to prepare a tank, set up the filtration system, make sure the water is treated for chlorine and sodium, etc... After that was just simply dinner and a another good bath.

In between lunch and swimming, i chatted with a couple of friends who are online. A couple of them is like catching up. Updating each other on what has happened and what is going to happen. Realise that time really fly past without one knowing. One of the chat was a friend from Sarawak, she was asking me if i could help her get a place to stay in Singapore. She is coming over to Singapore to study at one of our Polytechnics. Well, she won't be residing near me as the Polytechnic is not near my place. I called a couple of people and requested some information to be sent over to me. Anyway, she is coming over to study and i have to help. Her dad is an owner of a corporation that deals will mobile sanitation. Simply, mobile toilets. Disgusting but a very good business. Doing that to support five kids, two degree holders, one diploma(soon), two others studying at the secondary school. Hope next time she get her diploma, she decides to recide here. That way, i may recruit her as a business partner. Rich people backing a small project... That way i just provide the brains and using somebody's money. Muahahaha...

More catching up...

Matter of Choice

I went in for training today. Missed yesterday as i was too tired. A splitting headache in the morning and feverish in the evening. Spent the day at home resting and recuperating. I went back to the training class and realise that i lost out alot. I missed out so much! I had to catch up while the trainer is teaching the theories of the next chapter. But i did manage to catch up. During lunchtime, a guy came up to me to ask for donation. He spoke alot of his fasting, he cannot ask for donations after 12pm. So i just gave him $2 and walk off. People would think i am foolish to give him money, but i think he may need that $2 more than me. Had lunch and went back to training. Than the lesson became boring. More theories and less hands-on. It felt like studying in MLT 12 again... Haha... At least i had a computer which i installed some programs. Entertained me during those boring hours.

Friend: 'Why you want to go back and help your club? The school give you cca pts isit?'
Me: 'No, i promised them. I said i would join them in their event two weeks ago. Now you tell me got such program, how am i suppose to split myself?'
Friend: 'since no cca pts dan dun go la... why go when u can learn to earn money'
Me: 'Because i choose to...'

Above was what my close friend and i talked about. He was rather pissed at hearing that i cannot make it to a seminar. What can i say is sorry... Why i chose the club than that seminar was not the promise itself. Even though if the things are reversed, i would choose to go for club activities. Why? Simple... When you have found a home, you do not want to leave it. I told some of my clubmates that once you have found something that you can devote your time in, nothing will stand in the way. Everything you do will be enjoyable, even though it is the most mundane job. Like a volunteer worker, low pay and no fixed working hours. But why do people choose this line? Same logic with me. A simple sentence to sum everything up; the passion and the drive.

Passion & Drive...

Graduation Dinner 04/05

The weekends have been very fun for me. I attended my graduation dinner organized by my juniors. It was amazing... I enjoyed myself very much, taking photos and looking at all the beautiful ladies that night. The food was not bad, but the Chef is a little generous on the MSG or salt. Intake of water was the mid-result ending many of us heading to toilet breaks often. I took more than 100mb of photos and videos. Guess i maxed out my card's memory. I even took home a prize, so-called 'slo-cooker'. Haha... Guess i will be cooking in my room in the future. At the end of the dinner, more photo taking sessions. I accompanied my friends to send some a couple home. We met back together and went to watch a movie. After movie, we proceeded to Swensen's for ice cream and some food. The current President of the club and i shared the bill. The rest of the guys just paid the GST. Sat in the restaurant to talk and chat. By then, it was almost 5am. Everybody was extremely tired, except me. I was still hyper. Maybe its the mood i am in, or the friends that i have not met for such a long time. Either way, when i reach home that morning, i could not go to sleep immediately. Well... Nothing beats enjoying some of the greatest times of my life.

Next update would be about the club's chalet and the 5-day training with a rather new Microsoft product.

Quote of the Month

Nothing much was done today. I went to visit my attachment company. They are still the same, slave drivers. But i went back to see my supervisor. Miss her torments she dealt out. Haha... I guess after all the torture she gave me, i kinda miss them. It makes me feel stress but i know i am contributing to the company. Right now i just rot at home and wonder what to do next. Boss even joked to give me an assignment, pay me to do some software testing. I didn't know why i just reject it. Maybe i just do not want to be involved in the company after all. Maybe... So what else can i do?? I just read books, magazines, net-ticles (online articles), and newspapers. Keep reading and reading... Maybe it may increase my knowledge... Maybe...

