Leave Another Day

Not been blogging recently... Due to the stress level im having and the activities im involved, im getting exhausted very fast. Today was the continuation of the FOP week. All of us club members are tired but we can see that we did enjoy the activity together. Hardwork and all will pay off. Only some things can be applied on that but im sure this is one of them. So today was just to let the Freshmen get familiar with the computer system in our school. So there is alot of obstacle here and there but we got through all in the end. I even have to lead lost sheep back to their classes. A tiring job, but somebody got to do it. After that, i had lunch with my VP, Treasurer and the upcoming club member. Had quite a good conversation and a satisfying lunch. Been 2 months not eating at Foodcourt 6. After that, we went back to MLT 12 and dismissed from then. Most of my clubmates went home or went out but i stayed on with my VP and another 2 more clubmates. Brought one of them to the Police Department, to report on a lost radio. We didnt went in so we waited outside. Since he took quite long, we went our way to get some chocolates and i went on to back some cash. Man, am i unlucky or what. I've been using the cash deposit machine for 2 years and this is the first time i get a jammed machine due to my notes. Are my money that rough to jam a machine? I had to make a report to the lady inside the bank and wait for my money to be deposited the next morning. Went back to meet up with my friends and we went to get some chocolates for the FOP. After that, we went to a coffee shop to get some R&R. Ordered some drinks and food to accompany us. Had a great conversation with one of the quietest member in the club. He did quite alot in the FO camp and was really not noticed. After that, we parted as the others had plans for the evening. I went to my one of my buddies place to retrieve a Harddisk (HDD). My club's HDD. It went bonkers or something. After that, i headed home.

Finally, we can put all our worries and handover the control to the next batch of clubmembers to inherit the club. I don't really have somebody in mind to like put in. Usually the previous post holders will propose someone and everyone will vote for it. I don't really have the power to veto any votes and propose somebody for the posts. What i can do is, think whether is the person they choose up for the post. Are they mentally and physically ready for all the work that is to be done. Are they able to handle the stress that comes with it. Im not in the position to say this much but i wonder... Did the previous batch, my seniors, thought of all this when they chose us? Did that thought ran through their minds when they were doing the voting? I, myself, is already thinking so much. I wonder what is on the minds of the post holders. Are they as worried as me? Maybe its the feeling of finally finding another 'home' to belong to. Long time ago, left a 'home' i spent almost 6 years there. Been finding another place to belong to. After really feeling like 'home', i realise its time to move out and move on again. I have a sense of belonging to the club and i don't feel like leaving. Maybe that is why i don't understand what my seniors told me when i met them. Never have feelings with the club, its like a relationship. It's filled with happiness and lots of other emotions when you are with them. But once you are about to leave, the sadness and grief starts to creep up on you.

Place called 'home'...

Another Busy Day

Woke up 9am sharp. Had breakfast and watched some TV. Missed local TV. Played some games on my PS2 and enjoyed the music on my PC. Planned out my day and set off during the early afternoon. Went to the arcade to splash out cash and get some serious entertainment. Its been awhile since i visited the place. Saw one guy playing a game and sat there like forever. I think he have spend so much money and time on that game till he memorise the whole gaming environment. I left the arcade and went on to get a haircut. Kinda hate my hair, not that it does not look good. But it grows back too fast. My friends have a haircut like 2 times a month, i do it once a month. And im like paying so much for each haircut. To maintain a short and neat hairstyle maybe that is the way to go. Ate lunch quite late, and proceeded to attend a meeting with the Singapore Computer Society (SCS) members. My clubmate joined in the discussion. Did quite alot of planning and discussion and went on for like very very long. Went our own ways soon when we ended the meeting.

