Yawnzzz...

Yeah... Today sure is boring... Chose the most boring elective that the school provided. Regrets? Definitely. All wednesdays will be boring for this semester. Finish the day with alot of things on hand to do. Lessons were done and over with. After that i had a compulsory briefing for my ITP (Internship Training Program). After that, i had to attend this student dialogue session where they question me and another person on why do we sign up to SP and not other Polys. Big issue, small and simple answer... Its near my home!! In the end, the whole room that consists of third year students, was only me and her. Funny thing was... They chose to ask us third year students where i have graudated from my secondary school two and a half years ago. Damn funny how SP works... Finished the dialouge session and i went over to the stationery shop to get my ammunition, i mean my pens as i'm running out of it. But the shop keeper said the manufacturer has no stock. Man, this sucks. So i have to depend on other pens again. Maybe one day i may get to use those sort of pens again. Strolled back home and got some R&R.

Less than 10 weeks more before we submit our FYP project. The stress level is rising every second. Even as im going to sleep, my mind is thinking of how to solve such problems. And when i got one, i quickly jot it down on a book. I would forgo sleep and rest for that idea to be written down and rather lose it and spend time thinking again. Sometimes i think too much and later i could not go to sleep. Not a very good way to pass my nights but this is how i operate when in pressure. Some of my friends will know that i don't show the stress out. My face always conceal what im thinking and what im suffering. A good thing or a bad thing... That is for you to find out and for me to know.

Hit by stress...

Sir!! Incoming Virus at 2 O'Clock!!

Man... Today was another day my com was attacked by viruses. Shouldn't have downloaded any artistic shows... Oopss... Spent the morning at home. A very bad diarrhea. Must be yesternite dinner or supper. Either way, it was unclean or my hands were unclean. Rested at home since i could not move my legs well. But my fingers were still alrite, so i excercised them by playing games on my PS2. Its been awhile since i spent some precious time with it. After some playing, i sat down, again, on my chair and my table. Started to think of ways to do my project. Thinking of ways to solve problems. Even without the screen and the codes, im able to visualise the problem and think of ways to solve it. Well... A 'Code Blueprint' is what i usually called it. When my ass got a little bit better, i went to school to join my teammates to continue our project. Improved on my work, but still a long way to go. Took some time off to have lunch. After that, it was all work and no play. Not even logging into e-Messenger. Work work... All the way till 6.45pm. Went home soon after.

My computer was under virus attack again. This time, my defence did not detect it as the old one crippled it and allow it to bypass my firewall!! Man, this infuriates me. In the end, i had to scan my computer countless times. Search for the virus and delete manually. I even had to restore my system. Did not like what i did. Its a little like operation to my computer. Hate doing that. Almost gave up and wanted to reformat my computer. That will be the worse of the worse to happen. Maybe one day i will do a total backup of my computer to another HDD. That way, my computer is save and my time can be spent on other things.

Damn you viruses...

Vigilante Driver

Simple meaning of the title says it all. Man, this is my first time driving at 70kph!! Haha... Usual morning stuff. No more construction noises. Better sleep. Went to school to start my project work. But realised that there were some technical problems. What a way to start a day!! So i rested and restarted my mood to do work. After some simple use of the computer, my teammates and i went for our breakfast. A long breakfast. We ate like as if nothing is important. Maybe the stress level is not there yet. After breakfast, we stroll our way back to the lab. What a lazy morning it is. Did some coding but not much... Usual monday blues. After that, i went for my final driving lesson of the semester. Finally some sharp turns. Not very good at it yet. Still got some practising to do. But the best part is... I drove outside at 70kph. Highest speed record till date!! Haha... After the driving lesson, i took a slow and winding bus trip back home. A very slow and winding road. But at least i got home in one transportation. Sat infront of my TV and watched some of the Olympics 2004. Track and Field games. Ate lunch late so i try not to eat that much. Watch the Simpsons later and after it ended, i went back to my com. ARGHZ!!! My com is sick!! Took like 3-4hrs to repair it. Finally i got rid of the virus. Im afraid that maybe other viruses will attack soon. Hope it is just the end of the virus attack.

Today while walking to the toilet, i overheard 2 guys talking about our national peddlar, Li Jiawei. Even though she did not win a medal for Singapore, but being 4th of the world is an achievement for her. She did all she could and we should be proud of her. The guys were talking how useless she were to get to the bronze finals and not winning anything back. They were saying how useless she is. Com'on she is ranked fourth in the Olympics. What more could you ask for? Maybe in the SEA games, she will emerge as the Gold Medalist. Im sure she can do it. Have hopes in her. She will be Numero Uno one day. Mark my words, those 2 idiots, she will win a gold medal one day.

Believe in her...

Robots of the world... UNITE!!

The construction site management kept their promise. No 0900hrs, no start work. So i had a quite a good wake up mood. Went to the usual busstop to take my bus to school. Something happened that pissed me off really. Almost lost my cool... I was waiting at the busstop when the bus came. Than the worse of the worse happened... The bloody bus driver just drove off. He stared at me when i stood at the edge of the busstop. At the momment, i almost lost my cool and pointed something at the bus. But i realise that this is Singapore, civilised people will deal with this civilly... Muahahaha... Let me see... Bus number plate, check. Bus number, check. Bus arrival time, check. Hmm... What can i do with all of this? Don't need to say much. In the end, i was late for my lesson and im being marked late. Not worth it... After lessons, i ate lunch with a clubmate. She is now the Welfare Officer. We had lunch and chatted together. Maybe in the future, we will be eating lunch on every thursday. Hope my friends that see me with HER will get MISUNDERSTOOD. Thank you my friends... After lunch, i went back to my computer lab to continue my project. When i walked in, i was shocked!! Where the hell are my teammates? I called one, no pick up. I called another, no pick up also. In the end, i got fed up and sat there and did my own stuff. A few minutes later, one of them called me and apologise. Im not a person that keep grudges long so i accepted his apology and waited for their arrival. Upon arriving, they apologise again and we started our work. No breaks were taken today. No 'makan' breaks that is... Other short breaks were given to them. Its an incentive for them for being so hardworking and really putting effort to complete the project. Around evening time, it was a long and tiring day for them. I can see that their minds were exhausted so i declared end of day for them. I stayed on for a couple more minutes to complete my part of the work. Completed like 50% of the assigned worked. By end of tmr, i shall complete everything. I knock off soon after i closed all the programs that i opened.

Today while having a short break. I decided to browse around for any new robots that i like. Than this monstrosity caught my eye. A huge humanoid robot that carried 2 laser sabres at the back, hung 3 long swords at the each side, attached to left arm are shurikens and flying daggers, to his right is a laser cannon and held in each hand are guns that can blow a new holes for his enemies. I looked at the robot design and im like in awe. But truthfully, how can a robot carry this much stuff?? Just look at the armoury this guy is holding? I wonder how fast can he move? But just looking at the weapons he is holding is a miricle that such a machine can carry that much. But the that thing cost $200 plus... I sure like it, but i think it is too expensive and too unreasonable. I got a few robots currently now sitting and standing in my room. Some people say that im still a child, playing with all this toys. But what i see them are displays. Dreams and visions of the future. One day, maybe one day we can have gigantic robots walking on earth. Not for war but for other purposes like construction, fire fighting and even disaster assistance. But before we enter that age, that era... I shall marvel at the concept designs that are found everywhere and enjoy the art pieces that populate my room.

Human + robot = ???

Boring Boring Boring Day

Today was not a very intresting day. Nothing intresting happened. All was boring and it was one of the boring-est day this week. Woke up with only a few hours of sleep. Very tired but still had to go school for lesson. Frist lesson was boring. Teaches us something that we have learnt during our 1st year. Boring is one big word to describe. After that, i went for other lesons. All were lessons... Some were okie, some were dead boring. After lessons... I went for my lunch. Bored of eating in school. FOr the past 6 weeks... I have been eating breakfast and lunch at school. Bored of it totally... After lunch, i left for home. Did not have much to do either... Catch my favourite Simpsons show and went for a shut eye later.

Same old boring day...

Today was no different form any other day. I spent it in school and nothing much happens as i did the usual, FYP and more FYP. One thing that differs from other days is i wrote another love letter. Written it in class and had it read to the entire class. Was not a very good one, but i expressed my feelings in words. Maybe my words are too difficult to understand. Maybe one day i may write a very good one and give it to the girl im in love with. When i declared its time to knock-off from school and go back to our normal lives, i realised i needed some stationery. So i hopped on a bus and went to the nearest Stationery shop. Must be some luck... I did not find my pens neither did i find my special erasers. But i would not give up, so i took another bus and went to another stationery shop. While on the bus, i met up with a friend. He was on his way to giving tuition at a nearby condominium. We chatted and talked about our diffculties and our fate. I alighted earlier than him. So i continued my hunt for stationery. Alas... I could not find my objective and i ended buying another kind of eraser to reload my erazer (there is a difference!!). Before leaving the building, i went to rent a movie as it has been some time i have seen a good movie. Went in grabbed one and left quickly. Title of the DVD; Big Fish. Yeah, i've seen it before, but its still a great movie. It is one movie that will accompany me through my life and i will remember it. One thing i will always carry with me after watching is that life is as beautiful as each person sees it. No two person sees a thing the same and will articulate totally the same. Some may belt out facts, boring and true. But some, some will weave stories and add magic to them to make them intresting. Whatever the ending is, the main message is get acrossed to the targeted audience.

Fact or Fiction...

Exchange a few days??