'Should I smile because we are friends or cry cause thats all we will ever be?'
Ricland Thrush, The Crown of Kings

I got this quote from an online book someone wrote. This knight loved a beautiful princess. He gave her everything, always there for her. A perfect man for the perfect woman, so as he thought... But that is not the twist of the story, the Lady did not like her. She just treat her like a friend. As the knight could not handle the truth, he was devasted. Using this weakness, evil forces gave him power to control whatever he wanted. Building on this hatred, his power increased. Before he gave his mind to madness, he said the above sentence. After that, evil thoughts and the dark side just overwhelm him. At his humble abode, he started his killing. Overnight, blood covered the entire area. No one was spared, no living thing was left standing. He has succumbed to the demon's way. That is where i left off. I think i will keep the quote in my mind for some time. Maybe it is just me... Maybe it is my determination... Maybe... Just maybe...

15 Things You Probably Never Knew or Thought About

1. At least 5 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.




2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.




3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.




4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.




5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.




6. You mean the world to someone.




7. If not for you, someone may not be living.




8. You are special and unique.




9. Someone that you don't even know exists loves you.




10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.




11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.




12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.




13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.




14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.




15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Remembrance of DBIT 1A/01(Yr 02/03)

Here have been outdated. I could not update as i am busy planning and enjoying my time at my last gathering with my poly classmates. Those are some of the best friends i have ever made. Even though we are seperated by class and study, when we gather together, it seems like all the seperation does not matter to us. We are still the same old classmates that were together during that year. It made me realise that classmates do not change. They stay the same. Some will be prettier, some will be more suave. But deep down, their personalities are still the same. I had my share of fun and laughter. A simple 3 day 2 nights stay with them makes me think i would want to stay this way forever. But nothing stays forever. The gals will move into the industry, the guys will serve the Nation. Nothing will ever be the same again. I believe that this would be the last time where we will have so much fun together. As we split into our seperate lifestyles, i wonder when will be our next gathering. I hope it is not to far away as i miss the days we spent laughing and enjoying ourselves.

I have decided to create something for this day. Day of Remembrance, left it here for all to read.

We were strangers, each of us. We did not knew each other then.
Loneliness pushed us to friendship, where we sail off as friends on a ship.
Regrets were never there, as we soon found treasure chests lying everywhere.
As the time to choose our dreams arrive, we were seperated to our own lives.
After three years as classmates and friends, nothing beats sailing together.
We wished that time would just stood still, so we can enjoy treaure hunting forever.

Dedicated to all my classmates. I believe that one day when we look back where we have sailed and all the treasure chests we found, it would be one of the day i look forward most to.

Day of Remembrance...

The Most Dangerous Place

Today was another busy day. I woke up early for a jog. Been sometime since i have jogged about in the morning. The morning activities in a weekday is very simple. Not much dog walking or children playing. It is just cars all leaving their homes for work. I came back with sweat and dirt, mostly from car exhaust. Think i go swimming next time. I bathed and prepared myself. Went to attend this training. Training on a business software. 5-day course to learn this software. Hope they give the software at the end of the training. After the training, i went on to another training. Which is a speech training. Something to boost my speaking skills. Learnt quite alot from there. A professional speaking master was the trainer and i paid a nominal fee for it. Always worth it when signing up courses organized by the Community Club. Lesson learnt and went back home. One of the participants volunteered to drive me home. He just live a few streets away. Well, got a free ride home and fast too. Haha...

Some people say that the most dangerous place is the safest place. This sentence is very stupid. According to my point of view, i think that in any nature or natural beings, the most dangerous place is between the mother and the child. Look at any animal species, all of the mothers are so protective of their children. A mother would sacrifice anything for the protection of their child. I think this is maternal instinct. There are some cases where the mother tortures the child and detest the child she have. I think that such cases the mother should be dragged out and given the worse corporate torment ever.

Mother and Child...

Personality Test: Final Cut

This is the final of the entire test. Realise that this one is not that good. Some parts i do not quite like it.

PART 2: OCCUPATIONAL PREFERENCE EVALUATION:

Social (S) people seem to satisfy their needs in teaching or helping situations. They are drawn more to seek close interpersonal relationships and are less apt to engage in intellectual of extensive physical activity. The S type generally likes to help, teach, and counsel people more than engage in mechanical or technical activity. The S type usually likes to be around other people, working in groups and sharing responsibilities. They are good communicators and are interested in how people get along, and like to help other people with their problems. They like nursing, or giving first aid and providing information. They generally avoid using machines, tools, or animals to achieve a goal. They see themselves as helpful, friendly, and trustworthy.