Recognition in the society. Will anyone know about me, Koh Aik Keong, when im in my 20s or 30s? Will people talk about me when they have no topic to talk about? Will there be more people knowing me dan me knowing more people? That is what went through my mind when im travelling around today. Our Prime Minister, sure everyone knows him. But does he knows me? That is the most important part. Myabe not all people like recognition, some people like to do things without getting any recognition. They just like to help and be happy. Im sometimes the former and the latter. I like to do things so that people can recognise me and say that im the one that did this, im that famous guy that did that. Also, i like to do things that no one ever knows who did it and thank the nameless. I not sure why i feel like this... But getting too recognise is also a problem. Eg. A SG man won $250K in 'Who Wants to be A Millionaire' gameshow. 2 weeks later, some guy went to find him to loan him $50k to pay for his medical bills. More and more ran after him for money. So is that good or bad?

Recognition: Good? Bad?

I'm BACK!!

After 10 days on unblogging, i realise my blog have lost a lot of content. I'm not sure how to summarise the past few days but i just try. Went to New Zealand for a holiday trip with my relatives. Toured the towns and cities, they sure know how to live and use their excess land. Driving around the country, i have seen countless cows, sheeps and horses. Guess they are a country of westerners with a living style of the countryside. After ariving back to Singapore, i went back to school for my club's Freshmen Orientation Camp(FO). Helped around as much as possible, didn't knew what was happening so i just crashed through and put my thinking on my feet. Almost went into the point of exhaustion, but realise that if that happens the camp might not be complete. Really appreciated my seniors to come down to help or take a look around the camp. I still feel kind of unhappy that the Year1s took advantage of using people that are there. A long story and a sensitive issue. I really do hope my seniors forget about it as soon as possible. And lastly, i do hope my Year1s learn something out of this camp. They the organisers have been under alot of pressure and i do understand the feeling. I am in their shoes once. Planned for a 'club bonding' camp. Alot of hardwork, blood, sweat and tears(no tears actually...) is put in that camp. After the whole camp, the organisers realised most of their mistakes. I believe in 'Learning by Making Mistakes', it's a sure win effective way to learn life skills.

After so many days of not sleeping home, i actually missed my pillow like the last few times i went overseas for long. New Zealand was fun, but the living costs and the transportation costs are very high. Especially in the Capital city. I ate lunch in one of the towns and just see whether how long i can survive there. You do the calculation.
(Conversion -- SGD 1.15 = NZD 1):

1) Net use in the internet cafe is charged 10mins $2, 15mins $3, 30mins $4, 1hr $5, subsequent hour or less are charged $2.50. And the 1st 2 mins are free.

2)A plate of a burger, a small portion of salad and fries cost $9.50. Curry beef and rice cost the same amount and its not spicy, just curry powder, milk and beef to make the curry. Burger King meals are charged at $6-7 for a normal meal. But the good thing is free flow of drinks.

3) Parking in the Cpaital City, 1hr $4. In towns, 1hr $2.

Just see the exhorbitant prices there i'm kinda shocked. Maybe its just our currency not strong enough to go against the NZD.

Lastly, i want to emphasise the bond i have with my clubmates. After a year of planning, organinsing and executing events, i have a bond with them. I really feel like a family when im with them. Even though we have our ups and downs, we went through it. I can feel the bond with them and i can see that we care for each other. I get to be called a molester, a pervert, a sex maniac and a whole lot more. The names don' hurt me, but the i feel that we got closer when they did that. Just today, i saw the most tounching scene in my life i have dedicated to the club. My clubmates, my best girl-friends, they on the spot dropped a tear or two infront of me. Im like... 'Arghz!!! 1 girl and im crazy, 3 girls together!!' Im a sucker and a loser when girls cry, just cannot take it when a gal cry. The highest ranked weapon ever wielded since the creation of the 2nd human being. I go weak when i see this...

Lastly, i want to end this long summary by saying thank you to the 5 beautiful ladies that gave me laughter, sadness, anger, watever feelings that is noted in the dictionary. Had an amazing time with them. Never a dull momment. If you ladies are reading this. I would like to say thank you for all the help, care and concern you have given me. I will treasure the times with had and i will always remember the 5 gals and a (perverted) guy.

Thank you all...

Finally!!