Who would like to exchange a few days with me? Would give a million bucks to exchange a few days of R&R... Woke up feeling tired. The mind is willing but the flesh is weak. So i dragged my tired body to the bathroom to wash up. Set off soon after. Went school in a cheery mood. Started work soon after. Had breakfast later and continued to do work. Halfway, i left my group to do another project. Man, another boring project. So we slog it out and quicly cleared it. Went back to my group to continue my work. Had a very frustrating time. Could not pass the hurdle i met. Keep staying at the same point. Didn't know what to do. So i had to shut the com down and went home to rest my brain.

I think a few days of rest would perk me up. Im like always feeling so tired and lethargic. Not only that, i have more and more work piled up on me as each passing day. I can't seem to clear them as i move on. Maybe that is the way or that is the usual lifestyle of a typical Year3. Before you graduate, they force you with all kinds of things and make sure you die of suffocation. After that, they pump you with alot of information and stuff before letting you leave the institution offically. I mean... Is this how our poly grad must go through? It is like a tradition. Every poly student must pass it to be considered a graduate from poly. But one thing you will notice is that we are trained to be able to handle stress better than other people. We are being trained to get used to the outside world and understand the ups and downs of a office worker. It is here where we learn to do what we will be doing for the rest of our lives. Some of us may not agree with what i said, but no matter how you argue...We are trained to fit into the working world. This is our advantage over other people. Maybe one day i will reflect on this gruesome days and laugh at those 'O' level graudates for choosing poly as their higher learning.

Wanting to switch...

Phase II commence...

Team Member: Sir, we have completed and achieved good results for our phase I of the mission. What shall we do next, sir?

Team Leader (That's me!!): Well... Looking at how our objectives are met in our phase I, i believe we are able to start phase II. All hands on deck! We shall begin phase II now. Set a course to finish all the coding and designing. Full speed ahead. Let's finish before expected time.

Team Members: Aye Aye Sir!!

Nay... Nothing of such happened. Dun think it will happen ever. Haha... Wished it was that exciting. But i have started our 2nd phase of my FYP. It is time for nightmares to begin. Today i had 3 major events. Morning, noon and night. During the morning, i met up with my teammates and we continued our phase II. It is a looooooonnnng time since i touched programming. Needed sometime to get use to the pressure and stress. Especially the shortcuts and the rules of the language. Had to leave school as i had a driving lesson in the afternoon. Went there to drive round and round and left the school to the outside world. Boy, it was fun driving outside. But very dangerous. Good thing the instructor had a brake pad, else i do not know what castatrophic accidents will happen. After the end of the lesson, i headed back to school. Wanted to find my teammates but they could not be found. Alas, i went on and headed for club. Before going there, i went elsewhere to find a lady. This lady is very powerful, she is the Liason Officer for Student Clubs. Short, she is the Clubs' sub head. Wanted to ask her if im able to get CCA points for helpers and orgainsers of my event. But she wasn't there. Kinda dissapointed but still alright. Sat in the club and relaxed my mind of the stress and pressure. After that, i went to meet my friends at a train station. Boy... I waited and waited and waited. I waited for 90mins for 2 gals that i dun have any intrest in. For those that know me, they will know that i will wait till end of time if i arranged a date with a gal. But since these 2 gals are kinda close with me... I shall forgive them this time. Waited from daylight till night... So we went to my senior's 21st birthday party. Had some fun but wasn't as good as expected. Still think i have some gap with them. Don't want to elaborate more, too much is bad for my health.

Nothing much to say as it is very early (Look at the entry time). Maybe i will talk more on monday. When im well rested and fully charged.

Mission to success...

Presentation Cleared

A big load have taken off my shoulders. Now feeling rather light and stressless, but it won't be long... Woke up earlier than usual as i could not sleep. Don't know why, maybe too nervous and anxious. Daily routine and stuff... Wore formal clothing again... Like going to Raffles Place to work. Arrived early for lesson, and as usual... The lecturer came late again. Always we waiting for him and not him waiting for us. Anyway, my teammates did not come at all. So i thought they skipped the lesson together. Damn them... Never gave me info to skip... After that, it was the usual lessons. One thing i learn is get close to lecturers to get build up relationship with them. But getting to know them will put oneself in dangerous postitions. I was nominated, with a gun pointing to my head, to be my module class representative. She kept enphasising that these people will get more General Points (GP). But max cap is 10. And she like give it freely every lesson, i think some of the noisy classes that pariticipated actively got like thousand over points. No matter what... Im still the unlucky one. As if i had not enough things to do on hand currently. Started on my project on the same module. Had some problems importing the data into the software. I almost killed my teammate as she forgot to close the other program before importing to the other software. Lunch came swiftly and go swiftly too. I met up with my teammates and we added some details into our presentation slides. Not long later... We went for our presentation. It was rather exciting. Not because this is the first time presenting but the first time presenting something that we did not do before. Totally new. No copycats. I think that is enough to elborate my point. Well... Everything works well and we did not have any major problems. After that, we seperated and i accompanied my ex-Treasurer to the club to take a look at things. Update ourselves on the happening of the club and also take some time off on the stress. Went home after settling on the stuff on hand.

The presentation was something that all of us are very nervous of. We did our best and we presented what we wanted the lecturers to know. Although at the end we got comments on our project, one thing that still pissed me off is the communications between my Supervisors. They are 2 sides of a coin. Although they are our Supp, they talk totally different things. Before the start of my presentation, one of them said not to put any diagrams in the presentation slides. After the entire presentation has ended, the other Supp asked us what happened to all the diagrams. We were like, '?!?!?!' Arghz... Both are good lecturers and both are helping us alot, but they do not seem to have the communication and the understanding of each other. As the leader of the group, im still kinda pissed at this point. 6 weeks have passed and they are still this way. Think the coming weeks, i shall only contact one of them. Don't know what they are trying to do to us...

Objective one met...

The Interview

Thank god my VP called me. If she did not do that, i guess im gonna be late. But i think she called twice. Cos when i picked up the phone... Well... Let's skip that. Brush teeth, wear my formal clothing and leather shoes. Boy, i looked like a businessman. White collar worker. I walked as if im going to Raffles Place. But... Im actually going to school to attend an interview test. Man... It was short. Maybe my interview wasn't that great. But it was shorter than my teammates. Kind of excited and dumbfounded at times. But i smoked my way through. Haha... Breakfast was all i think of after the test. Ate and went to back to lab to continue our presentation. Did up on our powerpoint slides and rehearse for the first time. Wasn't a really good timing. But we are different. We want to be different. Maybe the difference is scaring us. Ended the rehearsal soon and we seperated our ways. Had to meet up with some friends from Quests Inc. (an open adventurers club) to discuss about future events and where we want to do. Last minute and i was really tired. After the meeting, I went back home to rest and catch some shut eye. Had very little sleep the previous night.

Something that my lecturer told me after the interview:
L: Eh... Your position you are looking for is very high leh. You are just a fresh graudate and you want to be head ar?

Me: Not really lah. Since i want to do e-commerce stuff, dan that is the only one i can find. So might as well take it loh.

L: Next time when u looking for job, dun find such high level. Chances of getting it is very low for a grad like you.

Me: Okie... (Bloody hell... Fresh grad cannot be head la?!?!)

After he said that, i left the room and my friend went in for his interview. Did not have much to talk with him anyways. I don't really take this interview for real as my plans for the future is not to find a job after i graduate. I intend to finish my National Service (NS) as fast as possible and continue to study after that. After i get my degree, than i will search for a job. But i think my degree that im pursuing won't be related to my course of study now. But who cares... It's my dream and i live to dream. One day... Just one day... I will create a game that receives an award that is internationally known; Game of the Year Award.

Interview is sucky...

Happy Birthday SG!!

What a lazy morning i had. Woke up really late. Nothing much to rush so i did things rather slowly. Ate breakfast slowly, changed slowly and bathed slowly. All things done slowly. It is so relax to do things at my own pace. After that, i came back to prepare my presentation for my project. Did not have much concentration to do it. So i went for a swim. Man, the water is so damn cold. Put shivers down my spine. Swam and swam... Been long since i ever swim that much. A long bath was taken after that too. Played some games and totally forgotten about my preparations. But since did not do... Whatever la... Had dinner elsewhere as my uncle gave us a treat. Skipped the whole National Day Parade (NDP). After dinner is home sweet home.

A big congratulations to my country. My motherland. It is her 39th birthday and we are celebrating in style!! No more just simple display of stuff and such. But this time we had a sub event, the fireworks event or something. Attracted dozens of and dozens of crowds and people to see a 5 min fireworks display. Yes... 5 mins. I can see each of you reading this thinking, 'Haha... Stupid people.' Not to offend any of my friends that were there, but you should feel quite dumb to squeeze like crazy for a 5min fireworks display. No matter what... Still a very different celebration for the nation.

Onward and Forward...

Motivation Needed... Badly...