Okie... So i am a social person. I like to pass knowledge, maybe that is why i like to communicate with people. Yes, i like to work in groups. Pairs or single work is not my cup of tea. One person jobs with no one to support or encourage me, not my liking. I prefer to work in groups and have a knitting relationship with them. As for the nursing part... I think i hate to be a male nurse. Nurse school have babes and stuff but i just do not see myself as a nurse. First aider maybe, but definitely never a nurse. I like to help, i like to make friends and have trust in them. So that they can return the trust on me.

Story writer mood kicks in...

Personality Test: Part 6

I suddenly realise that my personality test has the same chapters with the entire Star Wars story. Okie, that is way too misleading. But this is the last part of my personality test. It is such a abrupt ending but at least it is the end...

The way you Think/Reason: Concrete VS Abstract
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You are moderately concrete in your thinking. Your intellectual style is related to superior job performance when working with the public. One reason for this is that you often prefer dealing with people or things rather than ideas.

Sometimes i feel that letting this information on the net seems to invade into my personal privacy. But i seem to like it. It is for friends and acquitances to know me more. Let them know that such a angel is living inside a devil's skin. I think i type too much. I should start to think of what to type for my next entry. Maybe i should do some research on human psychology. Something that is so indepth but does not have the sciences to back it up. Maybe one day...

Change of Life...

Personality Test: Part 5

This is the one before the last. Just one more entry... I think this could be one of the best week entries i ever made.

Your Openness to Change: Practical VS Imaginative
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You are quite practical. You want just the facts - keep it plain and simple. You are practical, pragmatic and well grounded. You have no time for carelessness and impracticality. You prefer to keep your emotions to yourself, rather than exposing your feelings to the world. Life moves along much better for you when you can maintain a schedule and have routine in your life. Unexpected surprises and chaos are a major inconvenience to you. You tend to be conservative and are somewhat resistant to change. Others respect your ability to act properly in your everyday life.

Again the results hit right on the spot. I like people to throw the facts right in my face. I do not like them to add things to it and try to package it nicely to me. As for my emotions... Some people get to see it, some don't. Lucky for those who don't. Definitely like to schedule my life. I am a person that looks at the clock and treats it like a good friend. I am resistant to change. Like usual, i think traditional ways than new-age ways. If it is worth the change, i will take it and persuade myself to it. I do not understand what is act properly. Acting properly gains respect?? Kind of confused...

Next and final entry: The way you Think/Reason: Concrete VS Abstract

Personality Test: Part 4

Your Anxiety Level: Excitable VS Relaxed
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You are slightly relaxed. You have the ability to cope just fine in stressful situations. You feel the stress and frustration in pressure-filled situations, but you are able to overcome any negative feelings. You tend to worry slightly, but not enough to interfere with your activities. If you are experiencing a tough time in your life, you are able to stave off feelings of depression. You are able to think clearly and realistically in difficult circumstances, so that you can devise a sensible solution. Sometimes you can be impatient, other times you can be relaxed - it just depends on the circumstance and how much you can control it. People are not afraid that you will lose your temper. You are able to manage your emotions when necessary. When you do become angry, it is only because something is out of your power.

Nothing much to comment. All above is true. Describes me from the inside out. I think people are afraid of me losing temper. When i do, i warn everyone to get as far away frm me as possible.

Next entry: Your Openness to Change: Practical VS Imaginative

Personality Test: Part 3

Part 3 of my personality test... There is something that i dislike about this test. It is always so accurate about my thinking and actions. It is like i cannot bluff my way through the questionnaire.

Your Self-Control: Impulsive VS Cautious
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You are quite impulsive. You are an independent thinker. You do not need a book of rules to tell you how to behave - you know inside what is right and what is wrong and you act accordingly. You are able to live life spontaneously, because you are able to make decisions without endless deliberation. In fact, when you and another person are making a decision, you are able to reach a solution fairly quickly while the other person has to cautiously plan every step. Eventually, they will agree with you, which is frustrating when your first impulse is usually the correct one in the decision-making process. You tend to be a little more casual, and you do not feel out of sorts when your home or office is not perfectly neat. In general, your life is pleasurable - you know how to have fun and will never be accused of being staid or stuffy.