Its been 2 days and 3 nights since i last blogged. Something happened to the blogger server machine. So the history on that few days will not be recorded here. TO sum it up, i did 3 main things:

1) settle whatever important stuff on hand
2) met up friends to catch up on old times and drink like crazy
3) preparations for my trip

So nothing much happened anyway. Other than im afraid that my passport cannot pass, my sis and her friend are worried that i might not come back after my trip, my club's FO trial run and im missing the action and finally my VP getting sick. Praying all the while for her being well. So currently now im doing the final preparations. Waiting for time to tick away slowly before my flight. Another trip, another adventure...

I really wished i could go overseas every holiday season. But usually when i go, i have this feeling that i won't be back to see all my friends again. Just difficult to describe the feeling but its something that has haunted me since my secondary school days. I still cannot figure out why im so afraid when im an adventurous and risk-taking idiot. Im used to surviving alone, i wonder why am i so afraid of that. Maybe that is my deepest fear. Fear of the disability of getting home. If that ever happens... Maybe i have to learn how to survive at the place.

Miss my friends...

Singapore Fake Idol

Another normal day like any other holiday. All it starts with is boring. Had nothing much to do in the morning. Used the com to search some songs to download. Spend the whole morning downloading stuff. Even downloaded a movie, Shrek 2. After that, i went to buy lunch. Had prata again. Watch TV while eating. Nothing much is on free TV, so had to tune in to cable. MTV channel is the most entertaining during noon time. Lots of non-stop hits. Went back to room soon after and watched the movie i downloaded earlier. Shrek 2 ended in 1.5hrs time. Went swimming as there was nothing much to do. Bathed and watched The Simpsons again. One of my favourite cartoons. After that, i changed and went to Clementi to enjoy a session of Karaoke. Ate and sang and enjoyed myself. Made some new friends there, even sent one of them home!! Haha... Actually she is living nearby and we shared the cab fare. Went home straight after her place.

During the weekends, SG Idol registration opened. There are actually people queuing up before the day to submit their registration. Are we Singaporeans really that naive? Do we really think we have what it takes to be a star? I admit that is one way to gain your ten seconds of fame, but queueing up overnight for registration? I mean just look at some of our local singers. Ah Du is a construction worker, Sun Yanzi is a normal girl that graduate from our local university. Tanya Chua used to sing at pubs. They are now international stars. Neither needed any queuing up to be talent-spotted. Okie, maybe your singing is good. But that does not mean you will enter the real judges audition. Im sure out of these few hundreds, there will be bound to have some very good ones and some... Well, William Hung must have influenced them badly.

Waiting to fly...

A Badminton Game

Nothing much happen today too, other than buying stuff for my club and playing badminton afterwards. Yah, these are the two major things that happened today. Morning woke up to the sound of construction work. Those machinery sure knows how to make a ruckus. Ate breakfast soon after and packed my bag for the game later. On my way to school, i went to the nearby hardware shop to get some tools and a canvas sheet. The auntie was really nice. She gave me a discount on everything that was bought there. So after the shopping, went straight to school. Met the Treasurer and Welfare Officer there, they were doing some admin stuff. I had to proceed to the SALC (a place for free access of computer) to send a final edited version of my FYP. After that, i joined the rest for lunch. Since going to have a game later, i decided to have a energy enriched banana. I wonder what is so funny eating a banana... But im used to the mysteries of life. Had a game of badminton with my clubmates. Played really hard and sweated. halfway through the game, my skinny sista came over to find us. She asked us whether she and some friends could use the our place for some souvenir thingie. Borrowed the keys from my Treasurer and she used the place till we were back. Rested for awhile and talked about stuff for the FO (Freshmen Orientation) camp. Went home after the game. Stop by the same hardware shop to purchase some nuts and bolts and a spanner. Preparing to repair that trolley in club. Handing over the club have to keep it in tip-top shape, that is the least i can do.

I liked and dislike holidays. Liked, being free and easy. No stress and no pressure of school work. Dislike, being too free and easy. Cash strapped as entertainment outside in the city is not cheap. But holidays don't come easy. They are considered hard-earned. After months of slogging in school, studying and planning for events. I guess its the government way of giving us a break. Lets face it, during our secondary school, we are sent to school so much earlier than the normal workers going to work. Even we go home earlier than normal workers, we have our high speed, high paced life with extremely stressful living to survive. Wonder how did i ever survived that. Anyways, im looking forward to my trip to New Zealand. Hope after going there, everything will be back to normal.