Late for lessons again... This time same as yesterday... Attendence taken at the end of lesson. Should have woken up at 8am, but a message shattered my dream. After shutting up the phone, i went back to sleep. A very bad mistake... In the end, woke up at 8.10am. ARGHZ!!! Rush rush rush... Arrived to class 15mins late. If that bus driver drove a tat faster... Maybe i would be 10mins late. Anyways, i continued my day. It was really boring. Feel so sleepy throughout the day. Almost fell asleep during lesson time. But held on to stay awake. After that was lunch. Had lunch with a friend from SCS. He came over to present and hold a roadshow for another event. One that i don't wish to be involved. Well... Since he came over, might as well play host and join him for lunch. Got him a cup of coke and talked about stuff. Told me how the his school operates and stuff. Had some laughs together too.After lunch, he headed to his destination to prepare for his roadshow while i went back for more lessons. Attended this lesson where we had no motivation to do our project. Sat there just to let time pass... Wonder what will happen to our project. Maybe that is the lifestyle of final year students. It eneded rather fruitless... But my teammates were like not giving a care. Maybe after sometime they will start to care. Went out of school to go for a haircut. Usually there would be a young girl, around my age, to wash my hair. She is very good at it. We even had common topics to converse. But today, it was a guy. I guess he is a trainee or a under-study. He washed my hair without much experience and had no courage to speak loudly. His voice sounded so timid. Maybe its his 1st day. But he is still good. Trained from a school, must be of some standard. My hair stylist came after the wash to fix up my messy hair. Same old style. She asked me whether i want to add colour to my head. I don't think i want to do it there. Its just so costly to get her to do it. Maybe i get my friend to help me. Wash, cut, rinse and style. End of haircut process. Proceeded back to school to attend a meeting. Even though i have stepped down, i still feel for the club. I guess there are some people still trying to add their influences in the club. Its a he. Just don't want him to take over from the MC. Maybe one day i should talk to them to get them to be more independent. Meeting ended rather late. So when we went back home, we had to squeeze our way into the public trains. But don't expect much from cheap transportation.

Man... If my project continues to be undone, nobody cares. I think im going to go crazy soon. I guess we have no motivation and we do not see a need to complete that project. One thing that i think is we need girls in our team. They are the menticulous gender and im sure the guys wont want them to get angry. Big mistake... Now our team are like lost sheeps. Wondering what to do and does not know what is happening. I think we shall get some people to do this project and some to concentrate more on other things. I may have to sacrifice here and there. Maybe less sleep and more work?? Its something i have to balance up.

I have decided to dedicate this to my club's current Welfare Officer. She today just got played out by the 'fake freshie'. Every year we have this happening to them. I knew of the trick so i decided not to get any of the contacts to call. In case im got hold of one of them. In the end... She is the lucky gal. Before they distribute, i was like thinking who will get played out. Didn't expect her to be the one. Hahaha....

Motivate me please...

Presenting a Presentation

What do you need for a good presentation?? Well... Tell you more when u continue reading. Was a very tiresome day. Woke up by my phone. It was 7.30am than... Since initial wake up time is 8am, i continue slping. In the end, i woke up late. So i went for lesson late again. But when i arrived, lesson not started and im not the one that is late. Im like early. That feels abit good. Well, lesson as usual. BORING!! In the middle, we had a test. Not a very good one. Did not put in my best... Guess the results will be not my best either. After the test, we are suppose to put our names for our timeslot for an interview test. So... Alot of things happened and then... Conflicts started out of nowhere. Than my team shatters into pieces of glass. Well.. The happy times were broken like that because of a timetable. It took some time for the pieces to glue back and form a nice piece of glass. As soon they settled their differences, we got back to our work. Had to redo our presentation slides. Tedious work, but somebody got to do it. Settled that once and for all. Went to town area to look at the clothing required for our presentation. Guys were simple, get a colour and style we like. Pay for it and go. For the girls... Well... They do the 1st and 2nd step more often than the last. I have to admit that makes them the biggest difference between girls and guys. Went home on a bus trip back home. Was a rather long trip, but it normal for us.

I had my team's presentation slides totally striked off for redo as what we did was not required. Was a little sad at the start and frustrated too. In the end, we had to summarise our points on powerpoint and present using speech more often. So we sat down, discussed what is needed and such. Summarise all your major points. When presenting a project to a client, make sure he understands what your system is and what you are doing. It does not matter whether the server has more than 200GB of space. All he wants to know is what the hell are you doing and what is the final product. So we have to summarise things. Listed is an example:


PPT slide:
- Member uses message system.

Speech:
our system will allow members to use our internal messaging system to send private messages to one another. initially, we thinking of just sending messages via email, but that will be out of our boundary. Also, a private messaging system will improve on the communication between members.

Well... If this does not help, i guess we might as well forgo our 10% on presentation and focus more on the programming part of our project. Maybe in life, presenting oneself and presenting is one important aspect in life. It is a life skill. Some are born with it, some are trained in it. With practice and perfection to errors, im sure everyone can present like a pro.

Training on presentation...

Brief Event

Try something new today. Don't write in paragraphs and i see what happens... If its nice, maybe i will adopt it.

Woke up and prepared for school.

Reached school early to do report.

Continued and finished up work assigned and undone.

Waited 'patiently' for my lecturer.

Lecturer came, she saw, she gave us good and bad feedback.

Had to wait for the next lecturer. Waited, waited, and waited...

Hate wasting time... Finally he came.

Checked and gave us a good and OK sign.

Relieved and somewhat happy.

Went for lunch near evening time.

Prepared for meeting at the SCS resource centre.

Went in late as other teammates were preparing for stuff.

Arrived at the centre around 30mins late. Bad... Real Bad...

Talked and talked. Response from the floor... Than back to talk and talk...

More talk... Once it ends, we scramble out of the place.

Went on to see where we can have dinner. None wanted to join, am i too unpopular??

Joined my parents for dinner later. Ordered coconut, sandwiches and an ice cream. ate abit of fries, salad, steak and cod fish.

Went home after dinner.

The Tertiary League

Another stressful day have passed. Woke up earlier to do my tutorial. Tutorial at 10, woke up at 8 to do. Spent one hour scribbling everything and all the answers. After that, just chuck into bag set off for school. Attended lesson as usual. Nothing much special excpet a lecturer now remembers my name. That is something normal for me, the more lecturers i know, the better is it. A gruesome struggle at my project work today. Another bomb was dropped at me. Consulted 2 lecturers that were good in that topic. Was really stressed as it felt like we cannot do anything right. It sucked. After we explained our logic to our Supervisor, he said its okie as its alright. We were like worrying non-stop for 1.5 days. Distributed the job to the others and i went off. Left early as i need to go for a meeting with other poly members. Meeting was rather fruitful. Had a result out. Have to present our idea tomorrow. Hope i have the energy to present and make the presentation a good one. After i ajourned the meeting, those that need to go left. The remainder stayed back to have dinner together. We talked, laughed, joked and even share experiences. Maybe that is the good part about meeting people from different polys. Met this gal from NP, she is very tall. Taller than me!! Maybe one day i have a picture taken with her and you can see the height difference. But she looks good. Skinny and good. Furthermore, she lived quite near me. Its just a few blocks away from me. I wonder, we live that close but we never got to see each other before. Seperated from her at our train station.

Today was one of the meeting of the main polys and the advisors of the previous event. Im the Chairman of this year's event. A position which is does not have much things to do but have alot of responsibilities to carry. Im considered the leader of this event. The Overall In-Charge. I am glad that the other polys are helping out extensively. Today's meeting have made me seen a good response from all the Polys. Made alot of new friends and from there, i get to know about their school and how their school works. Its like a league, all polys would come together and plan out a major event. Furthermore, my mind is not all the time about this event. Once awhile i will come back and review what i am going to do. What are the things to be done. Its a very taxing job but someone got to do it. Maybe all this hardwork is going to pay off. I'm sure in the near future, im going to see some achievements in putting effort in this team.

Preparing for presenting...

Nomination Day 04/05

Woke up with a purpose today. Go school for lessons but i skipped the 1st lesson. Just couldn't wake up in time. So i hurried and did my stuff and dashed out of the house. Went to school as fast as i could to get to the next class. Good thing by the time i stepped in, the lecture had just started. Something to do with the audio/visual stuff again. Maybe that stroke of luck made me not to miss a single lesson. Anyways, today was electives day. Every wednesday is electives day. We just went for our electives and did nothing for the project. Had lunch with my project mates, not all but 2 of them. After lunch, i went to the nomination booth to nominate a clubmate to become the next Treasurer. Was abit chaotic like the previous time. After that, i went back for lessons. Had to settle on a business plan and submit the proposal to the lecturer for checking. A tough job with little resources. Didn't enjoy the lesson much. After that, i went back to club to continue the nomination of the new Main Committee(MC). This time it was even more chaotic... All hell broke loose... Had to do alot of proposing and secondering(not sure if there is such a word). After that i rested my mind in the club. Soon after, my sis called me and i rushed to meet her up. Halfway through, i met an old classmate. Tapped his cap to say hi, but he gave me an unfriendly gesture and walked away. I understand maybe he and his gal got into some problems. Maybe... So this time i forgive him. Whether he says sorry or not, i won't pursue the matter. Board the train and met up with my sis. Went to this IT mall to look for a printer. She needed one so i was her advisor. After that, we went over to another shopping mall to have our tea break. She bought a bowl of soup and shared it with me. Soup was great. Kinda full so we went around and talked. Tired after some walking and we took a seat facing the sea. We talked about everything. Its like i have not seen her for ages. After that, i began to feel hungry. Than i wanted to eat dinner before going home. So we went to the nearest Burger King. After dinner, we boarded the train and went back home. Upon reaching home, i saw my dining table with leftovers of dinner. Mum said i have to finish as much as i can. So i took my for and spoon and finished what i could. Take no prisoners was what i usually do with food. But this time,. some POWs will be locked up in the fridge where they will suffer the cold turkey treatment.

Today was nomination day. Official day where the new MC will take over from us and improve the club further. No one wants to see the club at a stagnant mode. But i have faith in this new committee. I feel that this committee will do what we cannot do. Correct what we did wrong. Improve on the things that were done. Finally, bring ICT club to a higher level. BRING SPSU DOWN!!! CONQUER SPSU CLUBROOM!!! MUAHAHAHAHA! Hope they learn from their mistake. They have been through planning stages together and i can feel that they will be together for a long time. They will remember the days they are together and the momments of agony they will be going through. This is how the club life is about. Once through, they will be bonded even closer and they will make their friendship as solid as titanium.

Godspeed to MC...

Get Ready, Get Set, Die!!