Yes. I am a little impulsive. I do not like rules and i believe that rules are made to be broken. My decision-making process is simple. Dive into it, see what happens and proceed on with the next step. Planning and strategising for a decision is just not my style. It is frustrating when my first solution is put aside and later reused again. But the frustration only last that few minutes. About the casual thingie... I definitely like casual stuff rather than formal stuff. Between a party and a ball, i would choose the former. Fun is something i always look for. Nothing beats having fun alone or with friends and family.

Next entry: Your Anxiety Level: Excitable VS Relaxed

Personality Test: Part 2

This is part 2 of my personality test. As usual, i just paste whatever the results are and put in my comments.

Your Agreeableness: Candid VS Considerate
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You are moderately considerate. You are an agreeable person. This means that you are well liked and people really enjoy your company. And why wouldn't they? People can sense that you are taking a genuine interest in them and this makes them feel special and as a result, they have high regards for you. With your altruistic personality, you get a lot of practice at making people feel special. In fact, you feel great joy when you help others. Another nice feature you possess is your ability to cooperate. Not everyone can do this, so it is very important in a meeting or social situation to have someone like you present in order to maintain a harmonious situation. This comes from your tendency to want equality and fairness. In dealing with others, you prefer not to manipulate people instead you tend to be open and sincere. This makes you a popular and well-respected individual.

Moderately considerate only?!?! MODERATE?? When around with friends, of course i take a genuine interest. Definitely feel great joy when i get to help people. Cooperation is something i really believe in. Without any cooperation, i feel the world is not going to move on. I am starting to like this personality test. It is so damn true that i do not like to manipulate people. I prefer to guide and persuade. It is always my preferred way of doing things. Manipulation not only disturbs the underlying principles of a human being but touches the sensitive issues of the person itself.

Next entry: Your Self-Control: Impulsive VS Cautious

Personality Test: Part 1

I actually done a personality test during the weekends. The website is a place for human psychology and skills test. So i signed up for an account. One of the test is to find out how is your personality and what kind of jobs would suit you the best. I will enter the details by sections and my personal comments to the results.

Your Social Boldness: Introverted VS Extraverted
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You are slightly extraverted. It's so nice to be you. You are comfortable being the center of attention, and you are just as comfortable sitting back and letting others take the spotlight. Your warm and friendly personality allows you to take a leadership role - that is, if you want it. In general, you do not mind public speaking, but sometimes you have to be in the proper frame of mind to feel at ease when making a presentation. When you believe in something, you do not hesitate to state your mind. People enjoy when you do this, because you have a cheerful way about you. At times, you seek thrills, and adventure, but a night home relaxing is just as fun for you.

I have to agree with it hands down. I just don't understand the 2nd sentence... So nice to be me?? Who would want to be me for a day? I do seek thrills. That is so true about me. I like the risk factor of certain things i do. Maybe that is why my parents do not care when i am around and shower me with lots of love when i am missed. A night home relaxing is fun but it must be RELAXING. If not, i think it would be just another waste of time.

Next Entry: Your Agreeableness: Candid VS Considerate

Happy April Fool's Day

There are several explanations for the origin of April Fools' Day, but here is the most plausible one. April 1st was once New Year's Day in France. In 1582, Pope Gregory declared the adoption of his Gregorian calendar to replace the Julian calendar and New Year's Day was officially changed to January 1st. It took awhile for everyone in France to hear the news of this major change and others obstinately refused to accept the new calendar, so a lot of people continued to celebrate New Year's Day on the first of April – earning them the name April fools. The April fools were subjected to ridicule and practical jokes and the tradition was born. The butts of these pranks were first called poisson d'avril or April fish because a young naive fish is easily caught. A common practice was to hook a paper fish on the back of someone as a joke. This evolved over time and a custom of prank-playing continues on the first day of April.

ITP Ending

My internship is ending with the company. Soon i will be leaving the life of a carefree student and enter the world of military training. My partner is still sick after a day's rest at home. I guess he will be coming back soon. I have been covering up for him for so many days. I am almost out of breath. Boss ask me to do this. Boss Wife kept adding to my to-do pile. Furthermore, the CRM system we are using are having lag problems. When it lags, my working speed drops drastically. Starting to hate the system. Its okie... A few days more and i am out of this punishment. Anyway, Boss agreed to buy us lunch when we leave the office. Hope it is not a simple lunch at the nearby food centre.