Holidays are nice...

Thinking of thoughts

Nothing much happend today. Whole day was spent at home, almost the whole day. Morning woke up and had breakfast. Soon after, chatted with my VP. We talked awhile before she left me just like that. Kinda stunned and stumped. So i continued my day. Played some games, catch on some of the old games that i used to love and devote myself. Near the evening, i went for a swim. Water was not cold, it was kinda warm... Maybe the air caused the water to be warm. Hate swimming in warm water. Bathed and came back in time to catch another episode of The Simpsons. My favourite character: Homer Simpson. Looking how stupid and fat he is, why does he always have such good luck. Go check out the Simpsons family. A queer family that usually come out good. After that was more games and playing. I played until i discovered some bugs. Guess im too devoted to the game. After that, i chatted with my frens and while the night away.

Usually when i have nothing much to do, i will keep myself in deep thoughts. I will think of alot of things. My future, my dreams, my friends, my close friends, etc. Alot of things goes through my mind and gets processed. If i ever got the chance to blog all that goes through my head. I think i will fill up the server soon. Haha... Okie, that is too much. But i like thinking. Silently my mind will conjure alot of imagination and fantasy that will only live in there. Hopes and dreams will visualise only if i strife for them. Past memories and experiences make me wonder why i never experienced them earlier to prevent such a mistake. Thinking why friends react such a way during such situations, learning from their correct moves and mistakes. Sometimes its tiring to think so much. I respected once of my Chinese Language teacher (the only one i respect anyway...) when i was in secondary school. He told me, if you think more than you do, you will achieve great things.

Thinking is tiring...

Vesak Day Celebration

Another boring public holiday. Day where life goes on without any surprises or motives. Started by having breakfast at the West Coast Park (WCP) Macdonald's. The place was spacious and very comfortable. I always liked WCP, for its serenity and calmness. Usually the crowd will gather during the weekends and public holidays. So today is no different either. Had to queue up long for food, and the search for a place is bloody difficult. Anyway, breakfast was kinda like a mad rush. Not really enjoyable. Nearing the early afternoon, my parents and i seperated. My dad complained of neck strain and stiff shoulders. So he went for a massage. Ask for my comments on which shop is better... Im like com'on, do i look like visit such parlour? So i followed my mum to the grocery store. We bought our monthly neccessities. Yes, monthly. Each time we go there, we will fill the trolley to the brim. Once we even filled up two trollies. So we carried the stuff back home by the mid-afternoon. Reach home, unpacked all the food and stuff. I continued the day by sitting infront of my monitor. Talked with my VP the whole afternoon till she logged off to rest her eyes. Keep posting her fun facts that either made her laugh or made her disgusted and scolding me crazy. But its facts, as if what i told her are lies. During the conversation, we even shared links on what designs for our blog. But in the end, i realise i rather stick with the old one. Can't even solve my own problem of putting links on the blog. Played games till my uncle came over. He brought me the 3 episodes of LOTR. I guess soon im gonna have a marathon of LOTR. Anybody want to join me??

Im still wondering why holidays are still so boring. Only holidays such as Chinese New Year, Christmas, New Year's Day & public holidays that falls on a Sunday. Why the last one is so special? As the Singapore Government had set in donkey years time, if a holiday falls on a Sunday the following monday will be a holiday too. Thats why i like such holidays. But TV is getting more and more cheapo. The news have just finished announcing who won the Ms. Universe and they are showing the pageant. Isn't that killing thier viewership?? Anyway, Ms. USA is a real blonde, dumb looking blonde. Ms. Aussie is B-E-A-U-tiful!! I would like to get 'down' and 'under' with her. Haha... But i guess, its just the way how cable TV earns thier money. If we the younger generation, the generation with the most spending power, cannot be attracted to TV. I wonder where will the advertisers go after? Retirement folks that got their CPF and have nothing to spend? Hmm... I wonder...