What a way to get things done. Finally, a day i wake up not to the sound of constuction. But to a very very weird dream i had. Tell u more later... Did the usual stuff and went school. Attended this lesson where the lecturer taught us how to tackle issues such as interviewing, resume writing and etc. The lecturer is trying very hard to keep the lesson humourous and intresting. Kept citing examples of his friends. One momment his friend is a lady, the next momment he is a male. Then he changes back to a lady. We are like laughing real badly each time he starts another example. Well, at least he tried to make the lesson less boring. After the lesson was back to proeject. Spent the rest of the day there. Think about this... Its 20 degrees and im like directly under the air-con's mercy. To think i have another 13weeks more to endure. If by the 4th week im still unable to adapt to the environment, i guess im going to get my winter gear to school. After school was nothing much, went home feeling lethargic and tired. Went for my scheduled run. Realised that running around wearing a shirt and shorts are a common thing around here. Its like so common, i guess its the trendy wear in my neighbourhood. Jogging, checked! Next, a cold bath, dinner, project and sleep!!

I was running. Escaping from some place. Around me are trees, big big trees. At the back, i heard screams of 'There he is!' and 'Get that boy!!' I ran, keep on running. Until i stumble over a ledge. I went over the ledge and starting falling.... Falling... Falling... Fell on top of my pillows and blanket. That is how i woke up this morning. I really wonder. What does my dream means? Why am i escaping? Where am i? It ran through my mind and i had to keep wondering this amazing dream i have. I know i like adventure, but escaping and being chased like an escapee is not my kind of adventure. My kind of adventure is exploring places unknown and conquering mountains and seas. That is my kind of adventure. Furthermore, i don't look like a boy. Im a man. Im nearing my 20s. For god sake, i old enough to be called an adult. What an insult by calling me a boy. Do i look that young?? What qualities does a man have that i don't?? Okie... I guess im getting harsh. I hope tonight when i go to bed, i will continue my dream. No more running, no more escaping, no more LEDGES!! Give me a horse, a panther, a tiger... Anything... Heck, even a donkey. I will be contented to be riding on such beasts.

NO MORE RUNNING...

P.S. I know how to ride a horse. So please, give me a black stallion.... And if not, please don't give me a talking donkey.

How Miserable Can This Be???

Another monday has passed like this. Just don't like mondays. Woke up not feeling refreshed but rather feeling more sleepy. But i had to carry my heavy body and prepare for school. Brought my bag and stuff, took a bus and headed straight for school. Started out nicely, but had a long discussion with my supervisor. He was once my lecturer so i know how to speak to him and how to explain to him so that he will understand what we are doing and where we have err. He told us alot of things, alot of things we missed out during our discussions. One thing he said that made me realise how much he have seen in his life was this; 'The more you discuss, the bigger your problems, the closer you are to your goal.' But i realise the more i discussed, the bigger the problems, the closer i get was more stress. Maybe stress comes with the goal. Furthermore, i have fallen to a sickness. My arch-enemy. Flu. Did not enjoy the feeling of blocked nose and coughing. Ate medcine after lunch. Felt groggy after 1hr... Than, after i finished all i had to do. I took a short nap. I was out  for 15mins. It felt like an hour... So after that, i waited for my classmates to end their project timing. We went to see I, Robot. A very futuristic show. Find it rather unbelieving to see robots doing so much of our work and we just take them for granted. A very intresting story about creators and creations. The show was nice, but the cinema wasn't. It sucked... After that, i left my friends and took a bus home.
 
Maybe im not getting enough rest. Maybe not enough sleep either. Furthermore, i have been in a lab that pumps cold air like crazy. Its freezing in there... I guess im getting weak now. As weak as a sapling, like a helpless chick waiting for the wolf to gobble it. This flu is not a kind of sickness where i rest and eat medication will get well. But it will stay with me unless i really take care of it. Been feeling like a weakling. Sometimes i do not wish to appear this weak in front of my friends. I want to the the strong person that they will look up to. I guess its time we change sides. Time for me to get weak and get sympathy from people. Must get well. Must stay strong. Must fight on and never give up. My will to live is stronger than the strongest metal found on earth. I will survive and not only survive, i will come up and knock down all my opponents. Just wait and see...
 
Preparing final blow...

Complicated Life

Why must it always be the construction workers?!?! What done is done, just hope they hurry things up and leave ASAP. Went to school in a groggy mood. Thought i would be late, but the lecturer was the one being late. His lessons uaually drag in the middle and rush through at the end. So usually its like turtle speed in the middle and lightning speed. After that, i went for lecture again. It was back to back lessons. No rest in between. After the lessons, i had to meet my lecturer to settle some admin stuff. Had to update him on the things that are going to happen to the school. Im in-charge of a major event involving other schools too. So it is better to keep him informed and updated. So a short meeting was held with him. Parted with him when it was over and went over to the clubroom to take a look how was things there. Did see quite a change. People were more rowdy and more noisy. Girls were more open and allow any of the guys there to touch them. I wonder... Are we getting somewhere like this?? So anyway... I continued my day and left the clubroom. My Treasurer and Logistics Head left early. They asked me to join them but i declined. Went home soon after...
 
Why does life have to be so complicated? Do we complicate things or things are just that complicated when we were born. Have you ever thought that if they did not invent the computer, we do not even have the internet and we do not need to study about technology. But if we do not invent or innovate such machines, our lives would be a total mess. A simple sending of mail may take up to more than 3-5 days since there is no automation and mails have to be hand sorted Sometimes i wonder why life cannot be simple. Simple as in no worries, no stress and no sadness. Everything would be done together with friends. Talking to friends would be face to face rather than just reading words and seeing emo-icons. We wont be wasting time watching TV or playing games but rather spending time with family members or neighbours and entertain each other. I think that would make our relationship stronger. This is my kind of simple life... My expected kind of life.
 
Change of lifestyle...

Where were you??

Woke up to the same sound as yesterday... CONSTRUCTION NOISES!!! Can anyone please stop them or make them reduce those noises?!?! When i go NZ, i have to pay a very special kind of tax. Noise Tax. Maybe i have to write to the GRC and maybe the construction company will give me some compensation?? Anyway, i continued the day. Washed up and prepared for school. Went school to start where i have left off yesterday. It was a long day, had to do work with only 5-6 hours of sleep. Not enough rest... Just have to plough through and fight on. Spent almost 7 hours in school to do all the work. Had breaks in between but those breaks were short... Not enough for sleeping. After work, i went over to get the photos. From there i went home. Stressed out and tired, bathed and rested my brain soon after.
 
Yeah... The title says it all. Where were you?? Where were you when the world stop turning? Where were you when the world have fallen on me?? Who cares... Who cares about lowly me? Maybe when im down with a sickness, than will people turn to me and say they really care about me?? Maybe i am bed-stricken than people will show come kindness and ask for how am i today. Why do i have such sad thoughts? Im not sure... Maybe its life playing tricks on me again. Another obstacle i have to climb over, another hole in the road i have to get over... Whatever it is, it is stopping my life. Preventing me to be myself. So what do i have to do to get this obstacle over? Im not sure, i do not know what will remedy the situation now. But i do hope i get myself back on track as soon as possible. Don't wish to stop here for long.
 
I am waiting...

2 Weeks have passed

2 weeks of school have passed. I realise that my stress is getting heavier and heavier everyday. Furthermore, i had a ultimate emotion bomb dropped on myself. Woke up to the sound of construction. Damn construction workers. Can't they work quieter... Popped out of bed and went into the bathroom to freshen up. Went directly to school. Spend the whole morning there. Did not do much as i had to bring them back home to complete. After the morning shift ended, i went over to photo developing uncle. Gave him a disc that contained pictures that my dad took when he was in Portugal watching the Euro Finals. Man... Each piece is 40cts. And the pictures are 117!! 4-5 days of overseas can get so much pictures!! After that, i went back home. Missed the days where there is a good book with me while i sit on long bus trips. Reached home and started drawing all the diagrams for my FYP. Very tedious work, but somebody got to do it. Here and there i took some break. Had this urge to drink but to think i would not control my mind fully made me shun it. Ate dinner at home, alone. Had canned hot dogs and instant noodles. After that i went back to work again.
 
Some people say relationships are a game that involves 2 person of different sex. They come together, being happy and leave each other when the happiness ends. Another version is love is just a fling. You either like being in one or you do not have the privillege to have one. To me, i think relationships are very personal stuff. It goes deep into your heart and show feelings that you will not show to others. You find someone you can be really comfortable with. Show all your care and concern to him/her. But sometimes, these relationships just cannot continue. Some reasons are you get bored of your partner. Others may feel that they are not meant to be... Either way, it will leave a deep scars on the heart. To me... This has happened for a few times. As times goes by, the scars get deeper. Some tell me these are experiences to keep so that you will not repeat the same mistake. Some say these will fade away when you have meet your life partner. I do not know which is true. But all i know is... These scars are going to be with me for the rest of my lives. Heard this on a show before... 'If you look back on this sadness, it comes after all the happiness that you have experienced. You would not feel this sad if you did not feel that happy at those times.'
 
Back being single...

