Saturday, November 07, 2009

Chapters of Our Lives

As I always say, our lives are like a book, a beginning, middle and end. How do you start and end cannot be changed, but whatever is in the middle, is solely up to you. As i look back on the two years here, i realise this chapter of my life is ending. What happens ahead is unknown. I'm not sure what is my next step... Will i start working? Will i continue to study? Will i join my parents? Will i rot at home and live off my parents? So many possibilities, so many different ways towards the ending.

I don't actually like where i am standing now, where i can't see my near future, possibilities of what is going to happen. I mean, i always plan ahead, looking forward to dates, making sure things are in place. Preparing for the best and worst in life. I know i'll definitely be taking over the family business, but when will that be and how will it happen, i won't know. My path in life is long, but not knowing where and what will happen next, isn't making me feeling easy for now.

Recently i've rejected another job oppurtunity. A career in a Japanese firm, working in Tokyo, one of the most expensive cities in the world and away from friends and family for another extremely long period. Yup... REJECTED! Why? Simple... I begin to miss home, my family members, relatives, god-sis, friends and food. I think i didn't want to be away from home and all my loved ones again for a long period of time again. I've not sure if i've made the correct decision. Whether rejecting this once in a lifetime oppurtunity is the right one...

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