Faithless in TV...

Brand New Day

Have quite a good time today. Well... Not much enjoyable as its suppose to... Woke up early to meet my frens in school. Had to plan for an event. Ate before leaving school. Then, i left my friends to join another gang. They were meeting for a movie session. The people is not really the group i hang out with, therefore my main motive is just to catch the movie. Met them a little late as i left school late. Met them soon after... But the situation is that im more like a porter, as one of them after the movie have to rush off for camp. Carried her bag and walked towards the cinema. In the end, even my most dependable friend is taken away from me. I had to bear the loneliness. We did talk later after the movie, but it is because the other ladies are in the toilet. But i appreciate it much. They suggested to go Fish & Co. for dinner, but i just cannot afford. My money are trapped with my Treasurer. I therefore had to leave them. But telling them that i cannot afford and such, and also my reason to leave is that the ambiance is not right. Good food must be enjoyed with great friends. Wrong combination as my VP said it... So i left early and went home to drink my Grandma's soup.

Keeping one's word. I realise that what you say may not actually be what you do. You can say one thing, but do the other. My dad says us guys must be a man of our words. What we say, we must be able to do. Even if you are not able to fully do it, at least try and reach the goal. I dislike people that say one thing but does the other. Its really no point when there is no trust in your words. Rather that you eat back the words than just saying it out for the sake of it. Action speaks louder than words. I can admit that i dun use words to express myself well, but my action are my true self. If i give a girl, a bouquet of flowers. Im really intrested in that girl. That is my true self. I realise i studied so much yet my use of words can never be put to good use.

Please Forgive me...

Heartland Shopping

Had to drag myself off bed to prepare for the day ahead. Wash up and changed into outdoor clothing. Packed my bag for a shopping trip and a badminton game. In the end... We just went for a shopping trip. 1st stop, the girls went for lunch. Paid for their drinks. Maybe they will repay me later with better stuff?? I think im dreaming. After that we start our shopping. Went to the pharmacy to buy first aid items. Had a budget to follow, kinda tight so we had to really make sure our money are spent fully. Next, we went over to the neighbourhood bookstore to get some shuttlecocks, white paper and some colouring pens. After that, the club needed a new fan. The big kind with a big propella that really gives alot of blowing power. So we went to get one for the club. Carrying such heavy stuff, we went back to the club to unload the stuff. After that, we went over to Turf City. The gals, VP, Logistics Head & Treasurer, never went to Turf City before. Since my previous job was there, i brought them over to have a look around. The starting wasn't really nice as they had to wait for the bus. 30mins interval, my VP began to feel bored. Written all over her face. We board the bus as soon as it arrives and reach TC by the late afternoon. Walked about and took a look around. Since our motive is to get some masking tape and raffia string (plastic ropes), but the masking tapes were too expensive and the raffia string was damn small. We gave up on TC and suggested to follow my VP advice. A shopping centre near her place sells handicrafts and stationery cheap. Continue walking about and bought some food to fill my Treasurer and myself. After that, we took the same ride home. Seperated ourselves when we reached the train station.

Today was not a long day. We spent some quality time together. I realise that i have spent alot of time with them. My clubmates are more than friends to me. Now they somewhat my closest friends i ever have. Other than the biker friends, they can be considered my second closest friends. Heck, i spent more time with the latter compared to the formal. But sometimes they neglect me, keep secrets from me and form outing among themselves that i will never know. But i understand. They do need their gal time too. Somethings i just don't fit in even im too used to female company. Sometimes i don't think that way. I look at the situation in only one way. But i always look things on the positive side. Even death have a positive side. When looking at these positive sides, it made things alot more acceptable and enjoyable.

Friends arn't forever...

Notes 2 Life

Just want to add this entry as the past 2-3 days i did not blog. Nothing much happen. Just went for a date on Thurs and a club outing on Friday evening. We went for steamboat. After that was a bowling tournament with them. Not all of them of course. Went home early next morning... Real early...

