Leave Another Day

Not been blogging recently... Due to the stress level im having and the activities im involved, im getting exhausted very fast. Today was the continuation of the FOP week. All of us club members are tired but we can see that we did enjoy the activity together. Hardwork and all will pay off. Only some things can be applied on that but im sure this is one of them. So today was just to let the Freshmen get familiar with the computer system in our school. So there is alot of obstacle here and there but we got through all in the end. I even have to lead lost sheep back to their classes. A tiring job, but somebody got to do it. After that, i had lunch with my VP, Treasurer and the upcoming club member. Had quite a good conversation and a satisfying lunch. Been 2 months not eating at Foodcourt 6. After that, we went back to MLT 12 and dismissed from then. Most of my clubmates went home or went out but i stayed on with my VP and another 2 more clubmates. Brought one of them to the Police Department, to report on a lost radio. We didnt went in so we waited outside. Since he took quite long, we went our way to get some chocolates and i went on to back some cash. Man, am i unlucky or what. I've been using the cash deposit machine for 2 years and this is the first time i get a jammed machine due to my notes. Are my money that rough to jam a machine? I had to make a report to the lady inside the bank and wait for my money to be deposited the next morning. Went back to meet up with my friends and we went to get some chocolates for the FOP. After that, we went to a coffee shop to get some R&R. Ordered some drinks and food to accompany us. Had a great conversation with one of the quietest member in the club. He did quite alot in the FO camp and was really not noticed. After that, we parted as the others had plans for the evening. I went to my one of my buddies place to retrieve a Harddisk (HDD). My club's HDD. It went bonkers or something. After that, i headed home.

Finally, we can put all our worries and handover the control to the next batch of clubmembers to inherit the club. I don't really have somebody in mind to like put in. Usually the previous post holders will propose someone and everyone will vote for it. I don't really have the power to veto any votes and propose somebody for the posts. What i can do is, think whether is the person they choose up for the post. Are they mentally and physically ready for all the work that is to be done. Are they able to handle the stress that comes with it. Im not in the position to say this much but i wonder... Did the previous batch, my seniors, thought of all this when they chose us? Did that thought ran through their minds when they were doing the voting? I, myself, is already thinking so much. I wonder what is on the minds of the post holders. Are they as worried as me? Maybe its the feeling of finally finding another 'home' to belong to. Long time ago, left a 'home' i spent almost 6 years there. Been finding another place to belong to. After really feeling like 'home', i realise its time to move out and move on again. I have a sense of belonging to the club and i don't feel like leaving. Maybe that is why i don't understand what my seniors told me when i met them. Never have feelings with the club, its like a relationship. It's filled with happiness and lots of other emotions when you are with them. But once you are about to leave, the sadness and grief starts to creep up on you.

Place called 'home'...

Another Busy Day

Woke up 9am sharp. Had breakfast and watched some TV. Missed local TV. Played some games on my PS2 and enjoyed the music on my PC. Planned out my day and set off during the early afternoon. Went to the arcade to splash out cash and get some serious entertainment. Its been awhile since i visited the place. Saw one guy playing a game and sat there like forever. I think he have spend so much money and time on that game till he memorise the whole gaming environment. I left the arcade and went on to get a haircut. Kinda hate my hair, not that it does not look good. But it grows back too fast. My friends have a haircut like 2 times a month, i do it once a month. And im like paying so much for each haircut. To maintain a short and neat hairstyle maybe that is the way to go. Ate lunch quite late, and proceeded to attend a meeting with the Singapore Computer Society (SCS) members. My clubmate joined in the discussion. Did quite alot of planning and discussion and went on for like very very long. Went our own ways soon when we ended the meeting.