Bangin' Against The Wall

What the hell happened to the original posting?!?! Doesn't matter, as long it post nicely i don't care how it looks. So i continue with my daily blog. Woke up early so i can go school early, but in the end had to bring my Grandmother to the wet market. Accompanied her to walk around, learn some tips and tricks to select groceries. Where and how to get the premium vegetables at cheap prices. After that, i brought her home and went on my way to school. The skies don't look that good when i walk to the busstop. Even waiting for the bus the sky is still alright. But as soon as i board the bus, raindrops start falling. Since my bus trip is only 10mins, near the ending, it rained ultra heavily. So i called my groupmates and told them my location and situation. Had to sit at the busstop for 30-40mins. Waited till the rain died down than i continued my journey. Did my project for the rest of the day. Keeping getting stucked at one corner. It was really demoralising but we had to slog through whatever is thrown at us. I even volunteered to re-read some of our past modules so as to finish 1 big part of the project. Man... Self-inflicting stress on myself. Furthermore, today is the day i have to be responsible of the notebook we loaned. It is so heavy!! Like carrying weights walking around. But it does not matter anway... After we parted, i went over to club to rest awhile. Had to accomplish a task set by my Treasurer. After that, i went to meet my VP. Had a 'short' and meaningful conversation with her. She brought her cheesecake and i had the privillege to eat it. Quite nice, maybe its me cause i like cheesecake alot. Also went shopping with her. She wanted to get a VCD. So we walked about and finally she got it. Paid for it and left the shop. Continued to walk around as she wanted to get a pair of earrings. But i advised her that if she spend on that pair of earrings, where is she going to save up money?? In the end, she did not buy and decided to save up on the cash. Accompanied her to the busstop. Hey, at least im a gentleman. Right? Of course, no need to think so much. As soon as seeing her board her bus. I left the busstop and proceeded to mine. Went home in a long bus trip.
 
FYP... The final trial of the Poly days. But its like so diffcult. Keep banging into walls. Hate this feeling. Its like you want to advance but you just can't. So in the end, its like wasting time cramming ur cranium solve something that is too sophisticated to even start out in the first place. ARGHZ!! Its even affecting me when im away from it. But sometimes i wonder how the other previous groups did this. Did they meet the same problem as us? Maybe we doing something that is not our area. Something that is totally new from our course. But we are a group that always want to try new things. Maybe this will be a challenge to us. If we overcome this challenge, to put in our group language, 'Wah... I level up liao.'
 
Stress is bad...

Long Long Day

A long day have passed and i feeling really really tired. Morning attended a lesson late. Not sure whether my attendence is taken or not. After that, a lecture of the same module. The lecturer told the whole class she saw me day in day out but not sure who i am. Finally... Im famous!! After that, i continued my day by doing my FYP project. Had to borrow our notebook by today else we wont be able to get it anymore. So i took sometime to go over the place and get the notebook. After that, we came back and continued our project. Had alot of deep discussions and such. Finally we ended the day and went back home to rest.

Helping people is how i live my life. During my younger years, i will never lose an arm or a leg to help another person. Whether the person is familiar or not. Until the day i met my 1st love. She helped people all the way. She would go through everything to help others in need of help. After breaking up with her peacefully(yes, PEACEFULLY), i learn that helping people is actually very fulfilling for me. When people is in need of help, all they need is a glimmer of hope that somebody will hear their cry and come to give them aid. For me, if i feel that i can only see and hear but cannot do anything. I will feel helpless. One thing in life is to be happy and do happy things. Helping other people and seeing them smile is happiness for me.

Always there 2 Help...

Official Leave from FYP

Today is deemed the official rest day from my FYP. Since everyone is busy from their chosen electives. So after school, we would not meet up to do project but rest from the hustle and bustle of FYP life. Nothing much happened today other than the usual school life. Had to go through boring lessons and still survive to stay awake. Proceeded to my driving school to attend a practice session for my theory test. Went with my classmate since he is going to make a booking for his theory test. He taught me the way to take busses there, very confusing and hard to remember. Maybe i consult him again on the buses to take the following day. He went on to book his test while i continued my way for my practice session. While queueing up for a computer to be assigned to me, i saw this gal that i used to give advice. Remembered her cute face and lovable smile. At first i could not make out her face as the room was rather dark. So i just took a peek once awhile... Caught her looking at me too, maybe she recognises me as the idiot that gave her advices on promoting the school courses. Anyway, she left earlier so i had no chance to walk up to her and maybe chat her up. After that, i took a bus back home. The bus trip was rather long, 30 mins trip. Singapore is so small, and i had to take a 30mins bus trip. At least its much better than my usual way, the latter had to switch transport which is really troublesome. But i sat in a seat that gave me a really good time eveasdropping on a pair of gals from their secondary school. They were talking so loudly, i did not need to concentrate much to listen in to their conversation. They were discussing what they did wrong or right in their exam papers, what they will do after they finish their secondary education to donating 3KG of blood. I got some laugh and some entertainment while on the boring bus trip. But they dropped off early so i had sometime to think through what they discussed. Not long after, i pressed the bell and alight to walk home and have a good rest.

Hearing those 2 gals talking about their exams and such really makes me think of myself when im in that stage. Guys will sit in a group and discuss about our dreams and ambitions. I once told my teacher that i want to create a game that is made in Singapore but played everywhere in the world. That is my dream. She just gave me a very discouraging sentence, 'There are so many games in this world. Why would you want to make another to add on?' I guess she is still in the era that gaming would not be a profitable business. Who cares?!?! As long my dream is fulfilled, i do not care even if the President says my idea sucks. But to think i was in their position when im their age. Looking at them makes me feel that i have alot of experience and can advise them on their next step. But i realise i did not consult anyone when i receive my 'O' level results. I just let my dreams take over and see where i can go to fulfill them as soon as possible. Maybe that is why i ended up doing partly business and partly IT. Now, i have long term goals too. But my goals are not even near my dreams. Maybe my dream will be fulfilled one day. Maybe it will be fulfilled by my children. I'm not sure... Like what some of my friends like to say, 'let nature take its course'.

Dreams become Reality...

Extreme Exhaustion

Still feeling the aftermath of yesterday's outing. Feeling very lethargic the whole day. Start the day by going for a class that teaches us how to write resumes, take minutes and tackle interviews. Spend three hours in a lab that cannot see the screen well. Really sucks to go school and pay so much yet cannot see screen. After lessons, we went for our lunch break. Ate little and went back to our respective com labs to continue our project. Had to slog through work and alot of stress is built thinking of expressing ideas into words. Took breaks in between to freshen up before continuing. Left my groupmates early to meet my financial advisor. He told me and reccomended me a new kind of savings plan where i put in a sum of money monthly to save for long term. But for the short term, im able to take out some money here and there. Alot of math and calculation to be done before i commit to deal. First barrier i have to go through is my parents, they ARE my finance department. So we met and talked like 30mins. After that, i went to collect my photos. Had them developed last week. Since over the weekends had planned activities, had to drag till today to collect. Finally, got to see all the photos i have taken in New Zealand. After that, it was home sweet home to rest and recuperate.


What the hell has happened to me? Why am i so weak? Why i did to make myself so tired? I really have to review on yesterdays' events and see what made me so tired. Luncheon with lecturer, LAN gaming and a steamboat dinner. I still wondering what made me so tired. Am i getting old or am i losing grip on my concentration. Maybe its time i should get some tonic to boost my energy. Any ideas?

Energy boost needed...

Last Minute Outing

Had a really lazy morning, even had a thought of not going to school. But in the end, still crawled out of bed to start my day. First stop was school, met my groupmates to do our FYP project. In the next 4 months, my blog will mostly contain things about my FYP. It is because it takes up alot of my time!! But we did not do much anyway. My lecturer in-charge met us early around 11am for lunch. The school gave each student $5 for an outing with the lecturer. As long there is an outing, it does not matter whether we spend fully the amount given to us. So we had a lunch buffet at a restaurant located in the school. The food was quite good. We had quite a spread, roast beef, satay chicken, fried asparagus with garlic, etc. Our highest hit from the buffet table is the cream puff. Its like enlightenment when you pop one into your mouth. After that, we went back to our labs to continue our FYP project. Did a little bit and went off to join the other classmates for a class outing. Wasted like 20mins thinking of where to go and what to do. So in the end, we splited up into 2 groups. A group of gentlemen and another group of ladies. The ladies went for a Karaoke session. A very long session... The guys, we went over to pool saloon and enjoyed a game of table top ball games. After that, we moved to another location to play a round of LAN gaming. Had quite some fun and really enjoyed my time there. After that, both groups got back together. We wasted another 10-15mins deciding on where to eat. So after alot of discussion and thorough thinking... We decided on eating steamboat and BBQ at Marina South. Feel very funny that we took Monday like another normal saturday. Played and enjoyed ourselves like nobody's business. To add insult to injury, we are all doing our FYP. How 'stressful' that is... Ate, drink and took photos till late. Had to share a cab with 3 other friends to go home as we are all too tired to take other forms of public transport.

Logically speaking, this shouldn't be the way. What i expect today was a trip to Johor Bahru. I even brought my passport to go pass the Customs. In the end, it was striked off and we had to replan on the spot. Not my kind of class outing where we seperated ourselves into 2 groups. Do 2 different things and join back again for another event. I rather we plan one big event, spend the whole day there and do everything togethr. At least everything.... As im sure when you have more than 10 pple, its very difficult to get all to participate in the same event. But this outing have brought me closer to my other classmates. We have joked and laughed and really crapped everything under the sun. Even though im like not really the fun kind when it comes to studies and lessons, they accepted me as their classmate and their friend. They don't punch me, scold me for fun and disturb me like they do to the others. But i can see that when im with them, they would ask me along and they would think of my well being. Very happy to have them as classmates, even happier to have them as friends.

So very tired...

Return of the SuperHero!!