Thats about it... What about the weekends you say... Well... If you are a newbie reader, than maybe you shud know something. I don't blog on weekends. Somewhat like a worker, 5days a week is all i do. Something to know about it too... I blog at the last event of the day. The momment before i sleep and after i brushes my teeth. So the dates might be a little screwed up. But heck it, i don't care. What matters most is the entry and the content right?

Im Loving IT...

Home Sweet Home

Today is a boring day but a savings day for me. I spent the whole day at home. Nothing much happens except the plot of land adjacent to my home is finally starting to have some construction. The weather was hot, then cooling, then hot again. Stayed indoors whole day. Ate and played the whole day. Time passed really fast eh... Dinner was eaten at home as Grandma was at home cooking some of my favourite dishes.

I realised how mess this house was today. Especially my room, i have not packed my room since the start of this millennium. My robots are having dust more than 10cm thick! Maybe i should take some time to clean all this up. Cleanning up... Ya, like i'll do it...

Slacking like hell...

Cest La Vie...

Woke up late as i slept late. Sleep on the same day as i wake up on the same day. Confusing but true. Ate something as i watched TV. Went for a bath as the weather is very hot. Prepared for outing as there is a briefing on a camp coming this June. Left home in the early afternoon. Reached school soon after. Went into my club room and its too late. The briefing is done. Everything is finished. Practically i just went there to pay the participant fee. I left with my clubmates(Main Comm). Went to our school bakery to get some snacks. The girls had some quarrel and i didn't knew what was happening. I think it must be trival matters. They were dressed casually. So i knew something was not right. My intuition was right. They went for a chalet without me... Either way, the organisers of the chalet either forgot about me or they did not want me to go. Since im not invited, might as well play along with their plot. Don't wish to crash bash a happy place eh... They waited for a person to pick them up. I know that person. So i left them to avoid rumours. Alone, i ate my lunch at Clementi. After lunch, i went back home. Continued my work on the proposal. Had to finish it ASAP. Watched some TV while snacking. Afterwards, i retreated to my room. Continue where i have left off in the fantasy world of a book.

Im not sure whether the words for my title is spelled correctly. It means thats life in french. In life, there is alot of surprises. That is why life is so exciting. Always so challenging. Never a dull momment. Am i talking in a way to comfort myself? Heck, sometimes these surprises are just too much for me. I may have a heart attack if there are too much. I can handle certain surprises, but some are too much for me to handle alone. I need to talk to somebody about this. Usually i would find a friend. But which one? 'You have so many friends. So which one is really one that you can trust and find whenever you need help?' This is what my 2nd ex told me when we are together. Hope she is fine now. I never thought of that situation before. Having a really good friend. I just concentrated on having as much friends as possible. I realised my mistake. A mistake that will affect my entire life from then on. I hate it if i treat a friend like a buddy, telling him/her everything and in the end, he/she is not the one. If only i can find one friend i can call buddy...

Mystery of Life...

Free & Easy

Morning had a slight shower. Hoping it would last long so i can sleep through the morning. In the end, the rain only lasted around 15mins. What a letdown... Drag myself out of bed and went to do my daily routine. Prepared for later outing. Wore a shirt that i wore only twice. Went out in late morning to school to retrieve a file. Got hold of it, and went on to continue my day. Met my sister and her childhood friend (piggy). Before meeting them, i ate at Bugis foodcourt. The lady overcharged me and the food sucks. I did not finish it. Had to made do with some of it and a can of drink. Met up soon after, we talked and catch up on things. They went for their attachment, a kind of test that puts the student on the actual line of work. Of course they have to be paid... Else how real can it be? Both of them were either complaining on how hard their work is or telling me what other odd job they are told to do. I just listened in and told them my comments. Piggy had to leave early as she had a birthday celebration with her brother. Her bro's birthday is today. We went across the road to get some apple strudel. She left early for home. It only leaves me and sis alone. We walked our way to another MRT station. Talked alot more as the last time we got together was really a long time ago. Just talk and walk. Maybe its just that we are just too compatible as brother and sister. She dropped off earlier than me on the train. Continued my journey home.