Recognition in the society. Will anyone know about me, Koh Aik Keong, when im in my 20s or 30s? Will people talk about me when they have no topic to talk about? Will there be more people knowing me dan me knowing more people? That is what went through my mind when im travelling around today. Our Prime Minister, sure everyone knows him. But does he knows me? That is the most important part. Myabe not all people like recognition, some people like to do things without getting any recognition. They just like to help and be happy. Im sometimes the former and the latter. I like to do things so that people can recognise me and say that im the one that did this, im that famous guy that did that. Also, i like to do things that no one ever knows who did it and thank the nameless. I not sure why i feel like this... But getting too recognise is also a problem. Eg. A SG man won $250K in 'Who Wants to be A Millionaire' gameshow. 2 weeks later, some guy went to find him to loan him $50k to pay for his medical bills. More and more ran after him for money. So is that good or bad?

Recognition: Good? Bad?

I'm BACK!!

After 10 days on unblogging, i realise my blog have lost a lot of content. I'm not sure how to summarise the past few days but i just try. Went to New Zealand for a holiday trip with my relatives. Toured the towns and cities, they sure know how to live and use their excess land. Driving around the country, i have seen countless cows, sheeps and horses. Guess they are a country of westerners with a living style of the countryside. After ariving back to Singapore, i went back to school for my club's Freshmen Orientation Camp(FO). Helped around as much as possible, didn't knew what was happening so i just crashed through and put my thinking on my feet. Almost went into the point of exhaustion, but realise that if that happens the camp might not be complete. Really appreciated my seniors to come down to help or take a look around the camp. I still feel kind of unhappy that the Year1s took advantage of using people that are there. A long story and a sensitive issue. I really do hope my seniors forget about it as soon as possible. And lastly, i do hope my Year1s learn something out of this camp. They the organisers have been under alot of pressure and i do understand the feeling. I am in their shoes once. Planned for a 'club bonding' camp. Alot of hardwork, blood, sweat and tears(no tears actually...) is put in that camp. After the whole camp, the organisers realised most of their mistakes. I believe in 'Learning by Making Mistakes', it's a sure win effective way to learn life skills.

After so many days of not sleeping home, i actually missed my pillow like the last few times i went overseas for long. New Zealand was fun, but the living costs and the transportation costs are very high. Especially in the Capital city. I ate lunch in one of the towns and just see whether how long i can survive there. You do the calculation.
(Conversion -- SGD 1.15 = NZD 1):

1) Net use in the internet cafe is charged 10mins $2, 15mins $3, 30mins $4, 1hr $5, subsequent hour or less are charged $2.50. And the 1st 2 mins are free.

2)A plate of a burger, a small portion of salad and fries cost $9.50. Curry beef and rice cost the same amount and its not spicy, just curry powder, milk and beef to make the curry. Burger King meals are charged at $6-7 for a normal meal. But the good thing is free flow of drinks.

3) Parking in the Cpaital City, 1hr $4. In towns, 1hr $2.

Just see the exhorbitant prices there i'm kinda shocked. Maybe its just our currency not strong enough to go against the NZD.

Lastly, i want to emphasise the bond i have with my clubmates. After a year of planning, organinsing and executing events, i have a bond with them. I really feel like a family when im with them. Even though we have our ups and downs, we went through it. I can feel the bond with them and i can see that we care for each other. I get to be called a molester, a pervert, a sex maniac and a whole lot more. The names don' hurt me, but the i feel that we got closer when they did that. Just today, i saw the most tounching scene in my life i have dedicated to the club. My clubmates, my best girl-friends, they on the spot dropped a tear or two infront of me. Im like... 'Arghz!!! 1 girl and im crazy, 3 girls together!!' Im a sucker and a loser when girls cry, just cannot take it when a gal cry. The highest ranked weapon ever wielded since the creation of the 2nd human being. I go weak when i see this...

Lastly, i want to end this long summary by saying thank you to the 5 beautiful ladies that gave me laughter, sadness, anger, watever feelings that is noted in the dictionary. Had an amazing time with them. Never a dull momment. If you ladies are reading this. I would like to say thank you for all the help, care and concern you have given me. I will treasure the times with had and i will always remember the 5 gals and a (perverted) guy.

Thank you all...

Finally!!