Another quake, another few thousands lives have just passed on. Natural disasters are such massive WMDs. A huge quake and waves crushed an entire island of buildings and structures. Only one thing it proves... If we do not have warning systems or ways to communicate fast, we would always be victims of disasters. I always remember watching the movie, 'The Day After Tomorrow'. A very good movie to demostrate the power of nature. Nothing can help if nature decides to go crazy. The previous quake had almost 300,000 lives gone and millions affected. A total of two million volunteers went in to help and donation of almost 10 billion dollars. Would this quake have any volunteers and donations? I hope so... 10% of what is given from the last quake would definitely help the affected victims. But it would always be a dream for the victims...

Not another quake...

The Weekends

After a long break, i realise that i have rested too much and fallen ill. I still can walk and run, jump and bounce. It is this tiny little inflamation in my throat. Causing me quite a difficult time when i swallow things. I also broke record for the biggest item spent. Well, not the biggest in terms of money state. I swiped my card for a $400 new phone and accessories. Well... Sometimes you just can't say no to an old friend. He charge so much lower than what i can get from the service provider. If i get the phone from the provider, i guess i would not be bring home all these accessories.

Realise that having a camera phone is just something extra. It is like a perk that you get to use but you do not need it. I like taking photos. If i were given a choice to venture into a new hobby, i would most definitely try out photograhpy. I like taking photos, just that the hobby is too expensive to maintain. Cameras, developing and the ever so expensive accessories. I hope one day i can be like those photograhers in National Geograhic Channel. Taking photos of the streets of Cairo, the wilderness of the Savanna and the lush greenery of Crystal Islands. Really love these wonderful settings...

Next target: Camera...

Direction of Life

Do you know your direction of life? When i mean direction, i do not mean the goals in your life. Goals are too generic. A goal is like a soccer goal post. It is always that big. Just that where are you shooting the ball from. Targets are more specific. Try aiming for the bulls eye on the archery board or the dart board. Im sure it has heighten the odds quite. I shall now share with everyone a simple story i saw on the television one night.

There is this tradition in an asian country. When the elderly is about to pass on, the younger generation will have to carry him/her to the highest place in the village. There the elder one will pass on peacefully. My story is about this young man and his mother. He never saw his father as he abandoned mother and child when he was young. The mother fell sick and it got worse as day pass. One day, the mother tell the son that she is passing on. She knows she cannot make it to another few more days. The son did not like to hear those words but he had to. So the next day, he woke up before the break of dawn. He cooked his mother's favourite dish and also prepare food for the journey to the tip of the highest mountain. He bathed his mother and help her wore the nicest clothes she have. After that, he carried her on his back and the equipment of the journey on his front.

It was his first journey. He did not know the way. There were no tracks, no roads, no markings. His only direction was the highest peak on the mountain. So he eyed his target and continued. Once a while, he would feel a tug towards the back. At the start he felt that it was him getting tired, so the weight at the back would feel heavier. He continued his journey. The tug keep coming and the last few were stronger than the previous few. So when he felt a tug, he took a glance back. What he saw made the son very surprised. The mother was grabbed a couple of branches and dropped them on the floor. He was puzzled as why is she doing this but did not ask his mother. He just kept his sight on the top of the mountain.

As fatigue caught up with him, he stopped for a rest at a nearby tree and gave his mother some water. After the mother finished drinking, he took courage and asked the mother why did she pull off branches and drop them on the ground. His mother took a deep breath and answered. 'The branches are for you. I am not going back home. At the top, i will leave you and continue with my other life. But you need to go home. You need the directions of the place we passed. You will be lost without these directions.'

Hearing this, the son could not help but teared.

Training@Avantus: Day 4

End of my training. Went for half a day as i did not feel so good in the morning. Rested and later met up with my colleagues at the training area. Had lunch with them and went back to the classroom soon after. I did not know what am i doing there actually. It is like being there physically and yet gain nothing except 'experience'. Experience of seeing the making of the software into the final product. So most of the time i just continued to surf the net and check my mails. At the same time took the time to chat with my friend using the windows messenger. The main aim to go there was just to collect the certificate. Without that certificate, i think my boss would kill me with a D grade on my ITP. After that i went back home to rest and freshen up before leaving for home again. This time for a speech training. Learning something that i did not learn at all in schools i studied. The trainer is giving commercial version of such training. Each person he charges $600~$800. I just paid $55 for 1/3 of the entire training. Entertaining and definitely something that i think may benefit me in the future.