How far would i go for a friend? A simple question that can have infinite answers. It had to depend. If that friend is just an aquitance, that most probably i won't do much for him. The furthest i would do anything for a friend would definitely be my VP. We have so much in common together. That would be a lie if i told it infront of her. But i don't mind losing an arm for her. Eh... That is just too much. Maybe a lie or two would be the most. Why would i do so much for her?? Well, we are good friends. I know her inside out. Literally not physically, think the former not the latter. Another to add on the list would be my sister and brother. Both so close to me therefore i will do my best to help them. I don't mind donating my kidney to my brother or cutting up half of my liver for my sis. They are the people that makes my life entertained.

Far Further Furthest...

You Drive me Car-azy

I survived!! Finally... It all happened this morning. Went to the driving school to attend a practice session before i went for my Eval test. It was grueling but it pays off. I took the practice papers over and over again. I think i did each paper at least 3 times. Haha... Rested for 15mins before i went for the Eval. Went in, click click... Since both practice and Eval are PC based, it was rather fast. I finished my Eval in 15mins. Scored 80/80!! FULL MARKS!! So now i can apply for the test. But that will only take place on 8th june. A very long way from now. For celebration, i went over to Jurong Point for lunch. Bought tickets for evening movie. Ate a big plate of Chicken Chop with black pepper sauce. Delicious... Lingered around the shopping centre till the next lesson. Really tired... Almost fell asleep in the classroom. But thanks to the Instructor, he made the class lively and that helped in waking me up. After the lesson, i met up with my brother and we went for a movie. Rent a book before the movie. After the movie, we went for dinner. After dinner, we went to a store where my brother tried his luck on some miniature figurines. Not bad, he got what he wanted. We went home via bus soon after.

Really tired. Don't know what to blog for thoughts today. I think my mind's a blank now. Maybe after the weekends, i may have something new again.

Eyes wide shut...

Driving My Life

Had lessons at the driving school today. Went early to do some practice for a pre-exam. The school rules goes this way, you must pass an evaluation test before going for the real exam. This is a good way, but i find it rather troublesome. Having to pass 2 exams to get a Provisional Driving License (PDL). With that PDL, i am legally able to drive a car. Spent the whole day there. Had lunch at a nearby Macdonald's. Went back to the school to attend the lesson. Part of the whole course requires us to attend 5 lessons. 2 Basic Theory and 3 Advanced Theory lessons. I have completed the 2 basic and 1 advanced. Going for the final 2 lessons soon. After that, i met up with my Brother to browse around in Clementi. Went to bank in some money afterwards and realised i have only 2 digits before the decimal. Feel the pinch getting harder and harder...

I dedicate this holidays specifically for learning how to drive a car. I want to drive a car legally before the end of my 1st month of school. Hope everything goes smoothly for me. But seriously, if i were to really drive a car. The first person i wan to pickup is my parents. Time i return the favour of them driving me around. After that, i want to bring my sis to eat at nightspots around my area. She have been craving for the prata near my home. After that, im going to bring my friends around in a car. I kinda pormised my VP i drove her around. At least she knew a friend that drives so that she can stay up late and still be able to reach home. I want to drive so i can use the car when i go out at night. Sometimes a car would do alot of convenience to me. No waiting for busses, no squeezing in the MRT, i get to listen to my favourite radio station or plug in my discs for entertainment. At least now i can choose where to go, without wasting time at all.

Praying to pass...

A Long Day

Another FYP meeting was held today as its the last day to finalised the whole proposal. We came down to school, met up and discussed the final details of the project. Had quite alot of thinking to do, but finally finished up the whole proposal. Submitted the proposal soon after. Hurried my way back to the clubroom to join another meeting. The whole committee was there, well, almost. The Welfare Officer is not around. I don't mind, she have worked so hard for the ADD. Time for her to take some R&R. After the meeting, i waited for the rest to finish up the proposal for the Mass Orientation Programme (MOP). After that, we went to Tanglin Mall. My VP and Logistic Head each bought a pair of knitting equipments. They suddenly got intrest in knitting. After that, we walked all the way to Takashimaya. We had our lunch over there. The library was where we headed next. They borrowed a book on knitting and we headed home afterwards. The train had some delay due to technical fault. My Secretary and I waited like 15mins for a train home. Packed like sardines, the ride back home was an uncomfortable one. I left early as my stop was before hers. After that, i took a bus and headed straight for home.