Its been 2 days and 3 nights since i last blogged. Something happened to the blogger server machine. So the history on that few days will not be recorded here. TO sum it up, i did 3 main things:

1) settle whatever important stuff on hand
2) met up friends to catch up on old times and drink like crazy
3) preparations for my trip

So nothing much happened anyway. Other than im afraid that my passport cannot pass, my sis and her friend are worried that i might not come back after my trip, my club's FO trial run and im missing the action and finally my VP getting sick. Praying all the while for her being well. So currently now im doing the final preparations. Waiting for time to tick away slowly before my flight. Another trip, another adventure...

I really wished i could go overseas every holiday season. But usually when i go, i have this feeling that i won't be back to see all my friends again. Just difficult to describe the feeling but its something that has haunted me since my secondary school days. I still cannot figure out why im so afraid when im an adventurous and risk-taking idiot. Im used to surviving alone, i wonder why am i so afraid of that. Maybe that is my deepest fear. Fear of the disability of getting home. If that ever happens... Maybe i have to learn how to survive at the place.

Miss my friends...

Singapore Fake Idol

Another normal day like any other holiday. All it starts with is boring. Had nothing much to do in the morning. Used the com to search some songs to download. Spend the whole morning downloading stuff. Even downloaded a movie, Shrek 2. After that, i went to buy lunch. Had prata again. Watch TV while eating. Nothing much is on free TV, so had to tune in to cable. MTV channel is the most entertaining during noon time. Lots of non-stop hits. Went back to room soon after and watched the movie i downloaded earlier. Shrek 2 ended in 1.5hrs time. Went swimming as there was nothing much to do. Bathed and watched The Simpsons again. One of my favourite cartoons. After that, i changed and went to Clementi to enjoy a session of Karaoke. Ate and sang and enjoyed myself. Made some new friends there, even sent one of them home!! Haha... Actually she is living nearby and we shared the cab fare. Went home straight after her place.

During the weekends, SG Idol registration opened. There are actually people queuing up before the day to submit their registration. Are we Singaporeans really that naive? Do we really think we have what it takes to be a star? I admit that is one way to gain your ten seconds of fame, but queueing up overnight for registration? I mean just look at some of our local singers. Ah Du is a construction worker, Sun Yanzi is a normal girl that graduate from our local university. Tanya Chua used to sing at pubs. They are now international stars. Neither needed any queuing up to be talent-spotted. Okie, maybe your singing is good. But that does not mean you will enter the real judges audition. Im sure out of these few hundreds, there will be bound to have some very good ones and some... Well, William Hung must have influenced them badly.

Waiting to fly...

A Badminton Game

Nothing much happen today too, other than buying stuff for my club and playing badminton afterwards. Yah, these are the two major things that happened today. Morning woke up to the sound of construction work. Those machinery sure knows how to make a ruckus. Ate breakfast soon after and packed my bag for the game later. On my way to school, i went to the nearby hardware shop to get some tools and a canvas sheet. The auntie was really nice. She gave me a discount on everything that was bought there. So after the shopping, went straight to school. Met the Treasurer and Welfare Officer there, they were doing some admin stuff. I had to proceed to the SALC (a place for free access of computer) to send a final edited version of my FYP. After that, i joined the rest for lunch. Since going to have a game later, i decided to have a energy enriched banana. I wonder what is so funny eating a banana... But im used to the mysteries of life. Had a game of badminton with my clubmates. Played really hard and sweated. halfway through the game, my skinny sista came over to find us. She asked us whether she and some friends could use the our place for some souvenir thingie. Borrowed the keys from my Treasurer and she used the place till we were back. Rested for awhile and talked about stuff for the FO (Freshmen Orientation) camp. Went home after the game. Stop by the same hardware shop to purchase some nuts and bolts and a spanner. Preparing to repair that trolley in club. Handing over the club have to keep it in tip-top shape, that is the least i can do.