1st week have ended so fast. Five days of school have finally ended and im now waiting for the time to go into the weekends. As i wait slowly, i shall dictate my events today. Morning was really cool as the early morning had a slight shower. Good thing i brought an extra piece of clothing. The lab that i was using to do my project is freezing. It was rather slack as we are in the weekend mood and most of us are not really in the mood of doing the work. So we just spent our time doing little stuff and really is just organizing work to the others. After that, we seperated and went our own ways. A couple of us went over to our classmates and discussed where to go for our class outing. We decided on going across the Causeway. Going to the state to enjoy our time there. But i wonder, will we tire ourselves out and be unable to attend classes the next day? Who cares man?!?! Left them and followed my Treasurer(yes, she is my group mate) to the club. She had to settle some finance paperwork. So i follwed her around and accompanied her everywhere. After that, we helped our friend to sell popocorn. It was placed in a transparent cup and the popcorn is soft. Not really nice... What do you expect for a big cup of popcorn for 50cts? Left my Treasurer in the club after that because her main motive is to settle the paperwork and wait for someone, someone special. Went over to my friend's place to develop photos. He is an elderly that have been in the photography biz for like 30years. A very friendly and nice guy. Handed over 4 rolls of film. He look at me shocked and ask me whether i want it in 1 day time. I told him to take his time and i will get from him as soon as he finishes it. After that i receive a call from my VP. She is meeting me to collect some stuff she left with me. Was actually wanting to walking around and see what have changed, but i guess the only thing that change was my event timetable. So after putting down the phonecall, i quickly took a bus and went over to meet her. Passed her everything, had a conversation over a cup of lemonade. Waited for another friend so that we can go catch a movie together. She came just in the nick of time. Left my VP and went to the cinemas. Went to watch Spiderman 2. A great movie, quite good storyline. But i guess the sequel is alot more about his lovelife rather than his battles against the enemy. After the movie, i brought her to the nearby food centre to have dinner. Since its quite late, most of the stalls are closed. Had to settle for a small selection of choice. Ate and chatted. Had a good time with her. Got to know her even more. Went back home together and seperated after i reach my stop on the train.

Are human beings always changing? Why do people get together today, talk and laugh till tomorrow but shun each other the next day? Can we have like a group of friends that we will always stay together forever? I guess that will be always a fantasy. Life will be ever changing. Some of my friends can even forget about me. Am I that unpopular to not stay in your mind? I guess us humans just see what is important and who are close to us at the momment. The other friends we will just meet once awhile. Maybe friends that are close to us currently will help us to accomplish tasks on hand easier. My childhood friends are really not that close. We ran all around the neighbourhood and enjoyed our time together. Will never forget the times we had. But now? Im going into my 3rd year, one of them is studying in the 2nd year and the other is going army or at army now. Went into Boys' Home(juvenile type of prison) when we were still in High School. Time have really changed us.

Power of time...

My Ultimate Dream

Today don't have the feeling of blogging. I shall keep it short. My dream is to create a world-class game that everyone will play and enjoy. Know that it is made in Singapore and make Singapore known to the world as another hub. A gaming hub.

Showcrap 2004

Really a busy day today. Woke up early for a lesson that starts at 9am in the morning. Went for lessons for the whole day and atteneded a talk. Today was rather special. It was my school's showcase. Showcasing 100 best projects and assignments done by our students. Get to see alot of different projects and works in the labs. The talk was rather boring, about all kinds of security for IT. Didn't knew that IT needed so much security. Maybe the more its being researched, we must spend the same amount of time and money to think of ways to keep it secured. Maybe there is an untapped market for another kind of IT security that is not discovered yet. Let the future unfold itself and we will see. Club was where i went after everything ended. Met up with my clubmates for dinner. Somewhat like a farewell dinner for our Main Committee in the club. Went to Fish & Co. for dinner. Ordered 2 big dishes and 1 small one. Even though it was like quit alot, but i did not fill my stomach fully. Guess im a big eater at night. I do not wish to elaborate any further as it might hurt the other's feelings. After that, we took some photographs using the camera i brought. Went over to Plaza Singapura to grab a couple of drinks. Walked about the complex and talked awhile before heading home. Reason: some of them are tired and one of them needs to work. So i went back with one of them, boarded the train together. I dropped off early. Since i was still hungry, i went over to a nearby coffeeshop(eatery equivalent) to have some food. Had indian rojak, if i have the time i will explain what this dish contains. Rest and watched TV at the coffeeshop and headed back home soon after.

Today was the day where ICT students get to show off thier projects to the rest of the world. All the best projects were put on exhitbition. Looking at all these, i realise that the school is actually trying to sell thier students to the industry rather than wait for the companies to buy them. So i wonder... Are they trying to make sure that their top students get a job ASAP when they graduate? Or are they trying to seperate the good students that are good at these projects and the rest that are just an average joe? Than i wonder why in the first place we all study the same poly, the same course and get the same diploma when we are marketed differently? I guess the school is making a name of themselves and hoping that the industry is mainly hiring SP students. I guess when you are a private tertiary institution, you have to think like an organization sometimes.

School admin sucks...

Day 2 of Torture

Okie... I admit, the title does not fit the entry. But its the truth. The whole truth. Nothing but the truth. Woke up early to attend a driving lesson. Had lots of dun driving a car. After that, i went back home to rest and eat. Updated my portable MP3 player before heading to school. Started everything from scratch. Had to plan the system layout, the users and what they can do or interact with the system. Sat there to finish the job until late. The process we had laughter and arguments, but we had things done. The way i see it, we are progressing rather good. So we ended late, had food late. Before i started my FYP, i had a message from my VP. She came to school for a meeting. So i promised her i meet her after my meeting. But in the end, we never met up. Her meeting ended quite late. Therefore i went on my own to continue my day alone.

With great power comes with great responsibility. This quote comes from one of my favourite comic hero, he is fast, strong, swings around the concrete jungle and is extremely agile. Yes... He is Spiderman. For his case, his powers are to be handled with great responsibility. So for a lowly person like me, what is my great power? Does that mean i do not have a great responsibility to handle? I have been taught of responsibility since i joined the Scouts in my secondary school days. Every action i do will have a little responsibility to handle. Im trained to take responsibility no matter how big or small. So does that make me a responsible person? Can people believe that im a very responsible person? I doubt so... I think that you must be given a great power before you can think of the great responsibility.

Responsible to oneself...

1st Day of School

Today was the first day of school. For some, it is the start of their Poly life. Some, continuation of their Poly life. And some... Well... We can't seem to get out as soon as possible. Had to report to school early for a briefing. In the end, the lecturer was late. What the hell was i doing so early in school anyway. But it was a good way to see all the course mates in one room. My group got together once more. We ate breakfast together and talked about our holiday stuff. Met my friend that went overseas for attachment. Not much change but still a good friend. After breakfast, we met our PTN. He is a lecturer that is in-charge of our FYP. Hope we have a good time with him. One more thing, the school Administration Department had a hidcup or something. I was robbed of my innocence. Last week i checked my timetable and i was in 3A/01. This morning i checked again i was posted to 3A/02. And i booked my driving lesson way before. So i had to skipped lesson today and attend my driving lesson. What a way to start the 1st day of school, skippping lessons. After that, i went back to my father's office to help out. Spent the rest of the day there.

School have not changed much since we ended 2 months ago. I guess i have been going back to school for so long i don't really notice the difference. Just last week, i went back every single day. But all i know is that the whole school(not the entire institution) is covered by posters. Posters of 'ICT Showcase'. Im like in so awe... But i dun have the feeling of exhibiting my wares. And the feeling of skipping lesson on the 1st day is not what i wanted. Maybe that is how Mondays should be...

Getting stressed soon...

L is for Lonely

Woke up really really early... Actually to see Holland crash out of the competition is really not very entertaining. But the soccer match is really exciting. Continue to sleep for awhile and wake up later to prepare for school. This time i went straight to my school instead of going to the clubroom. The students are scrambling to get to thier classes to retrieve their cans and prepare for thier voluntary work outside. We just assisted in crowd control and guiding lost sheeps. After that, i went out with my VP, Treasurer and Logistics Head for breakfast. Ate duck rice(duck meat with rice and cucumbers). My VP require to withdraw money to pay for her mobile bills. Since i'm more close to my VP, i brought her to the bank and we went together. She PASSED me her bank book for safekeeping. So after getting the money, she paid for her bills. She kept complaining that she is getting broke. But im sure she have another source of 'income'. Went back to school to discuss about the future posts of our club. Settled on the people and continued with our day. Went back to our school to help out in the fund raising. Sort out the coins and the notes and such. Had quite fun and tire ourselves out. In the end, we went out for dinner together. Met another guy from another club. So we ate Long John Silver for dinner. Had a filling dinner and rest and laughed out loud. Literally... Had the whole restaurant looking at us. Near the end of the day, we left the restaurant and took the way home. My VP had this sudden craving for ice-cream. So we had ice-cream and she bought one for me. Maybe for owing too much, she repay me by buying me ice-cream. Why... Why not other things but ice-cream... Haha... So we ate on the steps of the biggest shopping centers in Singapore. Ice-cream finished we went home straight.

Getting lonely soon... As the time ticks away, we the seniors of the club is seperating our ways. Half of us is leaving school for Internship Attachment(ITP). The other half is staying in school to start our Final Year Project(FYP). Im actually gonna miss the days we have together and hope that time stays still and not move. I do not want to gradutate that fast. I still want to have fun. Fun of just planning and organising events. Fun of participating in events and making lots and lots of friends. Fun of just enjoying and not care what will happen tommorrow. That kind of fun is leaving me as we speak(or read). But i think it another way, at least i used to had this much fun. That means i did not waste my life in the club. Something to comfort myself. Somthing to keep in my heart... Always...

Lonely not forever...