I suddenly feel the gals surrounding me suddenly become enlightened and went really lady like. My Treasurer, also my classmate, also my FYP group mate, went in search for skirts and exposing garments. When i mean exposing, i mean real girl type. Usually she wears long pants and t-shirt. Very seldom does she wear a skirt or a spaghetti top. Things are really changing here. My VP also start to change. She started by learning how to bake stuff, now she wants to go into knitting. The Logistic Head is alright for doing such stuff as she is the kind that portray a femenine person. But its really getting more and more obvious. I guess... When girls go through a certain stage, they began to evolve. I think i shud not use the word 'evolve'. As if my VP is going to become a monster or such. Maybe its another factor, a factor that changes a person's thinking. I guess im gonna see a more feminine side of my friends.

I am evolving...

Work work...

Today was one of the days that I hope it never would have taken place during my holidays. Having to help out at my father's place. A place of boredom, place of sadness and most probably... A place of suffering. Well... Not all is true, some of them are over exaggerated. The whole day was spent there. Don't want to write it here. Brings up bad memories... Went home with Mom & Dad at night. Real late.

Fate and destiny. What are those things? Those things, those two words that does not exist in my vocabulary. Words that i will never use except telling people that i dun believe in them. Blaming things that happen on fate and sweetening the situation by saying it is destiny is not my way. I belive in the cause and effect. If you don't study, you will fail. If you don't eat, you will feel hungry. If you don't work, you will have no money. It is that simple, what you do will definitely affect your future. It is not fate or destiny that 2 person are not meant to be together. It is the lack of trust and time that cause both person not being together.

F&D are lies...

Freedom

The morning was really sunny and clear. I went for my FYP (Final Year Project) meeting and we settled on a project title and theme. We will be doing a Friendster kind of project except its more virtual. Know more about it when the time comes. Had lunch with them and continued with the meeting. After the meet, i went out with 3 of my groupmates. Didn't knew where to wander, so we went to Plaza Singapura to window shop. Since my sis (younger) is on attachment there. She is... ahem... Selling popcorn and drinks at the counter. Bought a drink and continued our wandering. Wandered around the area then left the girls to meet her. I met her at the station. Then we went over to a building to send flyers and record the address at the same time. After that, we walked our way to the Singapore River and we chatted there. We walked along the river and finally to i sent her to a place where her father picked her up. I went home alone soon after.

Being decent. Does that mean not being cheeky infront of girls? Or maybe not be touchy in a relationship. Decent can mean alot of thing in this human world. Decent guys does not exist in this world, proclaims my sister. All guys think of is sex even before he thinks of getting her to be his gal. I totally disagree with her. There are decent guys around. I mean just take a look at how some girls are wearing. They are showing more skin in the city area than those at the beach!! How can a guy not drool or even fantasize when he sees this? I can tell u, its natural. If a guy does not do that, either he is gay or he decides to go for a sex transplant.

I am decent... ;)

Final Preparation

One more day... One more day till the ADD. Went to school early to meet with a supplier of prizes that we bought from him. Talked alittle and he passed us all the receipts as that is the most important thing. Met back at our clubroom, discussed awhile what is happening. Continued the day by going for a haircut. Damn stylist... Took on so many customers... Had the longest haircut in my life, currently that is. Had to collect my blazer and pants at Raffles Place at 6pm. Ended the haircut at 4pm, so i bought a movie ticket to watch and brought in my lunch. The movie lasted 1hr 15mins. Not very good and not very bad eiter. Entire cinema was populated by 5 viewers including me. Movie ended, therefore its time to collect my stuff. Upon reaching the place, the person gave me my package and i tried it out. Very fitting, just as i wanted. Took the stuff and travelled home.

Totally prepared for the event tomorrow. Don't have much brainpower to think anyway.

Being fully prepared...