I liked and dislike holidays. Liked, being free and easy. No stress and no pressure of school work. Dislike, being too free and easy. Cash strapped as entertainment outside in the city is not cheap. But holidays don't come easy. They are considered hard-earned. After months of slogging in school, studying and planning for events. I guess its the government way of giving us a break. Lets face it, during our secondary school, we are sent to school so much earlier than the normal workers going to work. Even we go home earlier than normal workers, we have our high speed, high paced life with extremely stressful living to survive. Wonder how did i ever survived that. Anyways, im looking forward to my trip to New Zealand. Hope after going there, everything will be back to normal.

Holidays are nice...

Thinking of thoughts

Nothing much happend today. Whole day was spent at home, almost the whole day. Morning woke up and had breakfast. Soon after, chatted with my VP. We talked awhile before she left me just like that. Kinda stunned and stumped. So i continued my day. Played some games, catch on some of the old games that i used to love and devote myself. Near the evening, i went for a swim. Water was not cold, it was kinda warm... Maybe the air caused the water to be warm. Hate swimming in warm water. Bathed and came back in time to catch another episode of The Simpsons. My favourite character: Homer Simpson. Looking how stupid and fat he is, why does he always have such good luck. Go check out the Simpsons family. A queer family that usually come out good. After that was more games and playing. I played until i discovered some bugs. Guess im too devoted to the game. After that, i chatted with my frens and while the night away.

Usually when i have nothing much to do, i will keep myself in deep thoughts. I will think of alot of things. My future, my dreams, my friends, my close friends, etc. Alot of things goes through my mind and gets processed. If i ever got the chance to blog all that goes through my head. I think i will fill up the server soon. Haha... Okie, that is too much. But i like thinking. Silently my mind will conjure alot of imagination and fantasy that will only live in there. Hopes and dreams will visualise only if i strife for them. Past memories and experiences make me wonder why i never experienced them earlier to prevent such a mistake. Thinking why friends react such a way during such situations, learning from their correct moves and mistakes. Sometimes its tiring to think so much. I respected once of my Chinese Language teacher (the only one i respect anyway...) when i was in secondary school. He told me, if you think more than you do, you will achieve great things.

Thinking is tiring...

Vesak Day Celebration

Another boring public holiday. Day where life goes on without any surprises or motives. Started by having breakfast at the West Coast Park (WCP) Macdonald's. The place was spacious and very comfortable. I always liked WCP, for its serenity and calmness. Usually the crowd will gather during the weekends and public holidays. So today is no different either. Had to queue up long for food, and the search for a place is bloody difficult. Anyway, breakfast was kinda like a mad rush. Not really enjoyable. Nearing the early afternoon, my parents and i seperated. My dad complained of neck strain and stiff shoulders. So he went for a massage. Ask for my comments on which shop is better... Im like com'on, do i look like visit such parlour? So i followed my mum to the grocery store. We bought our monthly neccessities. Yes, monthly. Each time we go there, we will fill the trolley to the brim. Once we even filled up two trollies. So we carried the stuff back home by the mid-afternoon. Reach home, unpacked all the food and stuff. I continued the day by sitting infront of my monitor. Talked with my VP the whole afternoon till she logged off to rest her eyes. Keep posting her fun facts that either made her laugh or made her disgusted and scolding me crazy. But its facts, as if what i told her are lies. During the conversation, we even shared links on what designs for our blog. But in the end, i realise i rather stick with the old one. Can't even solve my own problem of putting links on the blog. Played games till my uncle came over. He brought me the 3 episodes of LOTR. I guess soon im gonna have a marathon of LOTR. Anybody want to join me??

Im still wondering why holidays are still so boring. Only holidays such as Chinese New Year, Christmas, New Year's Day & public holidays that falls on a Sunday. Why the last one is so special? As the Singapore Government had set in donkey years time, if a holiday falls on a Sunday the following monday will be a holiday too. Thats why i like such holidays. But TV is getting more and more cheapo. The news have just finished announcing who won the Ms. Universe and they are showing the pageant. Isn't that killing thier viewership?? Anyway, Ms. USA is a real blonde, dumb looking blonde. Ms. Aussie is B-E-A-U-tiful!! I would like to get 'down' and 'under' with her. Haha... But i guess, its just the way how cable TV earns thier money. If we the younger generation, the generation with the most spending power, cannot be attracted to TV. I wonder where will the advertisers go after? Retirement folks that got their CPF and have nothing to spend? Hmm... I wonder...