Leave Another Day

Not been blogging recently... Due to the stress level im having and the activities im involved, im getting exhausted very fast. Today was the continuation of the FOP week. All of us club members are tired but we can see that we did enjoy the activity together. Hardwork and all will pay off. Only some things can be applied on that but im sure this is one of them. So today was just to let the Freshmen get familiar with the computer system in our school. So there is alot of obstacle here and there but we got through all in the end. I even have to lead lost sheep back to their classes. A tiring job, but somebody got to do it. After that, i had lunch with my VP, Treasurer and the upcoming club member. Had quite a good conversation and a satisfying lunch. Been 2 months not eating at Foodcourt 6. After that, we went back to MLT 12 and dismissed from then. Most of my clubmates went home or went out but i stayed on with my VP and another 2 more clubmates. Brought one of them to the Police Department, to report on a lost radio. We didnt went in so we waited outside. Since he took quite long, we went our way to get some chocolates and i went on to back some cash. Man, am i unlucky or what. I've been using the cash deposit machine for 2 years and this is the first time i get a jammed machine due to my notes. Are my money that rough to jam a machine? I had to make a report to the lady inside the bank and wait for my money to be deposited the next morning. Went back to meet up with my friends and we went to get some chocolates for the FOP. After that, we went to a coffee shop to get some R&R. Ordered some drinks and food to accompany us. Had a great conversation with one of the quietest member in the club. He did quite alot in the FO camp and was really not noticed. After that, we parted as the others had plans for the evening. I went to my one of my buddies place to retrieve a Harddisk (HDD). My club's HDD. It went bonkers or something. After that, i headed home.

Finally, we can put all our worries and handover the control to the next batch of clubmembers to inherit the club. I don't really have somebody in mind to like put in. Usually the previous post holders will propose someone and everyone will vote for it. I don't really have the power to veto any votes and propose somebody for the posts. What i can do is, think whether is the person they choose up for the post. Are they mentally and physically ready for all the work that is to be done. Are they able to handle the stress that comes with it. Im not in the position to say this much but i wonder... Did the previous batch, my seniors, thought of all this when they chose us? Did that thought ran through their minds when they were doing the voting? I, myself, is already thinking so much. I wonder what is on the minds of the post holders. Are they as worried as me? Maybe its the feeling of finally finding another 'home' to belong to. Long time ago, left a 'home' i spent almost 6 years there. Been finding another place to belong to. After really feeling like 'home', i realise its time to move out and move on again. I have a sense of belonging to the club and i don't feel like leaving. Maybe that is why i don't understand what my seniors told me when i met them. Never have feelings with the club, its like a relationship. It's filled with happiness and lots of other emotions when you are with them. But once you are about to leave, the sadness and grief starts to creep up on you.

Place called 'home'...

Another Busy Day

Woke up 9am sharp. Had breakfast and watched some TV. Missed local TV. Played some games on my PS2 and enjoyed the music on my PC. Planned out my day and set off during the early afternoon. Went to the arcade to splash out cash and get some serious entertainment. Its been awhile since i visited the place. Saw one guy playing a game and sat there like forever. I think he have spend so much money and time on that game till he memorise the whole gaming environment. I left the arcade and went on to get a haircut. Kinda hate my hair, not that it does not look good. But it grows back too fast. My friends have a haircut like 2 times a month, i do it once a month. And im like paying so much for each haircut. To maintain a short and neat hairstyle maybe that is the way to go. Ate lunch quite late, and proceeded to attend a meeting with the Singapore Computer Society (SCS) members. My clubmate joined in the discussion. Did quite alot of planning and discussion and went on for like very very long. Went our own ways soon when we ended the meeting.

Recognition in the society. Will anyone know about me, Koh Aik Keong, when im in my 20s or 30s? Will people talk about me when they have no topic to talk about? Will there be more people knowing me dan me knowing more people? That is what went through my mind when im travelling around today. Our Prime Minister, sure everyone knows him. But does he knows me? That is the most important part. Myabe not all people like recognition, some people like to do things without getting any recognition. They just like to help and be happy. Im sometimes the former and the latter. I like to do things so that people can recognise me and say that im the one that did this, im that famous guy that did that. Also, i like to do things that no one ever knows who did it and thank the nameless. I not sure why i feel like this... But getting too recognise is also a problem. Eg. A SG man won $250K in 'Who Wants to be A Millionaire' gameshow. 2 weeks later, some guy went to find him to loan him $50k to pay for his medical bills. More and more ran after him for money. So is that good or bad?

Recognition: Good? Bad?

I'm BACK!!

After 10 days on unblogging, i realise my blog have lost a lot of content. I'm not sure how to summarise the past few days but i just try. Went to New Zealand for a holiday trip with my relatives. Toured the towns and cities, they sure know how to live and use their excess land. Driving around the country, i have seen countless cows, sheeps and horses. Guess they are a country of westerners with a living style of the countryside. After ariving back to Singapore, i went back to school for my club's Freshmen Orientation Camp(FO). Helped around as much as possible, didn't knew what was happening so i just crashed through and put my thinking on my feet. Almost went into the point of exhaustion, but realise that if that happens the camp might not be complete. Really appreciated my seniors to come down to help or take a look around the camp. I still feel kind of unhappy that the Year1s took advantage of using people that are there. A long story and a sensitive issue. I really do hope my seniors forget about it as soon as possible. And lastly, i do hope my Year1s learn something out of this camp. They the organisers have been under alot of pressure and i do understand the feeling. I am in their shoes once. Planned for a 'club bonding' camp. Alot of hardwork, blood, sweat and tears(no tears actually...) is put in that camp. After the whole camp, the organisers realised most of their mistakes. I believe in 'Learning by Making Mistakes', it's a sure win effective way to learn life skills.

After so many days of not sleeping home, i actually missed my pillow like the last few times i went overseas for long. New Zealand was fun, but the living costs and the transportation costs are very high. Especially in the Capital city. I ate lunch in one of the towns and just see whether how long i can survive there. You do the calculation.
(Conversion -- SGD 1.15 = NZD 1):

1) Net use in the internet cafe is charged 10mins $2, 15mins $3, 30mins $4, 1hr $5, subsequent hour or less are charged $2.50. And the 1st 2 mins are free.

2)A plate of a burger, a small portion of salad and fries cost $9.50. Curry beef and rice cost the same amount and its not spicy, just curry powder, milk and beef to make the curry. Burger King meals are charged at $6-7 for a normal meal. But the good thing is free flow of drinks.

3) Parking in the Cpaital City, 1hr $4. In towns, 1hr $2.

Just see the exhorbitant prices there i'm kinda shocked. Maybe its just our currency not strong enough to go against the NZD.

Lastly, i want to emphasise the bond i have with my clubmates. After a year of planning, organinsing and executing events, i have a bond with them. I really feel like a family when im with them. Even though we have our ups and downs, we went through it. I can feel the bond with them and i can see that we care for each other. I get to be called a molester, a pervert, a sex maniac and a whole lot more. The names don' hurt me, but the i feel that we got closer when they did that. Just today, i saw the most tounching scene in my life i have dedicated to the club. My clubmates, my best girl-friends, they on the spot dropped a tear or two infront of me. Im like... 'Arghz!!! 1 girl and im crazy, 3 girls together!!' Im a sucker and a loser when girls cry, just cannot take it when a gal cry. The highest ranked weapon ever wielded since the creation of the 2nd human being. I go weak when i see this...

Lastly, i want to end this long summary by saying thank you to the 5 beautiful ladies that gave me laughter, sadness, anger, watever feelings that is noted in the dictionary. Had an amazing time with them. Never a dull momment. If you ladies are reading this. I would like to say thank you for all the help, care and concern you have given me. I will treasure the times with had and i will always remember the 5 gals and a (perverted) guy.

Thank you all...

Finally!!

Its been 2 days and 3 nights since i last blogged. Something happened to the blogger server machine. So the history on that few days will not be recorded here. TO sum it up, i did 3 main things:

1) settle whatever important stuff on hand
2) met up friends to catch up on old times and drink like crazy
3) preparations for my trip

So nothing much happened anyway. Other than im afraid that my passport cannot pass, my sis and her friend are worried that i might not come back after my trip, my club's FO trial run and im missing the action and finally my VP getting sick. Praying all the while for her being well. So currently now im doing the final preparations. Waiting for time to tick away slowly before my flight. Another trip, another adventure...

I really wished i could go overseas every holiday season. But usually when i go, i have this feeling that i won't be back to see all my friends again. Just difficult to describe the feeling but its something that has haunted me since my secondary school days. I still cannot figure out why im so afraid when im an adventurous and risk-taking idiot. Im used to surviving alone, i wonder why am i so afraid of that. Maybe that is my deepest fear. Fear of the disability of getting home. If that ever happens... Maybe i have to learn how to survive at the place.

Miss my friends...

Singapore Fake Idol

Another normal day like any other holiday. All it starts with is boring. Had nothing much to do in the morning. Used the com to search some songs to download. Spend the whole morning downloading stuff. Even downloaded a movie, Shrek 2. After that, i went to buy lunch. Had prata again. Watch TV while eating. Nothing much is on free TV, so had to tune in to cable. MTV channel is the most entertaining during noon time. Lots of non-stop hits. Went back to room soon after and watched the movie i downloaded earlier. Shrek 2 ended in 1.5hrs time. Went swimming as there was nothing much to do. Bathed and watched The Simpsons again. One of my favourite cartoons. After that, i changed and went to Clementi to enjoy a session of Karaoke. Ate and sang and enjoyed myself. Made some new friends there, even sent one of them home!! Haha... Actually she is living nearby and we shared the cab fare. Went home straight after her place.