'When I got shot, two bullets went through my stomach, liver, spleen, esophagus, left lung and right lung. The doctors and everyone, including me, was sure I was going to die, so we all got ready, and then I didn't do it. But I always wished I had died, and I still wish that, because I could have gotten the whole thing over with. Dying is the most embarrasing thing that can ever happen to you, because someone's got to take care of all your details. You've died and someone's got to take care of the body, make funeral arrangements, pick out the casket and the service and the cemetary and the clothes for you to wear and get someone to style you and do makeup. You'd like to help them, and most of all you'd like to do the whole thing yourself, but you're dead so you can't. Here you've spent your whole life trying to make enough money to take care of yourself so you won't bother anybody else with your problems, and then you wind up dumping the biggest problem ever in somebody else's lap anyway. It's a shame. I never understood why when you died, you didn't just vanish, everything could just keep going on the way it was only you just wouldn't be there. I always thought I'd like my own tombstone to be
blank. No epitaph, and no name. Well, actually, I'd like it to say "figment."'

Andy Warhol

My feelings exactly as this guy. Put his name of google and you can know him more if you want to.

Training@Avantus: Day Three

Arghz... Now is the programming part of the training. How i damn myself for not brushing up my VB.net skills before entering the course. How would i know it would be so VB intense... Now all i know is copy and paste the solution to the current project. Feel so useless and bored. Staring at all the codings on the screen does not help at all. Now is the self-declared break from all that code staring. It really tires me just to analyze codings. Suddenly felt very impressed at those programmers that code the programs. They are using extremely basic codes to code what we see as a programming language today. If i am to compare the pains i have now with the pains they are having at that time, i guess mine can't even be comparable to them. Now awaiting my colleague to finish up his part and explain to me everything from head to toe.

Training@Avantus: Day One

Today went to OUB Centre, Avatus for a four-day training on MS SharePoint Services. It is a new kind of technology desgined by Microsoft and there are not much experts in this field yet. It was pretty fun. No stress at all. Lessons was boring, it is like practical lessons in school. Lecturer just kept babling on while students just absorb as much as possible. Good thing was this had breaks. Every two hours we had breaks or lunch. Furthermore, coffee was just a few steps away from the classroom. The coffee machine was like a object of pure gold when u just step out of the room for the break. A sip of the heavenly liquid puts you back on track. Arghz... Exxagerate too much again. One thing i realise at the CBD area... Food is damn expensive. A small bowl of noodles cost me $3 and i had to buy bread to suffice my hunger! I really wonder how those ITP students, with the size of my appetite of course, survive there? Or maybe there isn't any other ITP students with my kind of appetite...

I still remember a sentence from the movie Shrek 2. I watched it at least four times, guess i lost count of it. One sentence that the Fairy Godmother said, Happiness is but just a teardrop away. So i questioned the sentence, do you need teardrops to get happiness? Or does it mean that only after having tears than happiness comes? I did not get a good answer from my thoughts. That is because i am a creature with no tears. Not exactly dry like the desert, but i cannot drop tears easily. Tears is my weak link so it is logical that i cannot drop them. But i just do not get it. Do we really need to suffer to have happiness? Happiness always come after tears? For me, i have never experienced tears followed by happiness. Like i said earlier... I can't seem to cry. I think is the lack of the ability to cry has not given me true happiness. If crying or droping tears would give me happiness, i would pay any amount, not only in terms of monetary means, to have the ability. Sometimes it is just so miserable... So miserable...

Tears and Happiness...

Alter Ego

Would you wish to be someone you want to be in this current life? A simple example would be wanting to be a doctor when you are actually a fireman. Something like that... How i wish i had an alter ego. A person leading two lives. Sometimes it is one in day, one in night. Usually people that leads two very different lives are superheroes. But in reality, where are these superheroes? Never to be seen, never to be heard. There are also people that lead different lives and yet are called super villians. So in the end, they are the same kind of people, yet they are categorized differently. So within ourselves, do we lead different lives? I do... I did not realise this until a couple of months ago. When i regretted saying those words. My lifestyle changed, my habbits changed. Using the superheroes as an example, i have a normal life. One that everyone sees and hear about. I have another one that only a few knows about. One that i do not want many to know. This second life serves the purpose of making my normal life more stable. I geuss without this second life, i would explode. So do i categorzied as a superhero or a super villian?