Faithless in TV...

Brand New Day

Have quite a good time today. Well... Not much enjoyable as its suppose to... Woke up early to meet my frens in school. Had to plan for an event. Ate before leaving school. Then, i left my friends to join another gang. They were meeting for a movie session. The people is not really the group i hang out with, therefore my main motive is just to catch the movie. Met them a little late as i left school late. Met them soon after... But the situation is that im more like a porter, as one of them after the movie have to rush off for camp. Carried her bag and walked towards the cinema. In the end, even my most dependable friend is taken away from me. I had to bear the loneliness. We did talk later after the movie, but it is because the other ladies are in the toilet. But i appreciate it much. They suggested to go Fish & Co. for dinner, but i just cannot afford. My money are trapped with my Treasurer. I therefore had to leave them. But telling them that i cannot afford and such, and also my reason to leave is that the ambiance is not right. Good food must be enjoyed with great friends. Wrong combination as my VP said it... So i left early and went home to drink my Grandma's soup.

Keeping one's word. I realise that what you say may not actually be what you do. You can say one thing, but do the other. My dad says us guys must be a man of our words. What we say, we must be able to do. Even if you are not able to fully do it, at least try and reach the goal. I dislike people that say one thing but does the other. Its really no point when there is no trust in your words. Rather that you eat back the words than just saying it out for the sake of it. Action speaks louder than words. I can admit that i dun use words to express myself well, but my action are my true self. If i give a girl, a bouquet of flowers. Im really intrested in that girl. That is my true self. I realise i studied so much yet my use of words can never be put to good use.

Please Forgive me...

Heartland Shopping

Had to drag myself off bed to prepare for the day ahead. Wash up and changed into outdoor clothing. Packed my bag for a shopping trip and a badminton game. In the end... We just went for a shopping trip. 1st stop, the girls went for lunch. Paid for their drinks. Maybe they will repay me later with better stuff?? I think im dreaming. After that we start our shopping. Went to the pharmacy to buy first aid items. Had a budget to follow, kinda tight so we had to really make sure our money are spent fully. Next, we went over to the neighbourhood bookstore to get some shuttlecocks, white paper and some colouring pens. After that, the club needed a new fan. The big kind with a big propella that really gives alot of blowing power. So we went to get one for the club. Carrying such heavy stuff, we went back to the club to unload the stuff. After that, we went over to Turf City. The gals, VP, Logistics Head & Treasurer, never went to Turf City before. Since my previous job was there, i brought them over to have a look around. The starting wasn't really nice as they had to wait for the bus. 30mins interval, my VP began to feel bored. Written all over her face. We board the bus as soon as it arrives and reach TC by the late afternoon. Walked about and took a look around. Since our motive is to get some masking tape and raffia string (plastic ropes), but the masking tapes were too expensive and the raffia string was damn small. We gave up on TC and suggested to follow my VP advice. A shopping centre near her place sells handicrafts and stationery cheap. Continue walking about and bought some food to fill my Treasurer and myself. After that, we took the same ride home. Seperated ourselves when we reached the train station.

Today was not a long day. We spent some quality time together. I realise that i have spent alot of time with them. My clubmates are more than friends to me. Now they somewhat my closest friends i ever have. Other than the biker friends, they can be considered my second closest friends. Heck, i spent more time with the latter compared to the formal. But sometimes they neglect me, keep secrets from me and form outing among themselves that i will never know. But i understand. They do need their gal time too. Somethings i just don't fit in even im too used to female company. Sometimes i don't think that way. I look at the situation in only one way. But i always look things on the positive side. Even death have a positive side. When looking at these positive sides, it made things alot more acceptable and enjoyable.

Friends arn't forever...