During the weekends, SG Idol registration opened. There are actually people queuing up before the day to submit their registration. Are we Singaporeans really that naive? Do we really think we have what it takes to be a star? I admit that is one way to gain your ten seconds of fame, but queueing up overnight for registration? I mean just look at some of our local singers. Ah Du is a construction worker, Sun Yanzi is a normal girl that graduate from our local university. Tanya Chua used to sing at pubs. They are now international stars. Neither needed any queuing up to be talent-spotted. Okie, maybe your singing is good. But that does not mean you will enter the real judges audition. Im sure out of these few hundreds, there will be bound to have some very good ones and some... Well, William Hung must have influenced them badly.

Waiting to fly...

A Badminton Game

Nothing much happen today too, other than buying stuff for my club and playing badminton afterwards. Yah, these are the two major things that happened today. Morning woke up to the sound of construction work. Those machinery sure knows how to make a ruckus. Ate breakfast soon after and packed my bag for the game later. On my way to school, i went to the nearby hardware shop to get some tools and a canvas sheet. The auntie was really nice. She gave me a discount on everything that was bought there. So after the shopping, went straight to school. Met the Treasurer and Welfare Officer there, they were doing some admin stuff. I had to proceed to the SALC (a place for free access of computer) to send a final edited version of my FYP. After that, i joined the rest for lunch. Since going to have a game later, i decided to have a energy enriched banana. I wonder what is so funny eating a banana... But im used to the mysteries of life. Had a game of badminton with my clubmates. Played really hard and sweated. halfway through the game, my skinny sista came over to find us. She asked us whether she and some friends could use the our place for some souvenir thingie. Borrowed the keys from my Treasurer and she used the place till we were back. Rested for awhile and talked about stuff for the FO (Freshmen Orientation) camp. Went home after the game. Stop by the same hardware shop to purchase some nuts and bolts and a spanner. Preparing to repair that trolley in club. Handing over the club have to keep it in tip-top shape, that is the least i can do.

I liked and dislike holidays. Liked, being free and easy. No stress and no pressure of school work. Dislike, being too free and easy. Cash strapped as entertainment outside in the city is not cheap. But holidays don't come easy. They are considered hard-earned. After months of slogging in school, studying and planning for events. I guess its the government way of giving us a break. Lets face it, during our secondary school, we are sent to school so much earlier than the normal workers going to work. Even we go home earlier than normal workers, we have our high speed, high paced life with extremely stressful living to survive. Wonder how did i ever survived that. Anyways, im looking forward to my trip to New Zealand. Hope after going there, everything will be back to normal.

Holidays are nice...

Thinking of thoughts

Nothing much happend today. Whole day was spent at home, almost the whole day. Morning woke up and had breakfast. Soon after, chatted with my VP. We talked awhile before she left me just like that. Kinda stunned and stumped. So i continued my day. Played some games, catch on some of the old games that i used to love and devote myself. Near the evening, i went for a swim. Water was not cold, it was kinda warm... Maybe the air caused the water to be warm. Hate swimming in warm water. Bathed and came back in time to catch another episode of The Simpsons. My favourite character: Homer Simpson. Looking how stupid and fat he is, why does he always have such good luck. Go check out the Simpsons family. A queer family that usually come out good. After that was more games and playing. I played until i discovered some bugs. Guess im too devoted to the game. After that, i chatted with my frens and while the night away.

Usually when i have nothing much to do, i will keep myself in deep thoughts. I will think of alot of things. My future, my dreams, my friends, my close friends, etc. Alot of things goes through my mind and gets processed. If i ever got the chance to blog all that goes through my head. I think i will fill up the server soon. Haha... Okie, that is too much. But i like thinking. Silently my mind will conjure alot of imagination and fantasy that will only live in there. Hopes and dreams will visualise only if i strife for them. Past memories and experiences make me wonder why i never experienced them earlier to prevent such a mistake. Thinking why friends react such a way during such situations, learning from their correct moves and mistakes. Sometimes its tiring to think so much. I respected once of my Chinese Language teacher (the only one i respect anyway...) when i was in secondary school. He told me, if you think more than you do, you will achieve great things.

Thinking is tiring...

Vesak Day Celebration

Another boring public holiday. Day where life goes on without any surprises or motives. Started by having breakfast at the West Coast Park (WCP) Macdonald's. The place was spacious and very comfortable. I always liked WCP, for its serenity and calmness. Usually the crowd will gather during the weekends and public holidays. So today is no different either. Had to queue up long for food, and the search for a place is bloody difficult. Anyway, breakfast was kinda like a mad rush. Not really enjoyable. Nearing the early afternoon, my parents and i seperated. My dad complained of neck strain and stiff shoulders. So he went for a massage. Ask for my comments on which shop is better... Im like com'on, do i look like visit such parlour? So i followed my mum to the grocery store. We bought our monthly neccessities. Yes, monthly. Each time we go there, we will fill the trolley to the brim. Once we even filled up two trollies. So we carried the stuff back home by the mid-afternoon. Reach home, unpacked all the food and stuff. I continued the day by sitting infront of my monitor. Talked with my VP the whole afternoon till she logged off to rest her eyes. Keep posting her fun facts that either made her laugh or made her disgusted and scolding me crazy. But its facts, as if what i told her are lies. During the conversation, we even shared links on what designs for our blog. But in the end, i realise i rather stick with the old one. Can't even solve my own problem of putting links on the blog. Played games till my uncle came over. He brought me the 3 episodes of LOTR. I guess soon im gonna have a marathon of LOTR. Anybody want to join me??

Im still wondering why holidays are still so boring. Only holidays such as Chinese New Year, Christmas, New Year's Day & public holidays that falls on a Sunday. Why the last one is so special? As the Singapore Government had set in donkey years time, if a holiday falls on a Sunday the following monday will be a holiday too. Thats why i like such holidays. But TV is getting more and more cheapo. The news have just finished announcing who won the Ms. Universe and they are showing the pageant. Isn't that killing thier viewership?? Anyway, Ms. USA is a real blonde, dumb looking blonde. Ms. Aussie is B-E-A-U-tiful!! I would like to get 'down' and 'under' with her. Haha... But i guess, its just the way how cable TV earns thier money. If we the younger generation, the generation with the most spending power, cannot be attracted to TV. I wonder where will the advertisers go after? Retirement folks that got their CPF and have nothing to spend? Hmm... I wonder...

Faithless in TV...

Brand New Day

Have quite a good time today. Well... Not much enjoyable as its suppose to... Woke up early to meet my frens in school. Had to plan for an event. Ate before leaving school. Then, i left my friends to join another gang. They were meeting for a movie session. The people is not really the group i hang out with, therefore my main motive is just to catch the movie. Met them a little late as i left school late. Met them soon after... But the situation is that im more like a porter, as one of them after the movie have to rush off for camp. Carried her bag and walked towards the cinema. In the end, even my most dependable friend is taken away from me. I had to bear the loneliness. We did talk later after the movie, but it is because the other ladies are in the toilet. But i appreciate it much. They suggested to go Fish & Co. for dinner, but i just cannot afford. My money are trapped with my Treasurer. I therefore had to leave them. But telling them that i cannot afford and such, and also my reason to leave is that the ambiance is not right. Good food must be enjoyed with great friends. Wrong combination as my VP said it... So i left early and went home to drink my Grandma's soup.

Keeping one's word. I realise that what you say may not actually be what you do. You can say one thing, but do the other. My dad says us guys must be a man of our words. What we say, we must be able to do. Even if you are not able to fully do it, at least try and reach the goal. I dislike people that say one thing but does the other. Its really no point when there is no trust in your words. Rather that you eat back the words than just saying it out for the sake of it. Action speaks louder than words. I can admit that i dun use words to express myself well, but my action are my true self. If i give a girl, a bouquet of flowers. Im really intrested in that girl. That is my true self. I realise i studied so much yet my use of words can never be put to good use.

Please Forgive me...

Heartland Shopping

Had to drag myself off bed to prepare for the day ahead. Wash up and changed into outdoor clothing. Packed my bag for a shopping trip and a badminton game. In the end... We just went for a shopping trip. 1st stop, the girls went for lunch. Paid for their drinks. Maybe they will repay me later with better stuff?? I think im dreaming. After that we start our shopping. Went to the pharmacy to buy first aid items. Had a budget to follow, kinda tight so we had to really make sure our money are spent fully. Next, we went over to the neighbourhood bookstore to get some shuttlecocks, white paper and some colouring pens. After that, the club needed a new fan. The big kind with a big propella that really gives alot of blowing power. So we went to get one for the club. Carrying such heavy stuff, we went back to the club to unload the stuff. After that, we went over to Turf City. The gals, VP, Logistics Head & Treasurer, never went to Turf City before. Since my previous job was there, i brought them over to have a look around. The starting wasn't really nice as they had to wait for the bus. 30mins interval, my VP began to feel bored. Written all over her face. We board the bus as soon as it arrives and reach TC by the late afternoon. Walked about and took a look around. Since our motive is to get some masking tape and raffia string (plastic ropes), but the masking tapes were too expensive and the raffia string was damn small. We gave up on TC and suggested to follow my VP advice. A shopping centre near her place sells handicrafts and stationery cheap. Continue walking about and bought some food to fill my Treasurer and myself. After that, we took the same ride home. Seperated ourselves when we reached the train station.

Today was not a long day. We spent some quality time together. I realise that i have spent alot of time with them. My clubmates are more than friends to me. Now they somewhat my closest friends i ever have. Other than the biker friends, they can be considered my second closest friends. Heck, i spent more time with the latter compared to the formal. But sometimes they neglect me, keep secrets from me and form outing among themselves that i will never know. But i understand. They do need their gal time too. Somethings i just don't fit in even im too used to female company. Sometimes i don't think that way. I look at the situation in only one way. But i always look things on the positive side. Even death have a positive side. When looking at these positive sides, it made things alot more acceptable and enjoyable.

Friends arn't forever...