Quote of the Day

Today i chanced upon this quote while reading my favourite series of fantasy story books. This sentence was spoken by one of the important male characters in the story to another female. He was shy and do not dare to open his heart to her. But the female knew his feelings, she just wanted to wait for him. So the day before the male goes to war, he told her this sentence...

What lies behind us and
what lies before us are tiny matters
compared to what lies within us.


I hope anyone who reads this is able to understand the underlying meaning of the quote.

Fitness Test

Today is such a nice day for the fitness test. The wind is blowing... All i need is just a gold award for the fitness test and it would be the icing on the cake!

Project: Tantalus

You can never find this word in the dictionary. This word is the name of the most powerful Greek God's son. He is Zeus's son, King Tantalus. His story is a simple yet easy to understand. Unlike his elder son, Hercules, King Tantalus was wicked and evil in the heart. He was given mortal powers. Powers to lead and control a large kingdom. He led armies and fought wars. He never lost a single battle when he led. When the enemy hear the commander of the force they are facing, they dread the name Tantalus. All people were able to see his crimes but they could do nothing. Men were killed, womena and children were not spared either. Zeus saw it. He was angry but he could not meddle with mortal matters. He so wanted to punish him and prevent such vermin from harming the land anymore. But he just could not touch him. So he sent another god to do the job for him. Someone that could walk the lands of the mortal. He dealt out punishment that no human can ever imagine at that time. No one knows how he looks for if they see him, they never got the chance to tell others. A dark, shadowy figure that is so different from the gods at Mount Olympus. Unlike the rest of the Gods who bathe in the sun, ride on the clouds of Olympus. This god prefer darkness and loneliness. Something that the other gods could never understand. The name of the god, Hades.

One night, Hades walk up to King Tantalus castle. No guards could stop him, for they fell to the ground with just a glance of his face. He strolled his way to Tantalus's room. When he opened the door, King Tantalus was sound asleep like a baby. He was not disturbed by the sound of the door opening. Neither was he aware of another being in the room. So Hades thought of a better way to wake him up. Hades entered his dream and changed the happy dreams he had into a nightmare. One nightmare that shook King Tantalus so hard, he screamed and awaken with the face of Hades infront of him. Hades told him about the punishment he will be dealt with. A torment so painful, that did not dealt any pain to his physical body. That night, made King Tantalus a totally changed man.

King Tantalus was condemned to join Hades in Hell. He was given a beautiful prison. Where budding trees were, rivers flow and birds flew everywhere. Green grass grew as far as the eye can see. The sun was shining brightly and the air was cool. King Tantalus thought Hell was not so bad after all. He got such beautiful place to spend the rest of his life in. He walked towards a tree with apples hanging within arm's reach. As he reach for the apple, the branches receded. He tried again and reach higher for it, the branch went up higher. Frustrated, he chose another apple. That one too receded. He was mad. Very frustrated and mad. Since apples were not able to be eaten, a simple drink would be good. He moved from the apple tree to the calm, flowing river by the side. He was doubtful that the water might recede when he stepped in. As his feet touch the water, nothing happened. He felt the cool water flowing along the skin of his feet. As he reach down to drink the water, the water receded. He could not drink a single mouth of water. Now he is beginning to feel the punishment of Hades. Hades punishment was not that light. The punishment was not just allowing King Tantalus to starve. King Tantalus never starved. The need to eat was not needed as his soul was trapped in Hell. But he could not taste the sweet apples or fruits surrounding him nor the cooling water gushing pass the green pastures. This was the torment that Hades has set for him. This was the punishment deemed for Zeus's wicked son.

OT!! Again?!?!

Haizz... OT again... Why my partner so good... Kept taking leave and leaving me alone in the office clearing up all the odd jobs the company have. Now i know how it feels to handle two persons job as one. Throwing everything at me, expecting me to perform like i can take it easily. I think the boss must understand that i do have much time with the company so he take the chance to flood me with jobs. Damn... Kept doing things that stop me from completing my current tasks. It is like a cup with a dripping hole at the bottom. No matter how fast the drip is, it is always kept filled to the brim. Well... I am coping well currently. Maybe show a few signs that i am stressed out and overwhelmed. Maybe then he will think twice about assigning more tasks to me. Now i believe i have a new meaning to the word Office.

Office/School - A place where you escape from the stressful life you lead at the place you call home.

Powerful eh??